#then you guys can ask all this stuff there and kinkshame me when I answer something weird

[lutawolf]

hi luta, i just want so slide by and say thank you

for bringing kind metas (posts) on lita/prapaisky , and mame's a bit too. i am forever grateful.

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im a tumblr user for bl stuff in 2020, followed some huge blogs & learned a lot about bl cuz im fairly new. i had forgotten about it until i rejoined a couple months ago for prapaisky' lita -- expecting to share the same excitement / reading wonderful metas / learning things again

i ... im pretty perplexed to read the blogs i used to read for info / metas im looking forward to ... expressed mean, mean, things.

i felt nauseous. i didnt realize the people whose metas i used to love can be so. cruel. i had hoped i can find some articulation of what I felt, as a shared feelings, but not only i didnt find it, i, felt ashamed to even had my feelings from the first place. i had to dived in the tag rabbit hole and finally found blogs that expressed the opposites, and thank god i did. thank god i did.

(followed them right away, n unfollow thw prev blogs that i now, see, as ... no)

this tho, had me actually ignored the whole tag whlist it airs, and put notif on for the ones i now value, yours included. it got me thru the whole journey of ep11-13, especially, Especially, 12. the special ep tho, the special ep got me branched out again towards the tag and see people bashing it again undermining it as the sex ep. and kinkshaming rain. is it so bad to have a happy, mutual, consent sexual relationship? i thought we dont kinkshame now

i . i dont know what to think. i am sorry to barging in like this. i just. all these upsetting experience piled up and i just. had to. express my gratitude that u at least shown me the kind side of this perspective.

i apologize for the incoherency, english is not my first language, i wish this isnt too rude..

no need to answer this if u dont want to, i just, had to say it to you. all the love, anon.

Hey Hey lil 🐇,

First, let me say welcome back to Tumblr! I'm actually pretty new. I reached a year anniversary this month. Though I am not new to bl at all. I'm OG there.

Negative reviews are a part of life. However, there is a difference between being hateful and writing a neg review. There is a difference between cancel culture and I don't watch this or participate in this type of art. I think that people are failing to see the differences. Life is not white and black.

There will always be kink shaming. It's not from men though. It's from women. These same women that are talking shit, reading romance on their kindle when no one is looking and wouldn't think twice about their boyfriend asking them to wear a French maid costume. As an amazing friend once told me, this is your room and you cultivate it the way you need to. He blocks people left and right, creating the atmosphere that he wants on Tumblr. I've learned to do the same. I may end up in a bubble but it's a tiny community of people I truly enjoy and love.

Never apologize for English being your second language. Being bilingual is an accomplishment that should only get love not judgement. You guys will never and I mean NEVER see me criticize the way someone writes, from spelling to commas, to anything. I'll never do it. I might ask for clarification but there will never be criticism. We are all here to learn and better ourselves and that is not accomplished by sitting in judgement.

I really appreciate that you read my blog and enjoy it. It means the world to me that you guys reach out to me. All the love. Wishing you the best. Thank you, 💜💜💜

[dsudis]

Here’s the thing.

Not being passive aggressive this time, just... blunt. 

I was excited when I first saw that there was going to be an @eskelbigbang​! I was writing Eskel fic when there were less than 20 Eskel/Geralt fics on AO3, and it’s been so great to spend the last year watching the growing Witcher fandom latch on to and fall in love with this character--and now a big bang! Sweet! I am feeling a bit better lately, getting some writing mojo back, and it would be fun to have an artist create stuff for a story while I’m writing it--that’s very motivating, having someone else invested in your story like that before it’s even posted! It would be a big help to me and doubtless lots of other authors, to help us write and finish something to be proud of.

So I popped into their Discord, where I noticed that “dead dove topics” were banned even in NSFW channels, and I began to think, uh, maybe this event is Not For Me. Maybe I do not get to join in the fun. I’ve already been kicked out of at least one Discord for wanting to discuss the fic which convinced me to OTP Geralt and Eskel while I was writing it; I don’t want to set myself up for that again, and even if I managed to follow that rule enough not to get kicked out... that’s a pretty unwelcoming vibe, knowing I would always have to be on my Best Behavior. 

And then--months after announcing this simply as an Eskel Big Bang, which I took to mean, as it normally does, that any long fic centered on Eskel would be welcome, and artists and fellow authors would simply scroll on by the summaries of fics that didn't interest them for any reason--the mods announced the content rules for the bang, which forbid, no matter how correctly tagged and warned for: rape/non-con, graphic torture, incest, underage, hard kink and, as of the last ask they answered on this topic, also any variety of dub-con including intoxication before/during sex, and sex with incubi or succubi.

(In case you are wondering: yeah, Eskel IS the witcher who canonically both has used fisstech--in-universe cocaine--and had sex with a succubus. Off the top of my head I can’t remember if he explicitly said that he did both things on the same occasion, but that is the most common fannish interpretation of what he said.)

So now I’m feeling really unwelcome in this bang, since forbidding “hard kink” as far as I’ve seen generally works out to “kinks the mod(s) personally find disgusting or upsetting” and that’s the kind of slippery slope and kinkshaming that I do not feel even a little bit comfortable around, never mind the rest of the restrictions. It's entirely likely that I would have written a fic that didn't run afoul of any of those limits--but knowing that I would be subject to the mods' personal, subjective judgment of what's too kinky, or too graphic, or not good enough consent, or too much focus on, e.g., teenage Geralt and Eskel's sexual adventures, would be enough to paralyze me. I just could not sign up for such an event and expect to succeed in writing a story.

Which is why I’m finding it really ironic that the mods, when questioned about these restrictions, are defending them by saying that "we’re trying to be welcoming of as many people as we can, and some people are uncomfortable with those things.” Because by definition, when you start forbidding content and making rules like this, you are making it clear that quite a lot of people are not welcome at all. 

Now, of course, the mods are the mods; it’s their event to run as they see fit. But if they intended it to be restrictive in this way--if they intended to be running a Vanilla, No Archive Warnings Apply Only Eskel Big Bang--then I wish they had been up front about that from the start, because damn, you guys. I was really excited.

[sproingtrep]

Who's your favourite animatronic between all the version and SL? Or do you have a crush on one of them? LUL -w-

Oh, well as you all can probably guess, Springtrap is my fav! Some other favorites of mine, in no particular order, include Nightmarionne, Plushtrap, Nightmare Bonnie, Ennard, and Toy chica!

And hhjkh idk about crushes, that’s a whole other can of worms

                                                                                                                                       Anonymous said to sproingtrep: (Dangit Tumblr you made me miss out on this amazing blog for so long) anyway I just got back to you're blog and it's even better than I remember! I love your art!            

Tumblr sure does seem to enjoy messing with people! I mean there was that one time tumblr mobile posted one of my answers about 13 times, it wouldn’t stop posting until I uninstalled the app! But anyways thank you so much! Glad you still like the weird junk that goes on here!

                                                                                                                                     Anonymous said to sproingtrep:  (dude if u made orbtrap keychains or smth i would 100% buy one bc ur orbs are adorable)      

I would LOVE to! Springlockedfoxy (I think) recommended making them out of resin, I may do that when/if I get the money and means to. It is my dream to have a large supply of the lil orb dudes...     

      xray32p said to sproingtrep: Can i just say that i love your art ?????        

OIHUJHD I love your art too!! You’re one of my inspirations on here, I love your style and expressions so much!!   

     doodling-chua said to sproingtrep: Do you have a Instagram account sprong ? :D            

I wasn’t sure if you were asking the mun or springtrap, but neither of us use instagram! There’s a sproingtrep twitter (it’s bad don’t bother looking at it) and that’s about it

     mrbandicoot said to sproingtrep: Time travel is good and cool. Don't worry, your art is amazing, and we (your fans) will overlook any plotholes for the sake of your amazing and fun y art and comics!            

Owhdff you guys are always so kind and supportive, I really appreciate it! Goodness knows this blog has loads of plotholes and unfinished plot threads, I’ve been meaning to tie up the major ones (Mangle & Toy Chica, Sproing’s quest for Fredbear) for a while but I keep not doing it for some reason. I’m rambling, but yeah! Thanks for being so nice and patient!

I’d like to also thank all the anons who compliment the art/blog! I know I don’t have the best reputation with answering things, but I do see every one of your compliments and they always bring my mood up! So thanks to everyone who sends nice stuff!

[firstlovesuggestions]

Disclaimers, Rules, FAQ, and Resources

Hi everyone! Here’s the official one-stop post for this blog and how it runs. I’m excited to get things moving again after my long hiatus!

Disclaimers and rules are subject to change at any time~

The resources list is always expanding; if you have resources for help in the UK, Canada, Australia, or any other country, please message me so I can include them in the list. As of right now, I only have US resources.

Note: as of April 20, 2021 I am putting a temporary hold on answering advice asks. The inbox is still open for advice, but I’m just going through some personal things and need a little break, so I might not respond as soon as you like. Submissions will still be posted and my own suggestions will still be coming! Thank you~

Disclaimers

All suggestions are my own thoughts and feelings about my own partner and relationship. I have not, do not, and will not ever take another suggestion blog’s work as my own. Submissions from followers are tagged “submission” and I will never take credit for someone’s submission. If you think I am stealing another blog’s posts or there are any other sourcing issues, please message me directly.

I am a 22 year old cisgender bisexual woman in a relationship with a 25 year old cisgender straight man. As such, I may not always give the best or most fitting advice to others of different genders, sexualities, and ages, but I really do try my best.

Any advice I give is purely based on my own thoughts, opinions, and experiences. I try to be objective at the same time, but at the end of the day, I’m going to go with what I feel is the best answer for you. If you disagree with or are upset by my advice, please ignore it and move on. I can’t tell you what you want to hear just to make you feel better; that doesn’t help anyone.

I’m not responsible for the outcome of your situation if you choose to apply the advice I give. I’m a stranger on the internet you asked for help, not a fairy godmother. I can’t fix things for you, just give you my input. Please don’t blame me for things not working. I don’t like being harsh about this, but I just want to make this known and understood.

Rules

Homophobia, transphobia, racism, misogyny/misandry, and any other sort of discrimination is prohibited in your reblogs, replies, and tags. If I find anyone breaking this rule to any degree, you will be blocked on the spot, no questions asked. It’s 2021. You’re better than this.

If you find my advice or my suggestions to be problematic in any way, please message me directly and tell me why, so I know to correct myself and to delete the problematic post in question.

DD/LG blogs will be blocked immediately if I find any interaction with my posts whatsoever. This is not kinkshaming. This is me wanting no part of a community that sexualizes children.

No asks about family situations and relationships. These will be deleted, as I am not in any position to help with matters like these.

Asks about sex and sexual relationships are allowed, but please do not be overly graphic in your descriptions. Sex asks are reserved for those 18 or older**. I will tag all sex-related posts with “tw sex” for those who wish to avoid them.

I won’t post submissions about breakups, rejections, or any other sorrowful situations. I want this blog to be a happier place for people. I’m really sorry for this one, and I can still be here to support you if you want to direct message me.

If you have any questions about the rules, please send a message! I don’t want to discourage anyone from interacting with this blog.

** If you are a minor looking for resources relating to things like sexual assault or birth control, please see the resources below. If you have any other questions or situations you need resources for, please message me directly.

FAQ

This is a list of the topics asked very, very frequently and a quick answer to them. If I find your ask to be redundant and think it can be answered on this list, it will be deleted. This is not meant to ignore you; this is to keep ask traffic lower so that I can answer more people instead of repeating the same answer for one general topic.

“Would it be wrong of me to get revenge on [person] for [reason]?” - Yes. I don’t ever condone revenge for any reason when it comes to relationships. Don’t stoop to their level. Don’t give them the satisfaction of knowing you’re angry/upset with them. The best way to say “fuck you” to someone is to cut them off and move on, because you’re taking away the power they held over you.

“I’m in an LDR and my partner isn’t reaponding to my texts like they used to.” - Communicate. LDRs have no room for not responding to texts and calls because that’s the only way you get to connect. If they still aren’t willing to talk after multiple attempts to discuss the issue(s) at hand, you can give them an ultimatum or just leave.

“How do I get my crush to notice me?” - Talk to them. If you’re wanting to get their attention, reach out to them.

“How can I start a conversation with my crush?” - Casually compliment them, find something in the environment to comment on or send them a meme “accidentally”. It’s not creepy to start a conversation, and it could lead to a new friendship or something more! Just don’t rush things.

“How do I impress my crush?” - Be yourself. Seriously. If you try to be anything other than you, or if you do things you usually never do or don’t like to do, it won’t end well. If you did manage to reel in your crush and start dating, it would be under false pretenses and likely wouldn’t last long.

“I confessed to my crush, but they rejected me.” - Accept their answer. No means no, no exceptions. The worst thing you could possibly do is keep trying to get them to say yes. If they offer to stay friends after they reject you, it’s your choice to keep them in your life or to move on.

“I have a crush on someone who is already in a monogamous relationship.” - There’s nothing wrong with having a crush. What matters is that you do not, under any circumstances, interfere with their relationship. It will hurt to see them with someone else, but if you love them, you should respect their choices and who/what brings them happiness.

“I have/my partner has a crush on someone else.” - If you’re dating casually, this isn’t super uncommon, but if it bothers you, say something. If you’re in a committed relationship, this could be an issue because one of you doesn’t have your heart fully in it. If you feel like you two have become distant or that the trust is broken, communicate and determine where to go from there.

“I have a crush on someone, but they’re [sexuality, gender].” - In the same way they respect your gender and sexuality, you need to respect theirs, too. If they express interest outside of their sexual orientation, you can be there to support them, but do not force things unless you want to push them away or break your bond with them.

If you feel your question isn’t answered here depite being related to something on the list, or you need more specific advice, please don’t hesitate to reach out after you have read this list thoroughly and completely!

Resources (USA)

Crisis text line: Text HELLO to 741741

Domestic abuse hotline: 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE)

Sexual assault hotline: 1-800-656-4673 (HOPE)

Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 (TALK)

Substance abuse services (SAMHSA): 1-800-662-4357 (HELP)

Trevor Lifeline (LGBTQ mental health crisis hotline): 1-866-488-7386

Eating disorder helpline: (Call or Text) 1-800-931-2237, via NEDA

Dating issues/abuse: via loveisrespect.org

Birth control information: via Planned Parenthood

If anyone has resources for the UK, Canada, Australia, or any other country, please let me know. I want to only have the best and most reliable ones here, and it’s difficult to know which ones to include. Thank you in advance!

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About Me

My main is @serenityfive! If reply to you in a post, that’s where I’ll be talking from. Same with if I follow you or I’m scrolling through and liking stuff on your blog. I like to pick a blog at random in the notes and look around since I’m trying to find people to follow despite tumblr being dead!

I started this blog in 2018 to express my feelings for a guy I had a massive crush on who eventually became my boyfriend. We have been together for 2 and a half years now and are living happily in Colorado! My side of our story can be found here 💕

So, a little bit more about me... I’m 22, I like cooking, gaming, cats, nature, and I have a strong interest in health and nutrition. I’m currently finishing my associate’s degree and want to obtain a certification in surgical technology!

I’m happy to make people smile with this blog; you guys are very fulfilling and kind, and I thank you! If anyone wants to chat, just hit me up~

With love,

Lily

[bemorechillifries]

dreams

Fire.

He wonders if everyone will make it out safely.

Well, other than him, he supposes. He'll burn to ash and even his soul won't make it out okay, not after everything he's done, and then he'll never stop burning and burning and burning andburningandburningandburningandburningand--

Rich's eyes snap open, jolting upright and kicking himself free of the sheets, a scream perched on the edge of his lips. Awake, he's awake, he supposes, but if he's awake then why can he still feel flames licking scalding tongues across his skin, why can he taste the smoke clogging his lungs, why can he still smell himself burning, why is he still burningburningburning--

Cold.

Cold water against hot, clammy skin. Shower. He's in the shower, icy water making the tile slick under his hands. How did he get here? He doesn't remember anything, only fire.

He doesn't move, doesn't do any of the normal shower procedures. He just stands there, staring blankly down at the faucet, letting the freezing water soothe his skin while the sound soothes his mind. He pretends it's rain, his own personal thunderstorm to settle his thoughts, put out the fire in his head.

He chuckles bitterly under his breath. He may be out of the fire, but the fire's sure as fuck not out of him. It's trapped beneath his skin, smoke stuck in the slight rasp of his voice.

When he finally starts to register how fucking cold the water actually is, he shuts it off, drying himself quickly so he can sprint back to bed in his boxers. He's not settled enough to actually go back to sleep yet, so he just tucks himself in and picks up his phone to scroll through Instagram.

420 gay: 1 missed call (23 minutes ago)

The part of his brain that equates late night phone calls to emergency has him dialling back before he really realizes it. But then again, this is Michael, who usually sends memes to the chat at 3 in the morning, Michael whose sleep schedule can only be considered that by the vaguest definition. Michael picks up on the third ring, a conversation already sliding from his lips before he even takes his finger off the answer button.

"--ey, you are awake! Dude, I just saw this thing and I figured you'd wanna hear about it, 'cause you like, like, true crime stuff, right?"

"Are you saying you called me at 2:04 AM to tell me about an unsolved murder case?" Rich raises an eyebrow, even though Michael won't be able to see it, amusement lacing his voice.

"Yes. Although I actually called you at like...1 something. 1:40? I dunno. A while ago."

"Michael."

"Richard."

"I'm pretty sure you're my soulmate."

Michael laughs. "Because I'm about to tell you about an unsolved murder case from 50 years ago?"

"Absolutely. But if you don't hurry up and tell me about the case, I'll have to take that back. You'll be downgraded to Regular Friend again."

Michael gasps dramatically. "Fine, fine! Okay, so. There's this guy, right?"

"Let me guess. He gets murdered."

"Are you gonna let me tell you or are you gonna interrupt every two seconds?"

"Depends on how interesting this case is." Of course, he thinks everything that comes out of Michael's mouth is interesting, but whatever.

Michael scoffs. "Why would I call you at 2 AM if it wasn't interesting?"

"Because you wanted to hear my voi-- I can hear you rolling your eyes already, at least let me finish the sentence!"

"Shut up and let me tell you about the case!" They're both laughing quietly at this point.

Michael continues excitedy telling him about the case. Rich listens with the same amount of enthusiasm. The case really is interesting, but he still interrupts every so often with his own little comments. He wouldn't be Richard Goranski if he didn't. He forgets about smoke covered dreams and fire eating him alive. His thoughts are red and warm and no longer scalding, consuming him.

Eventually they fall into comfortable silence. His eyelids start to grow heavy again and he nestles more deeply into his pillows.

"D'you have, like," he interrupts himself with a yawn, "some kinda sensor or something?"

"Huh?" Michael sounds sleepier himself. Or maybe he's just confused. Rich can't tell. Brain's not on.

"Y'know, like -- like some kinda sixth sense or something? For when I'm not doin' so hot?" Hehe. Hot. Fire. Burning. Hot. He was hilarious and he didn't even have to try.

"What?" Now Michael definitely sounds confused. Rich can hear the little crease forming between his eyebrows as they draw together in his "I am confusion" face.

"'Cause you always seem to find me when I'm havin' a shit time. Can't think how else you'd do it," Rich mumbles. He isn't even sure if Michael can hear him, much less understand what he's going on about. He himself isn't even sure what he's saying anymore.

"I do?" Michael sounds surprised, maybe a little amused at Rich's late night (early morning?) ramblings. "Is that-- does it-- Huh. I didn't know." A pause. "...Are you okay?"

"Mm? Yeah, I'm good, dude." Rich shaked himself awake, rubbing his eyes. "Just kinda...like I'm gonna fall asleep soon. What about you?"

"Me?"

"Yeah, are you okay?"

Michael chuckles softly into the receiver. "Yeah, I'm fine. Less high, more tired." He pauses again. He's doing that a lot, Rich thinks. He only does that when he has something he wants to say but isn't really sure how to say it, or even if he should. "...I was asking because, you know, you said I always find you when you're having a shit time and, like. That implies that you were having a shit time earlier? But you said you're good now so I guess it doesn't matter now, right? Oh God, I mean, not that it doesn't matter but just--"

Ah. There it is.

"Whoa, Mikey, breathe." Rich figures it's okay to cut him off this time. "I just had a nightmare earlier is all. PTSD bullshit or somethin'. Fire and all that. And I was too worked up to even try sleeping after." He picks at a loose thread on his pillowcase, focusing on that instead of wondering what Michael's expression might be, or if he's saying too much. "But talking about a bloody hotel murder from the 50s really calmed me the fuck down."

Humor and swearing. The best defense mechanisms.

Michael snorts at that, but Rich feels the weird, heavy atmosphere lift. "I mean. Who wouldn't calm down after that?"

"That's what I'm saying!"

There's another pause before Michael takes a breath and says, "Just call me next time, okay? I mean, I'm always up anyway, so, like. Might as well, y'know?"

"'S long as you tell me about another murder," Rich mumbles, stretching and rolling onto his side.

"You still sound like you're about to fall asleep." Michael is smirking. Rich can tell.

"Nahhhh."

"Dude, go to bed. Only I am allowed to be up at ungodly hours of the night."

"Okay, Daddy. Goodnight."

Michael makes a gagging noise. "Gross."

"Don't kinkshame me! I don't kinkshame you for your vore shit!"

"You're right. We must band together against the true evil. Jeremy and his fursuit."

Rich cackles unattractively, Michael's laugh mixing in to create the best melody Rich has ever heard.

Okay, damn, that was cheesy, Goranski. Wow.

Rich is asleep before the call ended screen fades away. He dreams of gentle fingers against rough scars, of guiding a hand slowly to his cheek and chocolate eyes widening under thick lashes and even thicker lens, red cheeks and red hoodies and red slushies. He still wakes up burning, but this one whispers love instead of war.

[lucarioisinthevoid]

What are y'alls kinks?

“Kinks?”Phone Guy was slightly confused. “Sometimes after it has been rainy for areally long time, my head starts to make weird noises and creaks a bit. I don´tthink it´s by design and I´m way too afraid to ask at the factory-“ “He´s talking about something fucking different, Simon.” Mike gave the guy adeadly expression. “You know, my kink is seeing people hanging from a fuckingrope. Especially you in this regard.” “Ya know that´s a real kink? Hanging?” Dave joined and had Mike instantlydisgusted and worried. “How the fuck-?” “DeviantArt!” Old Sport jumped in. “You´d be surprised how, uh… open the peopleare there!” “So I could fucking hang myself and still have people fapping to it?!” This disturbedthe Guard. “Are ya kinkshaming, Mikey? That´s no good…” Dave tsked in the mostdisapproving manner he could, trying to imitate Henry´s version to the best ofhis ability. “We don´t take kindly to kinkshamers around here!” Old Sport snickered. “FUCK OFF YOU TWO SICKOS!” “If you tell us your kink!” “I DON`T HAVE FUCKING KINKS!” “Whipping, I tell ya, Old Sport!” Dave seemed certain. “NO YOU FUCKER-“ But instead of attacking his co-worker, he rightfully turnedto T. “COULD YOU JUST STOP EXISTING!?” Phone Guy had slowly melted into the shadows, not ready for this. “Ya know what Sportsy´s kink is?” Dave leaned forward, grinning. “Uh, Dave, I don´t-“ “Lingerie!” “Whatever gave you that idea?!” Old Sport was honestly confused. “When you yiff the fox… you ALWAYS put him in lingerie first! It´s obvious!Normally you´re pretty chill around him, but when he wears the good stuff, youbarely can contain yourself! You even got arrested that one time-“ Blood red and twitchy, the guy considered strangling that scrawny neck. “Yougot it all wrong, I- well, I bet you´re into fucking necrophilia!” “Are you a corpse, Sportsy?” “T-Technically, I´m-“ “Then yes.” Old Sport groaned at Dave´s lack of fucks to give. “You´re… one hell of aspecial man, Dave.” Trying to find something to distract them, he turned and spottedJeremy at the end of the hallway. Now, he couldn´t ask him personally withoutbeing gutted by the puppet, but… “Dave, what do you say, what´s his?” “Hardcore BDSM with knifeplay, of course! Look at him! He BEGS to be stabbed…what else could you want from takin´ the puppet home?!” For solid ten seconds Old Sport looked at Dave. “You have no idea what you´retalking about, right?” “Nope! All I know is that you like panties and Jeremy wants to die and Mikeneeds to get fucking whipped.” Turning to T, Old Sport shook his head. “What did you expect when you askedthis question?” “EXPLOSIONS!” Dave threw a hand of glitter in the air. “NOW RUN, WHILE THEY AREDISTRACTED!” But there is no running. No escape. They will get these answers. And they will answer. And I will get banned from existing. AGAIN. Double void me already.

[hamilkilo]

If Apples Were Pears and Peaches Were Plums, I’d Love You Just the Same

Prompt: I know there’s been a lot of fat shaming and stuff of the like but people fail to realize that people also get shamed for being too flat (ex. No butt, no chest). I fall into that category, so can I please get a poly!hamilsquad x reader where the reader is feeling a little insecure about being so small?

Pairing: Poly!Hamilsquad x Reader

TW: body image issues, spicy themes(no sex, still spicy), fluff!!!

A/N: I know that the prompt here implies she/her pronouns, but the reality of body image is that guys are largely unrepresented when it comes to body acceptance. I also feel like this could apply to any pronouns, because the take away is still the same. I really hope y’all like this! As always, if you want me to tag something, please let me know! I want you to feel safe while reading my work! I love y’all! Happy reading!

Word Count: 1758

Body image. Always such a controversial topic. It’s never about the perfect body. It’s always about too fat, too thin, too skinny, too big, to small, too average. You can’t recall a single person you’ve ever met that ever loved themself and the way they looked one hundred percent.

Growing up, you had always been on the rather small side. Your grandmother had called you “nothing but skin and bones” for a majority of your childhood. Your friend’s mom once commented that “a gust of wind might blow you away.” You tried not to let it get to you, but more often than not, it did.

Recently, there had been an uproar of body positivity, a campaign encouraging women to love their bodies, any and every type. You loved the idea of it, but no matter how hard you tried, you couldn’t apply it to yourself. Maybe it was because you’d found it so hard to admit it to yourself. After all, men weren’t supposed to feel insecure about their own bodies.

One night, you had been cuddling on the couch with Herc when he ran his thumb over your rubs. He had been softly caressing your side, but when you felt his thumb skirt over the outline of your bones, you tensed and bit your lip. All of your insecurities came to surface. You found yourself pulled away from his embrace.

“You okay, babe?” He asked you with soft eyes, and you shrugged. You tried to play it off. Real men don’t admit their insecurities and shortcomings.

“Yeah, just warm. You’re like a furnace, Herc,” you chuckled, and he grinned bashfully.

“I know… Maybe less clothes would help?” He suggested, and you blushed, your face feeling hot.

“Haha, smooth.”

He rolled his eyes at you, grabbing you and pulling you on top of him as he fell backwards onto the couch. “Thanks, I try to be…”

You placed your hands on his chest to hold yourself up. You felt heated in this situation, your securities being the only things that held you back from ripping his clothes off.

You felt him trace his fingers over the curve of your lower lip, and you met his curious eyes. “What’s running through that beautiful brain of yours, baby?”

You looked down, unsure of admitting it to him, but he brought your chin up and met your gaze.

“You can tell me anything, Y/N.” You bit your lip again.

“I…” How do you say that you hate your body? That a toad couldn’t compare to Adonis? “Herc? Do you ever… Like, have you ever felt self conscious?”

He tilted his head thoughtfully. “Do you mean about my personality, my appearance, my sense of fashion-”

“Appearance,” you mumbled, and you felt his hands gently grip your hips.

“Sometimes, yeah,” he admitted, his thumb skimming beneath the fabric of your shirt. “I mean, I’m a big boy, I know that… I feel like people sometimes find me intimidating… I was always picked first in P.E., but I never wanted to play basketball or be a star on the football team… I just wanted to design clothes… For a long time, my parents found great difficulty in admitting that to themselves, and I did too. Sometimes, it’s hard for people to see a knife that’s useful for anything other than butchering… but it can be elegant, too, ya know? You can use it to cut open a package, cut out a design… it’s useful for more than what it’s meant to do. My hands, although they’re huge and perfect for ball handling, are also gentle enough for a soft caress, and they’re nimble enough for fine detail… Why do you ask?”

His words had moved you, and for a moment, you were lost for words. Your beautiful, perfect Herc, often felt self conscious, it seemed. “I… I sometimes feel like I don’t belong here. Like, I’m not attractive enough to deserve you guys. I’m small, flat, and lanky…”

You went to bury your face in your hands, but he caught your wrists, and then held your hands in his. “Y/N,” he breathed. “You’re nothing but perfect to us, so please don’t ever think otherwise.”

He moved so effortlessly and with such grace as he switched positions, holding you beneath him. His fingers softly traced over the silhouette of your frame. “I love the way your body moves when you reach up for the spice basket from the kitchen shelves…” He pressed a kiss to the hollow of your neck. “I love the way your chest heaves beneath me... “ He chuckled when he felt it. “Just like that.” He slid his right hand under your shirt. “I love the way goosebumps trace down your spine when I do that thing with my tongue you like so much…” You let your head fall back against the couch as he sucked on the sweet spot in your neck. “I love how you look beneath me…” He paused, and you looked up at him. He had pulled back enough for you to make eye contact, and he leaned forward. His lips just a breath away from yours. “But most importantly, I love you. I love you for who you are. You could look any way in the world, and I would love you regardless.”

He pressed his lips to yours then, in a sweet, loving kiss that melted away every dark thought in your mind. When you pulled away, he smiled at you, but a voice behind you interrupted.

“Are we talking about insecurities?” You quickly whipped around to see Alex perched on the arm of the couch, sipping his coffee. How long had he been there?

“Yeah…?” You answered as Herc helped you sit up.

“I overheard while I was in the kitchen refilling my coffee.” He stood and sat the half empty mug down. In Alex time, he hadn’t been there long. Otherwise, the mug would’ve been empty. “Y/N, I know what it is to be small.”

You felt your cheeks burn at the word you hated to much. It sounded like a curse word, the way he said it.

“I mean, I’m hardly 5’6” on a good day,” he added bitterly. “But, when I look at you, I do not think small… I think beautiful, gorgeous, crafted by God, and most importantly and miraculously, mine. I know I cannot erase away your insecurities with words of love, because, believe me, I’ve tried that on my own… But I want you to know that it’s okay to be insecure… Just know that others don’t see you that way. You don’t have to love every aspect of you to love yourself. There’s no pressure on you to ever look perfect. Besides, I find that perfect is pretty subjective to the eye of the beholder, and perhaps I’m biased, but you, my sweet, are the walking definition-” you cut his ramblings off with a kiss, almost knocking him back. You turned him so that his back was to the couch, and you pushed him down, straddling him, and Herc laughed from beside you two.

Things had started to progress past innocent kissing when John and Laf got back from grocery shopping and found you three in a heated make out session.

“Qu’est-ce c’est?” Laf asked as he sat his armful of groceries on the table beside the front door. John copied him, and they both watched in amusement.

“Y/N was feeling self conscious…” Alex admitted, and you swatted his arm. Great, now everyone knew. You didn’t want it to be a big deal.

John frowned, moving towards you. “Well, we can’t have that, now can we?”

“Oh no, Jack, we can’t,” Laf agreed, and they both advanced with predatory grins. Alex pulled away from you, offering no protection, as John scooped you up into his arms. You wrapped your legs around his hips to steady yourself, and he ran his nails down your back tauntingly. You felt Laf behind you, and you leaned back against his chest.

“Tell me, sweetheart, what’s got you down?” John drawled slowly. You tightenned your grip on his shoulders when you felt his hand squeeze your ass.

“I… I’m munchkin height and flat as a board,” you admitted with chagrin, and you looked away in shame. Tears burned your eyes. You’d never said that thought out loud. Not that way.

John growled and jerked your pelvis closer to his. “Well then, in that case, I’m really into munchkins.”

You couldn’t help it, a laugh bubbled from your chest. You’d never expected that reaction. “I’m gonna have to kinkshame ya for that one, Johnny.”

He gave you a cheeky grin. “Kinkshame all ya want, darlin’, that won’t stop me from lovin’ you.” He pressed a kiss to your neck, and you let your head fall back to Laf’s shoulder, and he began to kiss the other side.

“You… ‘appen to be… the perfect size for me to ‘old at night, mon cher,” Laf purred against you, and you bit back a moan.

“And you’re just big enough for all of us to love,” John murmured, and although the sentence was fairly innocent, the way he said it made it sound lewd… and you loved it.

“I love the way your back arches when I kiss this spot here,” John groaned as he pressed his lips to the spot where your shoulder met your neck, and you moaned, pressing back against Laf even harder.

“And I, mon ange, love the way your hips move when I run my hands down your torso,” Laf chuckled as he did exactly what he described, and your body corresponded.

“What… What else do you love about me?” You gasped as they had their way with you. You watched as John glanced devilishly at where you knew your other two boyfriends were.

“I dunno, guys… Should we show him?”

You knew the answer when you felt fingers tug at the hem of your pants.

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Even hate stuff, like thamknyoi, you took the time to think about me, even if its death wishes, you thought about me⭐️I love doing scary makeup⭐️fucked up shit and horror is my thing, but I can't watch horror movies alone⭐️I used to be really into werewolves and stuff when I first got on the internet and I guess you couldve considered me a furry⭐️I'm in love with my boyfriend⭐️did I mention I love my boyfriend⭐️that doctor who band that was called like Chameleon something??? Idk but they made really good songs. Check them out you guys⭐️COMEDY IS GREAT, FUNNY PEOPLE CAN FUCK ME UP⭐️I'm into dark comedy, but not insensitive comedy. Your racist jokes aren't funny, Barbara.⭐️I love tamale pie. If you haven't had tamale pie you need to have it.⭐️tamale pie and cornbread are the best⭐️sushi is really good⭐️my old choir teacher sang opera and was professionally trained in it.⭐️we had a karaoke day once and he sang karaoke opera for everyone. 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If I could just live as a guy who goes around and finds wildlife I would never ask for another thing in my life⭐️I've recently started playing Pokémon Go again. It's fun⭐️my first Pokémon was a pikachu⭐️I've already traded my first Pokémon for more candies because I'm vain and want to be the very best⭐️I used to be a compulsive liars and would spend hours at night crying because I thought I was a horrible person for it. I was seven(7) at the time.⭐️I'm a trans⭐️koala bears are actively not helping themselves stay alive, not a fact about me, just a fact I like.⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I just got a new kitten named Periwinkle Blue⭐️if I die before I travel to at least one(1) foreign country I will have died a sad man⭐️my great grandpa was Jewish and I carry a lot of that culture and its traditions down with me, despite not actually considering myself part of the religion.⭐️I'm a descendant of the Karuk tribe which is located in Northern California. 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What does this mean?⭐️I'm technically overweight yet look like the average "healthy" body.⭐️I have Mono⭐️I had lice in second(2) grade and lost many of my beloved stuffed animals because of that⭐️because of trauma I regress on occasion and my YouTube watch history is always interesting when that happens.⭐️I have extremely bad anxiety and don't even realize it half the time⭐️Jimmy Fallon is better than Jimmy Kimmel⭐️I once played a union soldier in a civil war reenactment held by a traveling group of reenactors and trust me, they do not mess around. 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Mattie, the German shorthair mix, Ember the Alaskan/Siberian husky mix, and Memphis the purebred Doberman pinscher. One(1) adult cat named Freckles and one(1) kitten named Periwinkle Blue.⭐️I love video games.⭐️I love theories. Let's talk theories all day. Any theory, let's talk.⭐️I love talking about sociology and social expectations that aren't realized.⭐️I love collecting odd knick-knacks. 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