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I know that people are rarely their best selves at a funeral, but do you ever just watch your family move through the process of mourning the Patriarch and have a sudden and violent and vivid understanding of Why Everyone Is The Way They Are
#it doesn't really matter if the answer is yes or no#because the thing is i am watching my family disintegrate in the wake and wreckage of disability/chronic illness#and i am feeling a grief and a rage that i cannot quite cope with#i am feeling many things and I am extremely drunk on vodka and tequila and red wine and i spent all day emotionally regulating#the worlds most fucking fucked up audhd genetic pool i've ever seen in my life#i don't quite know how to cope with the things that have happened today and as busy as my brain is given all that i prolly shouldn't have#had quite so many substances#the crossfade is far superior to being sober around my family and apparently despite it all i wasn't too incoherent#i was a blubbering baby the whole funeral tho#and i did spend the whole reception trying to manage a pots episode and the whole after party trying to stabilize my cousins#i don't know where in all this I will really be able to grieve my uncle himself#but honestly part of the issue on that is that i am feeling rather upset with and disappointed in the few people in my family who I had come#to trust over the years#chrissy and jenn are still everything i knew them to he#*be#and everyone else.....well#the people i knew before at least#fucking intergenerational trauma - the musical
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