#the reason for the different posting style is bcz I had my sister make this one

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12:53 am pdt 1 March 2023 Wednesday

incubus is telling me through autocorrect he married maryka mvrykv_ Instagram

in the animals music video incubus is enjoying the blood of cows very much. He took a bucket bath it looks like in the blood. I m not sure how a lot of people aren’t more put off by that. I’m not sure how a lot of people aren’t put off by the way he likes to torture people, probably more women disproportionately, especially if there are really 2 girls for every boy beach boys style. I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I’ve met some very tall very old men. I was always short, yet he has no problem with making me even more shorter & always making me be in pain. Am I unnecessarily critical? I probably have. & I’ve admitted this in different ways in previous posts: there were times I did not admit how I felt & it was hard to accept responsibility for it Bcz I was restricted from feeling like I had any rights to be sad or angry when I was growing up, bcz my mom only wanted to see happy people Bcz she wanted an easier life after having a very hard life. So there were times I was mayb too critical. I.e. mayb giving my aunt a hard time about washing hands & being noisy. My sister not liking my musical choices so I didn’t add her my MySpace but when I was questioned about it I was not clear about who was not adding who. A guy I thought I was or felt I was falling in love with, I pushed him away using the one time he kept me waiting for a while when we were supposed to hang out & I started to think he was lying to me about learning the guitar - & I would have been happy to hang out with him even if he couldn’t play we could have tried to learn together but Bcz I grew uncomfortable with the idea of falling in love with him I outwardly used the guitar lying as a reason to not hang out anymore. Maybe it was actually a good reason? Bcz if you’re going to have a relationship we need to be able to work through problems together & feel comfortable with being ourselves & not create a foundation off of lying to impress which might lead to bigger lies that are important not to lie about like employment. 1:09 am but he didn’t lie to me about employment yet but that was my outward response. 1:10 am I also really wanted to play an electric guitar a lot & he kept making excuses aftr I think mayb hours & then he cancelled. I tested him another time after that the next time I saw him, I offered him to play my classical guitar and he refused. 1:12 am pdt I probably should have dated him anyway to see if it could be the real deal but I also felt a little odd at the same time. 1:14 am pdt am I condescending? I hope I wasn’t. I feel a lot of uncertainty a lot of times so that probably helps me sound less condescending? 1:15 am pdt I still feel in trouble with the incubus. He probably thinks I’m cruel. If it is hard to keep to keep a job & don’t feel well, & someone attempted to murder me by punching me in the head, I don’t know how am suppose to respond to people after that? 1:18 am pdt