#the pastels in question were 7 year old oil pastels from one of those art kit gifts

[kezcore]

tried pastels for the first time. had a profound Art moment. got possessed by the ghosts of professional deep artists. realized hypermobility hurts. feeling quirky.

[foreverrunningfree]

@czigonas wanted to see me answer those artist questions and I did them all so it’ll be under the cut

1. Art programs you have but don’t use?

As of rn I cannot draw on my laptop/tablet so technically paint tool SAI and photoshop(idk what version). But I guess I hadn’t used photoshop for /years/ back before my drawing hiatus. Sorry but SAI is so much nicer to look at and to use, for me personally.

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left,right, or forward?

I flip flop my canvas a ton to a) look at it for wonkiness and b) to get specific lines in a direction that feels good, but the actual act of drawing I typically like to have them looking left cause most the the lines flow from top right to bottom left which is nicer to do since I use my right hand to draw even tho I am ambidextrous.

3. What ideas come from when you were little?

This question confuses me on what it’s actually asking soooo? When I was like 12 I had to write a story for school so I did a story about a plane crash in which the survivor came face to face to a rat/bat/cat/dog creature thing? I’ve always wanted to redraw the creature, idk if I have the original drawing I did and I don’t feel up to digging to see if I kept it during all my moves.

4. Fave character/subject that’s a bitch to draw?

My favorite animal color patterns aka brindle, merle ,roan, spots/stripes. So time consuming. In terms of shape, human faces for sure.

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself?

Before hiatus, probably 90% /shared/. Currently, probably 75% /posted/cause I can’t post the porn to tumblr lmaoooo but I have shared them with like half a dozen friends.

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously?

I’m sure there’s a ton but if it’s subconsciously then how would I consciously know?🤔 ok serious answer, probably every single 2D animated movie or show I’ve ever seen, and all the various artists I follow. I mean, there’s parts of my style I can pinpoint you to what it’s inspired by.

7. A medium of art you don’t work in but appreciate?

I’ve never /seriously/ tried oil paint, acrylic paint, or pastels but that shit always looks so good. Also watercolor even though i have tried and enjoyed using watercolors but I am far far faaarrr from being proficient in them. Non drawing wise, I fucking love dioramas, especially those that are then filled in(?) with acrylic(?). I watch a lot of those videos on YouTube.

8. What’s an old project idea you’ve lost interest in?

Most of my old animal ocs I had in the same universe in my mind and had a comic planned that I never got around to. I still love and wanna revisit those ocs. But also my dragon age ocs who I’ve SERIOUSLY BEEN CONSIDERING drawing in @soaps-hoe-141 universe 👀

9. What are your file name conventions?

Before hiatus/ on my laptop, subject or character and whatever was happening in the pic. Now using procreate on my iPad? I don’t think I’ve named a single one lol.

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw?

Nothing, no clothes, nude, nakedness please and thank you. lol but I guess I do sorta enjoy figuring out clothing in general, folds and shit, getting that practice in. Like how it hangs and creases in poses since I’m not used to drawing it.

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing?

I don’t usually listen to /only/ music while drawing, I much prefer having a favorite movie playing in the background and/or a show I enjoy rewatching/am actively watching. I also watch a lot of gamer YouTubers I put on as background noise/short watch breaks that their voice is just soothing to me even if I’m not /watching/.

12. Easiest part of the body to draw?

I’m not sure… maybe boobs/pecs for humanoids. General body shape for animals?

13. A creator you admire but whose work isn’t your thing?

Honestly can’t think of a single one. I mean, plenty of artists do work(or with a medium) that I can’t or don’t want to do/use personally but I read the question of “isn’t your thing” as “subject you don’t enjoy”. If that’s correct, then idk what to tell you. I don’t follow or remember people who majority does things I can’t enjoy on some level.

14. Any fave motifs?

Quite a lot of religious imagery I guess ex. Circles around a persons head. Less serious answer is drawing characters in meme formats lol

15. Where do you draw?

Please don’t tell any physical therapists I live like this… on my back on my couch with my head on the arm rest while holding my iPad propped up on my chest like 8 inches away from my face lmao

16. Something you are good at but don’t really have fun doing?

Idk???? I do shit for my own enjoyment so I’m not sure? Maybe perhaps backgrounds? Like I could do something decent if i wanted to but I’m not into it so I usually just don’t?

17. Do you eat or drink while drawing?

I take breaks… but while actively drawing? I often drink aka let the horny demons out while I enjoy whiskey lol.

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you’ve broken?

Broken broken? Next to fucking none? some charcoal sticks but otherwise…. None… I majority do digital art so really nothing to break there lol

19. Fave inanimate objects to draw?

Idk? I like doing life charcoal drawings? Of whatever, but particularly statues if that counts? I usually have living beings as my subjects.

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy?

Ok, I hate this question, cause we are all good at different things. Maybe it’s just most of those I follow have different strengths than me???? But I guess if I had to pick, recreating from life(or picture) is a lot easier for me than some others(like making it life like/very accurate).

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways?

Yooo, anything I’ve reblogged honestly. Love everyone.

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing?

Absolutely none, again don’t let the pros know cause damn. But I will do stretches or take breaks as needed.

23. Do you use different layer modes?

Absolutely. Mostly for lighting and shading but yes, if I’m doing digital imma take advantage of it.

24. Do your references include stock images?

Yes? I don’t really understand what it’s asking?

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were not inspired by?

Idk? I don’t usually get feedback of that sort.

26. What’s a piece that’s viewed a wildly different interpretation from what you intended?

Again idk? I guess my shit is straight forward?

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff?

Almost never, again don’t let the pros know lol I do sometimes jump between pieces or start a new sketch before going to something farther along.

28. Any art events you have participated in, like zines?

Nope, wanted to and have tried before but I tend to NOT do something if I feel pressured to do it.

29. Media you love but doesn’t inspire you artistically?

Again I feel like this is a weird question or maybe it’s just my understanding of it but I can feel inspiration from all sort of artist shit even if it’s something I’ll never do(ex making a crochet animal or dioramas). I guess I can feel inspired to create from other creators even if it’s not direct inspiration/subject/medium.

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated?

Underrated as in no one has seen aside from a few people irl would be my colored pencil pieces I did during afternoon naps when I worked at a daycare a few years ago.

[inyournightmares97]

‘LOOK’ - The Art Gallery (4/7)

A/N: This is a drabble series I’m making based on the locations in the ‘Look’ M/V! Credits for the idea go to @daddymarktuan!!

All right, Hyung-Line is down! Maknae-Line is scheduled for tomorrow!

The House Party (1/7)

The Bridge (2/7)

The Woods (3/7)

The Old House (5/7)

The Garden (6/7)

The Record Store (7/7)

“Relax! You look way too nervous. You can do this!” 

You smiled gratefully at the woman who patted on you back. Jieun was the manager of the art gallery, and also the person who had invited you to put your paintings on display at the prestigious center. You had never dared to imagine your paintings being displayed in such a famous gallery, alongside the work of artists whose work sold for millions. It was a dream come true and you were almost trembling in your uncomfortable high heels. 

You smoothed down your expensive dress and grabbed a glass of wine from a passing waiter. It was nerve-wracking to watch art critics and rich people walk past your paintings. It wasn’t extremely likely that you would manage to sell anything today. It was your first time at an exhibition like this, of course... but if you did manage to sell then the work would probably fetch you a pretty penny. 

Honestly, you could do with the money. 

You spent most of the evening talking to people, trying not to look too flustered as a few people stopped to compliment your paintings and ask questions about. Some of the major critics passed by completely, but one of them nodded appreciatively and another paused to tell you that he was impressed by your technique. It was more than you had expected and you were practically floating on clouds as the evening passed. 

“Do you have a second?” Jieun asked, taking your arm gently to draw you aside once you’d finished speaking to some guests. “There’s a gentleman that’s expressed interest in buying one of your pieces. Should I share the quotes we agreed on with him?” 

You were shocked. “Really? None of the people I spoke to expressed an interest in buying. Which one does he want to buy?” 

Jieun pressed her lips together tightly and sighed. “The... the one of the couple. I know you said that you were only going to put that one up for display but maybe you should consider selling it. This man’s one of our regular patrons and he will probably offer a better price than you could get anywhere else.” 

You bit your lip. That painting had too much sentimental value to you; you had only agreed to have it on display because Jieun had insisted that it was too beautiful to keep locked up. You glanced towards the large framed painting; it was the silhouette of a couple seated in an evening garden, in a gentle pastel tone. It reminded one of innocence, and first love. But for you the meaning was much deeper. 

“I wonder what made him pick that one,” you mumbled. “Can I speak to him?”  

“Of course, I’ll bring him over.” 

You nodded, moving over to stand in front of the painting in question. It was difficult to even look at it because it brought back too many painful memories. But perhaps to someone who was unburdened by the past it might seem like a beautiful painting. You turned around as Jieun escorted a handsome gentleman over towards you. 

“This is Park JInyoung, he’s expressed an interest in purchasing your work,” Jieun explained, gesturing towards the well-dressed gentleman. You felt your stomach lurch as you locked eyes with Park Jinyoung. it had been two years since you had seen those deep, intense eyes and you felt slightly light-headed. 

“Can you give us a moment, Jieun?” Jinyoung asked the manager calmly. The sound of his gentle, smooth voice brought back memories and you could only stare in helpless silence as Jieun nodded and left the two of you alone. 

You turned to him, trying to stay calm. “What are you doing here?” 

He blinked at you. “I’m a regular patron of this art gallery.” 

You resisted the urge to scoff. Jinyoung, the patron of an art gallery? He was certainly rich enough to spend unimaginable amounts of money on works of art, but he had never been interested in such things. Not until you came to his life. You remembered a time when Park Jinyoung didn’t know the difference between acrylics and oil paints and suddenly he was an art connoisseur? 

“That’s not what I meant,” you said firmly. You could see his calm gaze falter slightly at your icy tone. “I mean what are you doing here, on the night that I am part of the exhibition, trying to buy one of my paintings?” you demanded. Your heartbeat thudded as you glanced at the painting. “You know why I painted that one, you know who it was meant for.” 

He nodded calmly. “That’s why I want to buy it.” 

“It’s not for sale.” 

“Jieun said you might be convinced to part with it for a good enough price.” 

The statement sent a jolt through you. Jinyoung seemed to realize he had made a mistake because his eyes widened slightly when you gave him a furious look. “The painting is not for sale. I’m not for sale.” 

Jinyoung closed his eyes. “I never said you were for sale.” 

“I’m sorry, I apologize for jumping to conclusions. But surely you would understand why I felt the need to clarify, considering how events transpired between us two years ago.” You were on the verge of breaking, but you folded your arms across your chest and tried to maintain composure. “You could never offer me a price that would satisfy me.” 

Jinyoung blinked at you. There was a long silence as you both stared at each other, drinking in the sight after two long years of no contact. Jinyoung’s handsome face was just like it had always been. You felt your heart skip a beat when he gently dropped his gaze and gave you a sad smile. “I should have known you would never take my money. Can I offer you an apology instead? I want to, but I feel like you wouldn’t believe me.” 

“I wouldn’t.” 

“Do you hate me that much?” 

You gave him a dry smile. “Don’t I have a right to? Art is everything to me, and you knew that. You promised to  make me happy and just as I was willing to trust you with the rest of my life, you sat me down in front of your parents and watched silently as they asked me to give up the one thing I loved for you.” 

Your voice cracked as you spoke. You had tried so hard to erase that night from your mind. The night you had gone to Jinyoung’s house to meet his parents, a brand new diamond ring on your finger. You had expected a pleasant dinner and some small talk, not for your prospective mother-in-law to express her desire that you stop trying to sell your paintings and became a trophy wife to her son instead. But it wasn’t her words that had hurt you. it was the fact that JInyoung had sat there silently and waited for you to reply, waited for you to agree to give up your passion to become his property. 

That night it was not only your engagement that broke, but also your trust in Jinyoung. 

“I made a mistake,” he admitted softly. 

“You certainly did.” 

“I don’t expect you to forgive me,” he replied gently. His eyes were glazed over as he spoke. “What I did was unforgivable. It was your passion for art and the beauty in your eyes while you painted that made me fall in love with you. But I grew greedy over time, and I let other people control me. I lost your love and your trust, and they were the most valuable things I have ever called mine.” 

You folded your arms and stood there in silence. Jinyoung took a deep breath and gave you a soft smile. “I guess I really only came here tonight to tell you this. To say that I love you... and that I’m proud of you.” 

He stood there in silence and waited for you to say something, anything. Once he was certain that you were not going to speak to him, he let his gaze fall to the ground and he turned around slowly, his shoulders slumped. There was something about the way he turned away that sent a rush of affection through you. You had loved this man once. He had made you happy, and losing him had been the most difficult thing you had ever gone through. Was it right to let him walk away from you like this? 

“Jinyoung,” you called out softly. 

He whirled around to face you, a glimmer of hope in his eyes. “Yes-” 

“Take the painting.” 

“I... I thought you didn’t want to sell it,” he said, confused. 

You took a deep breath. “I’m not selling. I’m giving it to you. And maybe someday when I’m ready, I’ll... I’ll come find you to ask for it back.” 

JInyoung smiled softly. “Of course. Any time.”