#the reason is of course that alpha trion was the official story teller during bedtime when orion was a sparkling

[peace-hunter]

in the baby prime orion au orion still sneaks into the archives very often. perhaps even more often than he does in canon. and while he is looking for clues on what happened to the matrix, there's a second reason for it that he can never quite bring himself to tell anyone about, not even dee.

because he doesn't know how to explain how the ache in his chest that never goes away, that black hole of sadness and longing for something he can't put a finger on, almost goes away when he listens to alpha trion's voice in those old recordings. how it almost manages to soothe the raw gaping wound in his spark that he doesn't remember getting.

but only almost. it is never quite enough and more often than not, the moment the recording ends the grief he carries with him at all times will come rushing back to him just as strong and with a renewed sense of loss.

he doesn't really care though. even a glimpse of peace is better than none at all.

(even if he has to be extra careful to not fall into recharge while listening to the recordings. he finds alpha trion's voice strangely soothing for some reason.)