#there are so many references i'm in unspeakable pain

[mysoftlouis]

ttpd really is the anti-reputation

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linking a lil post with some parallels between reputation & the tortured poets department

[emlee81]

Joel Miller X Reader-Cry

Joel is having a rough day. You decide to help him out by listening and just holding him.

Some minor swearing but major angst.

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Joel hasn't been himself today. Actually that's redundant. He hasn't been himself for years. Not that you judge him for it. It hadn't been easy for anyone since this damn pandemic hit.

Today seems harder for him, however, as you watch him sitting on the worn leather couch, head down, eyes closed, tears slipping down his weathered face.

"Hey." You take a seat behind Joel, gently taking one of his rough hands, holding it tenderly between yours.

Joel sniffles, opening his eyes, turning his head slightly in your direction, his eyes red rimmed as more tears spill down, soaking his patchy beard.

"I'm sorry." His deep voice is hoarse and low, as he clears his throat, wiping roughly at his face before giving your hands a quick squeeze.

"Don't you dare apologize," you chide gently. "You've done nothing to apologize for."

"You don't know the shit I've been involved with."

"That doesn't matter. You're a good man."

"I'm not." You lean closer, gently kissing his cheek and taste the salt of his tears on your lips.

"I'm not exactly innocent myself," you say. "I...did unspeakable acts. We did what we had to to survive."

Joel nods, the weariness in his eyes appearing, stronger than before as he slips his hand out of yours and stands up.

Oh, how your heart aches for him! Joel thinks he's such an awful and evil person, just because he's done stuff he shouldn't have.

You just want to wrap your arms around him, and somehow extract that pain within him, bearing it yourself so Joel could be free of it.

"That doesn't make it right," Joel says, angling his body to face yours. That haunting look in his eyes is boring into you and you shiver.

"I never said it was right," you argue. "But it was necessary."

"Was it?" Joel's eyes close and you spring to your feet, moving to him, reaching out and placing your fingers on his cheek. He immediately opens his eyes as more tears spill down.

You lean in, gently kissing him. Joel recoils at first, resisting your tenderness. But after a few seconds, he lets loose, grabbing you and kissing you in return.

"I feel so...lost and...empty inside. I can't stop thinking how I failed her."

You know Joel is referring to his daughter, Sarah. You can't even imagine what pain he must be feeling.

"We've all lost people we care about, Joel. Very few have been spared that hell."

Joel leans into your body as you caress his disheveled hair, his hands clutching at your torso.

"I know. I just wish I could have saved her. I was her dad and I couldn't save her!"

Joel buries his face into the crook of your neck, as fresh tears start to fall. You wrap your arms around him, softly murmuring soothing words to him.

"Ssh, Joel. Shh." Joel cries for several minutes before finally collecting himself and pulling away, roughly wiping at his tear stained face.

"You're too good to me." His voice is low and hoarse. You grab one of his hands, squeezing tightly.

"I'm only giving you what you truly deserve, Joel. You deserve kindness."

The hardness returns to Joel's eyes. He steps away from you. You have to hold yourself in check as not to grab at him.

"I don't." You suddenly sigh, weary of this ridiculous conversation. You've had it too many damn times to count.

"Let's go cuddle in bed," You suggest. "Unless you're too worked up?"

"I could go for that." You grab Joel's hand, leading him into the bedroom and removing your shoes, and you both climb into the bed, clutching at one another's bodies for comfort.

After a while, Joel falls asleep and you're relieved. The poor man doesn't get enough sleep.

You gently kiss his forehead as you close your own eyes, allowing the weariness to overcome you and forget about how troubled your beautiful Joel is.

[iciatheguardess]

ARCHIVED AND OUTDATED

Okay, this is my OFFICIAL info/lore/refs for Ice Anon/Icia. I'll just give basic info about each persona, the lore, and refs when I get around to them.

This will be updated as I go- hope you enjoy!

Do note: Ice Anon no longer exists (except to a few people she didn't tell yet.) So most designs of her are irrelevant and more like casual outfits for Icia now.

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"... okay- I think I'm ready to tell you everything... Ask what you'd like."

-Icia

Ice Anon:

Refs:

Basic Info:

Ice Anon is a newer Anon in the circus, who's a 'chill', peaceful being. She's recognizable by the cold air her body gives off, making her difficult but not unbearable to touch or hold, as well as her inhumanly stiff ice hair. She's a quiet, mysterious, nonchalant, "go-with-the-flow" person who'd rather not fight in most situations. However, she's also caring and doesn't like seeing others in pain or misery, even if she despises them. As she's grown more familiar with everyone, she's grown slightly anxious and secluded, often with a people-pleaser mentality.

She enjoys watching snow, stargazing, listening to 1920s-50s music, and dressing up. She's also oddly good at swordfighting...

Lore:

Ice Anon made her appearance not long ago, but she could have been a part of the Circus for a while, deciding to hide away. After finding Gangle digitally (but not fully) dead, she let herself become more involved in others' business as to make sure she didn't miss anything important (though she often does). Also, it's likely due to a rocky entrance into the circus, her memory isn't the best.

Icia:

Refs:

First/Usual Design:

Current design:

Info:

Icia is a very guarded individual, often feeling uneasy and distrustful of others due to being uncertain of their affiliation. However, when she trusts someone or sees them in need, she's extremely caring, loyal and motherly, being willing to tell stories of her life in The Bewitched Digital Kingdom to all who are willing to listen. However, Icia is also very protective. She will go to extreme lengths to protect those in danger.

She enjoys training, reading, telling stories, playing and dancing to classical music, and enjoys most things from the early 1900's and late 1800's (think things you'd find on a Royalty Aesthetic Pinterest board)

Lore:

Icia arrived at The Enchanted Digital Kingdom a long time ago, which was a digital realm formed as a kingdom and castle always surrounded by stars and seemed to run on magic rather than technology. As part of the royalty, Icia was immediately given the role of Head Guardess; this duty gave her power over the kingdom's army, royal guard, and turned her into the main guardian for King [....] and Queen [....]. The kingdom was ruled by the AI Ramiro, who was described as senile but loving and caring.

However, one day Ramiro was seemingly replaced with the AI Hexe who was cruel, sadistic and tempermental. Through her control, she abused her powers and would rank up or derank humans of TEDC as she pleaded, and would control their minds, emotions, and personalities for her own amusement. This often led to fights, unethical treatment of NPC citizens, and harsh misunderstandings.

Icia recalls an incident where her best friend Dunite, the royal Astronomer, manipulated the minds of young children under Hexe's control, and had no reaction to their fear. Despite her best efforts, Icia was also forced to commit unspeakable, cruel acts of violence to both the citizens she was supposed to protect and her dear friends. At this point, she had no longer been calling the kingdom as The Enchanted Digital Kingdom, now referring to it as The Bewitched Digital Kingdom.

After some time, Icia decided she had enough and searched the Castle for an exit which she eventually found. She asked a small number of people to join her, all of which were either on Hexe's side or disbelieving, until Hexe caught wind of her plan and she had to escape alone. Outside TBDK, Icia learned about many worlds all controlled by C&A, each seeming to have an AI that monitored it. She found her own files and learned how to create new ones, which she used to create unique outfit "presets" and reclaim her possessions left in TBDK.

However, she also saw her files linked to another individual's: Starro, from The Amazing Digital Circus. Feeling he would be trustworthy, Icia found her way into the circus and made close friends with him, explaining her situation. Due to her belief that all AI were linked, she grew fearful and distrusting of Caine, believing he would recognize her and send her back to TBDK. Therefore, she created a new persona and outfit, blending in with the many Anons that visited as a new anon: Ice Anon.

Powers/Abilities:

Being an embodiment of ice, Icia's constantly cooling off things around her. The air around her is cold, and certain things frost over if she touches them. This effect grows heavier when Icia experiences high emotions, as when anxious she can fully freeze anything she touches and cause large ice crystals to spike up from them, also inflicting frostbite. During high-emotion moments, she can grab onto someone and channel all her power into her hand, effectively freezing them almost entirely and causing excruciating pain. At her most powerful, Icia can use her sword to channel a blizzard in a small area, disrupting vision and even cutting opponents with sharp ice crystals.

However, Icia prefers combat with her sword. She's extremely skilled in swordfighting, having an elegant yet speedy style that's nearly impossible to counter. Her sword has a halo of frost and flurries, which can effectively freeze ice on contact. She sharpens it often, in case of emergencies.

Icia is also very strong and agile.

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I know this is probably not very fun or what you would've hoped from this post, but I'm going to regularly update it the more her lore gets uncovered. Ask her whatever questions you'd like, I'll be keeping this post pinned for now!

-Mod Star ✨️

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here and I'm so sorry my dear but it's crying about Malex time because we're gonna talk about Silhouettes. Yes, we say this about every song but the lyrics of Silhouettes are so, so painfully Malex. Its the horrible trauma of both their childhoods "because the scars they left we're loud and clear", the wish from both of them that they could change things and be loved "they'd wake up tomorrow and regret the pain", and so many others. Most important "the truth is that you're loved".

I was checking my notifications because I hadn’t had one from you in a bit (read: 1 day-ish) and I was about to be excited when I opened this and oh my goooood why are you doing this to me?! 😭😭😭 this song makes me ugly cry if I think about it too hard and it is SO perfect for Alex and Michael it hurts. (DO NOT SPEAK TO ME ABOUT EVAN BUCKLEY RIGHT NOW, I CAN'T DO THIS WITH HIM TOO, I WILL HAVE A BREAKDOWN)

Anyway. Musically this song is absolutely beautiful and so soft and gentle that it's easy to miss the gut punch of the lyrics. I have officially been proven wrong because I firmly believed it was impossible to be sad while listening to ukulele and OH LOOK I’M SOBBING INTO MY SHIRT. Also the clarinet solo is so moving and beautiful. I love, love love this song, and the video for it posted at the end of this ask is a MUST WATCH because it's absolutely stunning AND it’s a silhouette!

Okay, whoooo boy I gotta prepare myself for this. I hope everyone is ready for a feels trip because this song is heavy but so, so, so hopeful. I read through the How It’s Made for this song and there is some interesting stuff about his work with To Write Love On Her Arms and how listening to these stories of hurt and recovery brought this song about, but I’m going to post a quote of what he said about family because it really hits at the Alex and Michael of it all. (And Buck, oh god, someone go give all these men 10 minutes of solid hugging)

“in all of our histories of pain, it's not uncommon that the source is deeply rooted within our family relationships. which saddens me to no end, considering that "family" should to be a relationship that safe and sacred above all else- it's meant to be where you turn when the world is unkind to you, that builds you back up. so, "silhouettes" is a story about someone navigating the waters of hurt and pain from their broken family, struggling to see the simple truth that they are worth love and deserve so much better.”

Okay, grab some tissues and lets get into these lyrics!

You wrote your name in invisible ink For you were so afraid of what they might think But the scars they left, they were loud and clear Weren't they? Weren't they?

Oof oof oof. This speaks to both Alex and Michael hiding parts of who they are, and to the abuse they both suffered throughout their lives. 

When it's too much to bare, memories erase A disappearing act, deserving of our thanks When it surfaces, just hold your breath And swim, just swim

Just thinking about how we have yet to really see Alex deal with his trauma from childhood and from overseas, and we’ve seen Michael avoiding a lot of his trauma but not really confronting it and I am really hoping season 3 will dig more into that for both of them. I would looooove to see them actually breaking down and helping build each other back up. I like the imagery here of holding your breath and swimming against those memories that can make you feel like you’re drowning. (It also sparks that Finding Nemo connotation that helps lift the weight a little by making it a more fun reminder) From the How It’s Made again, “that lyric refers to our incredible, but dangerous human ability to shut down the things that hurt us so deeply- a defense mechanism that goes back through our darkest memories and covers them up from our consciousness. which is perhaps, in someways, a gift that we are able to turn off those unspeakable things and build up strength in order to process it in a healthy way.. but it's so dangerous too because those swallowed memories build and build without us knowing, which can take a serious tole on our health and wellbeing”

You begged and begged for some kind of change Maybe they'd wake up tomorrow and regret the pain That they've passed down to you like DNA But no luck, no luck

Oh god, I can’t. This hits right in those Alex feels and him wondering if the stroke Jesse had maybe “fix” whatever made him hate Alex, and I am just a blubbering mess right now. I’m also absolutely broken thinking about tiny, fragile, baby Alex and baby Michael being hurt by adults who were supposed to care for them, and Michael looking at the stars and begging for someone from home to come and rescue him. 😭😭😭😭😭  

It seems only by the hand of God or death Will they truly change their silhouettes For a miracle or a consequence You wait and wait

This is probably my favorite line in this song. I can’t really tell you why, just that it strikes a chord in my soul, and the imagery is beautiful. And thinking back to how Jesse died, trying again to hurt Alex and Michael and how after all this time, they were there to witness the consequence of his choices, and how in the end, it didn’t erase what he had done. 

Maybe distance is the only cure? Far away from hurt is where healing occurs But all you really want to do is make them proud Don't you? Don't you?

This gets me in my Lost Decade Alex feels and him trying to be The Best to prove a point to his dad, and how he was able to get that distance and pull himself together into this ice cold military man and how that persona crumbles when he’s back in Roswell. And how Michael never got the chance to have that distance and how he is still so deeply in that hurt. Okay, now I am really hoping that Michael left Roswell during the (frankly ridiculous and I will never not roll my eyes about) 1 year time jump to get some space and some chance at healing.

It must be so hard, in the mess you're always cleaning up To believe in the ghost of unbroken love But I promise you The truth is that you're loved, so loved You're loved, so loved

😭😭😭 So many thoughts and feelings about Michael cleaning up the mess with Rosa and taking the blame for all that and hiding what happened to his hand and who was involved, and Alex researching Project Shepherd and Caulfield and trying to make sure Michael (and Isobel and Max) stay safe and off the military’s radar, and about them fighting over the Lost Decade and having to pick up the pieces alone each time and how much they both want love but do not trust the love they are getting from family/friends is unconditional. This song breaks me but those last lines always bring back that spark of hope. This song is like having a good cry when you really needed to, and someone you love sitting with you and wrapping you in a blanket and a hug and reminding you that they love you when you’re done. This is what Ryan does best, he leads you to a complete breakdown but in a way that makes your soul feel a little more healed at the end.

[winterywitch]

i'm sorry to bother you but i've seen you talk about desiderius (spelling?) of the sea and i'm really curious to know more about ?

your spelling is correct! but omg dont worry this is SO not a bother, i love talking about my ocs kgjhfgkghh

this is gonna be kinda disjointed its really just a list of relevant facts about him:

well basically - desiderius is one of the five four godkings of the diamond continent, he rules a beautiful seaside kingdom with a big Mermaid Aesthetic to it. in fact he’s called “the mermaid king” by a lot of people, which was at first painful, humiliating and mortifying for some reason*, but these days he’s embraced it.

afterall its a pretty name and there isnt much he can do to stop people from calling him names... well, not much he can do that wouldn’t make him a tyrant, haha! not that he hasn’t committed a fairly... seemingly-tyrannical act**, bloody and terrifying

hes known as a charming, gorgeous man who loves parties and socializing!! ^ o ^ hes also known to like. REALLY get around, to a degree where he’s kind of made fun of for it by his coworkers. it makes him feel worse than he’s actively aware of but like yknow hes good!! shallow party guy and whatnot

rip underneath that though he’s severely depressed and its not unheard of for him to just spend a whole day in bed doing nothing, not even bathing or eating

uhhhhhhhhh suits of armor make him very anxious*** to the point that he jumps and startles very badly if he sees one unexpectedly or out of the corner of his eyes. someone actually WEARING one makes him breathless and run out of charming, cute words to say

hes kind of a dumbass, hes naturally drawn to mystery and danger and he gives people the benefit of the doubt WAAAY more than he should.

there is a terrible guilt weighing on him****

alright so lets get down to the Nitty Gritty of some of this stuff

* - tw child abuse

** - tw death/murder/execution

*** - tw child abuse, csa, rape, etc

**** - tw csa

* basically what happened was one day a kid broke into the palace. nobody really knew how, but they supposed it had to do with the fact that desiderius doesnt keep actual armored guards around, but rather he prefers witches to protect him. this kid was sorta just wandering around in awe of the place, not necessarily stealing anything, but he happened to walk in on desiderius changing clothes.

he didnt see anything inappropriate for a kid like desiderius wasn’t [sandy voice] In The Nude but his bare back was visible and so were the long dark lines adorning it. the kid didnt know any better and thought “hm ocean + mermaid aesthetic, thjis guy has lines on his back... THEYRE GILLS!!!”

and so began the rumor that he is some sort of half-aquatic god, and people started calling him the mermaid king and referring to his gills. he knew exactly what they meant and it was all so painfully embarrassing because what they all didnt know was, those were scars he got as a young boy/teen, not as punishment but rather as part of his old, growing-senile father’s plan to prepare him for the throne, which was to put him through unspeakable sorts of pain to the point that he wouldnt cry or yell anymore.

** desiderius, the moment he was made the official king, had every single one of his father’s old guard executed. no one really understood what that was about, but the incident was covered up so well and the public was so encouraged into silence that people rarely actually made a public fuss about it. its odd because these days they all know him as such a pleasant, generous king who would never hurt a fly

*** as part of that plan i mentioned earlier, desiderius was beaten, psychologically tortured and sexually assaulted by many of his father’s acting guards as a young teenager, which obviously had a disastrous effect on his mind and personality, it seemingly changed him altogether from a quiet, modest but very intelligent boy into a too-charming, attention-seeking (though never rudely, never TOO attention-seeking) and charismatic little boy-king.

he grew up too fast in the wrong ways, and no one really saw anything wrong with it because no one knew what was going on. his father knew, and he was actually quite pleased with the results, because the rituals didnt seem to blunt his wit or make him weaker.

he got WAY too good at seeming like everything was okay, to the point that his older brother pastor, and pastor’s very young teacher/aide/advisor, arcane (long, ableist, neglectful and abusive story), were completely clueless about it. arcane even HATED the young desiderius for his seemingly tall ego, his flirty affects, his apparent prioritizing of charisma and socializing over actually ruling a country, because his parents then came to completely ignore their older son, who was autistic and in their minds, completely incompetent and in no way capable of inheriting a throne given how poorly he responded to fairly normal education and training.

(and he seemed that way, because he was raised in the most stressful, least accommodating environment before he met arcane... who then turned out to be pretty nasty and ableist himself rip in the form of the You Can Do Anything You Set Your Mind To, Don’t Tell Me You Can’t Do Something, You Have To Overcome Everything And Be Inspiration Porn! ^_____^ Ableist but not irreversibly so, he’s capable of learning)

**** desiderius largely stood by and in some ways even HELPED nana in covering up his abuse of arya/kutsuuko, because he was terrified of what would happen to him if he stood up against it. there are two sexual predators he’s ended up working with, he doesn’t know what they’d do.

he wasnt wrong to be afraid, his fears were actually very rational because between the two of them, they could have easily done something severely traumatizing to him even if solely psychologically - but ofc at the same time it feels like fuck man, come on, you could have helped prevent something awful like what happened to you from happening a second time and you didnt.

of course he feels this way at himself too and it fucks with him BAD [somewhat deservedly] but he’s definitely not one of the Bad Kings by any stretch of the imagination, he finds his strength eventually

but theres a part of him thats willing to do HARDER, SCARIER things than it would take to do the right thing, simply because doing the right thing feels so impossible and terrifying. he’s kind of a dumbass

https://toyhou.se/335040.desiderius

heres his toyhouse but its probably a bit out of date, the setting has changed a lot recently

[alysae]

Alright, I'm finally in the mood and I know of no better place to go - can you give me some tomarry/harrymort fic recs? You seem like a person of good taste, so~

Ah thank you! you came to the right place! Honestly seeing you gradually fall into Harrymort/Tomarry hell was entertaining lol

Now, about the fanfics. Expect a lot of unfinished works tho

brainstorm1001′s fanfics are a classic:

The Cave Incident and its sequel, The Love Accident

Three years after the lost battle of Hogwarts Lord Voldemort attempts revenge. Regrettably, he has never learned from his mistakes and underestimates Harry’s incredible luck again. HPLV later. Warning: mix of drama, angst and comedy! 

Mirrored

What was going to happen to him was something terrifying; all his instincts were rebelling against his decision but Harry resisted. Now it was his turn to make a sacrifice and ensure their survival. Compliant with the DH up to the events in Malfoy Manor. HP/LV COMPLETE & EPILOGUE!

A Snake Named Voldemort by estalita11

COMPLETE After being turned into a snake and unable to change back, Lord Voldemort is forced to turn to the only other living Parselmouth, Harry Potter. After making a deal, Harry agrees to help the Dark Lord return to his human form. SLASH HP/LVTMR

ObsidianPen’s fanfics. just. yes. (please read hauntingly it’s MAGNIFICENT)

Mine and its sequel, Hauntingly

He opened his mouth to speak, but he was cut off by an icy statement that caused the hairs on his entire body to stand erect. “I know what you are, Harry Potter… Death will never touch you.” SLASH, HP/LV. Darkly disturbing and all sorts of twisted- a story of abduction, possession, and manic obsession. SEQUEL posted: Hauntingly

No Glory

There was no glory in this… The Dark Lord divines what Harry Potter is in the Forbidden Forest, and revelations lead to incomprehensible consequences. Lord Voldemort has won…and the dystopia is damning. A disquieting tale of a fallen hero, taboo desires, and a Dark Lord’s obsession with something he has lost and finds himself unwillingly lusting after: a soul

All of Athey’s fanfics. ALL. tho most are wips OR abandoned (my favourite is Rebirth tbh)

Death of Today by Epic Solemnity

COMPLETE LV/HP: Raised in a Muggle orphanage, Harry arrives at Hogwarts a bitter boy. Unusually intelligent, he’s recruited by the Unspeakables and the Death Eaters at a young age. As he grows older, he constantly has to struggle to keep his footing around a manipulative and bored Dark Lord, who fancies mind games and intellectual entertainment.

Dreams and Darkness Collide by Epic Solemnity

AUSLASH! Though he was raised without the expectation of saving the world, Harry still possesses a savior complex. Only, it’s so dark and twistedly immoral, he created an alter ego to practice vigilantism. His second identity makes a name for himself and immediately ensnares Minister Riddle’s complete and obsessive attention. A game of cat and mouse begins and morals are questioned

Xerosis by Batsutousai

Harry’s world ends at the hands of those he’d once fought to save. An adult-Harry goes back to his younger self fic. Semi-super!Harry, Voldemort/Harry, SLASH-for the idiots

Stand Against the Moon by Batsutousai

Cursed against his will, Harry made the best of his life until he found himself, again, wandering in Death’s realm. When Death offers him a second chance, a chance to right the wrongs he’d been blind to for too long, he can’t possibly refuse.

Moments in Time by Watermelonsmellinfellon (and their other fics!)

Tom Riddle thought he was dreaming the first time, but when he repeatedly visits the same boy, he realizes that bigger things are at work. He watches the boy in the cupboard grow from a small child and into a young man. His brotherly affections begin to wane. What will he do when the boy isn’t so little anymore? Could he even imagine? Those Avada eyes calling to him. A/N: SLASH!

Iridescent by BloodyWar2401

AU; No Magic. Tom Riddle: A mob boss. Draco Malfoy: A vengeful prick. Harry Potter: Stuck as a cleaning boy for Tom’s office as a way to make up for something Draco claimed he did. Bottom Line: Damn all rich people to hell.

third time’s a charm by lejf

Soulmate AU: soulmates’ thoughts are written on their match’s hands. HP/TR (HP/LV) A story that follows Harry through canon events as he searches for his mysterious writer who always seems to be in pain.

Wicked Serendipity by FrankieSpitfire

Harry Potter is done with the Order and the war, he just wants to stay neutral and possibly not die a horrible death. It’s hard to stay unaffected when the Dark Side starts to look awfully tempting. Starting a whole new crazy journey, the Boy Who Lived decides to take his chances with Voldemort and consequently drags his friends along for the ride.HP/LV, warnings inside.[ON HIATUS]

Butterfly Heart by The_Fictionist

AU - Silence of the Lambs/Hannibal inspired. After recent events in his life, Hermione refers Harry to the renowned psychiatrist, Doctor. T. Riddle. He is unlike anything Harry ever expected or imagined, and soon proves to be a great help against the very shadows and name that haunts his waking hours. If only it remained that simple.

Love’s Loathing by The_Fictionist

Lord Voldemort is head of Magical Britain. Harry Potter is a rebel leader in charge of the last scraps of resistance against his regime. Things would be difficult enough even if they hadn’t once been engaged.

Kisses Cursed by The_Fictionist (you know what, just read all their fics)

Fairytale AU. Loosely inspired by Beauty and the Beast.

Some said he was once a man, cursed, and some that he sold his soul to demons and became one in turn. Others said that such evil as he could never have been human. That he was instead a nightmare, left lingering upon the earth a very long time ago.Harry just knew it wasn’t safe to walk near the Riddle House after dark.

The Gardens of Riddle Manor by VanillaGhost

When Harry happens upon a rare and beautiful flower, his relatives soon become obsessed with the gardens of their mysterious and powerful next door neighbour. Until one day they send Harry over the wall…

(a Rapunzel/Beauty and the Beast fairytale inspired AU.)

Freefall by ladyoflilacs

A voice whispers to Harry in the still of the night, when he is on the verge of sleep and at his most vulnerable. A retelling of Deathly Hallows. Rated M for Harry/Voldemort slash.

Lithium by grayclouds

The smallest change in details can lead to vastly different outcomes. When Harry finds Tom Riddle’s diary in his second year, he befriends the entity that resides within. This simple act results in a ripple effect that tears the story as we know it apart, causing a descent into the madness that is the human psyche.

Horror Of Our Love by leontina

AU! In a world where Neville Longbottom was declared the Boy Who Lived, Harry Potter grew up in a happy, loving family, but all of that changed when he was twelve; the year he met Tom Riddle. TMR/HP slash. Dark!Harry.

And there are so, so many more I’m not mentioning but are definitely worth reading sO, I’m redirecting you to these recs:

@acnara‘s fic rec here!

@hellyeahtomarry‘s fic recs: part 1 ; part 2 ; part 3

this post (hasn’t been updated tho)

@thetomarrylibrary blog. (it’s an amazing blog, check it out!!)

@helly-watermelonsmellinfellon‘s fic rec here!

I hope you find your kind of fanfic! you definitely should go through AO3′s tag and search more if you read all of these lol