#the worst thing is like they suggested we watch ranboo and thats a bad idea cause then i got excited and like idk i think i jumped or smth | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bugflies00 · 9 months ago

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hate when people go Ooooh no your friends aren't annoyed with you thats just your brain being mean Brother i have eyes and also ears i might be oblivious but when we're 2 hours into hanging out and ive managed exactly 1 time to talk without having to be asked to shut up and my friends are clearly on edge to the point of snapping when i ask where the dishwasher is and when they explicitly go "i forgot how overwhelming and loud you are" thats not my brain making up shit theyre clearly annoyed like

#when people online just give blanket statements like Nooo youre not annoying Yes i Am annoying very clearly when this is a reoccuring thing #what i dont get is when people say like. well why dont you just tone it down. like you think im PURPOSEFULLY likethis????#brother this is the toned down version bc i know my friend's already tired & overwhelmed so im trying not to make too much noise #the worst thing is like they suggested we watch ranboo and thats a bad idea cause then i got excited and like idk i think i jumped or smth #and then that was overwhelming so then we switched to . ithink it was fundy #whos obviously great too but like #idk like i was trying not to react too loudly but then i got excited abt watching ranboo so that didn't exactly help #cause then we can't really watch stuff i wanna watch the most bc like i know i wont be able to contain the fucking. mouthing along and shit #or like tapping my feet idkk #and fucking again this is the toned down version from how i act when im like home alone this is like extra Im Trying To Be Quiet #and it doesnt fucking work because i dont fucking know how to be quiet im so sick of it #cause its clearly not my friend's fault like they get super overwhelmed quickly (also bc theyre autistic) like they cant help it #and it makes them snap sometimes . a lot. point is its not their fault its my responsibility but fucking hell #anywayyyy who want me😁#alex.rambles.txt

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