#the way she says she wants to punch anyone who got in sean or daniel's way and then she just let sean be a punching bag

[this-world-of-beautiful-monsters]

cannot decide whether it's hilarious or depressing that Karen is framed as this major trump card for Getting Daniel Back, like Daniel wanting to meet her has been a running theme through the show, she's implied to be a counterbalance to Lisbeth's fucked-up vicious kind of maternity,

but then they go to the church and Daniel just....doesn't recognize her, doesn't trust her. and Lisbeth runs verbal rings around her from the very beginning. and Sean is the one who actually talks Daniel out of it, the one who spills blood to get Daniel get back, the one who has that shared reserve of healthy, happy childhood memories neither Karen or Lisbeth have access to, and those memories are what snaps Daniel out of it because that's how you define family when it comes down to it, not with faith or even with bloodand it's just one more reason ep 4 messes me up so goddam bad.

[armisdeleon]

CHARACTER INTRO:

NAME: Armi Stella de Leon

AGE: 32

GENDER/PRONOUNS: Female. She/her.

SEXUALITY/STATUS: Pansexual | Taken.

OCCUPATION: Body Piercer

BIRTHDAY: October 31st, 1991

HOMETOWN: Wilmington, North Carolina

NEIGHBORHOOD: Midtown

FACECLAIM: Melissa Barrera

PINTEREST | BIOGRAPHY

BACKGROUND:

TW: N/A

Born through surrogacy. The de Leons' consist of two fathers named Daniel and Tony, a older brother by the name of Amos, and the youngest girl, Armi.

Growing up, Armi was considered one of the boys, honestly. She enjoyed getting down and dirty. She got her hands dirty, and she played sports throughout her school years. She was genuinely known as the cool girl to be around.

She'd decide to go off to college in New York, at 19, thinking that that was what she was supposed to do.

While there, and dealing with trying to figure herself out, she'd end up meeting a man by the name of Sean Richards. Sean Richards was handsome, and through and through a privileged kid. From a rich family, on the upper East side of New York City. Armi would find herself swept away into some Cinderella love story.

Only that was not to be seen. The relationship was great, at first, but slowly and surely, Sean would turn Armi into the perfect Barbie doll. Imagine was everything to the Richards family.

For five years, she'd be exactly the kind of woman a rich family of doctors would want. A trophy on her boyfriend's arm.

She'd go to college for nursing, and would receive her degree, but the second she was out, Sean demanded she be a housewife. The degree was simply just for show.

They'd be engaged that year, and it wouldn't be until the day of the wedding when Armi finally said enough was enough. Calling off the wedding, and pissing off a well connected family. She'd return to Wilmington with her fathers and brother.

At 26, and freshly single, Armi would start to rebel. She got her first tattoo, her first piercing, she cut her hair, and even dyed it. The proper Armi de Leon that had been made out of clay was no longer, and in its place was a stronger woman.

One who refused to allow a man tell her what to do. She'd find herself interested in art, crafting herself in make-up, body paint, and SFX work. She'd also find that she enjoyed body piercings, which is what she'd decided for as a career.

Armi would remain in Wilmington, and own every part of her. She's a wild child at heart, but mad loyal.

SOME HEADCANONS:

Has her tongue, nipples, nose, ears, and belly button pierced.

Has a pretty solid amount of tattoos.

Enjoys to dance, and is extremely flexible.

Love animals. Quickest way to win her heart, next to food.

Super good with kids, this surprises most people.

Super close to her fathers, and brother. Say something bad about them in front of her, and expect to be punched in the face.

Is a spicy Latina. Also loves spicy foods.

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

FRIENDS: She is super sociable, and fun to be around.

ENEMIES/I DON’T REALLY LIKE YOU: Not everyone likes everyone.

COWORKERS: Tattoo artists, other piercers, she has danced at the club, and bar tends from time to time.

CLIENTS: Anyone who’s needed make-up down for something, or even just Halloween-y stuff. Has piercings.

TRULY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING, FOR REAL. I JUST WANNA LOVE ON Y’ALL AND BE LOVED. OK THANK YOU

[arharmon]

Life Is Strange 2.3 Review

I never really been interested in playing the Life Is Strange games but ever since the reveal of the Season 2 I was totally invested in the universe. I played the first season, BTS and the DLC and fell in love. Now that I’m playing the second season I can easily say it’s the best one to be added to the universe so far. 

Anyways this is my hot take on this episode.

Mainly I wanted to talk about the romance within the episode since it’s a really big topic people are talking about. The ships and romance have started some controversy within the fandom which is understandable, to say the least.

The episode starts off with a flashback before the incident that caused Sean and Daniel to flee their home and we see some brotherly dispute between to the boys and after a talk between Sean and his dad the brother’s make up. We then skip back into present time and If you ask me it really foreshadows how this episode is going to play out. 

Seeing Hannah topless gave me a bit of a shocker because of I never expected the writers to go this far however the video game had already given us so much in previous episodes so seeing someone naked should have been inevitable.

Sean is in a very troubling and even some would say traumatic time in his life that he is sure to remember. The plot of the game and the character's goal (Sean’s goal) to protect his brother and get him to safety in Mexico. It’s clear to see that journey has very much changed Daniel which is easy to notice throughout the entire episode. Daniel constantly acts out and cold towards Sean simply because Sean prefers to hang out with kids his own age instead of Daniel. To be honest Daniel’s behavior is understandable but not tolerated. His behavior is the reason for the many unfortunate things that happen later on in the episode. 

To put in blatantly, Daniel wasn’t really my favorite in this episode. Like I really enjoyed seeing him on screen in episode two and many of his outburst was determinant based on the players' choices, so not really Daniel’s fault and the ones that were (like him being upset with his grandparents about his mother) is totally valid.

I was hoping that in this episode Daniel would become more mature and realize the very dangerous situation that their in and him fucking up could really mess things up for them at the farm. Which he totally ignores and acts more like a brat and fucks shit up for everyone.

To be honest I saw it coming and I am surprised they even lasted as long as they did. Anyway, enough about Daniel and more about Sean. My favorite.

Sean went through I lot this episode and one of those things being is his love life. Now I read a lot of stuff on Tumblr about the romance options and people having mixed feelings about things and the main reason why I’m writing this is that I wanted to share mine. While some say the romance wasn’t needed in the game, I would totally disagree. 

I think the romance was a must in this game. 

The genre of the game is Adventure/Slice of Life with a bit of Fantasy or Paranormal. But most importantly it’s Teen Fiction. I think most people forget that Sean is only a 16-year-old boy. A teenage surrounded by other teenagers pumped with hormones and testosterone. Not to mention drugs and alcohol.

Honestly, the Cassidy x Sean romance was clearly going to happen and anyone could have known if they paid attention to their first interaction back in the previous episode. However, I never expected us to get a romance with Finn. I applaud DontNod for making both of their MCs Bisexual to give the player a choice of who they wish to romance. 

Now I want to talk about both Cassidy’s and Finn’s romance routes separately.

First up, Cassidy. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my girl Cas. I think she’s a badass just look at her. However, the game developers really pushed a Cassidy romance. I mean it seems like she’s all over Sean every second. I mean their very first interaction was flirtatious. I feel the players that went with the Cassidy route got to experience the full-on romance bundle. The went skinny dipping which was a sweet call back to the first season, AND THEN THEY FUCKING HAD SEX!!!!!! Like what? I was not expecting that to happen?!?!

Now everyone had mixed feelings about this scene and some people even saying it was wrong because “sean was pushing himself to do things he didn’t really want to do just out of fear that he won’t get to experience” which I don’t understand how you could get that idea from that scene, but it’s false. Like I said, in the beginning, I knew we were going to get more nudity in this episode and thought that lake scene was enough... but then Sean lost his virginity.

Though I was shocked I was also happy the scene was included, because like I said before, Sean is 16. His whole life was just flipped on its ass and he finally felt as though he got somewhat of a new family that actually cares about him and his brother. And no one can say that’s not true. Look at the way they all interacted with one another during the campfire scene. It was easy to see they were a family.

Sean losing his virginity was pretty sweat. He did feel embarrassed when it was over (as every teenage boy would feel after his first time) which was expected and valid. Cassidy reassuring him was also sweet. 

In conclusion, I really like the Cassidy romance and I don’t think it was forced or that came out of nowhere. 

Now let's talk about Finn... oh boy Finn.

I have mixed feelings about this route. Like everyone else.

One reoccurring thing that I see people talking about was that Finn’s feelings for Sean weren’t ideal and that he simply manipulated Sean with a kiss to make him go along with the plan. Every time I see that I ask myself; “were these guys even playing the game? did they see what I saw?” I mean anyone could see that Finn genuinely cares for Sean and Daniel. Take a look at all the flirting he does with Sean and tries to play it off as jokes and how he is willing to stand up for Sean and Daniel by literally taking a punch for Sean. 

I can see why it looks kind of shady that the only way you could kiss him if you go along with his plan, I can certainly see this as Finn being manipulative (then again it was completely unnecessary since Sean had already agreed to go along with the plan). I think this is just bad writing on the developers part. Also, I wouldn’t say that Sean becoming gay came out of nowhere because that is not true. When you decide to stay and get a haircut you’ll eventually end up talking about sexuality and stuff. And it’s clear to see after that that Finn may have a thing for Sean.

I don’t find Finn manipulating Sean by kissing him, I just see Finn confessing his feelings and wanting Sean and Daniel to stay with them. Not to mention it’s not like Finn asked to kiss Sean. Yeah, he basically takes the opportunity to confess his feelings to him but the player is given two chances to reject Finn love and still go along with the plan. It wasn’t Finn being manipulative he just saw an opportunity in a moment of happiness and made his move. He also is actively trying to have Sean stay with the group and him by getting the money from Merril. 

Speaking of which I want to talk about Finn’s plan. I think the whole situation was morally ambiguous. And I actually agree with it. 

Now hear me out.

Back in episode one and two, we got a first glance of the bullshit Daniel and Sean had to go through on the road. Sean basically got kidnapped by some racist asshole, they had to sleep outside in the woods for a time and then moved to some old cabin that wasn’t any better (not to mention it was in the middle of winter). Also, don’t forget that Daniel got sick and Mushroom was killed by a puma (which could have easily been one of the boys if the mushroom wasn’t there). The point I’m trying to make here is that it’s clear to see that being on the road alone was dangerous for them. Who knows what would’ve happened to Daniel if the didn’t make to their grandparents' house, or before that if they didn’t find Brody who gave them money (and good advice to Sean) for them to stay in a motel for the night.

So basically Sean and Daniel had help, and without that help, they would have never made it this far. The thing I’m trying to get at here is that them taking that money would have helped them in the long run. I think Finn tries to explain that to Sean and when he offers for Sean to stay with them after the heist it made me feel even more confident in the plan and the aftermath knowing that if it did go well they would all be together still. Safety in numbers and all that. Also, it proves further that Finn does care about Sean and Daniel.

Honestly, the reason why I agreed to Finn’s plan is that I knew even if I constantly disagreed with it Daniel was going to go through it anyway. So I knew it would be best if I was there with them and that way Cassidy wouldn’t be there to get hurt or injured. 

It kind of bothered me that no matter how much you successfully managed to execute the plan you still get caught... but whatever. 

What people need to realize is that romance in this episode was a must and wasn’t just a “forced fling” but something completely more that impacted the characters completely. No one's forgetting about the many other important things about the game like family bonds, mourning lost, racism, exploitation, illegal drug trade/use and countless other important themes. But as a writer of Teen Fiction myself people need to understand that though it shouldn’t be centered upon; sexuality and romantic bonds are very important and were crucial in this story.

For me, this episode was an 8.5/10 it would have been a 9/10 it wasn’t the obvious glitches that were going on during my gameplay. I was trying to ignore it but completely lost it after Cassidy’s beer bottle was oddly floating in mid-air during the campfire scene.

Sorry for the long post, but I had to get my point across and give my honest opinion. I’m going to be making another post about my predictions and wants for the next episode.

Thanks for reading!

[deztinywarriors]

ES Spectre 2.0 Chapter 9-3

[wishingfornever]

9/17/17 – No Contact:  Road Rage on Memory Lane

Woke up at 5.  I’m leaving for Houston on the 30th. It may sound cliché but I always wanted to go see New York.  We’ve driven through it.  I was young.  We were seeing my brother and he lived in Massachusetts at the time.  My dad said he refused to go through New York so we had to as well.  Houston is the 4th largest city in the US, though, so I guess it’s like Texan New York.

My dad has been super chill lately.  It’s been nice.  At least he has been with me.  When we went to Reno, he got upset with customer service.  Ironically, I kind of felt like you and he was me.  Like you feel awkward and kind of want to go somewhere else.  It’s probably different for you… but similar circumstance. Someone was angry and you were riding shotgun with them. It wasn’t road rage.  He just wanted to see my sister at the casino she worked at.  He raised his voice and was a less than preferable customer to have.  My sister said she worked with a bunch of pansies because everyone was super scared of him at the desk.  She was chill with it (mind you, she got there after we did; she works night).  His anger is different though.  He takes everything personally.  I have a lot of unresolved issues that I leave unresolved.  It comes out while driving.  I didn’t used to be so bad. I sound like a broken record, I’m sure.  I’m reminded that my dad actively tried cockblocking me.  Again, wasn’t trying to get laid but geezuz.  I’m not sure we’d had gotten along at my age. I also realize that it’s a problem I have.  Like, I’m over what my dad did.  It’s fine, but I am a bit surprised.  I just wanted to have a conversation with her and then he tried overtalking me.  Daniel did the same thing with that 80 yo woman at the bar.  I was drunk so it became a competition.  I don’t like people talking over me because I guess it was always like that in between my dad and Janis.  So… a petty annoyance.  I guess when I get muted, blocked, or ignored it sucks too.  That is one of the downsides to trolling or at least the internet, where they remove my ability to speak. That might be one of the reasons I took this so hard.  I felt like you were keeping me from talking, though it’d had probably been better if I had just shut up.  I don’t know; pitching theories here.  I’ll bring up our relationship when I go to therapy.  I’ll try to be unbiased and I’ll see if that’s the reason.

I need to find a therapist first.  I don’t even know what to look for.

My lips are super chapped.  I was so dehydrated during the summer.  I’m looking forward to Adela’s where I can just grab a glass of water whenever I want instead of so many bottles of water.  Less wasteful, especially here.

I’ve been watching Rick an Morty Season 3 on repeat.  Part of a livestream that claims to have all episodes but only does Season 3.  I really shouldn’t because I could be working on my book, but eh.  The episode with the Vindicators.  Super Nova I think her name is?  I think you could cosplay her because she’s super skinny and has a nice ass.  ;D I know, I know.  Low standard but I think it’d be a cool cosplay to see in general.  Maybe soon, someone will do it. It feels like yesterday that I was still going to high school. Yesterday was ten years ago.  I’d have been starting my Junior year at about this time.  Hating life, stuck in self-isolation.  Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t hated… I was a self selected outcast.  I didn’t really have a clique.  David and I went to different High Schools and road the same bus.  Occaisionally, I’d go to his house to play Xbox.  During the summer, I’d spend a lot of time in between either his house or Jeremiah’s.  Jer and I spent two weeks playing nothing but Halo 3, iirc.  Might have been Halo 2, I don’t remember.  We were did a lot of multiplayer and we were fucking awesome.  That’s where we noticed red team always won.  Very seldom did blue win. Yeah, I think it was Halo 3.

I remember Jeremiah with short hair, btw.  It’s funny.  He looks a lot like Sean.  Go figure, eh?  ;)

We didn’t always just play Xbox.  He was sympathetic.  I told him a lot.  Anything that was on my mind.  That’s changed, though.  Not because I don’t trust him.  I guess somewhere along the way, I stopped opening up.  Might have had something to do with going to Texas the first time.  Not sure.

Told Ariel I was going back recently and she knows I hated Texas.  She worries a lot about me.  She remembers how bad Amarillo was on me.  How emotionally draining it was.  She remembers when I was in a hard time, partially caused by my niece fucking me over and robbing me, basically.  I was super thin back then.  After my hardships, though, I gained a lot of weight. I’ve gained over 80 pounds since I left Amarillo.

I’ve never felt so fat.  My self-esteem has never been so low.  I used to think I was fat when I weighed 240.  I was, but I didn’t realize I could gain anymore weight.  I let myself go.

I want to weigh 200 again.  That’s my goal.  I don’t need to weigh 180, that’s super thin.  I have a natural masculine build.  If I really dedicated myself, I could be a body builder.  I could get SO strong. I’d be petty and shallow about my own appearance, but life would be better.

I remember once in Amarillo when I was relatively skinny (not my skinniest; probably 210 or 220 if I had to guess) I had to save my niece from something stupid she got involved in.  She was confronted by a man and a woman.  The man was smaller than me, and immediately starting kissing up by saying, “Hey, Bro.  Do you work out?” and feeling my left arm.  I pulled away and told him no.

I don’t like being touched and I don’t like when people kiss ass. Your touch was the exception, of course.  This guy royally pissed me off. My niece made it back to my truck without too much hassle and they left her the fuck alone when I got there.  One of the reasons I didn’t get in many fights was because I never had to.  I was intimidating.  I didn’t want to fight anyone then.  The fights I did get in, I didn’t want to fight then either.  I rely on intimidation so I win the fight before it ever happens. Maybe that’s another reason you’re afraid of me.  Because it works. I don’t feel very intimidating right now.  I’m just… round. However, I’m confident no one would ever try to fight me.  It’s not in their best interest to, after all.  If they fight me, they might get hurt.  The average human is a coward. If someone is talking shit to your face, he’s building up the courage to fight you. With the two fights in Texas, they both swung first and they were both drunk.  The second fight, he had a friend help him. The first refused to go home and through a swing at me.  I punched him and physically dragged him outside.  He threatened me by asking, “Have you ever been shot, before?  Have you ever been shot with a gun before?” think that was scary.  I followed him to his apartment and he came out with a bench press bar.  Piece.  Of.  Shit.  He threatened to hit my truck and he threatened me with other things.  As he was trying to scare me, my niece pulled up with her boyfriend.  I turned to look, look back at this guy, and he was trying to… impale my face with it?  Like, he didn’t swing.  He thrusted.  I dodged it all and then hit him with a hook.  He ran back inside.  I asked my niece’s boyfriend to go drive my truck around the corner. As he drove off, the dude stepped outside and was reporting my license plate to the police.  I saw this and yelled, “Hey, go back inside!” and he fearfully looked at me and then went back inside. I waited for the police, wearing light pants and a tee shirt.  I knew they were coming and when they got there, I wasn’t expecting them to take me outside.  It was cold and I was freezing.  They said that they got a call that someone was threatened with a gun. Ironically, it was me but he said I had pulled a gun on him. So, they check my apartment and then they checked my truck.  I let them know that the seats fold up in the back and helped their search.  After they realized I didn’t have a gun (my rifle was at my brother’s so if I had kept it at the apartment, I’d be in serious trouble. Then again, someone would have stolen it like they did my other things).  They asked me if I wanted to press charges and I said no and that he was drunk.  Whatever. It honestly wasn’t that bad.  I threw less than five punches that night.  I was told that if he refused to leave, I had the right to shoot and KILL him. When I heard that, I was super shocked.  Of course, this was at Dunkin Donuts when I was told that.  It was before the cemetery.  I was content.  My rage and my sorrow was manageable.

The second time, I was spending some time away from the apartment with this girl.  I got an emergency text from my niece and I really didn’t feel like answering it.  She’d set up all these bullshit parties in our apartment and then rely on me to break it up when it got out of hand.  I was tired of it.

This time, it was different. This dude was getting a little too frisky and his advances were unwanted.  So, I ended up going back.  When I returned, she ran to the bathroom and I told the remaining few that it was time to wrap up the party and go home. This little turd eyeballed me.  He was the one trying to get frisky with my niece.  He was clearly angry and I was expecting him to say something.  He didn’t.  Just punched me and started punching me.  I grabbed him by the throat and pinned him against the wall while yelling, “What the fuck?!”  I was collecting my thoughts because I didn’t think he’d act so unreasonably.  His friend who was by the beer pong table charged me and grabbed me.  Thus, I had to fight these two guys in my own home. One of my niece’s friends came in and said, “What the fuck?!”  She was apparently a friend of the little turd’s friend and asked what the hell he was doing.  He said helping Little Turd.  I told her I told them to go home and he coldcocked me out of the blue.  She yelled at them and they left. She stayed and said I still looked handsome.  It was nice.  Things had gotten worse there which is why I didn’t want to party with them.  I was tired of the loud music and drinking.  I was sleeping on the couch and needed to hear it.  I didn’t show my appreciation then. The first fight was early on so the parties weren’t frequent.  Things weren’t that bad then.  I let my niece walk all over me and thus things started to go bad. That said, the second fight was less one sided.  Go figure; I was outnumbered.  I had a black eye and a bloody nose.  No permanent damage, except for a ruined shirt.  Blood and tears.  I was a little upset by it. The next day, I go to work and everyone joked about how I needed to stop hosting fight clubs in my apartment. That day, I also was offered a job at the cemetery.  I was given the job offer looking like an amateur boxer.  It took me a while to actually accept their offer.  I used to have a discomfort with being in cemeteries.  If it were a car dealership, I’d have taken it sooner probably.  I hate car dealerships, too. Less people would have threatened me at a car dealership.  But that’s a story for another time.