#the universe is sending me signs that i should play stardew valley

[thelifeofacactus]

Facebook really just called me a gay loser to my face

[missys-mansion-of-mistakes]

Visiting my parents today to get my car looked at. We replaced the TCM (Transmission Control Module) on the car a few weeks ago and it's been working fine, but I turn into a sort of worrywort when it comes to my car. Probably because learning how to do maintenance on it isn't accessible. Computers? Dust it out and you're fine 90% of the time, if not then learn up on basic hardware and start using process of elimination with installing new parts selectively and carefully via youtube videos. "If it does this, then probably replace that." Cars? Basically that, but instead of

being internet-less you're entirely stuck at home during the duration of the fix. Which sucks, big time. There's no playing around with trying to understand cars unless you have a junk fixup car, a free driveway or yard, and a knowledgeable father-esque figure to teach you. Or you're signed up for an auto class at a university.

And my father in particular isn't prone to teaching. He gets tired fast. Just wants the job done. Throughout my life he has never seen X problem as an opportunity to teach me Y solution. And so... I never learned. Just learned that, Hey, I should ask my dad!

That's why I'm visiting my parent's instead of going to a mechanic. Or just fixing it myself. I'd love to be the sort of butch, capable woman who hears a car making a noise and goes, "Ah yeah that's the oil recirculator" or whatever, but I'm not. Yet. Maybe I'll take an auto repair class for fun.

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The drive up here was nice, but smoky. Wildfire season appears to have kicked in rather late. Not that I'm complaining. As soon as I entered the edge of town pretty much, I could smell it. Hopefully when I go back home later tonight or tomorrow it won't follow me there.

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My parent's chickens are HUGE now! I last saw them a month ago for my birthday and they were about the length of my hand and width of my fist. Now they're like, chicken-shaped instead of chick-shaped. So cute.

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I try to use my time up at my parent's to relax. I don't use the couch at my apartment-- that's my roommate's territory-- but I commandeer the loveseat while I'm here. Watch MST3K on the big, big screen because I'm too out-of-touch to know what movies or shows are good these days. I watched Damsel on a whim the other time I was here, that was good. Maybe I'll try to keep up on my daily tasks, maybe I won't... write a little, try to find new Slowly friends, read. Life is just slower up here. I grew up hating this town, but as I grow older and as I get mentally further away from it, the more it feels like the Stardew Valley town. Just a whimsical place I would love to settle down in when I'm old. Own a ranchhouse here. Etc.

Sending good vibes your way.

What little adventures are going on in your life?

[Photos: Evie the cat climbing on me for pets, unidentified flower in my mom's pot, my dad dual petting Pepper and Poppy the chickens, and Butter checking out my holey shoes]

[shatterthefragments]

Questions Tag Game

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Hmm I'm supposed to tag 20 but I'll tag:

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1. Name/Nickname: Shatters <3

2. Gender: *shrugs noncommitedly*/nonbinary fits best

3. Star sign: okay so I took a thing and I'm going to assume that "Sun in Pisces" is this? bc i have no clue any time i look at that :eek:

4. Height: it is to my delight that I can definitely say 5'3" and not actually 5'2"! Bc I'm only a couple inches shorter than a friend and that would mean I'm taller than 5'2"!

5. Time: at the time of this Q: 12:20... ah I should get ready for bed soon... (longer by the time I post this at a little past 1 am)

6. Birthday: Feb. 26

7. Favourite Band: Currently? Maybe Polyphia? Most played currently at least. I've been vibing with Nothing But Thieves, Daughtry (again), 3OH!3 (i know), Florence + The Machine (though I have yet to do a discography playthrough yet), (ok so I'm scrolling through my saved artists for this one), The Neighbourhood, some local bands, and The Pretty Reckless lately.

8. Favourite solo artist: oh dear god. Um. Loving and/or getting back into: Rina Sawayama, Toby Fox, Ichika Nito, Tim Henson, Lil Nas X, King Princess, Hayley Kiyoko? idk it could be a lot more. But for Reasons it currently has to be Lil Nas X <3

9. song stuck in my head: because I caved and got TikTok (derogatory) because of the Chocolate Potato Cake (from 1912!) [and if you didn't just hear that in Dylan's voice you should find it on Youtube it's great] it's Maneskin's Beggin. When that's not recently heard, it varies between many other songs. If I whistle, it's usually a simple march we played in band. Maybe Soda. Maybe the hook from The Worst. Who knows~ not me!

10. last movie: either Waves or Wolf it's been so long since I've watched something. But soon hopefully Hartenstraat!

11. last show: Leverage! When I rewatched it last year or something!

12. when I created this blog: perhaps 2012 or 2013? I deleted most of my blog and started over though at around 15k posts so it may have been before that? But I don't think it was much before 2012 if so.

13. what I post: please tell me fuck if i know aaaaah whatever I see when I pop on when I have the capacity to actually reblog or queue it i guess? mostly related to whatver i'm fixated on <3 (speaking of - draining my queue for the tumblr post+ strike so that'll suck to get filled again afterwards :P)

14. last thing I googled: "Sugar and spice makes everything nice quote"

15. other blogs: theoldguardinshatters is my tog sideblog! I have some other... rather inactive blogs... not really sure I want to share them. Some are straight up empty.

16. do i get asks? not often

17. why I chose my URL: I'm a poet! jk jk (or am I?) but I wrote a poem back in middle school... actually a few versions based off the same premise/line (i was going to see if I could find it but looking back That Far in my blog is like "yeah, there's no way I'm faking my mental illness even when I fear I might be" so I'm just. not. going there. like holy shit maybe i should purge my old posts again...) But if I remember maybe I'll put what I can remember under a cut?

18. following: after swearing I'd never follow more than 100: 304. But many aren't active anymore :( (also literally me 5 yrs ago: 'oh god I follow more than 30 people I'm freaking out, it's too many!')

19. followers: 234, but who knows how many are porn bots I never really kept up back in the day

20. average hours of sleep: ...that is a good question... idk. maybe 5ish when I work and maybe 9ish when I am just me on my own?

21. lucky number: culturally: 8, personally, also: 3,7,13,17,19,23

22. instruments: formerly flute and tenor sax. I haven't exactly kept up oops >.< (so i guess rn I just whistle or hum or sometimes sing)

23. what am I wearing: shorts and a t-shirt

24. dream job: bookbinder, or some other creative pursuit that allows me to work with my hands - cake decorator? other arts? idk. maybe secretary? maybe fancy ass barista/pastry decorator? editor? illustrator? i have no clue please send suggestions <3

25. dream trip: with friends. Not having to drive the entire time. Longer than what I'm currently able to do... maybe a couple months... maybe in europe or asia? maybe just road tripping across canada. idk. It sure would be nice to see them again <3 hopefully camping with one (maybe two?) mid august-ish though! :D

26. favourite food: dim sum (bc I really miss going out with family!), sushi, desserts, pies, quiche, eggs benny, Popcorn, I'm not sure. those are also safe foods texturally usually too though.

27. nationality: canadian, half chinese.

28. favourite song: *shrugs* right now perhaps Soda or The Worst

29. last book I read: ...i don't know... maybe a reread I did of What They Always Tell Us or Martin Wilson's other book We Now Return To Regular Life last year?

30. top 3 fictional universes I would like to live in: ...fuck. I don't know. Most of the fantasy universes I read are fanfic... Maybe.... Waves Cinematic Universe - now that Gabriele has a boat, we could boat! Some universe with wings! A universe with UBI *sideeyes gvmt* Stardew Valley universe! :D

from what I can remember maybe (again - Several Versions of this were written... back in middle school...)

Shatter the fragments to see what's left Release the weight That's on your chest

There's nothing left For you to see Nothing left But apathy

[queerloquial]

tagged by @nonbeanary-squid

1. Nicknames: magpie (with or without ‘the’ in front), birdie, nerdlord

2. Gender: gendervague, so, agender variant “my brain doesnt work right so what the actual fuck even is a gender”

3. Star sign: aquarius

4. Height: 5′5.5

5. Time: 9:25 am as of typing this

6. Birthday: february 10

7. Favorite bands: fall out boy, radical face, panic! at the disco, linkin park, yes im still a goddamn emo leave me alone

8. Favorite solo artists: uhhhh shit idk hozier?

9. Song stuck in my head: mr mistoffelees from the cats musical

10. Last movie I watched: the iron giant

11. Last show I watched: leverage, and i am Very sad bc netflix is taking it off their list tomorrow

12. When did I create my blog: i was lurking on blogs in high school but i dont think i created my own until late 2012/early 2013. this specific blog has been around since december 2016, i moved bc i got discourse’d at for saying gay aces exist

13. What do I post/reblog: mostly funny/sappy posts, some fandom shit, occasionally feel-good posts when i remember to reblog them. and every once in a while a vaguely discourse-y post, but i try to keep those to a minimum bc im here to have fun, not to get some kid yelling in my inbox abt how ive got bad opinions and should die

14. Last thing I googled: uh. shit idk [...] it was ‘current temperature -hometown- va’. bc why walk all the way to the other side of the house to check the thermostat

15. Do I have any other blogs: @sharedheadspace is the system blog, and ive got 2 nsfw blogs of varying purpose, only one of which i will ever give out to anyone but a select handful of people

16. Do I get asks: only if i reblog an ask meme and my partner has the spoons to send one

17. Why I chose my url: im autistic. my name is magpie

18. Halloween costume: to be quite fuckin honest i forgot it even was halloween until my mom asked if it was late enough we could turn our porch light on again

19. Fave vine: gO suck a dICK suck a dICK suck a mOTHErfucKING diiiick (suck a diiick) sUUUCK a hUUUGE or smAALLL dIIICK

20. Average hours of sleep: vaguely 7?

21. Lucky number: 13

22. Instruments: i played the keyboard in middle school but ever since we turned my piano into a desk i havent touched an instrument

23. What am I wearing: a college tshirt i wore yesterday + a pair of athletic shorts i kept from high school

24. Dream job: baker

25. Dream trip: visiting my partner and just never leaving

26. Favorite food: pizza tbh

27. Nationality: american

28. Favorite song right now: i dont think i currently have One Song i like more than the others tbh

29. Last book read: i got another couple chapters into the elder scrolls novel ‘the infernal city’ at the laundromat yesterday. i dont really read much these days, it takes a form of concentration i just dont feel up to exerting for anything but my special interests

30. Fictional Universe You’d want to join (top three): being a very out of shape neurodivergent with strong sensory issues, i would survive in notably few fictional universes. stardew valley doesnt seem too bad tho, and its possible i could do ok in the ~other side of reality~ from my partners game. third choice is the mass effect universe altho only when theres no major crises going on bc chances are id have a shit time :P

tagging time @loghainmactir @mageheart @gunplayreyes uhhh tbh i think thats all the mutuals i have who havent already been tagged + who have any likelihood of answering