#there r no words to describe the anguish i felt reading this...finishing this fic all that time ago

[siriuslygay1981]

MY ROMAN EMPIRE!?! YOU WANT TO KNOW MY ROMAN EMPIRE!!!???

'Despite what he had said to Regulus, he wishes he had told Barty he loved him, even just once.'

' I'm really sorry we only got to love each other for three seconds'

“He didn't leave any note, me and- Me and Everly wrote it.”

'Perhaps it’s the sound of the knife clattering to the floor that finally makes her realise, that Evan is never going to reply again.'

'Eventually Barty learned to live again, he learned to go to class, learned to breath, learned to eat, drink, sleep, all of it; but he never learned how to love again.'

[jungk0oksthighs]

OKAY! HI again! I’m pretty much going to be spamming and blowing up your inbox with countless messages and rants and moments of me just going GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER ENOUGH WORDS TO SAY HOW MUCH YOUR WRITING MEANS TO ME AND HOW IMPACTFUL IT IS!

Funny thing is I started reading your masterlist with Pi Gasu but somehow I ended up ranting about the stories that followed BUT. BUT. Every single story of yours deserves nothing but endless praise and compliment and for me to weep over your masterpieces in the way that moment when A R T moves you. Because that’s what your writing is. ART.

I remember starting this story a while back before it had as many chapters as it does now and I remember going WHEEEEEW because it was such a new dynamic to read, of vampire and blood donor but also RECENT PHOTO FOLIO VAMPIRE JUNGKOOK HELLO?!?!? AND?!?! ALL THE OUTFITS YOU’VE DESCRIBED WITH HIM ARE ALREADY BURNED INTO MY MEMORY SO SEEING THEM IN THIS FIC MAKES ME A WHOLE NEW LEVEL OF FERAL. Because VAMPIRE Jungkook is wearing them; and that makes me SO SO FERAL

I remember reading this and being blown away by the sheer cocktail of FEELS happening in this fic and yet again experiencing visceral, raw HATE for the mother in this fic who just uses her daughter as a means of money but constantly gaslights and undermines and POISONS HER WITH ROSE-THORN and GRRRRRRRRR

Because I understand the terminal illness of a child on ANY parent must be such a struggle and pain and especially a long-term condition wears down on a parent– there will never ALWAYS just be sadness and grief, there’ll also be anger and misery and RAGE that it’s unfair which I understand… so I tried to keep an open mind. That got shot down RIGHT AWAY with the piece of *censored MULTIPLE swear words and curses* she is. Because no child should EVER have to feel guilty or ashamed of being healthy and well whilst another is sick. Because life doesn't choose to burden one child with illness and keep the other– ALTHOUGH THAT TURNED OUT TO BE INTENTIONAL AND PART OF THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS WHICH MASTERMIND BECAUSE!! The idea that her death will complete her brother’s transformation… that her enthral, her siren blood DRAWING IN the vampires– in particular Jungkook… OOF. JUST OOF. new level of achy angst BECAUSE SHE WAS READY TO DIE.

I also have to say your DIALOGUE in this fic was like OTHERWORLDLY tier because there were so many moments I thought… I stopped and paused and ached as I processed the words… because they just struck DEEP. There were so many pieces in the story where I thought– I’m coming back to this and I’m going to write this down. There’s a genuine MASTERY you have with words that truly RESONATE and haunt and LINGERED in my mind long after I finished devouring this story.

I can’t remember the EXACT exact words but. When Jungkook says in his entire time of being dead, he’s never felt so alive.

THAT ACHING BREAK POINT WHEN HE SURRENDERS WHEN SHE TRIES TO KILL HERSELF. The way he begs for her to never threaten to take away the thing that was forcefully taken from him...that the ACHE of her killing herself, of valuing her living so little...HURTS HIM

THE MOST HEART WRENCHING MOMENT WHEN HE SAYS HE DOESN’T HAVE A SOUL BUT IF HE DID IT’D BE HERS.

WHEN THOSE RAW ACHING MOMENTS OF PASSION AND PAIN WERE SO ACHY TO READ that I could feel every instant of their need and want and that unravelling restraint ESPECIALLY because he’s a vampire and she’s human, especially because there’s that whole FIERY dynamic of her pleasure-heavy blood making him ADDICTED, because that moment when she feeds on even a DROPLET of his blood– IN THE KISS to stop her from being physically hurt because he’s that strong…

THE FACT THAT SEX could physically and literally BROKE her…. The dialogue and WEIGHT of emotions in that description. Like it felt like a new level of carnal, primal ACHE between them and was a new level of feral I reached… but. But there was also this physical anguish and pain to understand love in a way I haven’t EVER, EVER heard it being described. It was new and haunting and BEAUTIFUL.

Because love in this story KILLS. It breaks, it batters, it bruises, it HURTS so viscerally, so deeply… it physically BREAKS her and SHE TURNED AT THE END (THANK GOD FOR THAT) but the idea of how poetic and rawly you described love as this consuming destructive force that ANNIHILATES. That love is this deadly DANGEROUS force and yet– when you fall, if you fall, it consumes you entirely.

I CANT WAIT to see how the transformation works in the next chapter, I can’t wait for her piece of shit mother to rightfully FUCK off and I can’t WAIT to see how their dynamic develops because it was the roughest, rawest description of sex– and yet now that she’s changed I wonder… I do…

It’s way overdue because Pi Gasu was the first I read– but the last I commented on… but I felt I NEEDED to get all the feeeeels off my chest AND vent and GAHHHHHHHH

Thank youuuuuu for writing such art🥺🥺🥺

And for sharing it too xx 💜💜💜

Oh my goodness gracious me @purplebeebs this is one of the most memorable messages I’ve ever received in terms of reviews! Thank you so much for taking the time to send FOUR HUGE MESSAGES in regards to my writing! I’m floored rn!! Thank you so so much!! 🥹😭

PG is definitely one of my favourites to write for! I really love the fantasy genre and I think it’s something that I would be very interested in writing more! Shoutout to my fully planned siren fic that will eventually see the light of day hehe. Just… thank you so so much for your kind words, I’m genuinely speechless and quite flabbergasted right now 😂🥰

It’s such a compliment to be told something you write sticks with someone and that’s something that I’m not gonna forget! Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, not only for reading seemingly all of my fics hehe but for taking time out your day to go into such detail in these messages! Truly I’m flattered! There’s so much more of PG to come!!! We’re only just getting started hehe, thank u thank u thank u I owe you my life sweet angel, you’ve made my night 4 times over tonight and genuinely you are so so sweet. I’m so grateful you found my blog and like my work!!!! Sending you so much love and positivity!! 💜💜💜💜