#the reappearance of the whole 9-1-1 fandom drama dredging up unhappy memories probably isn't helping

[vmures]

I've discovered that following fandoms specific confession blogs is not for me. I want to be able to see and talk about the things I like in fandom, including the personal headcanons and bits of fanon I enjoy, as much as the things I hate. The confession blog posts seem to end up with people doubling down in disagreement on what is likeable and what is not, and personally it is exhausting. Because for me, it feels like fandom policing and not just "this is my opinion."

A large part of it is probably that so much of it is stated as a fact, and the disagreements are also stated as blatant facts. So you see "fandom uses this thing too much" or "people need to realize x" and the replies are a mix of excited agreement and pointed disagreement. There's such a feeling of "fuck off out of my fandom" that arises for me when I read the blogs and reblogs.

I just want to write my stories and imagine my faves in various situations in peace and maybe occasionally talk meta with friends. I'm tired of constantly feeling like I'm somehow doing something wrong by not falling into line with various modes of thinking and just wanting to do my own little thing.

So I blocked the confessions blog for my peace of mind. I may have to figure out keywords to filter out so I don't see some of the more virulent discussions because I don't want to block the fandom tags themselves considering I'm still in the fandom.