#the trinity marks especially i think are a clever bit of game design because as you unlock more

[naydralikessoup]

it's happened a couple times before and it makes me a little sad that sometimes i've gone into things convinced they would be bad (like say the live action speed racer movie), and discovering that they're actually very well executed and enjoyable, and extremely sincere. it makes me sad that i find myself thinking and speaking about them sardonically at first, when i claim to be very pro-silliness and authenticity. like, i know there's no need, and no real reason to be mean, so why do i still do it?

maybe because the sincerity feels so raw? not as in like dark or even that deep, really, but if i accept it into my heart as something i really love, it shows very clearly something about some part of me i'm maybe too shy to show off otherwise. if i tout myself as an unironic fan of these silly, sincere things, i find myself feeling like i've exposed the silly, sincere, vulnerable part of me that drew me to them. but i'll never be able to live up to the ideal of the eternal search for self knowledge if i can't look these things in the eye; i've gotta learn how to reach into the irony and take hold of the real treasure within: cringe.