#their relationship here is not easily described tbh

[yourinterestisnotcringe]

"Codependents lack enough emotional stability and willpower to overcome the soul-crushing feeling of being lonely, the fear of being left behind. And it just so happens that some of them become serial killers together: them vs. the world."

[Serial Killers I. Hecox & A. Padilla AU]

scenario 0: the foundation, ca. '05

[other au moodboards]

(x. x. x. x. x. x. x. x. x. inspired by my talks with @smoshidiot x)

[ristoranteivorykeys]

i greet thee with a kiss (skully hcs)

pre-relationship headcanons about skully's feelings towards you where you and him are in night raven college together

ft. skully j. graves

╰┈➤ 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬: uploading these now before the halloween update drops 🙈 episode 3 is where shit hits the fan, and i want to stay in the lighthearted lore drops that episode 2 brings, so here we are. tbh i had been falling a little bit out of twst due to irl and generally just being less into it as time passes by. but then twst drops skully and unfortunately, he's my type 😟 so here i am now, pilled enough to write the brainworms in my head. i hope u enjoy, and i hope episode 3 does not ruin what i'm uploading

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 Skully is the kind of person who always approaches everyone in the room and greets them with a kiss on the hand. He gives everyone his attention and starts small talk with them (regardless of whether they want to or not). If anyone says they need to go and run a small errand or even just to get water or food from the cafeteria, he offers to accompany them in case they don't want to feel alone. In other words, if you're in love with Skully and prevent your delusions from coloring your eyes with rose colors (or attempt to deny your feelings), you may be thinking dejectedly he probably treats you the same way as he treats anyone else.

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 However, when he's in love with you, his gentlemanly act falters, as he gets flustered. When he kisses your hand in greeting, he's slightly shakier and redder in the face. And whereas his speech is more polite with others, with you, he drops to more casual speech that's littered with occasional bursts of excitement. Usually, he's a generally good conversationalist, able to connect with people on a number of topic, and while that remains the same with you, his hands are on his cheeks more often than usual, especially when he finds that you like something he likes.

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 When you're not in the room, he's going to keep talking about you. Skully is the type to remember in vivid detail about the conversations he has with you, so when he's rambling about you to the first year gang, he mentions everything, from your compliments to the little lilts in your voice that attract his ear to the smallest movement in your hand as it inches closer to his hand. If any hugs occurred, Skully can easily take up 15 minutes describing the sensations and the warm goopy feelings he experienced during the hug. Skully is the type to let his delusions carry him, so Ace and Sebek have to bring him down with their bluntness.

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 Though he may be flustered, Skully does not fail to act chivalrous towards you. In fact, he's much more gentlemanly to you. He observes the sidewalk rule, he tends to have a hand on your back or shoulder while you're walking in a busy area, and he offers you his jacket when it's cold. If it's raining, he'd share an umbrella with you, and he'd adjust the umbrella so that you're completely covered, even if one side of him gets drenched. In fact, he'd willingly give you his umbrella if you say you don't have one, and he'll tell you that he doesn't need it (he'll end up a wet sopping mess after running in the downpour finding shelter, but it would be worth it if it meant you were safe and dry).

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 Skully's poetry slowly incorporates you as the subject. Usually, he heaps poetic praises in the scenery he witnesses, in conversations that struck him, and in the season of Halloween and his idol Jack Skellington. But he could be having class, and while looking out the window, would mutter about the clearness of the sky paling in comparison to your honest eyes. Or he could be walking along the botanical gardens with the Science club, and Skully would compare the flowering plants to the vividness of your face (and Rook would probably enable him further). Or if you compliment him, he'd squish his own cheeks and squeal about how your words are like evergreen to him, refreshing to listen to after the insults that he endured throughout his life. Without realizing, he's talking about you more than even Halloween.

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 In spite of the delusions, Skully often finds himself having moments of doubt, telling himself that it might be better off if you don't have to deal with someone like him. You're very kind and strong, with friends who would be there for you, and he's a loser whose idea of Halloween has been shunned and rejected by everyone. You deserve someone better, someone who can love you better. Yet, he can't dampen his feelings for you: He wishes to be the one whom you can depend on, he wants to give you the treatment you deserve, and he yearns to hold you for as long as he can.

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 Skully's confession to you is done through a poem that he wrote on parchment for at least 3 days, with revisions from the first year gang. He's trembling as he grips the paper and nervously reads from it. Countless stars shine in the night, but the sparkle of your eyes hold a brighter light. I've heard of smiles that can disarm a man, but I never understood it until I watched your lips curl up and your eyes squint at me in joy... He's cringing at himself with some lines, stopping at some points to complain about what he wrote. But when you hug him, telling him how sweet he is and present your own poem about how much you like him, Skully ends up crying endlessly, thanking you for accepting somebody like him. And you take him in your arms, repeating to him that yes, you'd accept someone like him who's made you happy.

[4ng3l-shortc4k3]

Solomon's intro!!

Cw: yandere behavior, cannibalism, mention of murdering pets, mention of gore, praise, feminization, pet play, masochism, brat behavior

A/n: I'm actually so excited to write this because I've only ever talked about him to very few anyways let's get started!! Also have a quick drawing of him so you can see how he looks like. Honestly he's really cute tbh

Solomon's title as the god of peace is ironic considering all he does is the opposite. He can get pretty violent and will consume mortal flesh when hungry. Basically he's a menace to society

He's the eldest son of the god of death and has two younger brothers whom he dislikes. Big familial issues

He's considered quite a pretty god amongst the mortals due to how vibrant his blue eyes are against his pale skin. Like a porcelain doll is how he can be described at best

Speaking of appearance he's quite thin due to how starved he is and not all that tall. Medium height at best and can easily be towered by you

He's gay like 100% homo he will drool over you because you're really attractive or maybe because he's hungry. Its hard to tell the difference between the two

He's pretty adamant about pampering you. He needs to do everything for you even if at best you're the one who has to help him in the end

He is absolutely picky with food. He'll refuse your cooking despite it being considered the best in the whole realm. He'll avoid it like its the plague unless of course you add some flesh to it

He's terribly protective of you. No one is allowed to be near you. Not even your pets are allowed or else they'll end up getting strung on a field as a warning for all to avoid you. He only wants to have your attention after all!!

Did I mention how clingy he is? He refuses to let go of you. You're busy? Not anymore!! He'll make sure you have all the time in the world to shower him with your love

But here's the catch.. he can't communicate that well. You will have zero clue on his needs and wants because he'll clam up and get all flustered about it. He gets so shy around you its hard to believe he eats people. Trying to get him to talk is futile because he'll turn the conversation around to where its about you and what you want

Can I mention how pathetic he is? Not only does he suck at his job but he sucks at doing anything else. He's basically a lost puppy that has to be watched 24/7 or he'll end up doing something stupid in the name of love as he puts it.

So that's how he ends up trailing after you. You'll never see him more than a foot away from you as he looks at you with such admiration you're starting to see why he ignored all those mortals who adore him

But that's okay!! Because in the end he'll be the most sweetest if not clingiest boyfriend you'll ever have! Oops!! I mean your wife. He loves it when you call him that. He'll practically melt as he happily calls you his husband in return

Did I mention he thinks you're soulmates? He has a weird obsession over it. Constantly mentioning it in conversation and looking so proud of himself for finding you. After all, that means you can stop his hunger for flesh. Maybe someday you can fix that part of him. But for now he'll happily wait as you take reign in the relationship!!

What? You say you don't want to? Too bad!! He can't do anything so you're going to have to be the one to take the lead with everything. He'll even make himself as pathetic as possible so you can take care of him. You can't say no to his crying face can you?

But what about nsfw stuff you may ask? Well here's a small few facts about that

He loves dressing up in cute little outfits for you. You want him in a cute bunny suit? He'll do it for you!! A maid outfit you say? Sit there and wait so he can put on a pretty show for you!! He will never get enough out of seeing your pleased expression when he's all dressed up for you

That also means you gotta give him lots of praises!! He loves compliments especially when it's about how good he looks in those pretty outfits. Poor baby is always self conscious about his body but with a few words he can set them aside just for you!!

When I mentioned how he looks like a lost puppy let me introduce you to pet play!! Solomon loves everything about it. From wearing a collar to putting on dog ears. He'll even let you walk him as if he's an actual mutt who needs his exercise. He's 100% going to do it just to hear you say "what a good boy you are!" to him

He doesn't care whether you want to treat him roughly or gently. He'll take it all for you but that doesn't mean he won't get a sick joy out of seeing you attempt to be rough with him. He does love the thrill of pain. But not too much or else he'll think you're punishing him and then try to misbehave more to see how you'll react. He does get a bit bratty at times but its all in the name of fun just as long as you get to make his punishment even worse

[therhythmafterthesummer]

[02:11] (M) ~Bang Chan

Pairing: Chan x F.Reader Themes: Smut (pwp, tbh. but still fluffy) | Fluff | Established Relationship Warnings: implied chubby/curvy/fat MC, mentions of alcohol consumption, some belly action going on as usual because we appreciate bellies in this household, pet names (baby), smut warnings under the cut. Word Count: ~1k | AO3 Summary: After waking up in the wee hours of the night, your boyfriend simply needed you to warm him up.

Author’s Note: y’all will have to pry the chubby/curvy/fat MC from my cold dead hands, bc it seems like the only thing coming out of my head these days lol. as usual, i’m working on bigger pieces so here’s one of my silly little warm ups, figured i’d post it in case someone out there enjoys it :)

Due to all the abovementioned warnings, this story is intended for an adult audience only. Minors please do not interact.

Smut warnings: Chan has a filthy mouth · unprotected penetration [piv. no barrier method, but the reader is presumed to be on birth control] · cockwarming · clit stimulation.

Disclaimer: the story represented in this work does not represent Stray Kids in any way; anything described in this story and all actions performed by the characters are purely fictional, this was created just for good fun.

Sometimes, more often than you would like, you’d wake up like this, with cold feet, and a bit disorientated. Light was filtering through the drapes, but it wasn’t daytime yet, it was the fluorescent light of the streetlights outside. 

The dustcart had just driven by, you could still faintly hear it further down the street. ‘There’s still time to sleep a bit more’ was the first thing that came to mind as soon as you heard it. 

You kept your eyes closed, your focus shifting from the noise of the vehicle outside to the sound of your boyfriend’s snores next to you. It was amazing how you were so used to it by now. The first time you slept in the same room with him you almost pushed him off of the bed just to stop him from snoring, it was almost as loud as the dustcart outside–or at least that was what you told him back then, you were certainly exaggerating things…

Now, though, you couldn’t imagine going to sleep without that sound. Crazy how fast our bodies get used to our environment, especially when you were so utterly in love with the source of the noise.

There were days where it overwhelmed you still. Days where he would wake up gasping for air, waking you up in the process. But most days, his constant snoring could easily lull you to sleep. 

You turned away from him, trying to relieve some of the stiffness you felt in your body from laying in the same position for too long. You hadn’t been living together for long, only a handful of months, but you were genuinely surprised at how quickly you got used to sharing your space with someone.

Chan just made it so easy. And you did, too. Or, at least, that was what he told you once. 

You felt movement. In a second, your boyfriend’s body heat enveloped you. His snoring had stopped, and a hum resonated from deep within him as his body moulded to yours. His chest pressed to your back, his legs folded under yours, his arm rested over your waist, holding you close.

“Mmm… Warm”, you weren’t sure if he was fully awake, but his words were certainly slurring a bit.

You decided to make your state known, just in case, humming as you moved your hand to hold his that was resting close to your chest. His fingers wrapped around your thumb, and he snuggled further into you, leaving absolutely no space between your bodies. 

That was when you felt him, half hard against your bum. Even in your sleepy state, you felt yourself heat up with the contact. 

“Baby…” Chan mumbled against your nape, pressing languid kisses on your skin. “…Awake?”

“Mm… Barely”, a content sigh fell from your lips as he kept kissing your skin, slowly, leisurely. His lips were so soft, so plush and delicious and perfect, you really loved feeling them against any part of your body. 

“Mm…” Chan released your thumb, moving his hand instead to rest on your lower belly, softly caressing your skin. “Can I… Put it in?”

He rolled his hips a little, letting you feel him better, he was harder than before, and had you not been that sleepy and that horny you would’ve laughed. This was a common occurrence, for him to randomly wake up and want to be inside of you, so you weren’t surprised by his request in the slightest. You hardly ever denied him, because you wanted him in you as much as he did. 

“You can”, was all you mumbled back, and immediately, his hand moved away from your belly. You felt him fumble with his length against your skin, so you angled your hips, giving him better access. 

Suddenly, you felt two of his fingers at your opening, collecting your essence and spreading it generously throughout your folds. “Mmm… Wet”. 

His fingers were gone, replaced with the tip of his length, running it up and down your folds, until he teased your entrance, finally plunging himself in. 

Your breath hitched in your throat at the sudden feeling of fullness. Chan let out a sigh of relief, and he returned his hand to your lower belly, softly kneading your flesh. You were always a bit self-conscious of your belly, or at least, you had been before. But these days, when he touched you like this, you could hardly care at all. You loved when your boyfriend touched you anywhere, but for reasons you couldn’t even explain you just liked when he did this. It helped you accept it a little more, so he did it often, and it always made your heart soar and your walls clench.

“So warm, baby…” Chan murmured next to your ear. “Tight… As if… We didn’t even fuck for hours last night…”

You chuckled softly, finding Chan’s forearm and caressing his skin as he kept his tender movements on your belly. He always filled you up so nicely, always got you dripping, heated, and when his hand moved from your belly to dip between your legs, finding your clit and rubbing circles on it, you couldn’t help but tremble. 

“Channie…” Your voice was airy, a bit strained with the sudden stimulation. 

“Mm… Just wanna keep feeling you clench around me, baby… You feel so good…” Chan knew how to touch you, not only because you’d been together for a long time, but because he took extra care in learning what you liked and didn’t like. 

You still remember, before you had sex the first time, before you even kissed, during a drinking game you two were playing, a truth or dare of sorts, with questions and dares taken from the internet. ‘What’s your biggest turn on’, had been the question Chan pulled, and you had seen the way his ears grew red, and he averted his gaze. 

For a moment, you thought he wouldn’t answer, you honestly wouldn’t have held it against him if he had, but suddenly, after a few moments of silence, he muttered a ‘I just love it when my partner’s feeling good. Love to make them go pleasure dumb. Especially when they’re smart and eloquent, God… Rendering them speechless is just so gratifying’, he’d buried his face in his hands, and when he finally looked back at you, looking almost incredulous that the words came out of his mouth, biting his lip, you felt yourself flush.

You didn’t really believe him much at the time, most men you’d met liked to talk big game, but then couldn’t perform as well in bed. But oh, boy if Chan surprised you… The first time you had sex with him he had you coming so many times you couldn’t even stand the tiniest rub against your clit the next day. You still remember the morning after, how he pulled you into his arms and smothered your face with kisses as he mumbled. ‘You look like a fucking dream when you come, baby… Just wanna see that over and over again…’

“My god, what a good fucking cunt…” His sinful words brought you back to the present, and you hadn’t even realised you’d started whimpering. “Fucking perfect…”

“Just… For you, Channie”, a quiet moan fell from your lips, his fingers moving just a tad faster as soon as you said it. 

“Fuck… My girl and her perfect little hole just for me…” Chan’s voice was barely a whisper, almost as if he wasn’t even registering the words coming out of his mouth, and it only made you feel more desperate, needy.

Sometimes it still surprised you how, after all these years, your boyfriend still knew exactly where and how to touch you, how to make you feel as if your whole body was alight with the tiniest of touches. He drew circles on your clit, diligently working you up, and before you knew it, you were coming, trembling within his hold.

“That’s it, baby… Just like that… Love you so much…” Chan mumbled, stopping the movement of his fingers on your sensitive nub, but keeping them there, applying pressure, prolonging your pleasure a bit further.

The dustcart outside was long gone, you couldn’t hear it anymore. All you could hear was your heavy breathing and your boyfriend taking deep breaths. In a couple of minutes, Chan’s deep breaths turned to snores again, falling asleep with his cock still buried within your walls.

You chuckled softly, snuggling further into him. He’d go soft eventually, you knew this already because you had been in this exact situation many times before, so you were completely unfazed by your boyfriend and his rather odd habits.

With his warmth around you, in you, with the aftereffects of your orgasm still coursing through your system, with his snores posing as white noise–a type of white noise that seemed to have been curated specifically for you–you simply let yourself drift off to sleep.

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[solplease]

i've been very excited to post this but here are my ocs haha!! meet lune, cecilia, nox, and aster!

close ups, more info, and a more detailed relationship chart under the cut! this is gonna be a long post haha. there's also some more info about rowan!

cecilia's twin (he's the older twin) ((by two minutes. lol))

the type to go “here to here, i’ll buy it all”

he's got a temper

possessive, devoted, and jealous yandere

people think he's a tad bit insane (and he's self aware mostly,,)

gets into fights often

“want me to kill that guy for you?” (he’s serious btw)

he’s not nice lmao, but to you he is (in his own special way of course..!)

kind of like a cat who will proudly leave dead rats and leaves on your doorstep as a gift bc it thinks you can’t hunt for yourself

hates nox LMFAO

difficult to approach at first but once you get close he won’t ever let you go.

extroverted

LOUD. someone shut him up, this mf does NOT stop yapping bro

annoying as hell and he doesn’t know that lmao

if he absolutely has to, he’ll behave. but it's... odd

constantly needs to be doing something or he’ll get bored lol

has a bit of a sweet tooth (typical)

Bastard (not literally)

played the piano when he was younger with his sister, but he hated playing it

bad terms with his family except for cecilia

huge rebellious streak

shockingly will not kidnap you! everyone already knows you’re his, and he’s yours. and he won’t let anyone get in between you two. yay..!

hates it when you don’t pay attention to him (will absolutely start sulking too)

he’s impulsive but he’s not completely reckless

you probs shouldn’t trust him too much though he has good (????) intentions lol

seems silly (debatable really) but he’s dangerous.

half of the things he says sound like jokes but trust me, he means it. he’d do anything and everything for you, don’t forget!

shockingly pouty and whiny, only in front of you though

him and cecilia have matching bracelets from when they were younger which they both wear to this day

he’s oblivious as fuck, and an idiot

lune's twin (she's younger)

normal (somewhat) ((not really))

sweet and friendly

really likes giving gifts to people she cares about

jumps to conclusion and freaks out easily, but she’s subtle about it

constantly stressed (lune is her brother, so… i get it)

introverted (runs on a social battery)

says things without thinking sometimes

people pleaser

awkward as hell tbh, but it’s really not obvious because she’s good at putting on a front 

kinda has the ”””””princely””””” persona (i didnt know how to describe that better lmao

has abandonment issues

girlfail tbh

hardworking

shes really protective of her loved ones

likes cute things

has issues with her family but still talks to them (lune does NOT)

on really good terms with lune, they’re very close (even though he’s a huge troublemaker that stresses the shit out of her) ((if he fucks around too much she’ll give him a good smack))

packs a good punch

SENSITIVE…

potential yandere? still not too sure if i’ll make her a fully fledged yan but she def has some of the traits lol

her and lune have matching bracelets from when they were younger! (she wears it everyday!)

she doesn’t mean to put on a front it just kinda happens automatically lmao

could kill someone... probably wouldnt tho

used to play the piano with lune, she still plays it now too (as a hobby)

cunning and annoying

def the type to kidnap you

oddly sweet (???)

but also ominous as hell

docile with the one he loves

isolating and manipulative yandere

dislikes lune

nice but you can tell he’s putting up a wall (with strangers and friends)

introverted

wouldn’t put stalking past him tbh

he’s the type that wants to know everything about you.

he has a tough time interacting with others. he feels awkward in social situations

the type to go to a party and spend the whole time petting the cat in the corner (he would not go to the party in the first place tho lmao)

he’s not misunderstood tho, he just can’t socialize and doesn’t really want to

grabs the end of your shirt in an awkward situation (its kinda cute)

takes time to open up, but when he falls for you, his love is so strong, it’s almost overwhelming. so just accept him, alright?

shittiest sleep schedule known to man, like srsly, what is bro doing

this man’s brain probs short circuits every 5 minutes LMFAO go to bed you idiot

really good with his words, very convincing

loves cats

hidden piercings

careful and patient

is really good at taking care of others (but he would only wanna take care of you) you’ll let him, won’t you?

startles easily lol

elf oc

ditzy and kind (to you)

bit of a mean streak (not to you!) 

wants to appear princely in front of you

kinda stupid (a farce but not completely lol)

has a bit of a temper, but nothing too bad

clingy and cunning yandere

two faced

struggles with empathy (he tries, he’s not human, what’s he supposed to do!)

extroverted (?)

he’s really lonely

when he met you for the first time he was absolutely fascinated as he’s never interacted with a human being before!

BLUNT. he’s not used to convos… just give him some time!

at first it was simple curiosity, but that curiosity turned into something… deeper

he was completely alone before this, but now you’re here, and you’re going to stay, right? 

is obsessed with the idea of you staying here with him forever, so why do you keep talking about going home? can’t you stay here? 

but then you bring up the idea of him coming with you, well why didn’t you say that earlier! he's happy to come with you

It takes him some time to grasp certain concepts so please be patient with him, he’s not used to humans

he’s paranoid and hostile to other humans. it’s not fair, he wants all of your attention, so why is everyone trying to take you from him? he doesn’t like that everyone is getting in his way… 

he’s terrified of bugs. will scream incredibly loudly if he sees one lol

he pulled you through a mirror, that’s how you ended up in his land

so if you wanna go back, just ask and he’ll take you! 

gives you jewelry, expensive jewelry. (maybe he’s slipped on a ring before. haha. jk… unless..?)

prefers to stay inside your place because he really doesn’t like people who aren’t you lmao

don’t stray too far from him, okay? he’s always waiting for you

rowan (who i don't have a new drawing of rn </3 sorry!):

he absolutely hates not being a priority, so please don’t ignore him. please? he just wants you to love him.

clingy, devoted, and obsessive yandere

if you don’t reciprocate he might (unknowingly) try to guilt you into liking him back. will appear like a kicked puppy to really sell it (but it’s not an act lol he’s just like this)

at least his intentions are pure! (?????????) but is that better..?

if when (it will happen) you two end up together, he’ll give you the world if you’d asked for it

used to cut his own hair! :D (not great at it tho tbh)

very attentive and will work hard to keep you happy! just don’t forget that you’ll love only each other for the rest of your life. please don’t leave.

has tripped over nothing, will definitely happen again

here's the shitty relationship chart that i rushed </3 its very ugly im sorry HAHA

i really want to clarify that NONE of them will ever hurt you physically on purpose (they might have to pay up for emotional damages tho. they have your best interest in mind ig)

also i would say that they all share some traits like being clingy, devoted, possessive, obsessive, jealous, protective, and loyal. but if i specifically wrote it, it's probs just a bit more intense... just a bit,,, haha...

[thegreenthepeacetheorange]

Everlark (Catching Fire, Ch. 1-4)

(here we go again gang)

katniss constantly repeats that she's not sure of what she feels for peeta in these chapters and also that it wasn't just an act: "it wasn't just a strategy for peeta. i'm not sure what it was for me//i'm not indifferent (said to snow)//my love... was something of an act//there had been times where i didn't honestly know how i felt about him. i still don't really"

the way katniss describes gale vs the way she describes peeta is so funny. she acknowledges gale is handsome but then it's "dark straight hair, olive skin, grey eyes." peeta however: "peeta crosses to the table, the sunlight from the window picking up the glint of fresh snow in his blond hair. he looks strong and healthy" - like. it's almost like everytime she sees peeta it's through the lens of the romance cam. the descriptions are very 'main love attraction in a romcom movie arriving on the scene.'

they've not really spoken much (or at least in their usual way of talking) in about 6 months at this point so their relationship is a bit stilted. the sound of his voice is enough to twist her stomach with unpleasant emotions like guilt, sadness and fear. but she says there's longing too, only the others emotions are too powerful.

"it's not until he's handed haymitch the heel that he even looks at me for the first time" - she's been watching him all this time, while he avoids her eyes, waiting for him to look at her. and she feels some type of way about him not looking at her.

when her talk with snow finally turns to peeta, she finds she can't keep ahold of snow's gaze.

she feels disgusted that she's having to talk to snow about her feelings for "two of the people i care most about." - peeta, who she only started speaking to less than a year ago, has come to hold equal weight in her eyes as gale at this point.

in these early chapters in catching fire, we really see katniss correlate peeta with the capitol/the games. like something she's having pushed on her by this powerful entity that she resents. she notes many times that she's kissing him or hugging him or whatever for the audience, because she has to. and snow coming in and ordering her to "convince me" amplifies all that by a million. then when haymitch points out that her romance with peeta is going to have to be forever, she also stresses because her right to choose between boys or even to choose between being single or not is completely taken away from her. which fuels her more negative feelings on her situation with peeta.

again i will note that she likens haymitch's choice of being alone as "solitary confinement" - it's not something she deep down wants for herself

have to discuss her first kiss with gale (sorry)

her description of her first kiss with gale feels more romantic than her first one with peeta tbh. she mentions the warmth of his lips, his hands easily entrapping her, her making a noise in the back of her throat. her curled up fingers resting on his chest.

but then when she tries to reflect on the kiss, all she can remember is the pressure of his lips/the smell of the oranges they had. and she says it's pointless comparing that kiss with the many she's had with peeta and that she doesn't know if any of them counted. again, this is more of her feelings about cameras and the capitol taking over.

i also think her kiss with gale felt unnatural to her compared to the kisses she's had with peeta when they had fallen into their domesticity rhythm.

anyways both her and gale pretend like the kiss didn't happen but because of it gale has broken some "invisible barrier" between them and they can't go back to having their friendship of before.

even though she's not talking to peeta really still, he is still one of the key 3 people she thinks of confiding in - but she doesn't want to break him more and at this point is pretty convinced of his love/goodness that she knows he will "perform" regardless of if he knows of snow's demands or not

this is what she says about her and peeta's first kiss in months: "i can feel the steadiness that peeta brings to everything. and i know i'm not alone... he's still looking out for me. just as he did in the arena. somehow the thought makes me want to cry"

on peeta's body hair: "i can remember peeta's now, as i bathed him by the stream. very blond in the sunlight, once the mud and blood had been washed away" - very intimate

katniss is OBSESSED with peeta in the sunlight. the snow in his hair in the sunlight, his body hair in the sunlight and in a few chapters she'll notice his eyelashes in the sunlight i think in the last book she also mentioned peeta's face illuminated by the sunlight coming in through their cave. like it really feels like there's this glow around him in her eyes.

peeta's apology. so soft, so sweet. and he just wants to try be friends. at this point, he really thinks katniss was completely faking it and gale is her real boyfriend and he still comes to her with his little apology and the idea of being friends. he's just so...

she smiles when they have their conversation about their favourite colours. like a genuine one

she imagines the orange of his sunset and thinks beautiful. this leads her to think of his cookies. she associates beauty a lot with peeta, like at the end of THG when she says peeta looks beautiful the first time she sees him post-games.

later on when she sees the orange dress patterned with autumn leaves, she thinks how much peeta will like the colour. she's obsessed. peeta is going to think i'm so pretty in this orange dress! (she doesn't say or think this but you know, it's there)

they go straight to handholding again (but friendship handholding of course!) (an aside: i don't think i've ever just held my friends' hands and she also never hold gale's hands)

so many of peeta's paintings featuring katniss.

one of katniss's key nightmares is peeta bleeding to death

when peeta offers rue and thresh's families one month of their earnings every year, that comes completely from him and his heart. he didn't even know those two but for what they did for katniss and because he knows the needless brutality they faced, he does this. and it mirrors what katniss thought of doing for them when she found out thresh had died that night. they are in tune. "at this moment, it's impossible to imagine how i could do any better... so when i rise up on tiptoe to kiss him, it doesn't seem forced at all" - he continues to win her over, despite how much she thinks she has to act for the cameras

[auslanderka]

— my little piece for a spooky sports event made by my dear @koushuwu! || event post ; event masterlist

fandom : slam dunk

ship : mito youhei x gn!reader (f!reader in my mind)

TW/tags: spooky sports anime event, horror movie night, characters aged up, established relationship (wife-husband), slighty 18+, minors dni

Note : tbh I don't know how to write typical spooky stories but this was created, in general I don't celebrate halloween at all and all the traditions are for me "dry theory" from English class ; I feel like it's a little silly and boring but if by some miracle you have wandered here - enjoy.

Note 2 : and okay this fic. I dedicate this writing piece to @gothintegra - it's possible that you like horror movies and probably youhei wouldn't need to comfort you during horror movie night (I realized this as I was finishing writing haha) but it doesn't change the fact that I wrote with you in mind. it's my little "thank you" for your kind words when things were very bad for me in early september, I hope you enjoyed it!

— contains eng grammar problems and mistakes as well —

The living room of your small apartment looked fabulous. If that's the word to describe the room decorated with pumpkins and other ornaments you found in the store's Halloween & autumn section. Like every year, you created a mood to warm up the ugly weather that was starting to be more and more outside the window.

Youhei leaned over the candles in the shape of small pumpkins lighting them while you placed two mugs with hot chocolate decorated with marshmallows  in the shape of little ghosts on the table. Next to them were two plates of cookies, which you had been making all morning while Mito was still at work. The pleasant smell of shortcrust pastry, baked apple and cinnamon wafted throughout the apartment.

It was October 31st. A day when ghouls came out of their hiding places and people spent time at dress-up parties. You and your husband decided to spend the day together and make a movie night. You two just didn't agree on the choice of movie genre. Youhei wanted horror movies, and you wanted anything that wasn't horror.

"so what are we going to watch tonight?" you asked while correcting the cushions on the couch. Mito smiled broadly and disappeared into the hallway for a while. He returned with a paper bag full of rented DVDs from a nearby rental store. Seeing his face and the package you made the mental sign of the cross. You may not have been religious, but the sight of that one evil smile on his face made you know you had to prepare for the worst.

"you and your ideas" you groaned, picking up one of the dvds from the table. The cover itself was already rejecting; you didn't even want to think about what was the plot.

"hey, it's October 31st!"

Youhei stood on the other side of the table grinning widely. He had been saying for several months that they would have a movie marathon in October. At first you thought he was joking. You had been together for quite a long time, Mito knew very well that you are fearful and horror movies weren’t films you reached for with pleasure. You had seen maybe one or two in your entire life, not of you own volition, of course, but it let you know that it was not your favorite film genre.

You looked at Youhei and already knew you wouldn't give you a break so easily.

*

When he turned on the second or third movie, you sat next to him on the couch quite stiffly. You kept your gaze fixed on the TV, but at every louder sound of music or screaming you flinched or jumped up feeling the hair on your head go astray. Horror wasn't your favorite movie genre as you once again found out. Youhei sat next to you resting his head on his hand and watching you for several minutes in concentration with a lazy smile on his face.

He gently grabbed your hand lying on your thigh at which you jumped up making a silently frightened sound. You looked at him feeling your cheeks turning red and slapped him lightly on the shoulder seeing his amused face.

"hey" Mito chuckled smiling slightly and clasping his hand tighter on your arm. He pulled you close so that your cheek rested against his chest. Closed your eyes snuggling into his shirt.

"I don't want to watch it," groaned quietly, hoping that Youhei would give you a break tonight and the scary movie night would end with two horror movies watched.

"It's just fiction." he chuckled quietly feeling your arms tighten more tightly around him. He sighed quietly, put his arms around you and kissed your neck gently. Still cuddled in, Mito glanced at the TV, which he had turned down a few minutes ago without you even noticing.

After a while, however, he lost interest in the movie and the mindless carnage that had just played out on the screen accompanied by the screams of the blond-haired actresses. He grabbed you tighter by the thighs and pulled you closer to him. He rested his forehead against your shoulder, closing his eyes and inhaling the soft scent of your perfume. A scent you used only in the fall.

His hands carefully slid out from under the material of your loose cotton shirt and he moved them as gently as he could along your sides. At such moments, Mito always noticed how petite you were compared to his hands. He also had the impression that you had lost a lot of weight recently due to stress and excessive work. His grip became stronger.

"It's just a fiction. You are not in danger of anything." whispered in your ear.

Your skin was pleasantly soft and warm. You raised your hands, allowing him to pull off your shirt. A cheeky grin appeared on his face at the sight of your black lace bra, which contrasted sharply with your pale skin. The faint light of the candles set on the table and bookcases in the dark living room further accentuated your assets. He leaned in. His lips gently touched your hot skin, leaving a gentle kiss on your collarbone. You felt a pleasant shiver along your spine. You took his face in your hands and forced him to look at you. The corners of your mouth lifted, seeing dark eyes gazing lovingly at you. Nothing had changed since high school. All these years, he gazed at you with the same infatuated eyes. You leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead, and he let the air out of his lungs loudly.

Your delicate hands moved down the nape of his neck, pointing upward toward his dark hair. His hair, which had always been perfectly styled, was now disheveled and in the mess you liked so much. This was a private Youhei. Your Youhei. One that only you and perhaps his closest friends knew. You weaved your fingers into the strands, smiling slightly. He placed a gentle kiss on your shoulder and then began to move his lips toward your neck.

"I hate you..." you muttered quietly ignoring the screams coming again from the TV behind you.

"And that's why you married me." he winked at you at which you sighed quietly. It's a good thing you were sitting, because your legs probably would have refused to obey you.

[nerves-nebula]

For years ive kind of favored demisexual/demiromantic above bi/pan to refer to myself because tbh it’s just more accurate. The way I’m attracted to people is nearly unrelated to gender. I could probably make a dozen things more important to me than the gender or physical appearance of my partner.

Gender presentation only matters so far as if someone is openly visibly queer I’m more interested because I know we might be thr same. But if it turns out they’re a shit person what does it matter what they look like. And like, I’m not interested romantically? I never deeply desired a relationship just from looking at someone, at most I just want to see more of you if I like being around you :/

I described my romantic feelings to a friend once as basically just being friendship but with more intimacy than a typical friendship and more of your life intertwined and he was like “that’s absolutely not what romantic feelings are they’re way different from friendship” and I’m beginning to think I might just be aromatic/asexual entirely, not demi. and i haven’t been able to tell because i deeply yearn for intimacy and I’m a bit possessive and so I figured that must mean I want romance or something.

But I’ve never had a crush. And I love my girlfriend but I probably couldn’t tell you the difference between my relationship with her and having a really close friend- because she’s my best friend! I adore her, but I never needed her to be in love with me. I never need sex or even really romance. We’ve been on one “date” to see sonic 2, and mostly we just hang out like we always have just with occasional kissing and some sexual activity. My ideal relationship has always been being best friends and deciding to intertwine your lives, which is basically what happened, and I knew that would always be seen as romantic to outsiders so I didn’t realize until recently that like… there’s no specifically romantic feelings here??? It’s just closeness? Intimacy? And I can easily see myself developing this kind of closeness with any of my friends if they do desired??

Anyway I think it’s time I stopped kidding myself. I’m not Demi, I just have really high standards about who I keep around in my life and get close to in general. My standards for friends and partners are exactly the same because there isn’t much of a difference when it comes to who I want present in my life.

I don’t catch feelings when I’m close to someone, I just get relaxed around them, which feels nice and so I equated it with romantic emotions. But once I got more friends I realized that warm fuzzy feeling wasn’t romantic attraction!! Because im aromantic!!!!

I guess it’s pretty cliche to come out during pride month but in my defense I didn’t realize this until i wrote this post. I was supposed to be musing on why I prefer demi to other labels and basically just talked myself into identifying as aromantic. Oops.

I’m probably also asexual but I already basically knew that.

[destinyc1020]

The discussion about how cold Zendaya is will always continue and the reason for this is not racism (stop taking any hatred towards Zendaya as a sign of racism, she is not even a black woman).  This is more likely due to misogeny, but the way Tom and Zendaya are perceived differently is related to their “personality type” - Tom is more like a “golden retriever”, and Zendaya is more like a “black cat”.  Zendaya isn't cold per se, she's actually very sweet, but compared to Tom, who is the incarnation of a golden retriever puppy, she's colder.  Also, in addition to the personality type, you can notice the difference in how they supported each other’s latest projects: she made several stories about TCR, he made several stories with comments about her film, it seems he wrote a comment under some post, made a post on his Instagram account - objectively there is a difference  the way they support each other.  Does it mean that Zendaya does not support and does not love him - no, but there is a difference in perception and the opinion that she is “cold” - yes, since she is a woman and a “black cat” type - she is in a relationship with a golden retriever, next with this type of personality  you will always look cold

The discussion about how cold Zendaya is will always continue and the reason for this is not racism (stop taking any hatred towards Zendaya as a sign of racism, she is not even a black woman).  This is more likely due to misogeny, but the way Tom and Zendaya are perceived differently is related to their “personality type” - Tom is more like a “golden retriever”, and Zendaya is more like a “black cat”. 

I'm sorry Anon, but I disagree with a lot of what you said, for various reasons... and here's why....

1. I don't care WHAT you feel Zendaya is, her having one black parent but one white parent does NOT somehow "protect" her from racism. 🙄 I also find it really naïve to think that only black women (or black people) experience racism in this country (or around the world).🤨 LOTS of POC experience racism... not just here in the US, but GLOBALLY.

2. Perhaps some of the UNNECCESARY criticism re: Zendaya is due to misogyny, but it's ALSO due to racism. That's the thing about being a woc... the hate that you experience isn't JUST misogyny, it's usually ALSO racism. 😔 Z has been accused of being "cold", "arrogant", or a "cheater" and a "whore" just for acting in her roles and doing her JOB, just like every other white actress out here. Black women especially are called "arrogant" or "cold" just for existing more than other women of other races. 🙄President Obama was even called "arrogant". 🙄 Like, what?? 🥴

3. Actually....To me, Tom doesn't really strike me as a "Golden Retriever" type. 🤔 To me, that description more so fits Austin. Tom is very nice, open and friendly too, JUST like Zendaya, but you can tell when Tom is "over it" lol, and even he himself has said that he has a temper, and tends to get irritated easily, and that it was actually ZENDAYA who had to help him be more open with fans and have patience with them. Z on the other hand has always been described as "ZENdaya". She may be cautious like a cat, but she's warm, sweet, and very engaging, even despite her admittedly natural shy nature. 😊

4. I don't usually like to compare Tom and Z to each other tbh. And I think that men and women will ALWAYS be viewed differently from each other. 🤷🏾‍♀️

[pomefioredove]

Hi, congrats on the 500 followers!

Thank you for the event - this is my first time joining such a thing so I apologize in advance for how long this is (if you wish to ignore this - that's fine, I understand, thank you for the chance to participate)

I.. don't really know how to describe my personality anymore but I will try to from both my perspective of myself as well as what I've learned from others' impressions of me (tbh to try and sum it up - I'm an ISFJ personality type, if that helps any)

I'm pretty quiet and reserved. I prefer to be by myself/avoid people mostly due to not being very sociable or not having the energy to engage with others (heavily introverted here lmao). Others have said I seem hard to approach and/or intimidating (which is super funny considering I'm not even 5 ft tall - I am super short so idk how I could be intimidating. Maybe it's the rbf 😂).

Because of this, I'm pretty awkward in social situations though I don't mean to be. I'd like to be a part of things too and have fun but because I never really learned how to/wasn't really socialized enough, I just don't seem to vibe with most. I understand I'm generally pretty different both in terms of looks and personality/mindset too (apparently I stick out like a sore thumb) but it's still discouraging and lonely.

I think people don't really know what to make of me and while they may be polite, it's only because I try to be approachable and friendly to show I'm not someone who should be avoided. Ofc that doesn't always work and if people don't vibe with me there's nothing I can do about it. I'm unfortunately really used to being misunderstood and being projected onto despite the lack of proof of the assumptions people make of me because of this.

I won't go into details (tho I feel like it might be important to mention to give some context) but I experienced a lot of neglect, emotional abuse, and interpersonal relationship trauma while growing up so it has really affected my ability to trust others. I am very wary and guarded so my walls don't come down easily. It'll take a lot of time to get to know me, especially the things that bring me joy. Most people have never seen me be my true authentic self or learned what my favorite things are because it was just too much work to get thru to finally get there (which I understand and don't deny and for the longest time have been trying to work on these issues of mine).

Anyway, for what it's worth - I'm known for being hard working, reliable, and honest. I'm unfortunately a perfectionist and have imposter syndrome too which also means I'm ridiculously humble. It's been brought to my attention that it's much to my detriment lmao (I've also been trying to work on that too)

Though I'm very distant and reserved to most, the very few people I've ever had in my life who were close to me have seen my more playful and affectionate side and that's only because I trusted them and felt safe with showing them this side of me. But again, that's only possible if I've developed a really close bond with someone

My interests include anime/manga, video games, reading/writing, art, nature, and food, to name some. I'm also (embarassingly enough) a hopeless romantic at heart and prefer to collaborate with others instead of compete unless it's friendly and no hard feelings are involved.

Please let me know if I've left anything out accidentally and I also apologize again for the length!

Thank you again for the event, I can't wait to read the matchups you've done for everyone who participated! Please have a great day/night!

I match you with 𝐌𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐮𝐬 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐢����

I was really close to giving you trey but malmal won again

The First Impression:

Malleus isn't exactly a social butterfly, but he's heard your name once or twice. The other students speak of you as if you're some intimidating, unapproachable thing... which may or may not intrigue him, just a little.

...Of course, when he actually sees you, he's thoroughly unimpressed. This is the person everyone avoids? Why? You're like one of the cute woodland creatures that follows Silver around.

You're not even a powerful mage or feared warrior! You're just standing there awkwardly!

Why He Fell:

It's almost a "last two kids without a partner being forced to work together on the group project" situation. Being constantly left out and avoided has very few positives, but getting to spend time with Malleus is one of them.

There's no real pressure to be social or overly-friendly around him, he's truly just happy to have someone to sulk in the shadows with, though as time goes on and you become more comfortable around one another, conversation will start to blossom.

Hearing him go on and on about his special interests like a little nerd, you might share a similar sentiment: "this is the guy everyone's terrified of?"

There's something quite tender and gentle about two loners finding company within each other, and as your walls come down, you find yourself sharing your vulnerable self with him. Your fun, affectionate side, which Malleus cherishes and protects like a gift given especially to him.

The Relationship:

It's safe. Not boring, mind you, safe. You treat each other gently, which so starkly contrasts how others have treated you in the past, and there's something quite special about that.

Malleus is able to share sides of himself with you he hasn't with anyone else. He treasures your reliability and honesty, and sees you as a safe space in his life, as much as he hopes you see him. It's a very cozy relationship, full of comfortable silences and an unspoken trust shared just between the two of you. Despite his status, the relationship feels very private, if only because you only share these sides of yourself with each other.

[youremyheaven]

That Solar explanation in the krittika post is so me coded 😭🫠. The more I learn, the more I’m starting to realize my strongest planetary influences are fucking opps lmao!

Have you noticed any difficulty with finding balance/satisfaction if one has planetary influences that traditionally don’t harmonize? For me it’s Sun and Venus; I have balance from extremes of either, but I am split between that harsh solar girlboss and a lovey-dovey romantic venusian and then a yapping ketuvian in the middle 🗿. I’m extremely ambitious as you describe for solars but this split makes it so hard to get things accomplished, although my saturn aspect to my amk sun helps a bit with stability, I have no idea how to remedy this imbalance 😭.

It’s so difficult to have a literal split, I can shut off my emotions or I’m all in on them, this id with people too. Romantic relationships for me usually end up with me having to cut off a loser but I do have feelings for an Uttara Ashada moon man that is the sweetest but we are so distant with each other 😭 I don’t know how to easily express my feelings and don’t really know how to handle that closeness but I crave and need it like water. I have very few relationships I actually feel happy about and nourished from.

I want to find the middle path so badly but Sun and Venus are just both extremes even with a Revati sun. Do you know of any mantras or practices that can help with bridging that kind of like,,,,existential gap? It not only makes relationships difficult to cope with but I also am constantly dissatisfied, and so fucking bored and angry but I just try not to touch that, nothing useful there for me. There is ALWAYS something missing inside and I am terrified of missing something that can relieve it (swati ketu,,,🗿) which makes it hard to also satisfy my solar ambition. (The irony of my ardra saturn aspecting my amk and having a “split personality”.)

But yeah basically life is pain, which is ironic because my first 20 years of life have been in my krittika venus dasha and I’m getting ready for my revati era in june. Maybe life will be less misery with s different nakshatra over my dasha? Because I genuinely cannot take this anymore 😍 I will snap if I live another year like this 😍😍💃💃💃😉😉😜

I think everyone struggles with balancing all of their energies. We're all kind of pulled in different directions from time to time. If we wait for it to all fall into place, we'll spend our lives waiting. We just have to roll with the punches tbh but I understand how heavy it must be to swing between extremes like that 😪

Tbh I'd say any nourishing maternal Goddess will be of aid here. Kali, Matangi etc are more aggressive/fierce Goddesses. Whereas Tripura Sundari, Bhuvaneshwari, Lakshmi etc are all gentler more soft vibes?? I think they help with everything from feeling internally soft, receptive and at ease to being magnetic externally and attracting prosperity because how we're on the inside is what we reflect externally.

I'd suggest against worshipping more fierce aggressive Goddesses in general but especially if youre energetically feeling imbalanced, the Goddesses don't play around, if they have harsh principles, you will feel its impact and it's best to not invite that in when you're not in the best state to receive it.

[la0hu]

okay arcane season 2 part one spoilers.

is vander actually 100% dead and singe is just making warwick from an actual wolf and his own blood???? i was literally so excited to see vander again and see vi being forced to fight against a fucked up resurrected version of her father figure

the sevika jinx unnamed child found family is so hilarious to me. they are so dysfunctional and should not make any sense and it's awesome. the moment where sevika shields jinx, who's clutching the child as they brace against the gas release at the end of the vi/jinx fight, that was so cute and also so fucking weird to see lol

also the vi/jinx fight happening immediately?? i would've guessed it was gonna happen at the end of the season, not at the end of the first arc??? and lowkey i was kinda upset at how quickly vi was like "my sister is dead, jinx is completely separate from her" like well. actually no you are literally still trying to kill your sister

viktor leaving was lowkey anticlimatic and i wish his design were cooler. where's the machine herald swag

i'm liking jayce a million times more now. lowkey i'm very confused at how easily all of piltover and the rest of the council just let go of him as a councilor. like it was that easy for him to just step down?? another aside, heimerdinger is like. so much more annoying to me now like i need the old man to shut up. i also need more lines and action from ekko, seriously underutilized character. might be more in the next two arcs, i'm guessing

i'm not loving the weird black rose magic villain that's targeting ambessa, not as a plot device. like i came here for the piltover/zaun classism oppression etc. feud and the fucked up relationships in traumatized found families, not for any bullshit with noxus.

also -- WHEN IS VIKTOR MEETING JINX????? PLEASE

jinx has so many more lines in this season so far, and it really is to her benefit, which has been great. last season it was really hard to gauge her self awareness, and it made her feel childlike, which i guess was intentional. but this season i was almost surprised by how she's able to recognize everything she's put into motion, and all the fucked up emotional stuff that's been happening to and around her. voice acting has been amazing

caitlyn entering her villain arc is unsurprising but still kinda interesting, tbh. ambessa positioning herself as a "mother" figure to her and warmongering is very fun. though i think she's a bit past redemption at this point, considering what she said to vi when they broke up. like it's so fucked up she was like "i can't believe i thought you were different from the rest of them" like okay. topsider bitch!

had a lot of hesitation around the little kid character who i guess jinx is supposed to be an adoptive mom/sister figure to. like i think it's corny and heavy-handed but tbh so is the rest of the show, and so far it's been executed well enough that i can't launch any serious complaints against the writing. the moment where the kid is aiming a gun at vi while trying to protect jinx while jinx is telling the kid in earnest to get out of the way was very fun framing.

i'm still not over sevika and jinx. i don't even know how to describe the dynamic. like step siblings who hate each other? sevika is like, mom's asshole boyfriend vibes? WAIT I GOT IT it's literally just coworkers who hate each other. there's no family love at all, it's just the weird affection-adjacent feeling you get for a coworker you would otherwise despise if you met in a non-work context. amazing. and they're being forced to foster a child together

[umemiyan]

Hiii robin! If you're cool with it, I wanted to ask, is there a certain moment with your selfships when you realize you ship with them, or is it a slow process that just kinda happens?

hi romy!!!! ❤️

tbh it kinda depends and i'm not always totally sure LMAO i'm a little all over the place with it. like a lot of the time i have a hard time deciding and i'm trying to create a classification system in my head akfjofijwe tho it probably shouldn't be that deep my brain just loves to cling to systematization and gets frustrated when it can't properly execute it lmfao. but anyways i shall try my best collect my thoughts and describe how i perceive my tendencies!!

i'll put it below the cut bc i always ramble lolol

there are definitely some ships where it was more of a slow progression and i had to eventually be like "yeah okay this is what it is" because it was getting to the point where they weren't going to leave. i could easily envision more in-depth scenarios between them and myself and/or lore that just seemed to naturally spring up and i just kept thinking about them all the time.

i'd say megumi is a good example of the slow-burn. he honestly wasn't the kind of character that heavily struck me when i first watched the anime and started reading the manga; in fact, i recall being like "oh great, another little hateful emo boy" LOL (historically they're not usually the type i'm drawn to). but i got to know his character better over time and realized that like. damn. i have rather intense feelings about this guy adjewoijfwof

toji and jean were a bit more on the "slower" side of development as well i suppose. and not "slow" in the sense it took several months or years or anything (i've only been self-shipping for about a year) but it was something i had to ease into a bit more i guess.

i actually hated toji at first but then the daddy issues kicked into overdrive and i eventually started catching feelings LMFAO and jean was my first self-ship ever. he's the first one where i felt comfortable enough to imagine myself with someone like that <3 i hadn't really truly done anything like that in years, but i loved his character so much that i was starting to actually insert myself in reader stuff rather than completely detaching like i used to. i could see myself with him.

suga, on the other hand, was the kind that hit me like a freight train. maybe it's because i'm more comfortable with self-shipping now, but it was easier for me to realize it and take it to self-ship level pretty quickly. not only was i obsessed with him from pretty much the first fucking moment, but the subsequent relationship daydreams have been insane LOL i mean i gave it a little bit of time because i hate the idea of being overly impulsive and irrational due to infatuation but uh. i fucking love him lmao

katsuki is..... *sigh* idk. he also kind of hit me like a freight train, at least with the daydream scenarios and whatnot, and i was hoping and praying it was just a phase (still kind of am) but i guess i've sort of accepted that it's not. or it's at least a longer-lasting phase than most lol idk. but i can't stop thinking about him and i'd rather just go ahead and call it a self-ship instead of continuing to try and wait it out or deny it. the brainrot is bad

ANYWAYS sorry for being unable to shut the fuck up as per usual lmfao but yeah!!! i tried to give some examples of how this shit works in my mind. right now i guess i'm sort of organizing things by how regularly/consistently i think about a character over time and with what degree of ease i imagine myself with them in several scenarios, but this is by no means the sort of parameters i think everyone should use when it comes to this. people should do whatever the fuck they want i just take shit too seriously sometimes and wish i could be more chill actually instead of trying to create a classification system for everything in my brain 😃 but here we are

[merge-conflict]

if the deli is still open can i get a #16, #18, and a #29? oh and a #38 🍔

16. What is one of your favorite words or phrases to use in writing?

I'm sure I have lots but I noticed recently how much I like to use the word "guttural". It's just a good base, kind of angry word that has to be spoken with its own guttural consonant and I can use it to describe a sound which could very easily turn from a laugh into a scream and then back, which is a mood in a lot of my writing.

18. What trope have you not written yet, but want to?

I would kill to think of a way to do some sort of fake dating/fake relationship scenario, ideally as some sort of spy plot. Also a "there was only one bed" scenario has always appealed to me.

29. Which fic would you most like to have fan art done for?

I would be honored to have fan art done for any fic!! I honestly couldn't choose, I can think of beloved scenarios from anything I've written lol. I have commissioned art for a few myself.

38. Pick three of your fics and share a song to go with each

I decided to avoid the fics that have song lyrics as titles because that felt too easy, which didn't leave me many options tbh but here are the ones I've done:

the damn things overlap: That's Life, Frank Sinatra

thread-safe: Wolf, First Aid Kit

imago: Sold, Dan Mangan

[nebulacollege]

What is attractive to the boys? Physically and personality wise?

Oh, I love this question! It was actually one of the questions I asked myself when coming up with the reason “Why would they fall in love in Edmund out of all people?” He’s their “perfect” boy, technically, since it’s a harem game, so he has to have some of the qualities they like in a person.

I’ll omit some of the facts that seem spoiler-y to me, as always.

Niall’s type

When coming up with this answer, I had a feeling that I wrote something similar, and yeah! I talked about his type a little bit here. It’s still true for him, but I’ll talk a little more.

Niall likes someone who’s attractive and good-looking, he’s a lookist, tbh. He likes beautiful and/or cute people, and Edmund falls under that category despite looking like a corpse a little lol He has small, round and pretty doll-like face with long eyelashes, and he has an entire air of being an “emo prince”, so to speak. However, Niall would also prefer someone who has a similar background as him, like a prince or a princess. No matter how pretty someone from a “poorer” background is, he wouldn’t even look at them unless they’re literally otherworldly. He wants to have a partner who looks like a trophy he could be proud of, and doesn’t want to ruin his lineage.

Personality-wise, Niall actually likes people who are honest with him and can say the truth to his face without hints and other hard-to-pick riddles. He wants to have someone close who he can be real with and share everything that’s on his mind, but he doesn’t open up to people that easily. Even Ned, who has the realest relationship with Niall out of everyone else, doesn’t know everything. He likes calm and collected people more than extroverted ones, and he likes it when a quiet boy is a little freaky and hides something, they’re very fun to him.

There’re also some kinkier aspects that can attract Niall, but I’ll keep them a secret for now <3 He likes it that Edmund is rude to him even if it hurts his ego, though, let’s just keep it at that.

Ned’s type

He has a size kink 😔 Sorry, that was right in the face. But it describes his type perfectly! It’s not very hard to be smaller than Ned, but he likes every single detail that highlights just how small the person is. Other than that, he doesn’t really have a preference, he would just enjoy all the physical traits of the person he’s in love with has. He wouldn’t like other main Nebula boys in terms of appearance, for example – their faces seem off to him, but actually, their personalities are more of a turn-off, so it’s the case where one thing influences the other. He first falls in love with the person and then with their looks.

In terms of a personality... he’s a little bit similar to Niall because he also likes people who would say things openly and honestly. He doesn’t understand hints, he doesn’t like them, and even if he catches something, he just discards them because he’s not sure it’s not his imagination. He’s actually very upset about the fact that “high society” is all about intrigues, it’s hard for him to navigate through them and he’s just been lucky not to get involved in any drama. Back to the type. He likes someone who’s kinda... defenseless without him? Ned’s not the caring type, he’s the “you’re mine” type, however. Ned likes someone who allows this type of behaviour, he’s like a dragon that guards the tower, so to speak, only he’s in love with the princess lol As soon as he falls in love, the other person can do no wrong unless they do something against him that would deeply wound Ned. He likes someone who shares his views on things or at least open to them, and he likes someone who can show him other points of view and open his mind to the world in general. He actually wouldn’t mind an extroverted person who navigates through social cues and intrigues easily for him, but, as you can guess, he’s open to other possibilities. What he imagined is not what he got in the result, but he’s more happy with this outcome.

Oh! Actually, Vil can be a great example of his type – social, smooth at conversations, very smart, very appropriate for every occasion. Vil seems like someone Ned would have a crush on as a child if they existed in the same universe.

Edmund’s type...

... is a spoiler? He doesn’t really have any preferences appearance-wise, but he likes paranormal, unique and creepy stuff? Does this count? Personality-wise, it’s also too much spoiler-ish, so I’ll refrain from that as well, sorry. Let’s just say he likes aggressive and dominant people.

Liam’s type

Also non-existent! He kinda likes pretty boys too, but more important than that, he doesn’t really fall in love or feels that much attraction to anyone. You wouldn’t guess it because of how physical he is with Edmund... Personality-wise, Liam likes “interesting” people, whatever the fuck it means to him. If I try to describe why he feels attracted to Edmund, I’ll have to go into spoiler territory, so this poor boy also has to wait 😔

I didn’t expect the last two of them to be so deeply tied to the story, huh. The reason why this reply might sound weird is because the story is not supposed to have good endings, btw, so there are no “they fell in love and got together” routes for any of them. I want the story to be dark and fucked-up, and that’s the result of it, curiously. But, of course, I don’t want to make them one-note characters.

[saintsenara]

okay, *cracks knuckles*, for the Snape ask: n°5, 14, 31, 49 (I have so many opinions on these, I can't wait to know yours)

thank you very much for the ask, pal!

5. do you think snape ever loved anyone other than lily, romantically or platonically?

answered here - the answer is yes, but...

14. what do you think is snape's favourite potion to prepare?

answered here - just picture him giggling as he plans to ruin umbridge's life.

31. do you think snape had any mental illnesses? which ones and why?

i’d be shocked if he didn’t tbh…

in my professional opinion, the canonical snape can be feasibly described as meeting the diagnostic criteria for post-traumatic stress disorder - there’s some ambiguity over whether he experiences flashbacks to his trauma, although i would argue that his reflexive grabbing of the dark mark whenever he’s reminded of what he did as a death eater/the fact that the sight of anger in lily’s eyes when harry glares at him forces him to withdraw into himself would be sufficient to agree to a diagnosis when weighed with his other symptoms. he’s certainly hypervigilant, irritable, easily angered, has massive trust issues, clearly not someone who sleeps well, avoidant, experiencing difficulties in interpersonal relationships, someone who blames himself to excess for his role in lily’s death, and so on.

i also wonder if snape’s thinness - he’s described as ‘gaunt’ on more than one occasion, whereas other male characters who are slender, such as dumbledore and tom riddle [the adult voldemort is another matter] are described in terms which make clear that their build doesn’t make them look unwell - is meant to be an indication that he has an eating disorder of some type, undoubtedly triggered by a need to assert control over at least one aspect of a life which otherwise isn't his own.

49. do you prefer tall!snape or short!snape?

answered here - short!snape supremacy