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anonprotagging · 2 years ago

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my trainers: you’re so good at implementing feedback, you use it immediately and improve so quickly!! you’re making so much progress and doing a great job!!

me, holding back tears: it’s because the bar is underground though right?? I’m just doing a great job for someone who was previously doing a terrible job right??

#negative #why is brain not do good brain compliment accepty #hahhhh last semester fucked me up SO bad #the self esteem I built up was already a little fragile but then it was just nonstop 'okay no you're not going to succeed'#'you're inefficient you're too slow you're not managing your time right have you considered a different career?'#'I just don't know if you'll be able to succeed at this job with your... attitude and behaviors and skills'#this semester I'm being so supported and helped and all the feedback is so constructive and I'm getting so many tools and so much experience #but it's still like. any 'here's how you can do even better!' and 'oh let's go talk about how you did at this task!' has me fighting #the urge to run away and cry sdkjfhsdkjfh #idk. it's just hard to believe when I legitimately think I'm doing a terrible job #I'm trying SO hard but it's been a whole month and I've gotten nothing solid done yet

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