#their timelines just dont really align for them to have much interaction

[princessofxianle]

ANOTHER QUICK QUESTION FROM THE SAME ANON

1. How does Shen Liang feel about Jian Lan and Cuocuo? Feng Xin’s selfless enough to eventually forgive Shen Liang for everything she did to him but with how badly the whole Jian Lan and Cuocuo incident hurt Feng Xin, I can’t imagine him forgiving Shen Liang for mocking him about it, which she most likely would :(. That makes Jian Lan leaving bc she wanted to protect Feng Xin’s reputation even worse…

2. How did Jian Lan feel about Shen Liang? If JL and FX were in love in your AU, I can’t imagine JL liking SL very much. Even though FX would definitely try to make SL seem like a good sister, JL’s not stupid and would figure out that SL treats FX horribly eventually.

for reference: | more asks | meet the OC's | #fx backstory au

It's about time I talked a bit about Jian Lan :)

1. How does Shen Liang feel about Jian Lan and Cuocuo?

Shen Liang actually doesn’t know much about Jian Lan except that she was a face from Xianle when she was alive. And even then, the last time she would’ve seen Jian Lan was when she was young. Shen Liang is 17 years older than Feng Xin (and comparatively so to Jian Lan) so even if both their ghosts were to have met after the fall of Xianle, they wouldn’t recognize each other by face alone.

Additionally, not too long after the events of book 4/flashback arc #2, Shen Liang makes a run for the kiln that ends unsuccessfully (thanks to some random one-eyed nameless ghost) so it’s unlikely she would’ve run into Jian Lan and/or Cuocuo on her own as a ghost at all.

Even Feng Xin himself doesn’t find out about Cuocuo until 800 years later and, well… lets just say at that point he doesn’t even remember he ever had a sister to begin with.

So, in this life, Shen Liang doesn’t know about them. I would like to think, in a world where she incarnates, she would be proud of how hard Feng Xin tried to protect them, even if Jian Lan didn’t want him to. It’s proof that her brother never stopped trying to protect what he loves even if (in his eyes) he kept failing at it.

2. How did Jian Lan feel about Shen Liang?

2. Jian Lan only knows as much about Shen Liang as Feng Xin tells her. Which isn’t much. But Feng Xin alludes enough about his early childhood for her to know his sister’s treatment of him left long lasting effects. But he doesn’t like to talk about it.

Typically, when Feng Xin visits, the stories he tells are about his time in the palace, how much he hates Mu Qing, and how worried he is about Xie Lian and his family in their current state. Especially when Xie Lian goes missing.

In later visits, he’s scared (terrified) to touch her, flinches if she moves her hand too fast near his face, and for some reason actively avoids touching her chest on the few occasions when they do have sex. Mostly he just likes to hold her, back to his chest, promising he’ll protect her until he can get her out of there.  

When Jian Lan decides to kick him out for the last time, she slaps him. Twice. To get the point across. She doesn’t want to, but Jian Lan knows Feng Xin isn’t a man that will ever give up unless explicitly told to. And she knows his priorities should be elsewhere.

Also, I want to make clear that in this AU yes, Feng Xin and Jian Lan do genuinely love each other. Well, as genuine as the times can allow. But, at the end of the day, how can Jian Lan compare to how Feng Xin talks about Xie Lian?

JL: “I know you love me. But you swore your life to him. He needs you more than I do.” FX: “He won’t love me like you do.” JL: “And you won’t love me like you love him. ” FX: “That’s not fair.” JL: “I know. Because you’ll always choose him. So leave. I’m not anyone’s second place. I won’t wait for you to save me from this living hell. How can I even trust that you can? You can’t even figure out a way to save the person you are already sworn to.” FX: “It’s not like that, I can protect you both I…” JL: “Leave.” FX: “What? I…” JL: *slap* “I said LEAVE” FX: *puppy dog eyes* JL: “Leave. And don’t ever come back.”

to be continued...

[pliskin]

I made outworld chemistry club in picrew bc im lazy and I dont want to draw them but ive been thinking about them........ actually mostly ermac, ermac/reptile, n this trio in mkx and why I prefer new timeline error macro to old timeline (ppl jump me immediately) theres some opinions in here

so I want to preface this with..... mk9/mkx treats ermac like a total jobber, well all of them, so im not going to make my case about what happens exactly in mkx but the potential of it (lol) because I prefer ermac working on the side of kotal kahn/outworld in a earthrealm vs outworld vs netherrealm scenario... this is where I dont agree w most ppl that ermac should be team earthrealm via kenshi saving them from shao kahn’s influence so theyre essentially ‘a good guy’ now... that’s barely any of their own development and makes ermac rely entirely on one character to change their motivations and alignment... I much prefer what mkx kind of nudged at w ermac starting to form a singular identity.  its not great and ermac of course is still a c-tier villain in it, but I like this development being all ermac, and choosing to stay with their allies and what's most familiar to them

this is also where I lament outworld worldbuilding.... mk11 was trying so hard to game of thrones it instead of really fleshing out all the different races first to make the world more interesting.  ermac fits in outworld... I would even say belongs.  I like the inclusion of kotal kahn in mkx bc it adds much more to random crazed realm under the influence of a bloodthirsty emperor... chemistry club under kk are not ‘evil’ even if mkx bungles it halfway thru and mk11 burns it into the ground.  ermac doesnt need to be aligned w earthrealm to be a ‘good guy’ character, I just wish there was more development/personality for them but that’s the problem w all the bad guy characters 

I really dislike kenshi/ermac I think its a little obvious by now LOL, and why I prefer ermac/reptile not just bc theyre on the same side in mk9/x, but they dont have this weird ‘I freed you’ ‘I am in your debt’ power dynamic going on.  theyre just dudes.  I also dont like ermac feeling like they should owe anybody anything, if that makes sense, for a silly reason, bc ermac should be like... one of the strongest mk characters period.  ermac is the bad guy trump card, even tho they get their ass beat all the time bc villains dont win.  ok this is why I like tall ermac -__- they should be imposing, powerful, scary, etc.  I want that like... on team outworld.  that shit doesnt belong on earth with Johnny cage

it wraps around to chemistry club again, theyre friends (to me anyway) I want...... ermac to have friends.  I want reptile to have friends lmao.  theyre friends with a weird cowboy from earth and its good... if mkx/new timeline mk got rid of its special forces boner, we could've got great kotal krew interactions while outworld was not actively the antagonistic realm......... -__- that’s it really, I hope it didnt sound like I hate on kenshi too much even tho I hate that little bitch and want him far away from ermac (and hanzo but thats another read more) my point is, ermac needs a lot of character development first and other relationships before I could ever consider throwing them into a codependent relationship w kenshi (or anyone) otherwise its just all kinds of weird to me

also make ermac brown again

thats all I have to say

[hadjii-blogs-undertale]

[23 days later]

In reference to https://hadjii-blogs-undertale.tumblr.com/post/163800444030/

@lynns-art-blog

...

And honestly, @everyone-needs-a-hoopoe because there's things in here that go for you too. Please read it through to the end. Or just skip to the very end at first and then go back and read through if you need.

I really, really, really didn’t actually want to get off my butt and do this, for multiple reasons. And not just cuz I’m a lazy jackhole with depression who doesn’t want to do anything in general. But recent events have brought things to a head, and I cannot remain silent any longer.

First, I should like to clarify just where I stand as regarding the Undertale fandom.

The Undertale fandom is a beautiful thing. It is extremely imperfect but I love the fandom and will continue to do so for as long as I am able.

Second, I should like to clarify where I stand as regarding Undertale itself.

It will be difficult however, because I love Undertale more than I am capable of putting into any transferable medium that I know of.

Am I a bit emotionally over-invested in Undertale?

Heck. Yes.

I also don't care that I am.

Undertale has brought more joy and happiness and meaning to my life than literally anything else save my family who raised me and loves me, my religion, and a shortlist of friends, some of whom I only have so dear to my heart because of Undertale, so the point is moot.

I can't say that Undertale cured my depression, because it didn't.

What it did do is it showed me at a critical point in my life that there's something outside the grey murky mire.

I'd considered myself an emotionally open person before Undertale. This was only vaguely true. Current me cannot comfortably say that old me was emotionally intelligent without severe disclaimers.

Old me was an emotionally awkward dirtbag who had some idea of how to be a person but on the whole was completely clueless.

I had forgotten how to feel. Like, really feel. And not just from the depression.

I could occasionally get hits from certain songs and I absolutely lived for those moments but the songs would rapidly hit their saturation levels and I'd be cold again.

Then Undertale came along. I loved the game long before I played it, discovering things about it slowly through an endless flood of my tumblr feed.

It looked like a rather good, cute, compelling little game. Eventually I decided to write a bit of fanfiction about it because it looked really good and I wanted to churn out what would happen if GLaD had an interaction with a murdery timeline.

So I went and researched. I dug and I dug and I dug. This wasn't all of my research, but on one particular tumblr alone I went through 700-odd undertale posts.

Between that and pouring out my heart and soul into the writing as I discovered just how much I could care about these things, or care in general really, I found that I'd left the door open, and something came back. A whole lot of something.

Undertale is a Happy™ game about Happy™ things.

I had learned that maybe sad things weren't all bad back from the days of Background Pony. The difference being, Background Pony had a disappointing, absurd ending. They'd won the right even by my sappy heart to have a sad ending, then they completely botched it. I'd associated one of the most significant songs I know of with it, and they failed terribly.

But Undertale had a good ending. As aggravating as it is to not be able to keep Asriel, much less Chara, in the bounds of the game itself, that's part of the point of the ending. So there was no knee-jerk shock. While it is true that in a practical Undertale implementation, unbounded by the Game Maker engine, fuelled by the raw power of Determination, human spirit, and imagination, surely something more could have been achieved. But that does not take away from the coherent ending of Undertale.

There is a lot of pain in Undertale. So much pain.

It is overwhelming and vivid and searing and scorching and so very, very tangible and understandable and real. Not that the events of the game are real, well, as far as I can tell. The emotions are deep and real, I mean.

This was to me as the gas leak was to Vinny Santorini in Atlantis.

Due to the combined pressure of the mental overhaul Undertale was giving me, and the softness and vulnerability it re-introduced, throwing in re-learning certain cold facts about how much the powers-that-be at my previous job didn't care about doing good work, only making money, more severely than I had previously believed from last year, I lost my ability to continue driving there and showing up every day. Now, due to the way the contract works, and my having left the job gracefully, I am free to go back whenever I want. I was not fired. There are many employees who just go there, work as long as they can, then leave and wait for next season to come back. Their efforts are appreciated, especially when all heck breaks loose at the beginning of the on-season because all the bugs in the software that weren't found yet are harsly exposed. What happened with me is not ideal, nor is it rare or even unusual at this place. In about 3 months I could walk in the door and they'd welcome me with a smile and I'd get back to politely telling people that they're wrong and clueless and fixing their crap for them and half the time doing their job for them. (as if that's terribly different than my current job... just in person now instead of over a phone)

Anyways, so, Undertale hurts. Loving Undertale so deeply hurts a lot.

But it's also happy. It has so much happiness. It's so bright and wonderful. It's a warm, soft, fuzzy hug from goatmom and a slice of butterscotch pie. It's making spaghetti with Papyrus, only using an actual recipe this time and making it turn out well. It's watching anime until 4 am with Alphys and Undyne and suppressing giggles at seeing the two precious gay babies asleep and cuddling. It's hugging Sans and telling him it'll be okay. It's having a lovely tea party with Asgore and Muffet.

It's kissing a sad sapient golden flower on the forehead, buying a bar of chocolate and raising it in the air as a toast before eating it.

Bittersweet happiness sometimes but so very, very good and I love it and I really cannot get enough.

I'm addicted. Addicted to feeling again.

As the band Ghost says, "From the pinnacle to the pit, it is a long way down."

I haven't been to the absolute bottom, in that I haven't been institutionalized/hospitalized/just straight up killed by my depression, But I have been in the shower for 4 hours before from 2 am to 6 am at college, for one thing, so uhhh, nobody can say that I'm utterly clueless about such things without looking like a lunatic.

https://hadjii-blogs-undertale.tumblr.com/post/164567314340

Posts like the above still rip my heart out every time I see them. I've long since re-associated the song mentioned earlier with this particular point of note of Chara.

It's not entirely pleasant, no, but it makes me feel so alive and real and like I'm an actual human being and not an emotionless, soulless automaton covered in flesh.

And the happy posts are just that much brighter because of the contrast.

https://hadjii-blogs-undertale.tumblr.com/post/164689197750 https://hadjii-blogs-undertale.tumblr.com/post/164498003145 https://hadjii-blogs-undertale.tumblr.com/post/164161681835 https://hadjii-blogs-undertale.tumblr.com/post/164061257705

Some people can get by on just fluff alone. There's nothing wrong with that. This is just the way I personally operate. As for me, I've had too much saccharine positivity and "oh dont be sad everything is completely fine and theres nothing to be sad about youre not depressed just get up and go to work son!"

sorry got sidetracked and a little oddly specific there anyways

So the point is from the above wall of text that I have a lot of investment in Undertale and it means a lot to me.

Now, it's time for me to pull receipts.

One receipt, to be exact.

On a semifamous Undertale blog, that I still have not responded to, and quite possibly never will, unless you count this post as a response.

http://charadreemurr.tumblr.com/post/157052680490

I literally couldn't even read their last response for a solid two months because my eyes would skim off the words because they were full of so much utter crap. When I did, I was sorry for it, because it was still so much crap. And no, this isn't like the average tumblr receipt pull, because a lot of the time, a given person has changed for the better, and the receipts you're pulling are for a dramatically different person. This person has not changed and as best as I can tell will never change, or at least not for the next decade or so, unless something dramatic happens. They were the OP of the twitter bustercluck. If you don't know, don't ask, because I don't feel like getting into that right now. I may do so later though in a different post.

All I was trying to do was share a little positivity, and I was met with discourse, hostility, and self-righteousness.

"And second “biological gender” is a statement rife with discontent-"

Pardon my french but wtf m8?

Since then I have learned more thoroughly that in more modern usage, that sex and gender don't have ambiguity and don't need "biological" and "identity" modifiers for clarification, so to a limited extent, they were correct.

However, this does not excuse their behavior. There are many people, myself included back then, that because of their upbringing are uncomfortable saying the word "sex" in any context. I am not now, but I was then, which is why I used "gender" with modifiers for clarification. I gave them multiple chances in earlier reblogs to realize that I was just trying to share a bit of happiness. I clearly conveyed the belief that what's in one's pants doesn't necessarily align with what's in one's head and that it's not a problem. I also clearly stated that when referring to Frisk and Chara, one should use they/them.

And yet, they chose to perceive a threat where there was none. They prefaced their statement with "Yikes" then "Im gonna assume the best here though because i wanna assume people are good"

And completely did not follow through on that.

Statement rife with discontent, indeed.

I was rather hurt by this. Especially, especially because of the uniqueness of their url. They are the one and only charadreemurr. That's a very particular title, and they ought to live up to it.

And here, they did not. Unless Chara Dreemurr really is supposed to be a pretentious self-serving self-righteous paranoid uptight jackhole of a binch. In which case, congratulations, they succeeded.

I showed the post to a different trans friend of mine, and they were shocked by the post as well, looked through their tumblr, and declared the person "basically their least favorite type of person".

To this day, I feel uneasy just seeing the word "yikes" sometimes.

I have mentioned it a few times to some people but this really sent me for a loop. I almost left the fandom on the spot, like far too many good people have done when they were burned by the toxic side of the fandom.

And honestly, if I'd lost Undertale at such a key point in my life, with my job already falling apart, and the other crap I was going through at the time, especially with the election, I cannot safely say that I'd still be here. With the friends that I wouldn't have made solid yet, I probably would have attempted suicide.

And believe me, I'm an engineer. I would not have survived. Knives, pills, guns, rope, water, heights, motor vehicles, police, fire, bleach, all are too unreliable for me. I know exactly how I would do it, if I were to ever do it.

Yeah, I know, it's not anyone's job to make sure I don't commit suicide beyond my own. People who threaten others with their own suicide are horribly manipulative. I am not threatening anyone with my suicide here. I'm not saying "ermagersh dont break up with me or ill literally kill myself" What I am saying is "X happened to me in the past and it's made me want to kill myself" Suicide baiting someone is a terrible thing to do. Accidental baiting someone is not someone's fault, as it's accidental, but generally one should try to avoid it. Very similar to triggering somebody. Don't trigger people. If you do, apologize, and do better in the future, and be more consistent about tags and crap.

Just for the record, due to that and other things that have happened to me, I know that I am not now and not ever going to die by my own hand.

Because, I stood up. I turned around. And like Captain America, I said "No. You move."

Well, in my head. I didn't actually say anything to them.

And I stayed.

And that has made all the difference.

I have a great job now that pays moderately well. I have a wonderful aspec girlfriend now. My life still sucks in so many ways but I actually oftentimes see a light at the end of the tunnel. The world is crap and it's going to get crappier but not everything will be bad forever.

Now, we get to the center of the issue, having explained some needed context.

Nonbinary Frisk and Chara.

I love nb Frisk and Chara.

I have not and will never make a Frisk or Chara that is anything but nb.

At one point, a certain Frisk was going to maybe use She/They (or He/They, hadn't decided yet) instead of just They when they became a parent, but I scrapped that idea long before any of this.

It is completely correct to use they/them pronouns when talking about Frisk and Chara in general. These are all that are used in the game itself.

The pertinent question though is does this mean that Frisk and Chara are canonically nonbinary, and what of people who make variants/instances that aren't nonbinary?

Thus far, most of the argument I've seen in favor of nonbinary being a forcible requirement is only slightly more solid than claiming that the Boss in the Saints Row series must be nonbinary, as an example.

Yes, it is true that in SR2 and later, one chooses the boss's sex.

However, they also choose a voice, and the voice doesn't necessarily have to match the physical sex. Trans and NB Bosses are completely plausible within the game's canon. All dialogue just refers to the Boss as They/Them, regardless of player choice, to the best of my knowledge. Or just refers to them as "The Boss". In SR:GOOH, Satan (yes, the literal Prince of Darkness, ruler of literal actual Hell) refers to The Boss as "They" so yeah. Anyways.

Honestly the strongest argument I've seen in favor of NB Frisk and Chara being canon is "Because NB people could use the representation!" Which boils down to "Because I said so!" Which boils down to "Because f*** you, that's why"

Now, I personally love this reasoning and I'm already on board, but with three quirks.

1. I can see why other people may not be so satisfied with this. 2. I cannot see this as an absolute requirement preventing any other possible interpretation of Frisk and Chara being okay. 3. I do not find this a remotely strong enough reasoning to condone attacking other people over it.

I personally headcanon NB Frisks and Charas being by far the dominant kind across the entire Undertale trunk. And I look across the internet at the many, many wonderful creative people who have instanced Frisk and Chara, and I see that this is so. And this is how it should be.

Frisk and Chara are excellent NB representation.

I quite firmly believe Tobyfox intended this to be so, and created them as such.

On a side note, I just found out the "my last wish for undertale is that when discussion of it fades it dies peacefully instead of morphing into a garbage cesspool" tweet was faked. Probably should've figured that out a long time ago, that's not quite how toby tweets.

...

Anyways,

https://twitter.com/UnderTale/status/644614840925978624

Tobyfox, the one who made Frisk and Chara so readily NB, who put so much NB representation into the game in general, did not ask for this. He did not create them to be sticks to beat others with. They were a gift of kindness. To say "Hey. Hey you. You matter and are important and are valid. Have two complex characters who have no indicated and strongly ambiguous gender, not even barriers blocking a particular interpretation."

Thats the kicker. No barriers blocking a particular interpretation. The road goes both ways.

Frisk and Chara were meant to be characters one identified with. "It's me, Chara." "It's you!"

Frisk and Chara ought to be NB, yes. Unless otherwise specified, they're NB.

Thing is, not everyone who plays Undertale is nb.

real shocker there yeah

Point is, hurting someone who's not nb for identifying with Chara or Frisk is on the same level of behavior as yelling at someone for being kin with the same character as someone else, or yelling at someone for selfshipping with the same character as someone else.

It's immature, unkind, greedy, and completely unnecessary. Even illogical.

Even if Frisk and Chara were real in their own timelines and not just pixels on a screen, there are an infinite number of instances and infinite number of variations of them.

Even if infinities don't appease one, and they demand to examine the situation proportion/representation-wise, NB Frisk and Chara dominate the multiverse.

And if that does not satisfy, then what will?

Even if the entire infinite expanse was filled solely with nb Charas and Frisks, and there was only one Frisk across the trunk who was not nb, because they were created by one author in memory of a cis person who played and loved Undertale and fought through the entire game reset after reset, in a fruitless effort to save Asriel, will you rip that from their hands, in the name of "equal representation"?

Will you be like David in the bible, who had more than anyone could ask for, and lost it all because he wanted one last thing? One more person to be theirs as well?

There is a song by Tool which is very relevant here.

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/tool/rightintwo.html

"Don't these talking monkeys know that Eden has enough to go around? Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys, Where there's one you're bound to divide it. Right in two."

I'm sorry, but I cannot condone vitriol over this. I cannot condone such hateful attitude and behaviors.

Just like the antifa who was punched by another antifa at a protest because they judged them by mere appearance to be a fascist, hatred doesn't accomplish anything.

There are times and places when due to the actions of other people, there is no valid choice remaining but violence.

This is seen in Undertale. Even when attempting to run a True Pacifist route, one has to beat down Asgore, and/or Flowey. This was seen back in WWII. We could not allow the Axis powers to enslave the world and murder whomever they wished.

This is not the case here.

Yes, there are those who purposely seek to misgender Frisks and Charas all around. Such folks correctly are rebuffed and banished to the shadows. And people who argue that Frisk or Chara canonically have to be a boy or girl really need to find a new hobby.

Those, if anyone, are the enemy. The lost, clueless, angry, bitter enemy, who need to be talked to and brought into the fold of those who know better, in true Undertale MERCY fashion. Or, if they will not listen, to be sent away, and blocked if harassment continues.

Random creatives on the internet who create a Frisk or Chara, maybe modelled after themselves, maybe after someone else, doens't matter, anyways, who happen to create one that isn't NB are not the enemy. Some young unlearned cis 12 year old who wants to be like Frisk and thinks Frisk is just like them, or that they are Frisk, and has little involvement with NB matters, or perhaps just hasn't yet heard of or seen how well NB and Chara and Frisk go together, is not the enemy.

NB folk have a lot of very, very real enemies. We have a long way to go as a species. Please, do not make up enemies where there are none.

I ask anyone who attacks others solely for having a different idea of Chara and Frisk's gender to please reconsider.

Please, spread NB Frisks and Charas all around the net. Let them enter the hearts of everyone who can appreciate this beautiful game. Not through anger and aggression, but through love and kindness and patience.

If you cannot abide my having such a stance on this, Mel, then I suppose this is farewell if you must break off all contact. And if you must leave, you may keep that commission money, whether or not you ever finish the art.

Thank you to anyone who reads the entirety of my words.

[brackishbarracuda]

♧ ♥ ♢ ♕ ☾☽☂ ☺ ☹ ☣ ♨ ✆ ▽

first off if this is finny i will yell, Why.

if it isnt finny, also, Wh y

♧ Is there an RP partner(s) that you credit for becoming a better writer?

Several?? Practically all of them, actually, every one of them. even and almost especially if we dont actually sit down and paragraph a lot. Even if were just throwing a lot of ‘imagine if x happened’ at one another, Its still an important exercise and has helped me know my characters so much better and i appreciate every single one of you, jfc

♥ What's your favorite ship with your muse?

Since this is saying muse in particular, i have to go with her diamond, @vvicissitudo 

Honestly eridan and meenah was never a ship i thought i would be invested in when i first started but they clicked me and the mun clicked and weve been riding this damn train for like three real live years. 

Im generally fond of anyone she can connect with on a deep unspoken level, no matter who they are. And really, the unspoken chemistry is the important part of that equation. 

read more bc this is a lot of words. :I

♢ What's an AU that you think just won't work with your muse?

Anything too childish, i think? I mean ive been playing her so long i can really put her in anything, but shes got to have freedom to be the little shit she is, and an au without some kind of real tension she can get on the wrong side of i just dont think would work really well. Shes a brat, honestly. 

♕ Do you like magic!anons? Why or why not?

I do and I dont? I like things that throw wrenches in plans and cause drama and give my muses some tension when they get too comfortable. it doesnt even have to be my muse, just someone shes close to so she can react and interact! its fun to ask ‘what if’ and i like the generally accepted universal constant of the gray faces who fuck with people like childish multiversal gods. as if these guys needed anything else to fuck up their world view. 

On the other side of that token, though, im not usually fond of ‘perm. M!As’ 

like, being a little trickster (in the classic sense) is fun and all, but anything that gives away powers or tails or changes too much of anything forever just isnt for me and takes away from the muse i worked hard to develop. I dont have a single problem with other people who like them! have fun be merry; enjoy yourselves, honestly. they just arent for me. 

☾ Do you like writing smut? Why or why not?

I really really have to be very comfortable with a muse and mun to be okay writing it. theres no real personal reasons for it, its just not something i think im good at?? like dont get me wrong, writing the lead up is great fun and actually getting into is great too but its just not something i can do all of the time. it makes me nervous and can get draining really fast. 

I do like sexual encounters with other muses! its a good part of who meenah is as a person!! and I love writing her that way, i love the development, and the relationships and the intimacy, and yeah sometimes i want to write it all the way through. sometimes its just the lead up, sometimes its foreplay, but its never something i like to write for the sake of writing it. Its got to be part of her story. 

☽ Do you like writing angst? Why or why not?

I love the whole package, not just the woe is me part. you cant get your character anywhere if they’re happy sunshine all of the time. things get to them, they’re people. sometimes its a slow build up of small things, sometimes its an existential crisis. Sometimes its the last straw after a long week and sometimes somebody they love is hurt. shit happens, and they have to figure out how to get through it. Thats the part i love. How do they move on, how do they cope, do they cope? Whats the fall out, how do they change. What can get them through the night.  Thats where it gets fun. 

☂ How does your muse spend a rainy day? How do you spend a rainy day?

She tends to keep an eye on her moirail (storms mess with him sometimes, it used to be worse than it is now, but she still worries), or if shes feeling down shell bake to try to brighten the place up. If thats not working and shes desperate, shell either give in and mope the whole day or go to a friend or quads place to get away from it.  On rare occations, the stars between her mood and the people she love’s well being will align and shell go swimming in it and enjoy herself. 

Personally, i tend to hole up and get warm and sleep as much as possible. rain always makes me tired. 

☺ What's a character that you desperately want your muse to play with? Why?

Honestly she needs other peixes in her life. somebody who /gets it/ who she can actually respect as something better than a tyrant or a naive kid. That, and more serkets. ive never really gotten the change to explore her relationships with serkets, and its a shame. 

☹ What's a character that you refuse to play with? Why?

needlessly murderous clowns and ‘let me eat your face for no reason’ tricksters.  i.e. people who use clowns and tricksters as token murder villians. I just dont vibe with that. 

☣ What's one thing that will make you drop a thread?

lack of chemistry, and things that? just dont make sense to me, honestly. I dont thread a lot to begin with because i just cant focus on them for very long, and im forever nervous about the way i write so thers a lot of other reasons that i might drop a thread that are nearlly all my fault and not a reason anyone else can be held acountable for. i need a lot of mun comunication to really enjoy something though.

♨ What's a muse that you wished had lasted, but didn't?

all of them that i never got off the ground....

my favorite besides meenah however was my cobalt nepeta... she was the most fun ive had i think, she nearly had a full timeline and we were all bouncing off one another and she caused a beautiful shit storm or two. but people didnt mesh and things happen and it fell apart and she was such a part of the people that were in it i couldnt keep her up. ive been thinking about revamping her though - 

And i answered the last two already!!