#then gave them all back with the carlando 1-2

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[killerandhealerqueen]

AO3 Wrapped 2024 (Writer's Edition)

1. How many words have you written this year?

747,677

2. How many works did you publish this year?

28

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)? 

Die Trying. It's my longest oneshot to date and I just really like how it turned out

4. What work of yours has the most hits? 

Okay, so technically my fic 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer has the most hits but that fic has carried over since like...2022? I think? So if we're truly counting this year then it would be It's Not the Devil at Your Door (It's Just Your Shadow on the Floor) with 4,512 hits

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

Oh It's Not the Devil at Your Door (It's Just Your Shadow on the Floor) because while it wasn't my first F1 fic, I was shocked at how many people really enjoyed it. Like, shocked

6. Favorite title you used? 

Oh, all of my titles were good this year

7. If you use song lyrics, which artist’s songs did you pull from the most? 

My song lyrics were pulled from different artists, not one in particular

8. Pairing you wrote the most for this year? 

Jiang Yuelou/Chen Yuzhi (no one is surprised)

9. Favorite pairing you wrote for this year? 

Well, Jiang Yuelou/Chen Yuzhi is always fun to write for, but I'd have to say either Loscar or Carlando (Lestappen is good too) but I'd say these two, just because they were different and their fics were fun to write

10. What work was the quickest to write? 

Promise to Keep

Wrote it literally after the finale of Chinese Paladin 4 aired

11. What work took you the longest to write? 

Die Trying

So I created the document in May but then like finally finished it in November. So...yeah. Like 7 months. 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer is taking me forever though...who knows when I'm gonna finish it. Hopefully next year or the year after that

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year? 

7...maybe? I know I have like 3 definite ones and the other ones are up in the air

13. What’s your longest work of the year? 

Okay, so 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer is technically the longest fic of the year, but if we're just counting 2024 alone it would probably be Die Trying because all of my longer fics carried over from 2023

14. What’s your shortest work of the year? 

Stay the Night By My Side (1,096 words)

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer

She's truly gonna follow me til the end of time

16. What’s your most common “Additional Tags” tag? 

Originally Posted on Tumblr (185) (I wrote a lot of tumblr prompts back in the day)

17. Your favorite character to write this year? 

Oh, I'd have to say Oscar Piastri in my F1 rpf fics. He's just fun

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

I didn't really have any trouble with characters this year

19. What’s one pairing you want to explore next year?

I'd like to explore Loscar and Lestappen a little more next year and Javey. I have some good fic ideas in store for them

20. Which work of yours have you reread the most?

All of them?

21. How many kudos in total did you get this year? 

1,855

22. Which work has the most comments?

恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer

23. Did you do any collaborative works this year?

No

24. Did you write any gifts this year? 

No

25. Did you receive any gifts this year? 

No

26. What’s your most common category? 

M/M

27. What do you listen to while writing? 

Anything and everything, but mainly a playlist that I listen to almost every day

28. Favorite work you wrote this year?

Tie between Die Trying and Monster Like Me

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year? 

         “You know…I think the reason Keying is so kind and so loving like Princess Ning’an…is because you are kind and loving” he mused, making Chen Yuzhi look at him in confusion.          “What do you mean?  Me?  Kind?  Loving?  I killed innocent people, like the fucking princess, for God’s sake.  How does that make me kind and loving person?” he hissed.  Jiang Yuelou huffed.          “That was the you then.  It is not the you now.  You are a kind and loving person, Chen Yuzhi, whether you believe it or not.  I’ve seen it in the way you treat Keying and in the way you treat villagers.  You care.  Could the you all those years ago say that?” he asked.  Chen Yuzhi was quiet before he shook his head.          “No” he whispered.  Jiang Yuelou nodded.          “Exactly.  You learned how to be a kind and loving person from Princess Ning’an and then took that love and care and kindness and raised Keying with it.  She is a kind and loving child because of you.  You, not anyone else” he declared, making Chen Yuzhi stare at him with wide eyes before he quickly looked away, silence soon falling over the both of them before Jiang Yuelou looked over at him and placed a gentle hand on his thigh.          “You are a good and kind and loving person, Chen Yuzhi.  You are not Zhan Tianqing.  And you never will be” he assured before he pushed himself to his feet and made his way towards the door, just as Chen Yuzhi looked at him.          “Jiang Yuelou” he called out.  Jiang Yuelou turned to look at him.          “Hm?” he replied.  Chen Yuzhi looked at him with glassy eyes.          “Thank you” he whispered. 

I just like this passage because I think it was something that Chen Yuzhi needed to hear and I really like how I wrote it (cuz I had something different planned out for this scene but I like how it turned out)

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year? 

That for some god damn reason, my fics wanted to fight me for no good reason. No, I'm not kidding, I had to rewrite Monster Like Me three different times because we settled on the final version (the third version) and Die Trying also wanted to be a little shit...but then again, I'm always striving for my fics to be really good (I have fun writing but I hold my fics to a high standard) so sometimes my fics like to be brats. Which is rude but *shrugs*

Tagging: @clawbehavior @breitweisergallery @sunriseverse @theotherwhybietoldmeso @hyperbolicgrinch and anyone else who wants to play

[inchidentally]

JSYK I'm with you on containment breaches. Tends to go hand in hand with girlfriend harassment too. Countdown to Rebecca's account going private in 3..2..1

I can't remember which post I left tags on about that but yeah the "corporatization" of any rpf always spells trouble. it's why I don't rb any of it from the main F1/Netflix/sports accounts. LN4 media doing it is I assume with Lando's OK but even there it's a bit... uncomfortable.

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(this is probably way more than you were asking for anon but apparently these text posts is what I do now)

look. carlando was my main ship when I got into F1 fandom and is going to stay in my top 3 forever. but I keep the lines drawn nice and sharp. I l-o-v-e shipping them but I'm also aware that they're literally big brother/little brother and that all of the physicality and closeness is identical to Charles with Arthur. that and the fact that Carlos is sahuuuuuper straight and folks just confuse euro dude behavior with friends for gayness. Carlos was the one who pushed for Lando to grow up and get a gf and Carlos himself was practically engaged for 6 or 7 years. his own sister gave Isa her wedding bouquet ffs. he's so confirmed heterosexual that he can't be alone for more than 2 seconds between girlfriends lol

but between McLaren content on social media getting absolutely bombarded with irrelevant carlando comments and the hate toward Rebecca ramping up every single damn day (I'd say it's a solid 80/20 mostly of rpf hate toward her and the remaining being plain old jealousy) idk it's not feeling good rn. and it's mostly on IG and a bit on YT (I don't use twitter) but yikes at how much Lando content has something about 'he's thinking about Carlos' or 'omg just like Carlos' or carlando when it's nothing to do with carlando. Lando works so incredibly hard at the two to three careers he's running consecutively and it feels pretty damn insulting to reduce him to one F1 friend - however close they are. Carlos has nothing to do with Quadrant or Lando's YT work or his own sponsorship work. that's Lando doing all of that.

that and when the Today show interviewer pushed the "bromance" angle you could see Lando get kind of fed up (which they tried to edit out) and steer the question back around to actual racing. tbh he even seemed a little icked by DTS making such a big deal about carlando and he and Max joked it off.

even through my Singapore euphoria I could tell Carlos and Lando were walking media ppl back from going too literal with the DRS and saying no, it was advantageous for Carlos and yes, Lando absolutely would've overtaken him if he could have gotten the win for himself. I've actually really respected Lando reminding people that they're not in these rarefied positions to do anything other than try to win or as close to it as possible. they're not making millions and living the high life just to throw race results in the air and play favorites with their friends !!??

and this whole "competition" between carlando and dando/charlos/landoscar/whatever is absolutely not making it's way onto my blog lol. I do know that a lot of people in tumblr are just joking when they do that and I think the 'angst' posts are funny but wow IG and YT are not playing around. they're making videos trying to like disprove other Lando ships and it's ??? (funniest one is the Vegas opening ceremony thing and fighting over who Lando was waving to, Daniel or Carlos) these dudes are absolutely not having real life in-fighting about which of their friends they like "better" or who is their bestest friend. (especially when Lando in the same interview as above stated that F1 drivers - Carlos included - are not his actual private life friends so uh oh how does that play into the competition?? it's so absurd)

I'm not a wives and girlfriends obsessive but I absolutely I am not here for them receiving anything negative from F1 fans unless they themselves have instances truly, openly as problematic as the drivers often are. even then I'm wary bc the sexism motive and double standards run so deep in fandom against women. Rebecca has done nothing but exist as Carlos' gf and it's just a sea of "there's something fake about her" and "body experts" claiming the relationship is fake and that she's "obviously a beard" while he's actually with Lando. that last part craaaaacks me tf up because these men travel to Middle Eastern countries where homosexuality has the death penalty or prison.......... they are NOT gonna be out here referring to themselves publicly as a bromance and their ship name if they're trying to keep this huge gay secret while they tour maximum home o'fobic countries???

I have a few extra thoughts about why folks have especially latched onto being proprietary about which men Lando is closest to or "should be with" when it comes to rpf but I feel like we all kinda know why. I'm over here writing pages of text about him which is lame in it's own way - but even I acknowledge that his greatest attraction as a person is himself and not his relationships to other people. it's why he's the sun that a lot of this content orbits around.

I'm also genuinely glad that Lily's existence and Oscar's quiet but firm reminders of her arrived alongside the landoscar fandom happening. I don't personally see any hate toward her and no one's in denial. even the rare fic that has him and Lily fictionally break up is fully fair to her. I've also posted a lot about how I genuinely love real life Lando and Oscar interaction even more than the rpf (and I love the rpf lol) and honestly the feeling seems shared with a lot of us from what I've seen. so especially if Lily uses her engineering degree to start working in F1 it's good to know that she won't have to deal with crazed conspiracy theories about her being an F1 industry plant to keep Oscar's dick out of Lando's hole or whatever.

for anyone who's read this far or skipped to the end tldr I'm always going to ship carlando and landoscar (and even dando) as well as charlos. but as a carlando shipper I really hope the commodification of it dies down before it truly starts to piss off Lando or Carlos. or Carlos has to put his foot down like Lando did and say hey, stop harassing my girlfriend it's weird.

shit's just been feeling very 'forced' lately to the point of imploding and I'm uncomfy :/