#the worst part was my brain 100% trusting him and yet my BODY didn't

[trcelyneart]

For years I thought that something was wrong with me, until I saw that word on a sex-positive instagram account and suddenly I understood that I wasn't broken nor alone. In my case, the source of my vaginnismus was trauma, and I managed to get rid of it through therapy and patience. It took me one year and a half before my partner and I could have PIV sex, because it would hurt like HELL. It required love, time, and a whole lot of lube before he could even put a knuckle in. Pap smear appointments are a nightmare because that still hurts a lot.

There are many causes for vaginnismus. Some are physical, others psychological, sometimes both. But it's not the end of the world! It can be overcome, the key is time and patience.

You're not alone, and neither was I five years ago

We all know what erectile dysfunction is but literally no one is ever taught what vaginismus is and it can cause people to feel extremely lost, broken, and cause people to take their own lives. Raise. Awareness.

[cherrywade]

so the upside down is frozen in time... on the day Will disappeard...

Long winded rambles under the cut. I'm just purging my brain of thoughts this is not a coherent post AT ALL I'm just babbling about stranger things.

And the day the gate opened. So does that mean that when Eleven sent One through the wall, THAT was the gate opening? Technically? But if it was... did that happen at the same time as will disappearing???? Is that even possible?? Because the gate wouldn't have been opened enough for will to get through at that point right?

So why is the upside down stuck on the day will disappeared?

And they said the last season is SUPPOSEDLY supposed to have Will more centered. And i know I've seen theories about Will having some connection to something, or having a way to stop stuff.

Could Will be one of the kids that Dr. Brenner was testing. Not like one that he took, but like, he could have powers like them? Cuz didn't One draw the exact same spider monster? Like i know he was drawing an actual spider, and then created that image in the upside down later out of the dust... but will draws an almost identical picture. AND he often sort of goes into a funky sort of out of body headspace when he draws. Not all the time, but when he's drawing the important things. Like the map. He was in a trance type thing right?

Does he maybe have powers? But they were just dormant until he was taken. Or not super strong ones. Ooorrrrr... when he went to the upside down, did part of Vecna's powers transfer to him??

Im literally just rambling to myself and like... i know we don't have answers yet. I just wish we DID have SOME kind of answers, or at least hints to it... idk. The worst part is i dont 100% trust them to like... make a thing out of this... it's just so confusing. Like, why litter so many clues to Will being part of something to have no actual pay off? (Shh shh bad writing i know) but ugh. So frustrating.

Also some of this could be like, wrong cuz i have not watched season 1 in ageeeess. But i just have this feeling like Will is the key somehow i just don't know WHY!!!!