#there is a lot of things that he couldve done but he was struck with the sentiment that never leaves unfortunately

[autistickfigure]

maybe BOB is kind of cupidlike. i think he could do that.

[fiftyshadesgrl]

Ive had enough

The hunt was going pretty well in my book. We took out the vamp nest with little injury. Sam probably had some bruised ribs and dean had a gash on his leg from being thrown through a glass window. I had a slash on my thigh that would require a dozen stitches but nothing to serious.

Dean had been quiet the whole drive back to the motel, even when me and sam were engrossed in conversation. Dean whipped the car into the parking lot and threw it into park. He opened his door and jumped out slamming it behind him.

"Whats up with him?" I asked watching dean walk back to the trunk.

Sam shrugged, "beats me." Sam got out then and carried his bag to the door, unlocked it and walked in. I opened my door and limped to the back to grab my bag, dean suddenly grabbed me by the elbow.

"After you get stitched up, we are going to have a talk." With that he grabbed his bag and walked into the motel room. I struggled a bit with the heavy bag but i made it on my own without any help. I dont know what dean was talking about or why he wanted to talk to me. I really dont know why he was angry with me in the first place, i saved both their asses back there.

I sat on the bed groaning as the burn in my thigh intensified. Sam walked over and knelt down in front of me, "let me see how bad it is." He tried to look at the wound but there was no way to see it with my jeans still on. I unbuttoned them and slid them down my hips as easily as i could, but when they rubbed over the gash i hissed in pain.

Sam helped me pull them all the way off, then inspected the cut that was probably five to six inches long. The blood ran down freely, sam grabbed a gauze and pressed against my thigh causing me to hiss out in pain again.

"Sorry, youre defintely going to have at least a dozen stitches maybe more." Sam said standing up and walking to the bathroom. He appeared a minute later with a big first aid kit.

Dean paced back and forth, he was acting like a caged tiger. "Dean, could you please..ya know. Relax." Dean glared at me when i spoke so i held my hands up in defense and let it go. After that he went to the bathroom claiming he was going to take care of his leg and take a shower. Neither sam or i questioned him since he seemed so on edge.

Sam was finishing the last stitch when dean appeared from the bathroom. "All done." Sam said patting my good leg, "im going on a food run, everyone want the usual?" Sam asked grabbing the keys to the impala. Me and dean both nodded, sam walked out the door leaving me and dean in awkward silence. I grabbed one of deans shirts and hobbled to the bathroom. "Gonna grab a shower." That was all i said as i entered the bathroom and shut the door behind me.

Dean was still sitting at the small table in the room, i walked over and took the seat across from him. I drummed my nails on the table waiting for him to start talking. After a few minutes of silence i sighed in frustration, "dean you said you wanted to talk. So lets talk."

He stood up and grabbed a beer from the small fridge and slid it across the table to me. "Thanks." I said twisting the cap off and dean sat back down in his chair.

"You were careless today. Youre lucky things wasnt worse than what they were." Dean said all of a sudden making me shake my head in confusion.

"What are you talking about dean? I think it went pretty smooth compare to other hunts." I said placing my hands on the table starting to drum my fingers again.

He scoffed, "you call that smooth?"

I furrowed my brow thinking back on some other hunts that we did that ended up alot worse. "Yeah dean, i do. I mean you didnt even need stitches in your arm. I had to have a few and sam will be sore for a while, but it wasnt bad."

He glared at me, "and why did you need stitches? How did you get that big gash on your leg?"

What in the hell, did he really forget? I was becoming more confused by the moment. "You know why. The vamp was coming after you,, and sam. I gravbed your machete off the ground and jumped in front of you at the last minute and cut the blood suckers head off. Before he fell to the groud he got a lucky hit in on me, it couldve been worse."

"Exactly!" Dean slammed his hands down on the table making me jump. "It could have been worse. You dont think i couldve took out that vamp before it got me? You carelessly jumped in front of me and risked your life. For what bragging rights?"

Now it was my turn to be pissed, "bragging rights!? I saved your ass back there, and dont pretend you wouldnt have done the same for sam or me." He rubbed the back of his neck, knowing what i was saying was true. "Whats the difference dean? We are all hunters and we know how this life ends for us, today just wasnt my day."

He growled and walked towards the window looking out. I didnt know if he was looking for sam or just trying to avoid me. I sat still, waiting for him to make the next move. I was right and he knew it.

I didnt think he was going to continue this conversation but after a few minutes he softly spoke. "Ive had enough."

That was all he said but he stood stock still. "Do you want me to leave then?" I asked in a whisper. I hoped not because i loved the boys and i loved my life. Sam was my best friend and a brother i never had. Dean on the other hand held my whole heart in his hands. He could crush me by his next words and he didnt even know it.

I held my breath seemed like forever but it was only a few seconds before dean turned to me with unshed tears on his eyes. "No. I dont want you to leave. Ive had enough of losing people. Ive had enough of people i love sacraficing themselves for me." He walked over to me kneeling in front of my chair. He took my hands in his and looked up at me with pain in his eyes. "You and sammy are all i have left. I cant lose either of you, i know you saved me back there but you could have been killed had the vampire struck before you did."

I took one of my hands from his to place it on his cheek, "dean, im fine. I know it scared you i could see it in your eyes. You just have to trust me and my instincts."

He nodded his head, "i do trust you. Youre one of the best hunters out there. Yeah it did scare me, to see the woman i love lying on the ground and blood soaking your clothes. I thought it was so much worse and when i found out it wasnt that bad i was pissed. Not at you in particular but at myself. For not protecting you."

I smiled when he said he loved me. That is what i had been waiting all these years to hear, but i understood where he was coming from. I felt the same way about him. Every time he got hurt it felt like a knife being jabbed into my heart. "I know how you feel. Everytime i see you hurt it kills me, but i always know we have each others back. I cant make you a promise that i will never do that again because i would be lying. Anytime you are in trouble i will be there to help you or go down with you." He smiled up at me and i kissed his lips gently before pulling back. "We fight together and if and when the time comes. We will go down swinging. Together."

@an-unhealthy-obsession

@vicmc624

[transvioletbaudelaire]

mia’s slippery slope thots

brianna @knight-of-vfd asked for my grim grotto thoughts and that reminded me i didnt post my slippery slope thoughts. spoilers but this is mostly incomprehensible anyway

part 1 (9/10)

- You had me at “teleplay by daniel handler”

- kit is sporty and i love her

- the caravan sequence thanks

- violet & klaus arguing? emotional? do you really want to face our parents without sunny? THANKS

- “we’re at a crossroads” “it’s more of a fork”

- what the fuck is up with klaus’s hair

- auntie brucie daniel handler said womens rights

- violet “no we aren’t the baudelaires” baudelaire vs klaus “we werent EXPELLED” baudelaire pick your fighter

- kitana turnbull is a lot

- sunny and fernald :/

- “absinthe” ok flannery culp okay!

- i only watch network television

- violet..... if one of our parents is still alive. which one............do you think it is.. that really ouched me louis hynes oscar when

- dylan kingwells voice cant decide what pitch to be i guess

- “hasn’t anything terrible happened to you?” “we would rather not share” OUCH

- esme gigi ge

- “the quagmires? That was a long time ago”

- When lemony made it sound like he was gonna bring up the little snicket lad during the spider bit they had me in the 1st half ngl!

- the scene transitions in this ep are jane the virgin level

- it was always going to break my heart but mother? father? Really broke my heart

- I really like vi and klaus’ dynamic in this its siblingish and organic in a balance older episodes havent struck- violet elbowing him to wake up or them sharing a look during the climb. And also maintaining violets big sister protector role like the way klaus asked her who she thought survived or her wanting to go after Sunny to make good on her promise

- the balance of scenes and characters was really right in this one too even with the added C plot of kit. would have LIKED more V and K but it didnt feel like there was too much of the others. Couldve done without the freaks they felt like an afterthought but they were funny enough

- Very good but points off for the dragonfly part and the bank robbery

part 2 (10/10)

- the cinematics of the quigley backstory

- the green smokkkkkke

- violet and klaus “sharing wordless glances but having entire conversations” baudelaire

- young olaf? young olaf?

- The fact i took 1 look at young olaf and instantly pitied him? nph Emmy WHEN

- Who’s L Snicket?

- the book on female pirates ok daniel “we are pirates” handler okay!!!

- the lemony narrating over violet inventing bit :/

- pistachios for everyone

- None of this is dylan kingwells fault but i just am so indifferent to quigley and always have been like I just.... dont care

- this WHOLE bit with sunny and violet is... a lot. overwhelming

- The emotional stakes at this point are so raised and without sunny to diffuse it theres a buildup of tension between violet and klaus where theyre increasingly frightened and frustrated and about to take it out on each other.... One of these coming episodes one of them will snap! mark my words one of them will snap!

- KLAUS “the kid detective thing is cute”

- KLAUS and the spyglass....... Feelings

- Its Not Fire.. It’s Fashion

- the hostile hospital music over esme hunting them down in the hq oh???????

- esme in the hq oh????

- Do you really want to do the same thing as count olaf?????????????????????

- the violin when the henchpeople leave and olaf and esme’s fur hats and Anna karenina and the snow. How russian of them

- You can really tell louis hynes is a theatre actor because he doesnt do well in quiet subtle scenes but when the drama amps up it lets him get away from the fast flat stylized acting in asoue and he’s able to stage act in the big and loud way youre taught to stage act and he shines! He just shines!

- sad violet doesnt have that knife :/

- how could you do that to her

- how could you do that to her

- how could you do that to her

- i cant believe quigley and the baudelaires were separated not by the raging force of mother nature and a raging wall of water but because quigley the man the myth the legend just wasnt looking where he was going. F in the chat for quigley

- the poem!!!!!!! Text overlayed on the visuals i love it thats how i wouldve done it too

- Oo i like these little instances showing how close lemony is following behind them like when he picks up the glove and later the map. thats how they’re building up to that thing in penultimate peril i guess which is! Smart!

- “We couldnt get sara canning to be jacquelyn in season 3 so we’ll just make lots of jokes about how kit is replacing her function within the narrative”

- This was spectacular really really excellent what a smashing job that was

[adnantingtong]

I failed so hard, that the only way to survive was to learn. If you are an entrepreneur or are just starting off, my experience can help.

An entrepreneur is someone who jumps out of an airplane and figures how to build a parachute on the way down.

I had heard that saying before, but being young and brash, I didnt bother much about learning how to build that parachute.

Most of the business ideas we get are driven by impulse.

We get struck by a thought, which converts into an idea and boom, next thing we know it we are at our comp researching how we can make that idea work.

Human beings are creators, we like to invent stuff and when we are not inventing stuff, we try to figure out better ways to do what is already being done.

That is how entrepreneurship works.

Which is why you hear of guys starting a bus ticketing app because they couldn’t go home for Christmas, or another guy starting a cab service aggregator because he couldn’t find a cab.

If you think about it, everything around us, that is man-made was first created out of thought.

The thought converted into an idea.

That idea was pursued tirelessly and it is probably something we use to this day, which includes the toilet seat.

If you are someone who is driven by the passion to bring their idea to life, it is good to move fast and break things, as Steve Jobs said, but, reading these personal experiences might help you keep things in check.

Knowing Your Audience

Let's understand something, most of the ideas which we get are driven by the 'me' attitude.

We think we need something and assume that others will need or want the same thing.

This is one of the biggest mistakes I made.

I am an event manager, and for the first Big Festival I planned, I figured getting A-List artists to perform at a festival  would sell. I went about the tedious task of finding investors and making sure the artists block the dates. Pumped in all resources to ensure the concert goes ahead as planned.

There was a problem though, those were artists whose music I used to love, not necessarily those who were trending at that time.

I got so involved in creating something which I thought would sell, that I didn’t bother to ask people about what they thought. I could pitch well enough to convince an investor though.

Long story short, The event did do well, but could have done soo much better in terms of conversions if had programmed a few current trending artists as well and created a good mix as I found out from the audience reviews written after the event.

It is important, that once you are struck by your business idea, you canvass around like crazy to understand if people within your network feel the same way. If they do then you might be able to draw up a somewhat accurate conclusion.

That will not only give you a good understanding of where you stand, but it will also tell you who your audience is.

A Good Product still doesn't sell itself.

Moving forward from my earlier point. The profile of the artists that I had did to a large extent contribute to us getting an audience for the event. But, it was no where near what we couldve got.

And for audiences to come find us, we needed to tell them more about it, which we fell short on. Any amount of marketing and networking you can do when you are starting is welcome.

As an entrepreneur 75% of your time when starting off needs to be spent telling people about what you do and networking.

My colleagues and I had gotten so involved with the nitty gritties of the festival and how we wanted everything to be the best that we fell short on marketing. It was like a cocoon we created for ourselves and when we came out of the cocoon, the event date had arrived.

If you are an entrepreneur who tends to be an introvert and focus on people finding you, you might learn the hard way that the world moves quick.

Make sure you meet and talk to as many people as possible about what you are doing.

Asking for help

I was arrogant enough to not ask for help from Industry Colleagues. Asking them and accepting their help would have taught me lessons I probably didn’t need to learn by myself.

You might generally shy away from asking for help or you could be too arrogant to ask for help and guidance.

But, if you do find someone experienced, who has been there and done that and is willing to help, then, my god that is a big advantage

Planning

An idiot with a plan can beat a genius without a plan - Warren Buffet.

When you are starting a business, it is important that you have a plan to get the show on the road.

We had a plan that we kept changing,and at the end of it we found our selves torn in all directions with everything being important and not knowing where to start.

Prioritizing

You have a limited amount of time during the day.

Make a list of the most important tasks you have to complete during your day. Prioritize that list and reduce it further according to their importance.

I wanted to do everything ! Its a personality flaw I deal with on a daily basis, and it is irritating because it affects everything.

Warren Buffets' 5/25 rule would help here. If you have a list of 25 things on your schedule, figure out which 5 are the most important and do those, forget the remaining 20 until they become as important.

Also, some of the most successful people in the world schedule their most difficult tasks for the day as the first thing in the morning.

Choosing Who You Talk to and Work with

You might have tremendous and supportive friends and Touchwood to that.

You will probably have friends who would want to partner with you on your venture.

It is easy to get caught up with the idea that friends working together will be great.

STOP.

Treat it objectively, friends working together can go very wrong.

There are many reasons

The business might not be a priority for them.

They might be too negative.

And so on.

Me and my colleagues had reached a point where we needed to address the reality that if we were to still meet up for drinks on evenings then we could not work together any longer.

If you think of yourself as a mobile phone, imagine you wake up every morning with a 100% charge and you get to work and you have to deal with this every day.

Now stop and think, if who you are working with right now aligns with your thought process.

Never stop learning

You will make mistakes. You need to make sure you do not get dejected and learn from those mistakes.

While planning that event I would find out something new everyday, every evening I would realize I couldve approached something in a better way. 

I learnt things the hard way, but I can take pride in the fact that I nurtured those learnings which have helped me evolve.

However big and great your idea is, what is most important from a growth perspective is that you never stop learning.

You will be rejected.

You will be made fun of.

You will have days that you will want to give up.

People are going to shoot you down and some of your best friends are going to try to find cracks in your armor and poke fun at you.

You are going to find people who are at the same level as you telling you it's not going to work, because they have a hunch.

Advice is the cheapest commodity on earth and most people you meet have tons of it.

Fuck them.

Believe in your idea.

Find others who believe in your idea.

Work with them.

I learnt these things the hard way, I lost quite a lot of money at that event, but that was the best learning I received. It made me stronger. 

It has been 4 years, I am still here and I continue to run 2 very successful companies in

http://www.pegasusevents.in

The part where building a parachute comes in after jumping out is you identifying red flags and replacing what doesn't work with what does work.

Just make sure you show up every day and are ready to go.

[sillyandquiteawkward]

1 and 7 for Guy 4 for Guy and Shiloh 14 for Ass and Guy 17 for Guy Ass Shiloh and Abe And 18 for Shiloh and Abe

boy howdy this took some rereading to get right

Guy

1. What was the first element of your OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.)?

It was def appearancethat i began to think about first. i saw this man that had super prominent hollows of his cheeks and long bangs and i was like “man thats a good combo, i should make an oc.” but also kind of wanted to specifically make an oc to be the sole survivor so perhaps it was that.

4. In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts?

because guy was raised prewar with tensions high with china, he did experience racism for being asian, even though he wasnt chinese and his family had lived in america for generations. because of this, guy became timid and very careful. he also preemptively secured a spot in the military to almost prove his patriotism and dedication to america. this eventually landed him his wife and a spot in the vault.

7. Is there any significance behind their height?

Not really. i do dig the tall and lanky aesthetic tho

14. If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?

guy is very hard to pin down. hes all over the place and very impulsive. but if i had to narrow it down to two, is that guy for the most part is an anxious mess prone to lash out, and that he will eventually warm up to you.

17. Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

i regert letting guy run away from sanctuary. i wouldve loved to see him become part of the minutemen and probably work to get better and stop being so antihero. i feel like if guy hadnt ran, he couldve gotten happier, faster. but guys stubborn and he ran and holed himself up in a bar for weeks and halted any character development he couldve gotten.

Shiloh

4.In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts?

shiloh has a wide variety of hobbies and skills, having spent his time as a youth socializing with a variety of people about their trades. his hometown had many traveling merchants and caravans and visitors, so even if he was a fisherman, he was able to learn about farming and sewing and raising animals and all of that.

17. Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

i regret giving him depression stemming from his misunderstanding about his sexuality bc shiloh doesnt deserve that. no one deserves it.

18. What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC?

shiloh waxes his mustache so the ends are really pointy. sure ive always drawn him with points on the mustaches but like. its never struck me that he would need to style his mustache to get the ends to point up and out.

Assmcgee

14. If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?

you gotta remember assmcgee is an emotionally stunted man. his life got fucked up when he was 17 and became immortal and radioactive with zero parental figures for the entire rest of his life. he craves attention and affection and is willing to seek it out from anyone. you also gotta remember that assmcgee is literally. so. stupid. intelligence of 1, this boy is dumb as bolts. please be kind to him

17. Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

that hes cis. ive never gone out and been like “assmcgee is cis” but like. idk originally i did imagine him as a physically transitioned trans man, and i came up with a lot of his traits while i had that idea in my head, but in the end i ended up not really following through with the idea. like one of the things that stuck was assmcgee choosing the name assmcgee and rejecting his birth name, but like. there are really a Lot of parallels between assmcgee and uh, stereotypical trans stuff and i felt it wasnt the best i could do. it felt gimmicky that hes this burly rowdy boy thats actually soft on the inside, that loves to fight and fuck and has a small dick, and has a hard time growing decent facial hair like. it just didnt strike me right. i wish i couldve done something more with that.

Synth Lincoln

17. Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

that theres a hall of other synth presidents and now that trumps been elected, there would canonly be a trump synth. other than that, lincolns a delight and i love him

18. What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC?

that people still love and adore abe and want to fuck him

[bowlingillusion01]

Blog post 17/18

1. My recent purchases were made to give me something to do during quarantine. I dont remember my last music related purchase was but  if i had to guess i would say my tattoos. My motivation for it was that i was wanting the tattoos for 4 years and got them for my birthday. Im a big music lover and and instrumentalist. Im not too picky with my music choosing but besides pop which i feel is the most popular i like some classical and rock and country. Im a little bit of everything. I dont usually by the music anymore because i have spotify but i will listen to music a lot in the car or when im by myself and i have nothing else to do or in the mood to listen to music. I dont mind the music industry i love that we have the music industry. I dont keep up with news so if something was going on with it i probably wouldnt hear about it right away but im sure i would find out from someone eventually. But i like the fact that we have the music industry because its such a big thing to have in peoples lives now. The would have an impact but i dont think it would be that big of an impact because at the end of the day i still make my own decisions and its ultimately my decision whether to follow in some parts of their footsteps or not. They wouldnt have an effect on my purchases because its my money and what i want or need not what they want or need. I would say i wouldnt think of social or ethical things when purchasing or if i purchase music. musicians or bands usually will raise money for charities or will donate to those that are having a hard time, like the fires in Australia. Supposedly Ariana Grande and Justin Beiber are raising money for a charity but i dont remember which one. I always think of behavior in general when out in public and at concerts because a lot of people end up drunk or are drinking and their are a lot of kids around so i know they are watching me even when i think they arent. I always have social behavior when at events because of others but mainly also for kids. I would define a socially responsible musician in the sense that they make sure to think of everyone that may be watching them and that they cam do what they can to help others without causing unnecessary or negative attention to themselves. I always think it is important for them to socially act responsible. Yes i would because i would rather not be around someone completely negative or giving off negative advice and what not. I think i have and i also think that i didnt think about it at the time. Usually when people go to an event they arent thinking ahead in the sense of being socially responsible but just about the concert and prizes and food. Social responsibility in everyday life is just curtesy and manners, holding the door open, saying thank you, etc. Music social responsibility is knowing you have younger people looking up to you and parents watching and important people watching and tracking to see if they want you so your always out there for people to see.

1.Authencity is important for a musician because then you know and they know that they arent just taking your money and running but instead its going to something or someone in need or going to be used in a way for good.

2. “ g. But I have attended friends’ events that were musical because they were putting them on for some sort of charity reason as a sort of motivation. I mean, perhaps it would have been fun to go along anyway, but I probably wouldn’t have done if it hadn’t have been for that charity in certain cases. (M, 37)” (Tinson 237)

3. I dont know i havent been to many concerts but maybe the JHB band. They arent very popular i dont think and i saw them for two years in a row with my church because they were a christian band and i know some of the money went to them but i dont know if they were donating the rest or not.

1. I think what makes a good protest song is knowing the audience first, making sure you understand the protest and to acknowledge it in a way that is meaningful and will stick with people. Music is a powerful thing especially when its used to get a message across. I dont agree with Alex Lubet though when he said that, “ “Scientists have tried to determine why music is so universal, and not one has come up with a single answer,” he said. “It’s a basic human need. So it’s only natural that people use it in protest.” (Ode 2017) I dont agree with him because i dont think music is really a necessity. If it was people would NEED to listen to it everyday. If music wasnt  introduced i think we couldve gotten messages and protests across to people fine. Propaganda back in the early 1900s got across and some is even still used in class today because it struck people to the point where it has stuck.

2. One of my favorite artists is Selena Gomez and has been for a long time. When the fires were tearing through Australia for months, she was one of the ones to donate money to the wildlife and people to help with rebuilding and care that was needed.

https://www.nme.com/en_au/news/film/nicole-kidman-margot-robbie-selena-gomez-donate-fight-bushfire-crisis-2593150 

3. I think that this was 100% effective because i know i wasnt the only one thats attention this grabbed, plus she wasnt the only popular star that donated money to help with the fires. So much was happening and not only did humans lose their homes and loved ones but so did the animals living in the wild areas that were effected did too.