#then vape and have a shower and go the fuck to bed w slay the spire ig

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you know what i'm gonna just say it. some shit has gone down locally that i thought that we'd outgrown in the 2010s and i'm fucking pissed off. it's somehow worse this time bc we're facing significantly worse threats and they still decided this shit was worth doing for their own egos.

sick of other brown people who see me and others working hard to organise something and getting shockingly decent success with community unity and pull the race card the moment they can. sick of "poc can't protest it's not safe. but also fuck white people who organise any action whatsoever without us. and fuck white people who do their own risk assessment bc what if a bigot decides to blame poc for what you did." like that's literally victim blaming and also we are not a monolith. it's insulting from the people who haven't fought cops alongside me and heartbreaking from the people who have and have somehow decided they're now gonna be on this vibe.

but more than anything else i am sick of white guilt. sick of white people who are willing to let me do all the work of organising something and tremulously flutter around being moderately useful if a little bit fragile until the moment one of those wreckers happens to pull the race card and then they immediately do whatever is necessary to stop feeling discomfort, which usually involves surrendering all critical thinking and any respect whatsoever for me and my work. it's fucked up that they can't hear a brown person say that something is white without going immediately "i'm sorry :( i'm sorry i'm white :( i'm sorry this whole massive community effort, which was definitely not facilitated and organised by a real brown person who is watching me say this, was run entirely by white people with no poc or migrant voices involved :("

what a fucking insult! what an insult to me and to the māori and asian organisers who were putting in the work! we broke bread together! and the moment they get a chance to do Performative Allyship that goes out the window in favor of smearing local trans orgs with destructive rumours that they're racist that were clearly spread by someone who was trying to sabotage the local antifascist movement? fuck off. they better not dare talk to me about community ever again