#the original™ rivals to lovers for me

[nixnuevo]

I've never drawn them before... I'm learning

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

we were gods (we were kids)

@arionawrites @the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see

OKAY SO

This one has been on a convoluted journey. This was my original parkner fic idea that I tried to file the serial numbers off of and turn it into an original work (Blue like don't forget about me) which went terribly bc I hung onto a few plot elements that make NO SENSE outside of marvel's batshit mcu.

SO

We Were Gods (we were kids) is back to being a parkner fic. And I have like 100k written for it but the character names are wrong and slightly to the left of in-character and the beginning and end need to be rewritten. It's my Childhood friends to estranged almost-lovers to rivals to Best Friends (remix edition) to lovers but for real this time epic.

You'll get the gooey heart-eyes best friendship that toes the line of something more in the beginning (childhood friends), and then Peter moves away from Rose Hill to NYC and we jump to the teen years where Plot™ happens (estranged almost-lovers). Peter gets his spidey powers and flubs them so hard he causes the blip which vanishes Abbie out of Harley's life and leaves him alone. Alone Harley™ makes Bad Desperate Choices™ which leads to him getting entrenched with Hydra which means when the blip gets unblipped, he's on Spider-Man's shit list (rivals).

it's all very fun for me and very not fun for the boys ψ(｀∇´)ψ

Have some character notes!

Harley was born with the burden of responsibility on his shoulders—or rather he was handed it in a swathe of pink blanket when he was two. He stopped trying to buck it off when he realized his baby sister wasn’t going anywhere and having a new baby in the house made Daddy worse, not better. He resigned himself to living with it, protecting it. Soon enough, he can’t remember a time before the burden, he can hardly tell where he ends and the burden begins. Couldn’t put it down even if he wanted. Peter had responsibility dropped in his lap as a teenager—unrequested and unexpected. He tries to carry it with grace and dignity but it’s too big. He stumbles doggedly onward with buckled knees until it overwhelms him and he falls. Fails. Fails the entire planet. When he comes back that failure sticks with him as he fights not to squander his second chance to put an end to this mess.

[sillyguy-supreme]

I see enemies to lovers slammed for like ‘romanticizing abuse’ with like the worst possible examples. Like bookbitch69420 is saying something like ‘smh this book proves enemies to lovers is a bad and toxic trope’ and the book is a dollar store ya dystopia where the pairing in question kissed after attempting to murder each other. The problem lies not in the trope, but in the execution. So please, enjoy my rant on how to properly execute my favorite angsty trope.

One of the most important things for rivals/enemies to lovers is that they start on a basis of mutual respect. This tends to be the stepping point for any romance that may ensue. This does not mean that they like each other. They should hate each other, but respect the other. Some thought processes may be:

“I think you’re an asshole, but your skill in xyz is great.”

“You and I are on different sides of a battlefield, but you fight wonderfully.”

“I find you dislikable, but you are a cool person apart from being insufferable.”

“I am your archnemesis, and I find you are quite diligent.”

This is often why superhero/supervillain ships are popular, as it is often shown how both sides admire the other. Another way to establish this mutual respect is to shower it in angst by making the enemies in question have a past together. Perhaps they used to be best friends, maybe more. They were happy together in the past, but something happened to drive them apart. 

After one has established the mutual respect, next comes The Bonding™. This establishes an emotional bond between the pairing. Maybe they’re stuck together in a room so they talk. Maybe they reminisce about the time before they hated each other. Maybe they must begrudgingly work together on a mission. One of my favorites is the hero showing up at their archnemesis’ door because they didn’t know where else to go. Either way, something happens, and they part thinking, “Maybe they’re not so much of an asshole after all.” There is now emotional weight in between them and that leads us to the next part.

After they bond, you have some choices. You can have them continue to fight on opposite sides, albeit with more emotional weight than before, or you can have them be friends now. If you’ve done friends to enemies to lovers, than maybe someone is glad to see their friend peeking through the rage, or have them be glad to have their friend(s) back. If it’s enemies to lovers, with anything in between, maybe the fights are more amicable and the insults are more affectionate than scathing. If you want to go a little angstier, maybe they return to their usual routine, but they can’t stop thinking about that time spent with the other, which often leads to more bonding sessions.

Now you may be thinking, “Ash shut the fuck up what about the “Italicized Oh”?”

The ever so awaited “oh” that you find so delightful can honestly go anywhere. My favorite part to put them is during or after the bonding, like maybe one is laughing and the other is like “shit they’re really pretty”, or maybe after it happened, and one is like “okay no I do not find them attractive bc they opened up to me” or during the friendship part.

Now this next part is entirely optional, pointless, and sometimes unnecessary, but it’s so angsty and I love it. The Not Quite Betrayal is always great, as when the enemies are shown to be mutually pining after each other, uh oh. It looks like someone doesn’t like this, and they’re about to sabotage the love that’s blossoming. Maybe one had ulterior motives originally, but they’re revealed by this third party. Maybe one is framed for something they didn’t do. Either way, one is feeling betrayed and the other is beating themselves up. They angst for some time, and maybe one realizes ‘’oh shit, they wouldn't actually do that’’ or ‘’I have to show them I really did change.’’ Boom. Reconciliation.

At this point, the Love Confession will seem a lot healthier and you can do whatever you want.

this is a gift for @gaylittleinnkeepers go follow them

[darling-leech]

Nathan Ian Howard’s Fallout Character Sheet(Updated)

I used DarthSuki’s Fallout OC Meme 2.0 and I used this Font.

Here’s A Blank version if anyone wants to use it(Remember to credit DarthSuki tho)!:

ANYWAYS Let’s begin his background... AGAIN! 😅😅😅😅

Name: Nathan Ian Howard(Registration NH-002ST).

Nickname: Nate

Race: White(German and Italian)

Religion: Agnostic

Gender and Pronouns: Cisgender Man and He/Him

Sexuality: Bisexual. Also is Polyamorous.

Age: 45(biologically). 255(Chronologically). 

Birthday: November 10th, 2032

Birthplace: Boston, Massachusetts

Height: 6′6 FT(79.2 Inches)

Weight: 180 LBS(81.6466 KGS)

Hair Color: Jet Black

Hairstyle: Casual Kempt

Facial Hair: Lazy Morning

Eye Color: Dark Brown(#331900)

Skin Color: I think it’s called the Rosey option in Fallout 4(#C98060)

Game of Origin: Fallout 4(He’s my Sole Survivor)

BEHAVIOR/TECHNICAL:

Voice Actor: Brian T. Delaney

Karma: Neutral/True Neutral

Aggression: Aggressive

Confidence: Foolhardy

Assistance: Helps Friends and Allies

S.P.E.C.I.A.L Stats: Strength 10, Perception 10, Endurance 8, Charisma 10, Intelligence 10, Agility 8, and Luck 7

Perks/Tagged: Armorer, Blacksmith, Gun Nut, Science!, Rifleman, Gunslinger, Heavy Gunner, Demolition Expert, Local Leader, and Inspirational to name a few.

Weaknesses: Idiot Savant/Kinda of an Airhead, Party Boy, Sneak, Pickpocket, and Sometimes Boisterous/Impulsive.

Affiliation: Brotherhood of Steel and Minute-Men.

Rank: Sentinel, General, Sole Survivor/Vault Dweller, and Lieutenant(USS Constitution).

Role: Player Character/Main/Major Character/Main Fallout 4 Character and Soldier. He’s my ONLY Sole Survivor(So you CAN tag him as Sole Survivor).

Most Liked Companions: Cait, Preston Garvey, X6-88, Paladin Danse, and Honorary Mention? My Self Insert OC, Eugenia Alexandra Everston “Alex”.

Least Liked Companions: N/A

Preferred Weapon Type: Energy/Laser

Primary Weapons: Old Faithful

Secondary Weapons:  Aeternus

Preferred Armor Type: Leather

Primary Armor: Leather, but usually just wears the Vault 111 jumpsuit

Power Armor?: YES

RELATIONSHIPS:

FAMILY:

Parents: *I’m leaving this blank for now because I haven’t gotten that far into Nathan’s background yet, I’ll update this when I do*

Siblings: Elijah Liam Howard

Friends: Several. Cait, Paladin Danse, X6-88, Preston Garvey, Elder Arthur Maxson, Scribe Haylen, Rhys, Proctor Teagan, Proctor Quinlan, Proctor Ingram, Leif Axel Gunnar, Torin Arlen Hugh(My Courier 6), Courtney Nicole Stevens, and My Self Insert OC Eugenia Alexandra Everston “Alex” to name a few. Maybe Felix Sebastian Everston as well?

Lovers: Several. Cait, Elder Arthur Maxson, and My Self Insert OC, Eugenia Alexandra Everston “Alex”. *Obviously Nora as well, but ya know. 😅😅😅😅)*

Rivals: N/A?

Enemies: N/A?

Children: Shaun

Background(Note: I’m still in the process of writing this so it’ll seem like a mess til I get it finished all the way so please bear with me): Almost identical backstory to the default Nate in Fallout 4(As you can Nathan basically looks like the default Nate, but Nathan’s hair is Jet Black and has Dark Brown eyes). Served for 20 years in the Army, mostly dealing with Weapons, but switched to Infantry. Married Nora and had Shaun. YADA YADA. Anyways, he’s with the Brotherhood of Steel and Minutemen now, etc.  😅😅😅😅 He’s basically just my Sole Survivor, whereas My Self Insert OC Alex isn’t. Also don’t let his intelligence level fool you, he can be dumb of ass lol. Also is kinda like that cool Dad™ that you can hang with(Like smoke weed/and drink with), also is a DILF. Met My Self Insert OC Alex in the BOS, their paths first cross during the Fire Support quest. I say his Affiliations is with the BOS/Minute-Men, but I feel like he finds a way to not kill/blow up any of the other factions, and makes like “peace” between all of them. Also reunites with his Older Brother, Elijah Liam Howard as well.

Languages Spoken: English(Native Language).

I also have a RefSheet.Net for him as well.

Also this is an updated version of this: XXXX

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

HOLD ON WAIT UP HOLD THE PHONE

I KNOW I WAS GONE FOR A FEW MONTHS THERE BUT HAS BLUE LIKE DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME ALWAYS BEEN A PART OF A SERIES OR IS THAT A NEW DEVELOPMENT???

I FEEL LIKE ITS CHRISTMAS ALL OVER AGAIN FUCK Y E A H

Okay so

I...

have been cooking

by which I mean illusions of grandeur and

schemes

And I have not been forthcoming lol Everyone kind of disappeared all at the same time so I kind of stopped talking about what I'm doing but I have been biding my time, quietly putting mechanisms into motion and plotting and occasionally cackling over my cauldron.

I finished the first draft of Blue like don't forget about me and didn't like it so I cut out all the sci-fi fantasy stuff (bye bye aliens farewell superpowers) and in November wrote a new first draft that's all contemporary romance babeee and I'm so in love with it I'm turning it into a little 3-part (possibly 4 if I can't control myself) series.

The original childhood years have been split off into a prequel novella called Red like my bleeding heart in your hand. Then Blue like don't forget about me will take place 20 years later. Nash works at Cherished Hope Nursing Home

“And what is it you do? At the nursing home, I mean.” I wipe shit off of old people. And Teddy’s a hockey player. What’s Luke, an underwear model? He shouldn’t have come.

Teddy comes back to town for a funeral and

Teddy looks at him for the first time in twenty years and every ounce of warmth leaves his expression. Message received. He should not have come.

OKAY SO AND THEN the next book will be Jo's POV and is called Violet like these delights. and MAYBE there will be a 4th from Luke's POV bc he gets to live this time by the grace of god (me) but it'll depend on how Violet goes (its current state is mostly vibes and a single overarching theme so, stand by).

Red needs a clean-up round of edits to snip out the few little threads that connected it to OG blue. And rewritten blue is basically done. I've done the major revisions and am about to start line edits and after those are done I'm sending it out to beta readers (lmk if you're interested).

There are concise actual summaries in my pinned post btw lol

WHICH REMINDS ME

The series title is Wildflowers of Deliverance. Which I'm extremely proud of. Did you notice did you notice how each title incorporates a wildflower did you did you? and the town they grew up in where Nash and Teddy first met is called Deliverance!!! It's okay I know I'm a genius.

And this brings us to the meal okay? because like I said I've been Cooking™ quietly but steadily for a few months now. ANd what have I been cooking? PLOTS and PLANS

I've decided on a pen name: Sarah B. Elisa

I've created a(nother) side blog for it that will be exclusively centered on my og writing and geared more toward readers rather than writers like this blog is: @sarahbe-writing

I'm going to create a website (as soon as I convince myself to spend money)

and a newsletter (as soon as I convince myself to spend money and do work)

I'm still waffling between trad publishing and DIY. I really like all my hats and it would be a shame to have to share them but oh my god I don't want to do all the marketing but trad pub seems hit or miss on how well they market you so I might get half of my hats taken away and still have to do the marketing bullshit UGH

anyway

OH YEAH and the OG draft I wrote for Blue? I'm going to spin it back to its OG OG roots [parkner, naturally--Return of The childhood friends to estranged almost lovers to super-powered rivals to reluctant allies to friends to lovers finally wip!!! AKA: We Were Gods (we were kids)] and that will fix all the things that went wrong and I didn't like 😌 so it's basically like double Christmas I think

[darling-leech]

Nathan Ian Howard’s Fallout Character Sheet!

I used DarthSuki’s Fallout OC Meme 2.0 and I used this Font.

Here’s A Blank version if anyone wants to use it(Remember to credit DarthSuki tho)!: 

ANYWAYS Let’s begin his background!

Name: Nathan Ian Howard. 

Nickname: Nate

Race: White

Religion: Agnostic

Gender and Pronouns: Cisgender Man and He/Him

Sexuality: Bisexual. Also is Polyamorous.

Age: 45

Birthday: November 10th, 2242

Birthplace: Boston, Massachusetts

Height: 6′6 FT(79.2 Inches)

Weight: 180 LBS(81.6466 KG)

Hair Color: Jet Black

Hairstyle: Casual Kempt

Facial Hair: Lazy Morning

Eye Color: Dark Brown(#331900)

Skin Color: I think it’s called the Rosey option in Fallout 4(#C98060)

Game of Origin: Fallout 4(He’s my Sole Survivor)

BEHAVIOR/TECHNICAL:

Voice Actor: Brian T. Delaney

Karma: Neutral 

Aggression: Aggressive

Confidence: Foolhardy

Assistance: Helps Friends and Allies

S.P.E.C.I.A.L Stats: Strength 10, Perception 10, Endurance 8, Charisma 10, Intelligence 10, Agility 8, and Luck 7

Perks/Tagged: Armorer, Blacksmith, Gun Nut, Science!, Rifleman, Gunslinger, Heavy Gunner, Demolition Expert, Local Leader, and Inspirational to name a few.

Weaknesses: Idiot Savant/Kinda of an Airhead, Party Boy, Sneak, Pickpocket, and Sometimes Boisterous/Impulsive. 

Current Level: Like 60?

Carry Weight: 400?

Actions Point: 200?

Hit Points: 200

Critical Chance: 10%?

Damage Resistance: 20%?

Melee Damage: 10%

Affiliation: Brotherhood of Steel and MinuteMen.

Most Liked Companions: Cait, Preston Garvey, X6-88, Paladin Danse, and Honorary Mention? My Self Insert OC, Eugenia Alexandra Everston “Alex”.

Least Liked Companions: N/A

Preferred Weapon Type: Laser/Energy  

Primary Weapons: Old Faithful

Secondary Weapons:  Aeternus

Preferred Armor Type: Leather

Primary Armor: Leather, but usually just wears the Vault 111 jumpsuit

Power Armor?: YES

FAMILY:

Parents: *I’m leaving this blank for now because I haven’t gotten that far into Nathan’s background yet, I’ll update this when I do*

Siblings: None?

Friends: MANY. Cait, Paladin Danse, X6-88, Preston Garvey, Elder Arthur Maxson, Scribe Haylen, and Rhys to name a few.

Lovers: Several. Cait, Elder Arthur Maxson, and My Self insert OC, Eugenia Alexandra Everston “Alex”. *Obviously Nora as well, but ya know. 😅😅😅😅)*

Rivals: N/A?

Enemies: N/A?

Children: Shaun

Background(Note: I’m still in the process of writing this so it’ll seem like a mess til I get it finished all the way so please bear with me): Almost identical backstory to the default Nate in Fallout 4(As you can Nathan basically looks like the default Nate, but Nathan’s hair is Jet Black and has Dark Brown eyes). Served for 20 years in the Army, mostly dealing with Weapons, but switched to Infantry. Married Nora and had Shaun. YADA YADA. Anyways, he’s with the Brotherhood of Steel and Minutemen now, etc.  😅😅😅😅 He’s basically just my Sole Survivor, whereas My Self Insert OC Alex isn’t. Also don’t let his intelligence level fool you, he can be dumb of ass lol. Also is kinda like that cool Dad™ that you can hang with(Like smoke weed/and drink with), also is a DILF. Met My Self insert OC Alex in the BOS.

Languages Spoken: English(Native Language).

I also have a Refsheet.net for him as well.