#there seems to be this idea that nonverbal communication is somehow lying???? which confuses me so much
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what's with the weird neurodivergent superiority complex going on recently. that makes me uncomfortable.
#i get maybe wanting to feel better about yourself in a world that is really difficult to navigate but like. dude.#you communicate differently than the majority of people and that's okay but that doesn't make them bad people. you just don't get it.#there seems to be this idea that nonverbal communication is somehow lying???? which confuses me so much#'just say what you mean! be honest!' they are! they're just communicating in ways you don't understand!!!#if you want to keep your perceived moral high ground here you shouldn't run to twitter and write a 🧵 about evil neurotypical gaslighting#you should just say to this person 'hey i don't understand nonverbal cues and i need you to be really clear with me about how you feel'#you're welcome!
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Thinking Out Loud (Part 4)
Okay, so I ended up lying. This is a few months late to the cross-post from AO3. (Link here) But in any case, here it is if you prefer to read on tumblr.
Previous Chapter (tumblr link)
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You woke up slowly, feeling heavy from a deep, dreamless sleep. The apartment was eerily quiet aside from a faint scraping sound repeating over and over. Your psychic “hearing” took a minute to focus on the three minds in the other room, but once it did, you were overwhelmed by the internal conversation Eddie and Venom were having.
“I LIKE THIS FEMALE. WE SHOULD OFFER OUR PROTECTION TO HER. ”
“I don’t think that would go over well. Remember the last time we were tased? ”
“SHE DOESN’T HAVE TO KNOW. ”
“Consent is important buddy. Not to mention we don't wanna freak out the tenants either."
Lauren's thoughts were more structured--she was writing her words down and concentrating on that communication. However, that didn't stop her from sneaking glances at Eddie and sizing him up, trying to guess details about his life and personality. Currently she was sneaking glances at his biceps...for some reason you really didn’t want to dwell on too long.
"EDDIE, I HEAR HER," Venom whispered to his host. Like, actually whispered; his mental voice was somehow quieter than usual.
“She’s awake? That was faster than I thought. She seem ok? ”
“I THINK SHE’S LISTENING IN. MORSEL, IF YOU ARE, GO AHEAD AND KEEP RESTING. WE WILL OCCUPY THE COLORFUL FEMALE .”
The last two words were accompanied by a mental image of Lauren with an intense focus on her vibrant hair and current choice of large earrings. You also caught the tail end of a thought that was very distinctly non-human and carried traces of a predatory desire to grab the shiny, colorful things. Eddie’s thoughts quickly curbed it--a nonverbal suppression that Venom agreed with.
You slumped back into the mattress, turning your gaze inward as you stretched and assessed your body.
You were a little sore, especially in your chest. The hyperventilation from the panic attack really did a number on you it seemed. Your hands also felt a little stiff in the joints, but it didn’t hurt to move them.
Panic attacks didn’t always end up hurting after the fact, but it wasn’t wholly uncommon. Fatigue was usually the worst aftereffect, your body struggling to recover from your survival response to an imagined threat. It sometimes went away after a good sleep, but today was going to be one of those days where the heaviness settled into your bones and made even the smallest tasks far more tiring than they ought to be.
The once-over complete, you decided you were up for leaving the bed...but not the blanket, which dragged on the floor after you like a fluffy train. You gently pushed open the door and poked your head out, peering at the kitchen down the hall, catching sight of Eddie's leather jacket at the corner of the table.
A jolt of nerves coiled in your stomach and you pulled the blanket cloak around you a little tighter. With Eddie and Venom’s attention focused mostly on Lauren, their thoughts didn’t reflect what they thought of your panic attack. What if they thought you were pathetic? Or too fragile to be around? What if they had never seen a panic attack and thought you were somehow sick?
“EDDIE, SHE’S UP. SHE’S IN THE HALL. HER BREATHING WENT ALL FUNNY AGAIN. ”
Venom’s rumbling thoughts broke through the returning panic spiral. With effort, you stepped out from the hallway and into Lauren’s line of sight. Eddie caught your gaze, brow furrowed, but before you could properly react to him, your landlady took up your view.
Lauren looked you up and down, appraising your condition. While her face seemed only lightly concerned, her thoughts were at war: her motherly tendency to worry battled with her desire to give you space and the noverbal clash of feelings was giving you secondhand mental whiplash.
“Do you need something to eat? Or drink?” she signed. You replied with the sign for water and she bustled off to fill a glass.
“So, uh,” Eddie started, then paused, looking for the right words to finish his question. He finally went with: “How are you doin’ right now? Did your rest do you any good?”
You nodded and sat next to him at the table, reaching for the notepad he and Lauren had used before your arrival.
I’m achy, but otherwise fine now. Mostly.
“YOU WERE HIGHLY DISTRESSED. DID SOMETHING HAPPEN? CAN WE STOP IT FROM HAPPENING TO YOU AGAIN? ”
Venom’s concern felt...oddly directed. He didn’t fully understand what had happened and Eddie’s explanations hadn’t entirely cleared up his confusion. He was under the impression that someone had threatened you or you had some logical reason to freak out. He wanted to find the source of that stress and remove it, like pulling out a thorn.
Mindful that Lauren would probably read whatever you wrote down later, you set about composing your explanation.
It was a panic attack. Sometimes there’s a reason, but most of the time, I start thinking about something stressful and it gets so overwhelming my body reacts like I’m actually in danger.
Eddie and Venom conferred briefly about your explanation and suddenly the symbiote had a new question. You felt your gut twist as you felt the guilt his thoughts now carried.
“DID WE DO THAT TO YOU? DID WE FRIGHTEN YOU OR STRESS YOU? ”
Again, you were careful with your words.
It wasn’t anything you directly said or did. It was more about the prospect of being in a social situation at all. I don’t go out much, so I started overthinking the minor details. It spiraled really quickly from there.
Lauren put down a tall glass of ice water on the table in front of you. You signed your thanks, put down the pen and gulped the cool liquid, savoring the relief it brought your scratchy throat.
“How long was I asleep?” you asked Lauren.
“4 hours.”
“You’ve been talking to Eddie for 4 hours?!”
“He has to write really slow for me to read it. His normal handwriting is too messy. Plus, we took a lunch break.”
Lunch break?! You snatched the pen back up.
I’m so sorry I had to miss out on the lunch. You wanted to show me something and
Eddie’s hand intercepted yours, not grabbing it but rather gently holding you back from writing any more. It was only a moment of skin contact, but it made a jolt run through you and immediately snagged your attention.
“Don’t worry about it. Honestly, I’m just glad you’re ok and gonna be getting better. We can reschedule if you want. No problem.”
You instinctively glanced up, looking for his thoughts. You found nothing but sincerity from Eddie. Venom was....well, you weren’t actually sure what he was thinking. On a surface level, he agreed with his host, but underneath that there was some lingering frustration. The symbiote had apparently been really excited to show you something and this forced patience wasn’t entirely sitting well with him.
You carefully moved Eddie’s still-hovering hand and started on a new line.
What about the stuff you wanted to talk about? You wrote, uncertainty and guilt still gnawing at you.
“It can wait. Seriously. My buddy wasn’t even really ready to show off his new trick; he gets excited easy.”
“I SPENT ALL NIGHT PRACTICING! I AM TOTALLY READY! APOLOGIZE! ”
“You’re ready, Vee, but it’s my hands you need if you want to show her in public. And it’s a little soon to invite her to the apartment. ”
“SHE’S ALREADY BEEN TO THERE. I DON’T SEE WHAT THE HOLD UP IS .”
“Those...were extenuating circumstances. And besides, it was more you than me that brought her there. In any case, she’s still getting to know us and I want her to get used to us in public before we do any of your other ideas. ”
It was amazing how quickly they could turn the conversation internal and how much it resembled a verbal discussion rather than truly sharing thoughts. Was it because they knew you were listening? Or was it just their natural state when switching from direct talking to others to each other?
Eddie caught sight of you looking and gave an awkward smile.
“Sorry to keep secrets, but--”
He was interrupted by a ringtone blaring from his jacket. He sighed heavily and snatched his phone.
“It’s my boss. I got an interview in an hour. Sorry to say that I gotta run. I’ll text you later, so go ahead and take it easy for a bit. I’ll leave you to your landlady’s care.”
He waved to Lauren as he answered his phone, turning on his heel to leave. Venom mentally grumbled but gave a nonverbal farewell directed at you. You stared after them long after the door closed, uncertain what to think.
Lauren sat next to you and started signing.
“Well, now I know why you called him a hot mess. Emphasis on the hot.”
You hated how fast your cheeks flushed.
#venom#venom movie#fanfiction#fanfic#reader#venom x reader#selectively mute character#deaf character#hybridwrites
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