#the reason i prefer mobile games is bc if i cant see my hands i will hit every wrong button possible

[wispion]

wow. i am so shit at this game

[cockringhoratio]

well gosh golly gee will ya look at that its a tag game! tagged by the blogger of Bad Cosmemes: @sherpawhale​

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Rules: answer 11, ask 11

1. What sport are you most excited to watch during the 2018 Winter Olympics? Or sport you’d most like to understand more about?

okay so im ngl i mainly watch the olympics for swimming, diving, volleyball, and gymnastics, and those are all summer sports, but that one when you ski and shoot things at the same time sounds pretty banging. also freestyle skiing and snowboarding are cool too.

2. Would you rather be Twitter, Tumblr, Facebook, Instagram, YouTube, or Snapchat famous?

honestly youtube probably. because i love to talk about stuff when no one can interrupt me and honestly i could probably swing it as a how to channel. and also adsense but the only things i know how to How To are tech theater nonsense or already have like 50 thousand videos on them so meh

3. What are your thoughts/feelings on your most famous “local” (local can be regional) sports team?

so. the thing about va. is that. we dont have SPORTS! we kinda bum off everyone around us, which means for college basketball, we go to duke vs TARHEELS WOOT WOOT (also its hilarious that nc state thinks that theyre somehow in the picture for that rivalry like lmao) and then i think the cavaliers do okay for themselves in football, and i think thats the closest we get to a Known team from va? also we have the tides in norfolk, who feed into the orieles, but like does anyone actually follow the minor leagues??? and because the nationals in dc are closer, everyone follows them instead of the orieles for the majors so its just wah???? and then obvi the redskins (whom i did not realize where in dc for THE LONGEST time) for the nfl and that about it. my fam goes to tides games sometimes, and also penninsula pilots games, which are really fun bc its all homey and old school, and thats about the extent of my sports knowledge. yes technically local for me right now would be la but honestly fuck an la.

4. What is the one book/book series you would read to experience it for the first time again if you could?

So Fucking Many. um. lemme think. i reread thief of time by terry pratchett almost religiously but it still manages to get me just as much as it did the first time, so not that one. (if you asking what book id want buried with me, however, that would 100% be the answer). maybe the belgariad/mallorean by david eddings?? bc the ending of that makes me cry like a fuckin baby holy shit. but i swear theres a better one...... NEVERWHERE. by neil gaiman. yeah. that one. shoutout to allison for first giving me that one lol. (also the wee free men and all the tiffany aching books. those are Good Shit too)

5. What is the one tv show you would watch to experience it for the first time again if you could?

pushing daisies. no question.

6. What is the one song or album you would listen to experience it for the first time again if you could?

transmissions by starset, and also gimme gimme gimme (a man after midnight) by abba and the last of the real ones by fob. the reason i listed more than one is bc if i didnt i would immediately star talking abt transmissions and starset and then this post would be 5 miles longer than its already gonna be

7.  What is the one game you would play to experience it for the first time again if you could?

i dont have very expansive gaming experience outside of browser stuff, and i technically havent beat superhot yet so i cant really experience it AGAIN cuz i havent even fully experienced it for the first time. but on the other hand, i do play an obscene number of escape room games and once you beat those is kinda like well... so i guess id go back and and do those again.... OH WAIT lego indiana jones. because im a fucking class act.

8. What is the one movie you would watch to experience it for the first time again if you could?

descendants (2015) bc HOLY SHIT did ben fucking hit me out of left field like that is an emotional experience i definitely want to relive. also power rangers (2017) and the entire oceans trilogy (in reverse order like i watched them the first time lmao its so funny to be introduced to andy garcia as like their grumpy sugar daddy in the last one and then see him in 12 and 11 and hes like.... so not that...)

9. If you drive, do you prefer to drive with your hands at 10 and 2 or 9 and 3 (don’t say other, which of these two)?

ah i see we’re gonna pretend i dont drive with one hand at 6 and/or my knee. and even then, they teach 8&4 now bc of airbag stuff, but uuuuh whenever i sit up really straight and stretch my arms, i put my hands at 10 and 2

10. What’s the best vanity plate you’ve ever seen?

i come from the land of $10 vanity plates so Let Me Tell You i have seen some real gems. my friend has AUDREY 2, saw a truck with TH8R once, also a PIR8 GRL truck, and my best friend has H3CK Y3A bc shes a fucking nerd. thats all i can tell you off the top of my head but there are some great ones. also lots of like ‘luv my kids’ or jackson 5 type plates. and also lots of Well Im Sure You Didnt Mean It As A Sex Thing Because Of The Stick People Family On Your Windshield But I Literally Cant Come Up With Any Other Interpretation

11. What’s the best prank you’ve ever pulled, or if you’re not a prankster, best prank you’ve witnessed?

god you know that feeling where you know youve pulled some good ones but you cant for the life of you remember them? thats me rn. cuz i Know me and my friends have pulled some real shit on each other. all i can remember is scaring obnoxious freshmen by turning off the lights in the catwalks after telling them about our theater ghost, but like thats boring. there was the 69 shirt a different group of made but like we were pretty obvious about that so it wasnt really a prank. hmmmm. cant think of any ive witnessed either damn. my memories really going to shit isnt it.

My questions:

1. what creature would you ride into battle in your YA adventure film?

2. what would your highly unrealistic virus a la hackers (1995) look like/be themed around?

3. what is your ideal pet? (real or otherwise)

4. what is your opinion on the fact that my roommate has color coordinated every goddamn thing she owns down to the fucking charging cable she uses?

5. what are your favorite kind of shoes?

6. follow any webcomics?

7. whats your treat yourself meal?

8. whats your feel good movie/book/show?

9. whats your favorite ride or type of ride at amusement parks/carnivals/etc?

10. what historical figure would be fight on sight if you could time travel?

11. if a car is going 70+ on a 60 highway are you the one with your foot on the pedal or the one screaming in the passenger seat?

tagging time: i know i normally dont actually tag people but i got to pick the questions this time so imma do it. also dont feel obligated to do it if you dont wanna, and if i didnt tag you but you do wanna, have at it fam. @colordrifter @punkpixieprince @holybikinisbatman @rainelinde @theheartshapedsunglasses​ @hometown-unicorn​

[cielospeaks]

idk its just. frustrating.

i cant decide why they treated me like this

was it because i dont play games and they thought i was a weirdo freak for it? i dont have a lot of time, and i dont like to half ass things, so when i do play (non mobile) games i usually either love them so much i devote myself to learning all the best ways to play them or get tired of them early and just stop playing. and with every game being at least 30 dollars i prefer to not buy ones ill lose interest in. watching on the other hand is much better for me, i can enjoy the nearly full aspects of it and do so in a way that relaxes me, which cuts down on money and time spent on it. with that game i also gained a lot of enjoyment from reading the manga of it. but that made me an outcast to them, an object of ridicule. my experiences werent valid, werent important, werent worth even acknowledgement because of it. its as if i didnt exist to them

was it bc i didnt feel romantic towards any of the characters in it or want to insert myself in with them? theres more damn ways of caring about someone than getting right in the thick of things. i prefer to watch from the sides, especially when someone already has a loving mutual healthy connection with others. sure id happily be their friend/acquaintance/every so often fun to hang out with person, but i dont need more. i think maybe if i fell for someone who did have that healthy network it might be different (heck id say my go boys are close- they do have friends/lovers who arent like... nasty to them and with time and understanding could be those healthy relationships, but even those are really strained for big reasons) but falling for someone for me, at least in that way, is really rare. i guess just like i cant relate to them picking up and dumping people in hardcore romantic/sexual relationships every week or so they cant relate to me seeing no need for such things.

i guess at the core of it was we really could not relate to each other at all. but the way we handled it was different. i would always try to see the good in what they did- (yeah, you go! im happy youre happy!) and they just would kinda ridicule and baby me for how i thought. maybe the hated my reactions- they wanted people to act abrasive anyways. i know i hated them treating me like an “uwu soft bean sweet babbu who cant feel any bad thing ever uwu”. i just dont think its in good tact to openly bash someones beloved person, even if that person makes my skin crawl. it just didnt work out. i cant stand them, and they obviously had no use for me.

why am i still mad abt this whereas im not abt the c/l people? its arguable that they fked me up just as bad, if not worse. i think part of it is bc c/l was such a precious thing to me, it went so far beyond just this temporary chatting thing. its what made me find purpose in my future again, and opened my eyes to things i had forgotten how to enjoy for so long. they may have warped my conscious thought of how i thought i enjoyed it, but they were only forwarding a conscious thought that had been pressed on me for years prior. and more than that they couldnt change how i truly, unconsciously enjoyed it.

i guess this on the other hand. i opened up about things id been a loner on for years prior. i opened up about the first time i really started to have these romantic(?) feelings. sure, maybe i shouldnt have trusted them so much. but that doesnt change that they trampled on those feelings. they strung me along, had me compromise time and time again to their whims. played like they were the only ones who understood me. constantly guilted me with “i consider you my very best trusted friend uwu” junk to keep me at their sides, until the moment i became useless. i didnt just buy their lies, i bought others’ lies. i was guilted “i didnt want to live anymore until talking with you uwu”. they took something that had left me injured and ripped it open and wormed their damn selves in that open wound. maybe i should have told them at the start why i cared about that. i thought i did. but i didnt want that to skew them. i didnt want to guilt them the way they ended up guilting me. but to them, they never would see it as guilting.

i guess like w c/l at the end it doesnt change my feelings. i care about those series. i love sal and the others with all my heart. i followed my own path, and maybe i walked a little closer to them for a while, but every step was my own, even through their shit.