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xoshepard · 2 years ago

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im trying to feel a little better and more capable regardless of my Circumstances, so 1) im dedicating myself to getting to bed on time, meaning i will stop what im doing andget ready for bed as soon as “bedtime” turns on on my phone, unless stopping will lead to my house burning down (or unless im in class, bc class ends at 7:20 and my phone switches to bedtime at 7:15, but those days i just have to brush my teeth and get in the shower as soon as i get home) and 2) whenever i go to do something that i know is not necessarily in my best interest im going to bring the thought of what i want to do out into the open and ask whether this is going to contribute to my “suffering” so to speak, and i hope i can find things a lot more doable when i stop overindulging bc of impulsive thoughts and when i start getting enough sleep every night

#i don't like my new job v much but it would seem a lot less like purgatory if i was running on full #and not mindlessly refreshing news sites to find anything that will grab my attention better than my job sdjklfhskl #and if i look at eating/playing video games/even watching tv as something that has the potential to make me feel worse in the long term #rather than something that i know will make me feel better immediately #then i think i'll have an easier time dealing with my problems w overindulgence and procrastination #moving myself away from instant gratification #and hedonism which. lbr. is my whole deal. ksdlfjsdkl #trying to gravitate back towards the middle #maybe i had a childhood of self-denial so i gave myself a decade of indulgence to make up for it skxdfjskf #now i have to fix my mindset and find the balance before i uhhhh die?#tirah talks

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