#the themes of love and growth...ough

[bisaster-energy]

yuri on ice victuuri kiss scene you are so famous and everlasting

[hoyotournament]

FINALS!!! Furina vs Kiana Kaslana

(Propaganda under the cut)

Furina:

the girl who saved fontaine. condemned herself to a life of silent pain and suffering without any warning or preparation. she could confide in no one, seek out help from no one, all while bearing the weight of her entire nation on her shoulders. not only did her willpower save everyone in fontaine, but after the prophecy was averted, she was finally allowed to live a normal life.

Kiana Kaslana:

TLDR: she's kiana kaslana what do you MEAN!!!! kiana is a beautifully written character who fully encapsulates what hi3 is about and she's so full of love and guilt and (most importantly) hope. she's a clone who struggles with her own identity/inhumanity and traumas extending from when she was a young child and her guilt but is so so resilient and so so so so compassionate which ultimately reinforces her humanity :)

kiana's character IS the honkai impact thesis statement. i don't even mean it as in she's the literal main character and face of honkai i genuinely mean it when i say she just IS honkai impact. she reflects every single theme that they portray [hope over nihilism (chapter 25 || the flame chasers and just. the previous era in general), having agency over your identity and your own story (himeko, her being k423 and being so linked to sirin, everlasting flames || the kaslana household name honestly, bronya, fu hua, mei, sirin), believing in the humanity's inherent worth (chapter 25, arc city || elysia <- important since as a current era herrscher, she is a successor to elysia AND as kiana kaslana, she is a narrative parallel of elysia), having faith in the youth (himeko, kevin || the other flame chasers! notably su), etc.] her character being so reflective is also sooooo OUGH to think about when you view it as a reflection of honkai's 50,000 year samsara because kiana is a representation of these themes coming full circle (especially since many of these stretch back to the previous era and elysia).

SHE FEELS SO MUCH. she's so full of love and guilt. she clearly prioritizes others over herself and part of her arc is her learning to value and love herself as well!!! she would give herself for the world ten times over because she holds so much affection for humanity!! (WHILE FEELING DEHUMANIZED BECAUSE OF HER IDENTITY AS BOTH A HERRSCHER AND K423) and it's actively apart of her character's growth :'')

dear god her growth… okok. so i think first you have to understand that a lot of kiana's growth obviously coincides w general maturity as she grows from a teenager to a young adult. but aside from that i think people often forget that younger kiana is incredibly self sufficient since her father literally left her with little to no explanation when she was like. what 8? the insecurity she feels at that! the anger she has to navigate while also balancing it with her own feelings of missing and loving him. basically: kiana has struggled a lot w instability and is thus kinda good at navigating it. ex: she isnt shaken by nagazora and literally tries again and again and again to save mei and convince mei to let her help. the thing is this fucks w her a bit though because a big thing that she does as a means to cope w instability is avoiding them (not reflective of real life of course, but in the fictional hi3 this is partially represented in kiana's repressed memories about her actual origins as k423). she can not stand the realization that she killed himeko that she's so deep in denial and doesnt truly realize it until more than 10 chapters after himeko dies! she's so horrified with her being a herrscher she actively tries to not use her powers out of fear, even when it puts her in harms way (the chapter XI-EX CG!!!!!! her literally trying to kill herself!!) she literally runs away from her friends and loved ones because she's so scared of hurting them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is why her promise to himeko to not run away is so important!! because it addresses one of kiana's biggest flaws!!!!! this is especially important bc her refusal to continue her avoidance feeds into her arc during the herrscher of dominion chapters where she both faces her own guilt/identity and deliberately chooses perseverance and hope over nihilism!! she is hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[oathofkaslana]

TLDR: kiana is a beautifully written character who fully encapsulates what hi3 is about and she's so full of love and guilt and (most importantly) hope. she's a clone who struggles with her own identity/inhumanity and traumas extending from when she was a young child and her guilt but is so so resilient and so so so so compassionate which ultimately reinforces her humanity.

1. kiana's character IS the honkai impact thesis statement. i don't even mean it as in she's the literal main character and face of honkai i genuinely mean it when i say she just IS honkai impact. she reflects every single theme that they portray [hope over nihilism (chapter 25 || the flame chasers and just. the previous era in general), having agency over your identity and your own story (himeko, her being k423 and being so linked to sirin, everlasting flames || the kaslana household name honestly, bronya, fu hua, mei, sirin), believing in the humanity's inherent worth (chapter 25, arc city || elysia <- important since as a current era herrscher, she is a successor to elysia AND as kiana kaslana, she is a narrative parallel of elysia), having faith in the youth (himeko, kevin || the other flame chasers! notably su), etc.] her character being so reflective is also sooooo OUGH to think about when you view it as a reflection of honkai's 50,000 year samsara because kiana is a representation of these themes coming full circle (especially since many of these stretch back to the previous era and elysia).

2. SHE FEELS SO MUCH. she's so full of love and guilt. she clearly prioritizes others over herself and part of her arc is her learning to value and love herself as well!!! she would give herself for the world ten times over because she holds so much affection for humanity!! (WHILE FEELING DEHUMANIZED BECAUSE OF HER IDENTITY AS BOTH A HERRSCHER AND K423) and it's actively apart of her character's growth :'')

3. dear god her growth... okok. so i think first you have to understand that a lot of kiana's growth obviously coincides w general maturity as she grows from a teenager to a young adult. but aside from that i think people often forget that younger kiana is incredibly self sufficient since her father literally left her with little to no explanation when she was like. what 8? the insecurity she feels at that! the anger she has to navigate while also balancing it with her own feelings of missing and loving him. basically: kiana has struggled a lot w instability and is thus kinda good at navigating it. ex: she isnt shaken by nagazora and literally tries again and again and again to save mei and convince mei to let her help. the thing is this fucks w her a bit though because a big thing that she does as a means to cope w instability is avoiding them (not reflective of real life of course, but in the fictional hi3 this is partially represented in kiana's repressed memories about her actual origins as k423). she can not stand the realization that she killed himeko that she's so deep in denial and doesnt truly realize it until more than 10 chapters after himeko dies! she's so horrified with her being a herrscher she actively tries to not use her powers out of fear, even when it puts her in harms way (the chapter XI-EX CG!!!!!! her literally trying to kill herself!!) she literally runs away from her friends and loved ones because she's so scared of hurting them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is why her promise to himeko to not run away is so important!! because it addresses one of kiana's biggest flaws!!!!! this is especially important bc her refusal to continue her avoidance feeds into her arc during the herrscher of dominion chapters where she both faces her own guilt/identity and deliberately chooses perseverance and hope over nihilism!! she is hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lisxdumbr]

anyway. spider-verse thoughts

i love pavitr and i wish he got more screen time he was so silly. beloved character. dear to me. i love his entire rant abt chai. that was so good. and hobie!!!!!! silliest dude. love the anarchist brit. i love how he like kind of does fuck-all in almost every scene he is in yet simultaneously is the most chaotic dude in the room. respect. he is also very dear to me and i look forward to seeing more of his dimension in the next movie <3 gwen is so tgirl btw. like her entire dimension is mostly blue-pink-white and purples???? and in the entire conversation with her dad it's all blue-pink-white in the background??? and her entire "the people i love can only know half of me!" like ?!?!??! ? AND WHEN HE ACCEPTS HER THE ENTIRE SCENE TURNS ONLY WHITE AND PINK?????? i love her dearly. gwen deserves the world btw. miles was !!! ough i love seeing his growth. going from being all cocky and confident to terrified of what's going to happen like. he's still a child even if he has to act as a grown up !!!! ough. spot being the most cringefail wet pathetic villain and then going to actually being terrifying was one of the best villains yet btw like. he goes from the most wet and pathetic guy to actually downright terrifying and i love that for him. #growth.

ALSO MIGUEL. Miguel's motif reminds me a lot of Prowler's? like it lacks that sharp synth-y sound that Prowler has in his theme but the underlying sense of unease and danger is so similar. i think miguel is going to be a villain in the next movie tbh. he seems kind of... i dunno. like he's holding on too tightly and believes the only right way is his way?

anyway. loved seeing gwen assemble everyone in the end :) peter and mayday!!!! noir and peni !!!!!!! spiderham !!!!!! hobie and pavitr and spider-byte!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's going to be so fun in the next movie i think. and god i look forward to seeing noir and peni again i ADORE them

You're so real for everything here

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE HOBIE. I DON'T KNOW IF I SAID LOVE ENOUGH TIMES ACTUALLY BUT I LOVE HIM IN CASE IT WASN'T CLEAR.

The world. he's so. thehrjwhdhwgGACSVTSBRLORBRVGEAOFMFYNDIIHRVW vany you know I've been a goth punk for the longest time right. right. rightright you don't know how fucking extremely happy I was that there was ACTUAL good punk representation in my screen, since in the past few years it has been extremely hard for me to find a punk community in my city and I've been having to rely on my mother's friends from the alt street market,,, (though I've spotted some in art school ever since I started I think). Hobie makes me very happy, he's so fucking well constructed, he has references to the 70s movement and to the okupa movement (← that's how we call it in spanish srry if it's not the same in English) I love that he actually lives for the original concept y'know.

ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN HIS DESIGN. I AMJWBDJENSNQKNAKJEB I'm obsessed OBSESSED. he took out that mask and my heart dropped 50 floors and reached the underground. I love him and his style, perhaps I'm a bit too obsessed (I had a dream with him.. aheem) I need him and his pretty boots to kick me mmmhehhdjf sorryaboutthaticantevenactnormal

ANYWAY GWEN. I love her she's my most specialest girl ever. T Gwen is so real I can't believe there are people denying it???? The color palette and the way she talks about herself. There's a fucking TRANS FLAG IN HER ROOM and people are like "um she can have that flag because she's an ally not because she is trans" and I'm like. Amount of cis people I've met with trans flags in their room = 0. There are people saying that it's because Peter was the trans guy which I mean yeah, would make sense, but why not both. both is good.

Anyway Gwen's world is def my favorite, I love the aquarelle texture and how it's the world in which the color affects the environment the most. My favorite scene is the one where she confronts her dad, the way you can see her hair turning pink and blue and how at the end all the colors become warmer and GHHHFRFHR I love her so much.

Anyway I have a lot of thoughts I'm going to scream and cry. I kinda want a spiderverse theme but there are so many good images, I don't know what to use

[luminecho]

Hello Echo, question. Do you still have Four brainrot? Follow up question. Do you have any songs that you associate with Four? Thanks bestie <3

Answer 1: Steel, I ALWAYS have Four brainrot <3

Answer 2: I am literally SO FUCKING GLAD you asked, you have no idea how excited I got seeing this holy shit. HELL YEAH I do!! Take a few songs from my playlist

If I include more than 3 Sleeping At Last, Of Monsters And Men, or The Oh Hellos songs on any given playlist or list of songs you may be entitled to financial compensatio-- *looks at this list* oh whoops

1) Crystals - Of Monsters And Men - this might as well be Four’s theme song for all I associate it with him. It’s so good. So so so good.

2) Call Them Brothers - Regina Spektor - Obligatory Call Them Brothers mention. This is not original at all I've seen so many other people talk about this song with Four and-- yeah they're right this song is about Four JKHEHBFDEKF.

3) Bad Blood - Sleeping At Last - I'm biased. If you know me then expect way too many SAL songs from me in any list of songs ever because I will never shut up about SAL and they have a lot of songs I like. So there's 4 SAL songs on this list, deal with it jhkwewjkwjkfh. Anyway Bad Blood gives me so many Four feels. 11/10

3) Soap - The Oh Hellos - THIS SONNGG. Ouugghh. I could probably dissect this song if I wanted to go over every little thing in it that makes me think of Four & why but I already exhausted my song infodumping capacity on the last song on this list so perhaps some other time HDEGJDDEKF. Just. The vibes AND the lyrics. Mannn

4) Forgive Me Friend - Smith & Thell - I have both the original and the acoustic version saved to my Four playlist because I really like both versions hwdfjefke but. There's so many ways this song could be interpreted w/ Four and tbh I'm just gonna leave it up to everyone else because every time I listen to it I think of something else lol.

5) Meteor Shower - Cavetown - I don't have much to say about this one other than thinking about this song gives me a LOT of emotions jhqkdhwbefjk. Just,,, it has a lot of self-acceptance vibes to me when I listen to it in this context and I think I'm drawing those comfort vibes from the melody? Idk but they're there for me lol

6) Glitter & Gold - Barns Courtney - Someone did a mini AMV to this song w/ Four a while back for the LU zine and I've associated the song with him ever since hwdkjgefhkfev. I like the vibes. Reminds me of the forge.

7) Lakehouse - Of Monsters And Men - Idk what it is about this song. It has a mix of homesickness feels and storytelling feels and something about that makes me think of Four. Also there's a line about breaking trust in here somewhere heehee hoohoo Vio go brr.

8) I Dare You - Bea Miller - my brain can't decide if I actually like this song or not for some reason buuuut it has big Four vibes regardless lmao. Mostly in the lyrics. Definitely in the lyrics

9) No Light, No Light - Florence + The Machine - based more off the vibes of the song than the lyrics. i don't really have an explanation for this one, it's just always given me Four vibes for no reason hdwkjfgeh. Shadow too. I have it one both playlists

10) I Have Made Mistakes - The Oh Hellos - probably self-indulgent but this one has the self-acceptance and self-forgiveness vibes than go hand and hand with Four as a character so <3

11) From The Ground Up - Sleeping At Last - something about the line "in an effort to remember what being mended feels like" shakes me to my core. Am I allowed to slap the "self-acceptance" label on this song and call it a day? Cause,,, yeah the self love in this song. Ough. Also the themes of growth and being somewhere that's truly home.

12) Overture III / Awake - Sleeping At Last - Bestie this one's so self-indulgent. This song is pretty new and when I tell you that I latched onto it the DAY I first heard it FTHDGHWJKEFG. I connect so deeply with this song and I can and will project every emotion I experience ever onto Four which means he gets this song too. <3 Also it once again has themes of self-acceptance

13) September 15, 2017: Cassini - The Grand Finale - Sleeping At Last - OH MY GOD *VIBRATES INTO THE FIFTH DIMENSION*

Alright alright alright. Listen. This song is entirely instrumental. So why do I associate it with Four, you may ask?

WELLLLLLLL.

First of all, happy anniversary to the event this song was written about! Or-- well, it was the anniversary when this ask was sent djwhfkhjdewjhke. I took a while to answer it. BUT still. Happy anniversary!

Second of all, strap in cause I’m about to infodump the hell out of this song on my way to explaining my reasoning behind why I associate it with Four. It might seem irrelevant at first but trust me, I’ll get there.

(All the stuff I mention here is all explained in a much better fashion by the artist behind Sleeping At Last on his podcast episode about the song here. I'd absolutely recommend giving it a listen if you're interested!)

Cassini was written about a satellite with the same name that was built with the intention of exploring Saturn. On September 15, 2017, its journey was complete and its course was set to crash into Saturn in a brilliant grand finale. Hence the name of the song.

This song is a medley of four of Sleeping At Last’s songs, written as a mirror of the exact flight path of the Cassini satellite. (SAL has songs about each of the 9 planets + our moon.)

The song starts and ends with Saturn. The beginning is a chorus singing the tune of SAL's "Saturn" and the ending is that the song on the "Astronomy, Vol. 1" album leads straight into SAL’s "Saturn" to symbolize Cassini crashing into the planet. Cool, right?

After the opening the song crescendos with SAL’s "Earth" to represent Cassini’s launch. Cassini passed by Venus twice in its flight, so the part of the song immediately after that is from SAL's "Venus". The next part of the song (and ofc the next part of Cassini’s flight) is Jupiter! It’s very faint and distant since Cassini only passed by the planet. Aaand then finally it reaches Saturn.

Now what does any of this have to do with Four?

Welllllll, it's all a bit of a stretch but LET ME HAVE THIS hdgjhkjdwef.

I mentioned that Cassini is a medley of 4 different SAL songs.

Venus could easily be associated with Red! It’s a love song and love of course comes from the heart and all that. But it’s also a song that reflects wonder and awe and I feel like that’s a very Red feeling.

Jupiter is a song I associate a lot with Green, not only because of the song itself but also because of the planet and Green’s wind element. Jupiter is well-known for its storms! So it seems fitting for Green. Jupiter is one of the songs I have on my separate playlist for Green too. It has vibes of instinct and wanting to make things count and make a difference which I feel like fits him.

I feel like Saturn and Earth are interchangeable with Blue and Vio. I’d probably tentatively assign Blue to Earth and Vio to Saturn for now despite Earth being Vio’s element and me generally associating that song with him a lot more than Blue anyway. Saturn is a song about loss and trying to move on and I think Vio encompasses that feeling and experience. It’s very melancholy and slower-paced too, which fits Vio more. Whereas Earth is a very powerful, somewhat explosive song (which fits Blue’s vibe) about ignorance and possibly arrogance. ALSO if you go with Blue as Earth then it works even nicer because Earth and Venus are woven together very closely in Cassini. Which could represent how Blue & Red are both the "heart" of Four compared to Vio's mind and Green's instinct.

And ALL of these songs are packed into Cassini into a convenient little medley. Four songs blending seamlessly into one another creating a whole song that makes me want to throw my hands in the air and weep.

And how perfect that the day Steel sent this ask is coincidentally the anniversary of the day the song is about. jhkqdwfgehf. It was meant to be :>

[beefstrugglenoff]

I'm going to be a bastard and hog some ask questions 1, 4, 9, 16, 17, 20, 29, 31, 44, 53, 67, 71, 88 Pls and thank u

u ah a fool if u think asking me too many quastions is a thing that is real and exists... >:- )

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

Me mums been saying to me ever since i could understand words that a good teacup can really make whatevers in it hit differently and i think she’s right. close second is soda cans, which are much better than teacups for scrunching up and kicking around when the urge strikes.

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

Lmao the running theme for me was if she could Just apply herself and not draw constantly and maybe pipe up and ask a question every now and then. wasn’t too rowdy just really reserved, and i think the teachers at the school i went to were pretty cool in that it was a small ass classroom and they cared abt u there. but chyea the usual Quiet brand autistique things.

9. favorite smell in the summer?

Ough probaly the way stuff smells after the first rain after dry season.. its just this swell of petrichor thats been stored in the earth for months, it’s overwhelming.

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

Criss cross apple source :- ) or sittin on my knees is comfy too for some reason. like. i got fat ass thighs.

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

An already worn in pair of steel toed brown docs i found. I feel for the person that must have been afflicted with growth spurt and had to give them up... i’m gonna be so sad when they fall apart one day.

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

Scribbling in any bare patches in notebooks! use to write up the lyrics of songs i loved at the time in the backs of my scqoolbooks, so i tend to find writting like that feels the most comfortable :-) i’ve always been stingy with using full pages for things too for some reason.

29. best way to bond with you?

AWWR omg i’ll tell u what.. i really like collaborating n working together with people on shit together, its a fun way to find out about a friend through making stuff together (plus i get to flex n show off LOL). big heart to hearts about shared experiences, hugs, complimence... theres a bunch of things that i never got to do as a kid like just fuken Hanging Out n talking abt anyfukenthing... its not something i get to do very often :’) so i really dont take it for granted when i get to <3 

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

44. favourite scent for soap?

Theres this specific scent from a specific brand that my mum got the same day i got New Leaf, that in my mind is just the New Leaf smell now.. its like sandalwood and cocconut i think.. bougie

53. what is the current state of your hands?

What a good question omg.. they’re pretty cold!  and the left one is pretty scratched up because it doesn’t escape my cats grip as quick rofl

67. good luck charms?

i’ve never really had anythings that i believed were specifically lucky, but pleanty of sentimental little nick knacks that you and my friends have sent me over the years... that butterfly wing necklace you gave me is probably the closest thing to a lucky charm i own.

71. least favorite pattern?

Learned helplessness. Unless this question means Visual Patterns... in which case it’s probably leopard print.

88. your greatest wish?

that black trans women in the future don’t have to go through as much monumental bullshit that they do. also the idea that things getting better doesn’t turn out to be some naive pipe dream and i’m wrong. i got lots of little ones but those are two biggies.

LOVE U BRO... i always love getting ur letters on here hehee

[curiouskurona]

🎼🏰❤️‍🩹🗡️

🎼 Favorite song used in the show?

OOH man ,, well . tha theme song honestly ? mayhaps a basic answer but jdkflvkvlla it holds so much meaning to me , so ,,, ówò . ALSO THOUGH . swan lake / swan theme by Tchaikovsky . i mean ,, it maeks me mentholly iww for real djcjHSMKFKCLWKGLLVLA

🏰 Do you prefer the opening or the closing?

AAAH both r so beautiful !! i think i do prefer tha opening , but i do love tha closing as well . its so peaceful , which is nice wen you need to process an intense episode dkvklqkgkvllva

❤️‍🩹 Which heart shard tugs on your heart strings?

OUGH ,, i mean . tha shard itself or tha way it manifested ? or tha way it interacted with mytho ,, ? in any case , i think id have to go with Fear . that scene with mytho screaming and being carried out of the auditorium , and then what he says about tutu afterwards . its truly ,, yeah . ive drawn that scene before lol

🗡 Unpopular opinions that might get you killed?

i might truly be torn to shreds for this one ;;

 TLDR; fakir is canonically an abuser and he sucks , i dont like him or fakiru . i would probably be moar forgiving about it if he got ANY sort of consequences ( narratively or through fandom perception ) for his actions , but instead ppl love to just gloss over what he did , so its maed me really bitter and indignant about it . as a trauma survivor myself ( who heavily relates to mytho ) its hard for me to look at fakir in a positive light , regardless of wether or not i can recognize his own traumas / understand why he did som of tha things he did

if you wanna hear my extended thoughts about this , theyre under tha cut !! almost wanted to hide everything under a readmoar bc i dont liek ppl being mad at me jjfkvkvllva but . well .

( abuse tw , and spoilers ? i talk vaguely abt fakirs position at the end of tha show , as well as a state that mytho is in ( hi if ur reading from discord we havent gotten to that part yet dkghkhjha but i tried to keep it vague ) . also i may be a little harsh skdjhfkda if im gonna get blacklisted from tha princess tutu fandom for this i may as well go all out )

i dont liek fakir , or fakiru . maybe id feel different about either if fakir got ANY sort of consequences , narratively or in fandom perception , for his actions . but nah ppl are happy to excuse and gloss over tha abuse he put mytho through to go " aaw look he and ahiru are so cute together " . ugh .  

its whatever . i know its tha most popular ship in this fandom so ive kinda just gotta bite my tongue and deal with it / let it slide . a lot of great creators ship it unfortunately so im just liek . well im ignoring that jgkkblbla . i have it blacklisted though . rue and mytho also shouldnt have ended up together , by tha way . though i liek rue WAY moar than fakir

AND BEFORE YALL GET ON MY ASS im not saying no one is allowed to liek fakir or that no one is allowed to ship fakiru . but if we could please for tha love of goodness just . acknowledge . what fakir did to mytho . i mean shit tha guy barely gave mytho a half assed " sorry i guess " in the end , if that . iirc he didnt even apologize he just kinda said to no one in particular “ man i feel bad abt how i acted ” and then fucked off skfjhgkdrjhtba but i cant get my dvds out to double check rn  

if he actually got some growth in that department , or if ppl in tha fandom didnt constantly kiss his ass , id maybe be moar forgiving about this . but seeing ppl fawn all over him just maeks me increasingly bitter . hes not some grumpy-but-cute lil emo boy tsundere , hes CANONICALLY AN ABUSER . he isolates mytho , hits him , manhandles him , gets in his face , yells at him , insults him , locks him in rooms , tells him not to listen to anyone else-- its textbook abuse that lasted long after fakir KNEW mytho was able to feel things again . ive reblogged analysis posts about this . its part of why i relate to mytho so much . how can ppl see that scene where hes pushing mythos face against a mirror going “ youre such a miserable wretch , i hate this face thats starting to feel things [ he KNOWS mytho has bits of his heart back at this point ] ” and go “ yeah this is fine , this is who im rooting for ” 

 and i know he has his own problems and traumas and i know hes also a kid , i know hes only . well ages are vague but ive always pictured them as liek 14-15 , maybe 16 . i know this . but again , seeing ppl fawn all over him just maeks me increasingly bitter about it . he gets off completely scott free without having to examine his actions or grow or apologize or anything . everyones just liek " yeah this is fine we dont even rlly liek mytho tht much anyways " ( out of tha main 4 , mytho gets tha least positive attention in tha fandom , which is really funny considering what a central character he is in tha show ) 

and yeah ppl change n whatever . wounds can heal , relationships can be mended . but fakir never tried to mend theirs . mytho never got any closure or an apology or anything and it just sucks so much . i mean yeah he got to tell fakir off as r!mytho during that one battle . but most of him being all * evil laughter * at fakir wasnt even him , you can see he doesnt even consider himself that person when hes staggering back to his dorm clutching his heart going “ what are you , who are you , whats goin on ” . mytho got to be a lil scoundrel to fakir as r!mytho but thats not tha saem as any meaningful acknowledgement / apology on fakir’s part  

fakirs storyline , concerning mytho , p much boils down to " mytho and i used to be friends , but i grew to resent him . now im a coward who abuses mytho , but its okay bc he cant feel anything . oh shit hes getting his heart back ? well , im gonna keep abusing him anyways . aw man , ahiru is maeking me softer ,, i care about her ,, well !! im gonna go live my life without ever acknowledging or receiving any consequences for my past actions , bye !! " liek fuck off dkfklqjdkgklhlbla

its whatever . i guess by tha tiem tha end of tha show comes around , and mytho and fakir have both shifted to different places in tha story , ppl have forgotten all about what fakir has done and are happy to just not look back at that . but as someone who relates to mytho for many reasons , an important one being tha trauma we both went through , its not something i can forgive so easily . but i guess to most people its not that deep

[hoyotournament]

Semifinals: Nahida vs Kiana Kaslana

(Propaganda under the cut)

Kiana:

TLDR: she's kiana kaslana what do you MEAN!!!! kiana is a beautifully written character who fully encapsulates what hi3 is about and she's so full of love and guilt and (most importantly) hope. she's a clone who struggles with her own identity/inhumanity and traumas extending from when she was a young child and her guilt but is so so resilient and so so so so compassionate which ultimately reinforces her humanity :)

kiana's character IS the honkai impact thesis statement. i don't even mean it as in she's the literal main character and face of honkai i genuinely mean it when i say she just IS honkai impact. she reflects every single theme that they portray [hope over nihilism (chapter 25 || the flame chasers and just. the previous era in general), having agency over your identity and your own story (himeko, her being k423 and being so linked to sirin, everlasting flames || the kaslana household name honestly, bronya, fu hua, mei, sirin), believing in the humanity's inherent worth (chapter 25, arc city || elysia <- important since as a current era herrscher, she is a successor to elysia AND as kiana kaslana, she is a narrative parallel of elysia), having faith in the youth (himeko, kevin || the other flame chasers! notably su), etc.] her character being so reflective is also sooooo OUGH to think about when you view it as a reflection of honkai's 50,000 year samsara because kiana is a representation of these themes coming full circle (especially since many of these stretch back to the previous era and elysia).

SHE FEELS SO MUCH. she's so full of love and guilt. she clearly prioritizes others over herself and part of her arc is her learning to value and love herself as well!!! she would give herself for the world ten times over because she holds so much affection for humanity!! (WHILE FEELING DEHUMANIZED BECAUSE OF HER IDENTITY AS BOTH A HERRSCHER AND K423) and it's actively apart of her character's growth :'')

dear god her growth… okok. so i think first you have to understand that a lot of kiana's growth obviously coincides w general maturity as she grows from a teenager to a young adult. but aside from that i think people often forget that younger kiana is incredibly self sufficient since her father literally left her with little to no explanation when she was like. what 8? the insecurity she feels at that! the anger she has to navigate while also balancing it with her own feelings of missing and loving him. basically: kiana has struggled a lot w instability and is thus kinda good at navigating it. ex: she isnt shaken by nagazora and literally tries again and again and again to save mei and convince mei to let her help. the thing is this fucks w her a bit though because a big thing that she does as a means to cope w instability is avoiding them (not reflective of real life of course, but in the fictional hi3 this is partially represented in kiana's repressed memories about her actual origins as k423). she can not stand the realization that she killed himeko that she's so deep in denial and doesnt truly realize it until more than 10 chapters after himeko dies! she's so horrified with her being a herrscher she actively tries to not use her powers out of fear, even when it puts her in harms way (the chapter XI-EX CG!!!!!! her literally trying to kill herself!!) she literally runs away from her friends and loved ones because she's so scared of hurting them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is why her promise to himeko to not run away is so important!! because it addresses one of kiana's biggest flaws!!!!! this is especially important bc her refusal to continue her avoidance feeds into her arc during the herrscher of dominion chapters where she both faces her own guilt/identity and deliberately chooses perseverance and hope over nihilism!! she is hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hoyotournament]

Round 1: Natasha Cioara vs Kiana Kaslana (HI3)

(Propaganda under the cut)

congratulations to hi3 for being the only game with k423 dear god where do i even start she's so so well written. 1. kiana's character IS the honkai impact thesis statement. i don't even mean it as in she's the literal main character and face of honkai i genuinely mean it when i say she just IS honkai impact. she reflects every single theme that they portray [hope over nihilism (chapter 25 || the flame chasers and just. the previous era in general), having agency over your identity and your own story (himeko, her being k423, can i just put a link to everlasting flames here || the kaslana household name honestly, bronya, fu hua, mei), believing in the humanity's inherent earth (chapter 25, arc city || elysia), having faith in the youth (himeko, kevin || the other flame chasers! notably su), etc.] her character being so reflective is also sooooo OUGH to think about when you view it as an extension of honkai's 50,000 year samsara because kiana is a representation of these themes coming full circle (since many of these stretch back to the previous era and elysia). 2. SHE FEELS SO MUCH. she's so full of love and guilt. she clearly prioritizes others over herself and part of her arc is her learning to value and love herself as well!!! she would give herself for the world ten times over because she holds so much affection for humanity!! (WHILE FEELING DEHUMANIZED BECAUSE OF HER IDENTITY AS BOTH A HERRSCHER AND K423) she can not stand the realization that she killed himeko and she's so horrified with her being a herrscher she actively tries to not use her powers out of fear, even when it puts her in harms way (arc city!!!) 4. canonical lesbian who's romantic relationship with raiden mei is so important to the story. in the canonical story their love is treated with so much respect and value (it's the foundation for lament of the fallen and their time away from each other!!). 5. she's so so so resilient and self-sufficient when she needs to be. did you know she cared for herself for a large portion of her childhood because her dad could not take care of her? 6. MY GOD THE VOCAL PERFORMANCES. THE WAY YOU CAN PHYSICALLY AND AUDIBLE SEE/HEAR THE GROWTH IN KIANA'S CHARACTER THROUGH THE STORY MAKES ME WEEP OH MY GOD.. 7. she's my specialist girl please vote 4 her she's such a lil bastard guy while also ultimately being about hope and humanity pleas i love her so much. (she is soooo sooo cocky oh my god that one scene where she's pretending to be tortured by jackal to get information out of her and as soon as jackal stops giving her useful information she just smiles and reveals she was faking it and breaks out of the capsule she was in..)