#there are nowadays a much more plentiful abundance of out non-binary lesbians

[gynandromorph]

i don't talk about my gender much anymore because it isn't new to me. i have nothing left to work out or justify. would love a hysterectomy some day, but. it is what it is. uterine cancer runs in my family usually in the 30s range, so it'll probably either kill me or get caught early and be removed by necessity within the next decade. that's a tangent though. what i mean to say is that i'm happy to have been out as transgender, and non-binary for over a decade. when i was a teenager most role models so to speak who came out as non-binary were either using it as a stepping stone before realizing that non-binary people aren't treated any better than other trans people and making the full leap to a more fitting gender for them or they just detransitioned because it can be intensely dehumanizing to demand respect and be denied over and over. happy for the ones who figured themselves out obviously, but i worried a lot about if i was going to magically change genders some day, suddenly realizing i'm actually a full ass capital m Man and i just had no way of foreseeing that without occupying this perceived middle ground first. you hear that it's just a phase so much, you just don't really know yourself, you know? that's frightening when you're trying to figure out what's causing this ongoing disaster in your head. i'm happy to be on the other side of that and knowing pretty confidently that i've just been myself. i'm not a perfect role model, but i am non-binary