#the reason why there's so many wilbur songs is because his album your city gave me asthma helped me sleep for like the first two weeks

[4-25-am]

nami’s most listened to songs of the month! ~january edition part one~

1) heat waves - glass animals 

other than the obvious which would be the dream smp brain rot, this song is a vibe! there’s this one drum part right before the chorus starts and it feels so satisfying. the heavy bass sets the scene of melancholy and dilemma. but when the chorus starts the song feels lighter because the lyrics scream yearning and bittersweet hope.

this whole song to me is the definition of loving someone but also knowing you're not good for them. this can be summarised with the second verse : now i gotta let you go, you’ll be better off with someone new, i don’t wanna be alone, you know it hurts me too, you look so broken when you cry, one more and then I say goodbye (the drums stop in the last two lines mentioned and the sudden emptiness feels like a punch to the gut)

2) hayloft - mother mother

my friends call it anxiety inducing music. i call it my badass villain entrance music. i really like repetition in music so the whole bit with “my daddy’s got a gun. you better run.” it fuels me with the confidence of an anime villain. the guitar is immaculate it scratches my brain just right.

the bridge!!!! I love it. all the instruments are dropped so its only vocals for the first line and then there’s a single strum of the guitar that cuts through which I imagine to represent the father entering the hayloft. and then the instruments just go boom at “loft!”. sexy. the drums. following that is so underrated but it gives so much flavour

3) saline solution - wilbur (tw// substance abuse, depression, mentions of death)

strumming. pattern. is so pretty. there’s a somewhat soothing melody and calmness to the song which is ironic because the song is about depression, substance abuse and many more not so soothing topics. the song picks up speed after the bridge. in a way i see it as crossing the line from misery and sadness to straight up unhinged and self-awareness. 

the fact that the song is called saline solution is so smart because saline solution is an all in one product which essentially fixes all your problems. and boy does he have a lot of problems. i think i've made my choice. i'm a deceased playing victim. slip the fate slip the victory. i think i've made my choice. sink secluded in hatred. void the plans friends are making. I think I've found my voice. i'm a leech sucking blood bags. taste defeat, it's a sandbag. : just about sums up how he no matter how hard he tries he’s just not himself anymore. he’s not the person his friends know. but at the end of the day, he’s still crushed by his problems.

4) your sister was right - wilbur 

what can i say about this song hm... it’s a bittersweet realisation that you were the problem all along. the lyrics speaks for itself. its half a reflection of himself and half a letter/apology to his ex. it’s coming to terms that you fucked up : i hate to say it but your sister was right. don't trust english boys with far too much free time. i hate to say it but your sister was right. i'm nothing but a problem, leave you crying overnight. and i hate to say it but your sister was right. i can't focus on the future, only my short sight. i hate to say it but your sister was right. i'm a wanker, complete wanker. a fucking waste of time

the song itself has a pretty simple strumming pattern nothing too out of the ordinary. it carries just the right amount of weight for a song that’s pretty emotional. it's a good middle ground of weight in a pretty heavy album.

5) jubilee line - wilbur (tw//implied suicide)

oh my god, where do i begin? this song is so sad. the lines are really short so it feels almost like a poem than a prose. the lyrics are not very forthcoming and you have to read between the lines a bit more. when you do read between the lines is when you realise how heavy the song actually is : there’s a reason, london put barriers on the tube line. there’s a reason, london put barriers on the rails. there’s a reason, london put barriers on the tube line. there’s a reason, london put barriers on the rails. there’s a reason, they failed.

[tofuimmortales]

I think out of all the songs in the Your City Gave Me Asthma album, “Your Sister Was Right” and “Saline Solution” have got to be my favorites. I’ve found myself listening to them quite often, especially late at night. In my opinion, the songs are just plain addicting. The first time I listened to them though, I paid more attention to the background music than the lyrics. The instrumentals were very heartfelt on their own and the lyrics that accompany it tell a pretty vivid picture of Wilbur’s mental state and his inner feelings. I think people forget that when artists release music you are able to see a part of their world. It’s kind of like that saying on how you can understand someone by looking at their eyes. Songs just have an excellent way of expression and sometimes it is so easy to lose yourself to them. I believe this is part of the reason why music playlists can help people understand others better. Music can cover so many personalities and emotions which is insane to think about.

I’m not saying that I hate Wilbur’s new music, I enjoy Lovejoy’s songs. It’s just Your City Gave Me Asthma will always have a special place in my heart. I know to some people it’s not their cup of tea or they don’t want to give the album a chance because of Wilbur being a Twitch streamer. To the people who haven’t listened to it yet, well you’re missing out. I have so many favorite lyrics, but here are a few:

“Sit secluded in hatred. Void the plans friends are making.” - “Saline Solution”

“And I don't deserve you, you  deserve the world. Though it feels like we were built from the same dirt.” - “Your Sister Was Right”

On a deeper level, I can see myself in these lyrics. Wilbur has stated that “Saline Solution” is about hypochondria and how it impacts his life. I’m the same way, sometimes whenever I feel randomly ill or have sudden muscle aches I tend to stress myself out which in turn triggers my anxiety. “Your Sister Was Right”, on the other hand, is about a toxic relationship. Again, another very relatable topic that I can see myself in. It’s uncanny how these two songs can perfectly depict certain parts of my life that I’ve had to deal with. Honestly, this album has made me reconcile with parts of myself that I have forcefully tried to forget.