#the way these past three days have been crazyyyy

[hamiltonnotthemusical]

kendrick really said “oh you thought you can’t play my hater shit in the club. let me prove you wrong” and then dropped “not like us”. now we’re shaking ass and hating!!

[winterrrnight]

rant + potential renewal of new beginnings

hello <3 so, something has been bothering me a bit for the past few days now, and I need to let it out. (more below the cut!)

I have seen people express their concern here regarding Rafe being written “wrong”, that is when he’s way too much of a softie, a romantic, etc etc. That really struck a chord in me because if you’ve read any of my content, you’d know I write a lot of soft!rafe/fanon!rafe. And even though no one has ever said to me directly that I’m writing Rafe “wrong”; when I read the post, it really hit me for some reason.

I totally understand if that isn’t your cup of tea. That’s okay. I wholeheartedly agree with the fact that I do write Rafe very differently from how he is shown canonically. But, I unfortunately don’t have an explanation as to why I do it (and now that I think about it, I don’t essentially owe one either). To add, there are so many authors for Rafe on here, so you can engage with all sorts of Rafe content; fluff, smut, dark!rafe, etc etc. I don’t read or write dark, nsfw content because it’s just not me.

I’ve been writing for months now, and never did I ever stop and question my writing the way I’m doing right now. Which leads me to really doubt everything I’ve ever written – even though the said post was never ever directed to me, it was a public announcement, it still felt like such a personal jab. (I am not even mutuals with the one who made this post, so honestly I don’t even know why it is affecting me so much).

I guess this is why my requests plus really old 300 followers celly requests are piling up, and I’m really really sorry for that. It’s a weird slump I’ve hit, and honestly I am not able to make my way out of it.

I was attempting to work on future chapters for New Beginnings, but failed miserably because I realized how fanon that Rafe is. And even though I have had so much love on New Beginnings so far (which I so so highly appreciate), it just isn’t sitting right with me right now, and I can’t find myself with any motivation to work on it. I also fear that the more the story ascends, I will lose engagement.

So, at the moment, I am not taking the story down or anything!! It is right there, but here is what can potentially happen:

-> I may never resume it, and have its three chapters up on my blog just like that.

-> I may take it down, renew it, and post a better version of it, one that suffices me.

-> I take it down (which, let me add, has minimal to no chance of happening because I don’t want to make any spur of the moment decisions).

The trope of the story has my whole heart, I just think I can take a better approach. So the chances of the second one happening are really high at the moment.

Thank you so much for reading, thank you so much for understanding <3 writing means the whole world to me so I wish for nothing but to escape this horrible slump :(

I hope you all are doing okay, please keep on taking care of yourself, drink water, eat some food, and just enjoy living 🤍🎀

Signal boost to spread within my moots (who are the literal reason I live and breathe 🥹 + people who have been so supportive of new beginnings it is crazyyyy): @runningfrom2am @maybankslover @totalswag @chenslucy @wallsdreams @sadfury @thatsthewaythechrissycrumbles @rafeinterlude @congratsloserr @bejeweledreverie @tortured-poets-depxrtment

(no pressure to interact!)

[snaggle-chamsae]

I’m yours | Seongwoo

genre: fluff 

member: seongwoo 

requested: yes!

summary: after knowing seongwoo is your bestfriend’s boyfriend, you lost hope in love and kept satisfying everyone else’s need just to ignore your feelings for seongwoo.

side note: I’m really really sorry for making this anon wait because I wanted to write a good plot for this so I really do hope this meets your expectations! 💗 I honestly don’t know if this is messy but do let me know about your thoughts :>

out of so many years of school, you only have one best friend 

yoojung

and to you, having her is more than enough 

she’s like the only friend you need to survive 

you guys basically grew up together since young as neighbours

and even though she moved away, you guys somehow still got into the same school and the same class

when you saw yoojung in the same class as you, you literally got a shock 

her puberty got hit by a truck because she changed 360 

you couldn’t recognize her at first until she squealed 

which is something she always do 

when you guys catch up, you got to know how her parents are doing

you also noticed how her personality changed

from someone who is really shy to someone who is really outgoing 

just when you guys got closer in school, you guys had to split class 

because the school had this system where you have to split class based on your choice of subject

you chose biology while yoojung chose physics

this means saying goodbye :(

and that kinda sucks because you can’t function well without her 

because you’re an introvert and you rely on her a lot 

that being said so, you guys still maintain a close relationship 

but just that you don’t see each other as much 

so one day after you finished extra class, you caught yoojung and seongwoo, one of the guys in her class talking

it caught you off guard because you don’t remember her being close to seongwoo 

nonetheless, you called her and told her it’s time to go home 

but she stopped you 

“y/n.... I wanna tell you something that I have been keeping as a secret”

and you’re what??? secrets??

“seongwoo is my boyfriend” she blushed as she confessed

“omg are you serious? I’m so happy for you!” you hugged her out of natural response while seongwoo laughs at the both of us 

“aren’t you angry for not telling you?” 

“why should i be! I’m really happy for you” you smiled at her 

after telling you this secret, the three of you started hanging out with each other

just like best friends 

and just within a short span of 1 month, you got to know a lot more about seongwoo

he used to be in your class but you guys are just merely acquaintance

so you know nothing about him

except the fact that he is the famous ong

anyways 

you’re happy that yoojung and seongwoo are a couple together

they look really suited for each other

but there are also times where you kind of feel jealous but you never told anyone especially yoojung

looking at how lovely yoojung treats seongwoo

and how seongwoo would always give in to yoojung

makes you jealous because you have never fallen in love 

as you always hang out with them, you always notice about seongwoo more 

and the fact that he is purely made out of boyfriend material makes you go crazyyyy for him

you know you really shouldn’t be thinking about seongwoo all the time but your thoughts would always involve him

you told yourself not to be in love with him but you just can’t stop this strong feeling

whenever you hang out with them, you tried to be cautious and not let either seongwoo or yoojung catch you 

because you definitely do not have the heart to break them apart

now that you have fallen for seongwoo, everything is just crazy 

until one day where yoojung approached you

“y/n! y/n! I THINK I NEED HELP” 

you though it is some kind of emergency but turns out to be something ridiculous 

“the thing is that I’m going out on a date with seongwoo and the problem is.... I haven’t finished my physics homework! could you help me with it?” she plead you 

“a-alright” 

why did you even say yes 

you mentally scold yourself because one, just because she mentioned seongwoo doesn’t mean you have to say yes and two, how the fuck are you gonna do physics? 

so that night, you gotten yourself into deep shit

because you had to flip through the textbook just to find answers for 1 question

oh god 

thankfully, you finished it fast and returned it to yoojung

hold up mate

you thought that is the first and last time you’re doing that? 

YOU’RE SO WRONG BOI

yoojung started relying on you more and more often and always use that ‘going on a date with seongwoo’ as an excuse

you hated how you would go so soft for seongwoo

and all the more, yoojung’s attitude is kind of getting on your nerves

she isn’t the same like the past because she has gotten a lot more whiny?

you are so so tempted to complain to seongwoo but you just didn’t wanna damage the image he has of yoojung 

so you hold it all in 

until one day, seongwoo texted you 

you almost dropped your phone because he actually asked you for help in math 

he had texted you before but this is the first time he asked you for help 

and thank god you’re a genius at math so you agreed

and he also asked you if it’s okay to teach him at your house because he didn’t want to let yoojung misunderstand 

you didn’t know if it’s a good idea but who cares

ONG SEONGWOO IS COMING TO YOUR HOUSE 

the moment you heard your doorbell rang, your heart started racing like mad

“h-hey seongwoo” you smiled 

you showed him to your room and you guys started studying 

honestly, you never expected that seongwoo would have so many questions

and in between all those questions, you guys talked

and you started to feel a lot more comfortable as compared to when yoojung is around 

after answering all of his questions, you gave him more practice questions since he said that there is a test coming up 

and when he is attempting those questions, you didn’t want to give him pressure so you decided to take a nap 

just then, you felt someone shaking you up and you kind of lost track of time that you didn’t realize seongwoo is still here 

“I’m sorry, y/n. you must be tired and you still agreed to help me.” he giggled 

“I’m good, as long as you understand.” you smiled 

and it is awkward because you guys just stared at one another 

and you feel like seongwoo is gonna tell you something but he didn’t 

nonetheless, he packed up and went home 

and even after he reached home, he continued texting you

and of course, who wouldn’t go crazy if their crush keeps talking?

so you guys texted through the night 

and as you are about to fall asleep, you wondered why seongwoo started talking to you in this manner

like he has never talked about deep stuff with you before 

and you didn’t mean the bad way.... but did something happen to their relationship?

and true enough, you got your answer the next day 

while you guys are heading home after a hang out, yoojung have her usual bright personality on while seongwoo kept quiet

yoojung kept bugging him and you didn’t expect seongwoo to explode

“yoojung, let’s... break up.” 

“what are you talking about? stop talking nonsense” yoojung gave a faked laugh

“i honestly have enough of your whiny attitude and i know everything, you gave y/n all of your physics homework just to go on dates with me” that definitely caught the both of you off guard

“w-what are you talking about seongwoo?- is that why you could hang out with me every day, all of a sudden” seongwoo asked

“I finished all my work! Stop talking nonsense, seongwoo!” yoojung spit back

what you would least expect is to see all of her physics homework in seongwoo’s bag

but how? 

“stop your nonsense, yoojung. I’m tired of all of your request” you felt another pair of hands fitting in yours and you found out seongwoo is pulling you away 

“wait seongwoo, what’s happening?” you had to ask 

“you’re the one that has been helping yoojung do all of her work?” 

why did seongwoo have to put you in such a dilemma 

“when i saw all those physics work at your desk last night, i felt it was odd because you did biology and true enough, you’re helping yoojung to do her work” 

“i guess i can’t lie to you anymore... but even so, there’s no big deal seongwoo” 

“it is, y/n. you have no idea how crazy yoojung is driving me... and i know this sounds even crazier that i actually enjoy being with you more.” seongwoo chuckled 

“what are you saying seongwoo? you must be drunk”

“no i’m not. i always catch myself thinking about you whenever yoojung is so whiny, you’re just so different that i question about my feelings sometimes...” he held your hand and rubbed them 

you sighed because you wanted to tell him how much it drives you nuts to like him and to also know it is impossible to tell him 

you’re just stuck in the middle 

whether to pursue your own happiness 

or to break your best friend’s heart 

“i-i really don’t know about this, seongwoo” you tried to free your hands off seongwoo’s but you found his grip got tighter 

“please don’t go, i know you feel the same way as i do. whenever you look at me, i could feel something different from your gaze” 

“but what about yoojung? she’s gonna be so heart broken and it’s all going to be my fault” you can’t help but to sigh

you waited for seongwoo to reply but instead, he wrapped his arms around and the warmth he gives is making you give in

“stop putting everyone before you, you are ignoring your own happiness” he broke the hug and look at your eyes lovingly 

and the moment his eyes started eyeing your lips and back at your eyes again, you know you’re gonna say yes 

once you felt his lips on yours, you wondered what has been keeping you from saying yes

“i’ll be yours, seongwoo” you kissed him as if you have missed him for a long time

but you don’t have to worry if you’ll ever miss him again

because he’s yours from now on

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