#theoldmeisdead

[annawanderer]

I am sorry but the old Joanna can't come to the phone right now. Why? Oh..,'Cause she is dead #ripoldjoanna #sarcasm #🙄 #26112017 #sunday #sarcastichumor #humourme #theoldmeisdead （在 Petaling Jaya, Malaysia）

[gianer-blog2]

[klaowde-blog]

🙏🏾👀YOU KNOW WHERE IM AT YOU KNOW WHERE I BE @iamcardib ❤️😍AFTER RECENT 🆘LIFE CHANGING EVENTS🔴 ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME IS FAMILY AND THE PERSON IM CREATING THAT FAMILY WITH 💪🏾💍#snow #love #childhood #family #familygoals 👨🏾‍🎤 #ROCKSTAR #NEVERSTOP #THINKINGHURTS #CLOUDYwithaK #addaK #THEOLDMEISDEAD #NEWMAN #6 #createlife #creative 🔜🔙🔛🔝

[bridgesburn12]

I Killed My Old Self!

I used to be someone completely different. I used to have red hair, I had a different name, I lived somewhere else, had different hobbies and for a second there I was even happy. But that was swift, if you get what I mean.

I was in love and turned out it wasn’t worth it. He told me he was bad news, but I I ignored it. His world moved too fast and burned too bright. And I was never anything but a temporary fling when he needed comfort after his breakup. But I was in it to win it. But I lost the battle. My castle crumbled over night. He took my crown when I thought I could fly. And I got major damages as a result. I felt worthless. He hated everything I loved. Especially Taylor. It really hurt me. He said I talk too much about her. That everything I know has something to do with her. 

He left me and broke me into a million little pieces. And I’ve spent 8 months trying to fix the damage he did to me. The results? Well, nothing to brag about. 5 suicide attempts, cutting, then stopping for 5 months and then relapsing again. Multiple doctor’s appointments, therapy, loss of sleep, nightmares, inability to trust anyone, loneliness, loss of all my finances - just this dark sadness that is surrounding my mind. But everyday I try again. And again. I tell myself that I don’t need him. That I’m better off. I tell myself that I will get through. 

So through Taylor’s music and some therapeutic country tunes and candle light I’m sitting here once again proving myself that living is worthwhile and that I will love again. That I will be able to care again. That I will rise.

#taylorswift #bridgesburnineverlearn #heartbreak #suicide #depression #selfharm #music #countrymusic #theoldmeisdead #mycastlecrumbledovernight @taylorswift @taylornation