#the only two shows i could see her do is jaejae (if there are people with her bevause jaejae can be a lot dnjdjdjd) or nolto

[juanitasupreme]

@callmesuyinbeifong yeah... Honestly if I was her I would never set a foot on a variety show again (which she is already doing duh) after all the shit knetz put her through... like you would have thought that she killed a kitten and a baby in broad daylight

[turkoftheslums]

Let’s start a chain of sweetness.

5 THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER.

ONE: He is one snarky guy. Being such a reserved and quiet person irl, I don’t often get to snark or be witty in conversations so it’s really nice to do that with Reno.

TWO: As I’ve mentioned in the past, Reno is a three-dimensional character - he acts like a bad guy but has a conscience hiding deep down that he only shows to Rude. He has feelings and emotions he’s stuffed down as deep as he can and it’s interesting to think what could happen if they just bubbled to the surface.

THREE: Reno is a trained combatant. I’ve gotten into writing combat as of recent and getting to write it with him feels like a blessing. I never got to write combat at all with Noctis, not even in fanfics so writing and choreographing fight scenes feels great. It’ll get put to use one day.

FOUR: The amount of stuff he just has tucked away everywhere - and that’s just on his person. He has things folded up neatly and tucked in pretty much all his pockets. “Why does he not have huge bumps sticking out?” I hear you ask. Tetris logic.

FIVE: For all the violence that’s involved with his job, Reno is a secret sweet bean. He hates showing it but he craves even the tiniest sliver of affection and dislikes being alone unless he really, really needs to be alone. Idk can you tell I’ve been grasping at straws from point 2 onwards?

5 PEOPLE ON HERE YOU LOVE, AND WHY.

Why can I only pick 5?? I love so many D:

ONE: Always at the top of my lists is @rude-at-your-service​. He’s my bro and I always love seeing him on my dash. He was the 8th person I followed when I made this blog back in 2015 and I’m super duper glad we’ve reconnected (and he helped keep me sane for part of my train journeys last month). And just for you good sir; jag skulle behöva lite vatten. (Say the thing, I dare you)

TWO: Next up we have Lyri for whomst I shall tag @hautevaux​. Lyri is a gem. Lyri is bae. Vaux is bae. I was really shy to approach at first because her writing is just 😲😲 it’s so good and we’ve really clicked since we first started talking and I love it. Also, I promise I’m not ignoring you when you compliment me, my brain just blue screens and doesn’t know what to do.

THREE: @that-turk-laney​ come back to us, Mia! We miss you! But seriously, I think Mia was one of the first people I followed when I returned back in February and she’s really helped me build Reno up. We really need to get that soft thread going, we really do. Movie night for Reno and Elena, yes please.

FOUR: JAEJAE. I love the good JaeJae over at @cssnei​. He got me really into some stuff coughUpUpDownDowncoughDevilMayDrycough and I wouldn’t trade that for the world. Every Wednesday we sit and wait for DaParty to start streaming then type in capitals at each other on Discord while laughing our asses off. I enjoy the fun we have and I hope that doesn’t change when we finally run into each other.

FIVE: Finally, I’ve decided to finish off with @shinrasfirst​ whom I used to admire from afar. Min is super cool and I spent actual weeks trying to get myself to check them out and follow them because we have a few mutuals and I was like “Hnnnnnn, I’m sure we’d get along but hhhhhhhhh”. Then they followed me first and I was like “!!!! wtf????” so yeah, now we occasionally talk about Kpop and I can’t remember what else we’ve talked about but we’ve talked about other things. (I have Discord if you want it)

5  SONGS EITHER YOU OR YOUR MUSE REGARD AS A ‘GUILTY PLEASURE’ THAT ALWAYS MAKES YOU SMILE.

I’m gonna cheat here and group a bunch of songs together because y’all need to be exposed to my here there and everywhere music taste. (Judge me, I dare you)

ONE: So I’m actually putting 3 songs in here. My mum’s favourite decade has always been the 80′s so I grew up listening to a lot of D.uran D.uran - I still have memories of us in her green car with the cassette player and I’d beg for us to listen to the D.uran D.uran tape (which is merely 10 years older than me!). My favourites have always been Rio, Hungry Like The Wolf, and Save A Prayer. SAP is absolutely my first emo song. (And interestingly enough, I don’t think Reno would listen to DD songs)

TWO: Infinity by Guru Josh. This. Damn. Song. Why is it so bloody difficult to find the specific version I grew up with?? But yeah, the saxophone has stuck with me all these years - and I’m still proud of myself for identifying the first instrument heard as a saxophone. I feel like this song says something about me...

THREE: Courtesy of JaeJae, I am super into DMC. Nero’s theme in 5 is probably my favourite thing in existence and I’m probably going to listen to it on Thursday. Sticking with video game music, let’s add some more here shall we? This remix of Supporting Me used in S.onic F.orces just gets me in the right spot. That goddamn guitar is just *chefs kiss*. Also the theme for Green Hills in the Sonic movie makes me want to sob because I grew up with Sonic the Hedgehog in my life and the movie being really good despite some pacing and editing issues-- I just-- someone come cry with me 😭 THOSE CHORDS (also chucking in Un-gravitify from Riders: Zero Gravity because that series is underrated as hell and I can’t believe Free Riders killed it. Revive Riders, you cowards. Give me my extreme gear back) - I feel like Reno would definitely listen to a lot of video game music (especially from Sonic and DMC)

FOUR: It’s Brit time again: Mr Brightside by The Killers- ahem, sorry, the anthem for the UK. Cheesy Brit songs? Yes, please. 5, 6, 7, 8 by Steps was my childhood - I still know the steps to it ;¬¬, I’m Too Sexy by Right Said Fred is an absolute must and you know Reno listens to this even if it’s not particularly to his taste - it just fascinates him, THIS SONG - I love it so much and I’ve convinced myself I can mimic it almost perfectly, my mum probably sensed something was up years ago considering my obsession with Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go. Bands like Busted and McFly with songs like Glad I Crashed The Wedding and Obviously, as well as VengaBoys with We Like To Party are joint guilty pleasures.

FIVE: To flip to a whole other spectrum, both Reno and I are fond of rock and metal and you will likely find one of us mouthing along and bopping our heads to songs like Hero by Skillet, Bodies by Drowning Pool (I have to resist the urge to scream along every time), It Has Begun by STARSET, and Another Way Out by Hollywood Undead. It only just clicked with me in recent months that I did in fact have an emo phase (if a little low-key) and it was devoid of P!atD and MCR which is a crime. But songs like this are absolutely guilty pleasures for both myself and Reno.

Tagging: Everyone tagged above, as many of my Aerith/Aeris mutuals as I remember: @roseusuitta, @cultivatxr, @pulchralilium, @floralcetra, @flowergirlgillionaire, @wallflowergainsborough, @churchflower, @thememcry, @angetoile, and YOU (should you wish to do it)!

Tagged by: @madamdirectcr

[malliexox]

MY B.A.P PARTY BABY- WARSAW BOOM EXPERIENCE

So... this is gonna be a lot but I can honestly say this is one of those things in my life that I’ll treasure always and never forget.

Leggo~!!

My journey for this one actually doesn’t start on the day of the concert, let’s jump back to the 5th of May, shall we? Funnily enough I’m not actually from Warsaw, or Poland for that matter. Nope, ya girl flew herself out all the way over the waters from the UK with my wonderful fellow BABY buds, Shaza & Sandy! Me and these girls have only met twice now (Sandy @ LOE once and Shaza I’ve known mutually for a couple of years now) and when I heard they were going I kinda thought “What the heck” and got myself a couple of plane tickets, a B.A.P FUN ticket and grabbed my passport. Friday was kinda a write-off for me, truly, by the time we’d arrived at our hotel I was pretty knackered. All that travelling, even if it was a short journey, made me sleepy. However, before I shoot over to the main event of my trip I gotta tell you guys about my hotel room. Aight, so we stayed in a pretty fancy place, not gonna lie, the staff were all super friendly and my room was honestly so nice. But the SHOWER thoooo. Okay so Idk if this is a normality in Poland, but my shower was in the middle of my room. No lie that thing was just smack bang in the middle. And it was perfectly aligned so my lazy ass could watch TV, look out onto Poland all whilst scrubbing my hair and humming along to B.A.P on my phone. If I miss anything about that room it’s my goddamn center shower. 

Now. Saturday though. I decided I was going to stay at the venue the entire day again, like I did for LOE. My lovelies were going sightseeing for the day so I made my way to Progresja, got my queue number and tickets for Hi-Touch & entrance and so began the long wait~ I met so many people that day. Holy heck. So firstly I made friends with these three ladies in the queue for wristbands, who had just come over from the concert in Frankfurt. We kept bumping into each other throughout the day, in queue and even after the show. A girl also came up to me, whom I’d never met, but she said she remembered me from London because of my Red Hair. Honestly I love that I have this signature hair colour. Not only does it make me feel wonderful it also makes me memorably and I find that super sweet. Thant, who I also met at LOE, found me later on in the day and it was super nice to chill with him for a bit in the sun. 

Then. Something really amazing happened. We had heard B.A.P arrive and start rehearsal but about 10 minutes in, the music stopped and suddenly they’ve come out onto the balcony to see us! Some of the fans had prepared a flash mob and came together for B.A.P to see. We all were chanting and waving to them. Youngjae was wearing a blue suit and damn did he work that, Yoo for President. Junhong also looked like a model, as always, and all of the boys kept smiling and waving at us, they clapped all the people dancing and then went back inside to continue rehearsals. 

Soon enough, we’re all in our relevant queue systems ready to go into the venue. Progresja is actually a really nice place. It’s a club turned concert hall and it was just the right size for my smol butt to see even though I didn’t have any kind of early entry. I ended up near some really super lit fans; honestly these girlies really made me shout and dance and props to them for being so hyped up even before anything had happened! 

So, shall we move onto the concert? 

DJ B.Shoo opened up for B.A.P, he had a 10 minute set and honestly, I’ve never known a DJ to hype a crowd like he did. He didn’t play solely kpop but a mix of western songs and he really knew what he was doing to make us jump and scream. Serious props to my guy, he’s super talented and I’m glad he got this platform to show his stuff. 

Then the countdown started for B.A.P. They. Rocked. It. I never remember every single song but let me break it down for y’all. The boys were on fire that night, it shows how much they loved seeing us. They did a multitude of songs from most of the eras. I finally got to see Dancing in the Rain Live, I’ve always had a soft spot for it and seeing it really made me let go and have fun! That’s My Jam, Do What I Feel(!!!) really got the crowd going, over to the sexiness of Fermanta and I Guess I Need You, to the likes of Skydive, One Shot and Wake Me Up, it was so lovely to see Yongguk especially getting the love and I’ve never heard a crowd shout so passionately for a member like that. Carnival era has always been lucky for me; Feel So Good, Be Happy and Carnival were all really fun and got us all dancing so energetically, B.A.P always know how to keep us on our toes. We also got their solo’s that night and hoh boy lemme tell you. Jongup’s was ace. I really love his song and couldn’t wait for Shaza to hear it, he’s improved so much over the years and it’s really great to see him getting his shine. Now speaking of Shine... Zelo’s solo. I’d held off as much as I could to hear it and it did not disappoint. Zelo has created a song, entirely in English, purely of his own colour. Zelo wasn’t molded from B.A.P as a vocal. He was and still is an amazing rapper. However you can tell he loves to sing, in a vocal sense and it works for him. Truly he has a lovely voice and to see him produce such a beautiful song... I’m so proud. Really I am. We then got Daehyun’s solo ft. Zelo and though I am the loyalist of Zelo stans, I think Dae’s is my fave. It’s really interesting and the way it grows to it’s peak is amazingly well produced, Daehyun’s voice mixed with Zelo’s quick fire rap really makes this song for me. Unfortunately, JaeJae didn’t have his vocal- I’m unsure if it’s a mix of him having his fan event pick, or if it was because he was pretty unwell that night but regardless he kept it going for so long and really did his best for us. The boys ended up coming out for two encores and all the confetti reminded me of London, but as always it was all over too soon. 

And then after a wait where I met two lovely Spanish girls (I was helping them understand what was happening, where we needed to be, and basically just translating for them), B.A.P Hi-Touch happened. I’m just gonna bullet point each member as clearly as I can remember...

The order was Yongguk, Zelo, Daehyun, Jongup, Himchan & then Youngjae. 

Yongguk- Okay so putting our wonderful leader first was a lot for my heart to take but I tried my best. The girl in front of me tripped a little and he was so attentive to make sure she was okay. It was really sweet to see. So she had her hi-touch and moved along and then I got to see him. Yongguk stared to my hand as I grabbed his, and I saw his eyes flicker further up my arm, and he got this really big smile on his face. For those of you who don’t know, I have a Matoki tattoo on the inside of my lower arm and I’m not saying he saw it and smiled, I’m saying he saw it and glowed. We then made eye contact again and I said thank you for being so strong and gave his hand a squeeze. He nodded with his super gummy smile and I moved along.

Zelo- Ayooooo it’s ya girl’s bias. So, I do this thing at hi-touch where I don’t just ‘clap’ their hands, I go for a full grab and squeeze their hands. Now me and Zelo, our hands freakin’ smacked together because he gives real strong hi-touches. So I’m there just squeezing his hand kinda tight and I’m telling him thank you, and how proud of him I am. And he’s staring at me with those big ol’ contact filled eyes with his hugely buff arms and honestly I coulda fainted. He was so hyped and happy and just seemed super enthusiastic about seeing us. He really made me feel honestly special and loved ^^

Daehyun- Obviously after Zelo, I’m practically shining at this point and I knew my smile was pretty big, but it was nothing compared to Daehyuns. He looked so happy! I gave his hand such a squeeze (and yes, just like I remembered his hand was so soft! ) and even though he was leaning over the barrier with his hood up nothing could dampen that smile. We both kinda said thank you in unison and he said it in almost a singsong tone, even after a full concert he was still so hyped up. 

Jongup- Honestly Jongup & Daehyun were very similar... They had the same kinda vibe about them even though they express themselves so differently. Again, I gave Jongup’s hand a squeeze and thanked him for coming. He had his little bunny smile going on and even though he seemed so shy he still quietly thanked me. I’m always so surprised when I see Jongup of just how small he is, but equally he’s got such a presence about him. 

Himchan- Okay... So... this one was a little awkward XDD Basically I went in for a full hand grab but it was just as Himmie was bringing his hand down for a second so I kinda grabbed his hand at the completely wrong angle. But it was fine! I still gave it a small squeeze, making sure my nails didn’t dig into his hand at all, because of the angle. Himmie was a lot different to last year, this time around he seemed a lot more tired. Which is totally understandable, but he was still very attentive to us, making sure to thank each and every person. He’s always stunning when I meet him. Seriously his features, I always notice something new whenever I see him. 

Youngjae- Bear in mind that our JaeJae wasn’t feeling especially well he was still trying his best when I got to him. I think he was trying not to get anyone sick but as I didn’t know at the time, I still grabbed his hand fully and gave it a small tap. I could tell he was pretty tired so I tried to give him a Daehyun worthy smile and gave him a really encouraging thank you. He gave me a pretty smile back and a little head nod and I moved along. I ended up walking backwards just to get one last look at these precious boys before I got out the door. 

And that was that, we’re pretty sure our uber to the hotel was actually right next to B.A.P’s van rushing off to the airport for most of the trip back, but that’s neither here nor there (as there’s no way we’ll know for sure if it was them). It just seems likely seeing as their sound van was right in front of this tinted windowed van... Anyways! The next day, me and Shaza & Sandy went sightseeing in Poland and it was a really lovely comedown from the hype of the previous night. Warsaw really is so relaxed and chill and they do the nicest foods and damn do I miss it. I’m so glad I had this experience and even through the stress of it all, I don’t regret it for the world. B.A.P really are special to me, to my tiny munchkin butt, and to see them for the second time a year later after my first concert with them was freakin’ wonderful. Whenever I get to see my boys, the experience is always so much more than just a concert. It’s seeing my idols do what they love on stage, it’s meeting my idols, it’s getting to know new people and seeing good friends, it’s going to a different country on a spontaneous whim of ‘I wanna’. I love these six boys and I’ll cherish them for life! 

Until we meet again, Forever With You~

Mallie xox Hugs and Kisses

[prktaeil]

I promise to never fall in love with a stranger.

New York City.

2015.

chapter 7.

it didn’t show on his face, but minho has been worried about jinwoo all night. he felt like there was something off, something that might be bothering him, but he also didn’t want to pester the younger boy and annoy him. he didn’t want to push him away when he only wanted to show how much he cared about him.

minho was usually a very carefree and confident person, walking down the hallway wearing the latest fashion – seeing as he modeled – like the school was his runway. that’s one of the many reasons he got to be popular around the school. along with how attractive he looked, how sociable he was, and how he gravitates people towards him simply because everyone liked his company. he was the cool one, or whatever they called him. all the girls wanted a piece of him, not knowing his deepest secret hidden in his heart… until recently, when he started to publicly show his affection for a certain fluffy, sweet and soft looking boy.

the only thing he didn’t think he was confident at: ensuring jinwoo’s happiness. that was his goal recently, just that. he wanted people to stop bullying him, to stop making fun of him and treating him less than he deserved. sure, minho had the power to stop someone from doing that every time, but he also knew he couldn’t be there twenty-four seven. he couldn’t punch everyone he sees, and he definitely can’t permanently stop the bullying.

however, he was confident about helping jinwoo be braver. he wanted to be open about his sexuality too so that jinwoo doesn’t feel alone. the boy was outed against his will, therefore, he wasn’t going to let him be alone. for the past few weeks, ever since the two talked at that house party, minho has been slowly showing more and more of his true self, and he even noticed that some of his so-called friends were starting to drift away from him, which he really couldn’t bother to give two shits about. he only wanted jinwoo to be comfortable, he wanted to help him.

just as he was thinking that, he saw mina coming from the corner of his eye, from where he was stood in front of his locker. and just as he looked at her, he noticed who was with her, and he could’ve sworn he had never felt himself smile so widely, he almost teared his cheeks apart. “oh, my god, baby. look at you!” he exclaimed at the sight of jinwoo, clad in a sweater with a rainbow on it. minho didn’t think he could feel any more proud, but he was. he was very very proud of him, he didn’t even know what to do. the other boy shyly approached him with a little smile, mina who was with him let go of his arm and stood nearby with an equally proud smile on her face. minho was aware of the looks they were getting, and he was very aware of the confirmed rumors about him being gay, so he thought: why not give a very solid confirmation on that? in that moment, minho leaned up on his toes and kissed jinwoo’s lips very briefly and shortly, it was barely even a second long, and his smile turned soft as he looked at him again. “sorry, had to do that.”

mina, who was beside them, looked like she wanted to squeal. she did indeed squeal, quieter than she had wanted to. “look at you two, the cutest couple i’ve ever seen! you guys are really made for each other.” she sighed dramatically, patting both of their shoulders like a proud mother before finally leaving them alone. “i’m proud of you!” she yelled from across the hallway, making minho laugh as he glanced back at her, then looked at jinwoo again, only to see that he still had that nervous and shy smile on his face that minho had fallen in love with.

“rainbow shirt? damn, we could’ve matched.” minho joked, closing his locker and putting his backpack on, then taking jinwoo’s hand in his own. “you look really beautiful, by the way. and i’m so proud of you.” he smiled softly this time as he looked up at the other boy who suddenly looked so surprised by hearing that. truthfully, he didn’t think he’d ever heard someone tell him how proud they are of him. he’s never got it from his father, nor teachers. not anyone. but here’s minho being probably the first to say it to him, jinwoo felt his heart skipping a beat.

“let’s go to class, we have a project to work on together.” the shorter boy said, starting to walk towards their science class hand in hand.

“so... did he ask you yet?” crystal wondered as she worked on the decorations with rin, the two of them having decided to volunteer to work to prepare for the homecoming dance, along with a friend of theirs named jaehyun. he was stood on the other side of the room, finishing what he was working on there. 

rin simply shrugged in response, eyes focused on what she was doing and avoiding looking at the other girl, not wanting her to see her very obvious frown. “no. and let’s not use the word ‘yet’, he definitely isn’t doing it.” 

“how do you know that?” the blonde turned around, looking at her worriedly. 

“well, we-... w-we only talked like, two or three time.” rin shrugged, glad that her hair wasn’t tied up so she can hide behind it as she kept looking down and pretending to be busy. 

“he might do it, you don’t know that.”

“no, crystal. he won’t.” she insisted, finally looking at her properly. “i’ve been in this high school for four years and i’ve been invisible for as long as i could remember. why would spencer – one of the most popular kids, might i add – ask me to go to the dance with him? out of all people? that’s just impossible and very unrealistic.” 

crystal sighed, taking a seat on a chair that was near the table rin was working at. “why wouldn’t he? it would be really stupid of him if he doesn’t.” she responded, glancing over at jaehyun when he came over to the table too, looking between them curiously.

“because i’m a nobody?” 

“uh, you’re clearly somebody.” 

“ugh, that’s not what i meant, crystal. you know what- never mind, i don’t want to talk about this. jae, are you done?” 

it was only when they had to leave after finishing their job for the day that they were stopped by someone in the hallway. both girls had tied their hair up into ponytails because of how hot the gym was that day. all three of them had their backpacks on their backs, filled with all of their books to take for the weekend. rin felt her heart speeding up, not recognizing the voice at first because she missed what they even said. but as soon as she turned around, along with her two friends, she was disappointed. 

“uh, h-hey, cryssie.” yoongi stood there, out of breath, as he smiled nervously at the blonde girl. rin stood there awkwardly at the side beside jaehyun, a frown on her face as she watched the two of them stand in front of each other with such overflowing awkwardness. rin glanced up at the taller boy beside her and he seemed to feel just as awkward. they were always in their little group and didn’t interact with others. 

“are you okay?” crystal asked, tilting her head slightly. rin didn’t feel like standing there much, so she tugged on jaehyun’s sleeve, indicating to him that she wanted to step away. he got the message right away and took her arm, taking her away from them. 

“i just...” yoongi paused, taking a deep breath and letting it out. “i-i wanted to ask you... if you, you know... if you want to go to the dance with me?” he said the last part so quickly and crystal could only stand there in confusion. 

“i’m sorry... what? i didn’t catch that...” 

yoongi took another deep breath, trying to calm his quick heart. “would you please go to the homecoming dance with me?” he asked slower this time, his voice wavering with nerves. when he looked up at crystal again, he saw how her cheeks had turned a rosy color and how her smile that appeared didn’t look like it was going to leave her face. 

“i would love to!” 

across the now-empty hallway, reaching the entrance of the building were jaehyun and rin, walking silently on their way to leave and go home. 

“h-he’s... he might ask you, y-you know?” he spoke quietly, his voice almost inaudible. 

rin looked up at him, head tilted slightly. she was obviously acting like she didn’t know what he was talking about. “... huh?” 

“spencer... h-he did want to hang out w-with you before... i-i don’t know.” jaehyun shrugged, immediately looking back down at his feet and looking like he was wishing he didn’t start this topic all over again. 

“look, jae. he-” 

“hyunnie!”

rin was cut off by someone else coming up to them as soon as they walked out. is this really going to happen all day? she recognized the boy almost immediately, he was one of the new kids... kitae? was it? jae looked like he obviously knew him before hand, and the two were acting shyly around each other. “i have to talk to you about something.” kitae said, then looked at rin and gave her a genuine smile. well... at least he acknowledged her existence. 

“i’ll see you later, jaejae.” rin decided to say before they could tell her that they needed to be alone. things like that made her so anxious and she wanted to avoid it at all costs. jaehyun nodded and waved at her, which she returned as she walked away. 

it didn’t look like there was anyone left in the school, building was quiet... no one was there. all her desperate hopes of a certain someone coming up to her out of nowhere were out the window. 

what she didn’t expect to see, however, was that certain someone standing by his car, the only one left, with someone else talking to him. a girl... a really pretty one at that too. the tall boy had his usual wide and polite smile on, not noticing that she was standing there a few feet away looking at them.

rin quickly walked back to her house with tears rolling down her cheeks. 

now that it was the weekend, taeil couldn’t find it in himself to wait until monday to resolve everything wrong that was happening lately. it was his fault, for the most part, he acknowledges that, and he wanted to fix things. before he knew it, his feet were taking him to where mina’s house was located, instead of continuing on his usual walk that he took whenever his thoughts were too much.

this time, his thoughts were getting overwhelming over the fact that he had acted so stupidly and didn’t listen to his friends. yubin had a talk with him the day before, the two are an unlikely pair, but seemed to get along. he managed to convince him that he did was wrong, that him coming to a conclusion so fast wasn’t the right thing to do. and taeil couldn’t help but admit how wrong he was too. 

as soon as the door opened, it almost closed back shut if taeil hadn’t stopped it by sticking his foot in between the door and its frame. “fuck...” he winced, glancing down at his foot for a moment. he held the door and looked at the girl behind it. “mina, please. can i talk to you? please?” 

the look on his face must’ve been a lot more sincere than he thought he was capable of, because it only took mina a little bit to get convinced and open the door for him. but instead of letting him in, she walked out and closed the door behind her, arms crossed as she waited for him to talk. 

“i...” taeil stared at her. god, how much he missed her. he never thought he would feel like this about anyone in his life time, always thought he wasn’t worth anyone’s affection, but here he was, falling so quickly for mina nam. “i’m so sorry.” 

“hear me out, please.” he said quickly before she could change her mind. “it was really fucking stupid of me to believe some rumor, and... i know you’re not like that, you’re- mina, you’re amazing, and you’re nothing like i expected you to be.” 

“i-i guess... i guess the only reason i fooled myself into believing it was because i was scared? i’ve... i’ve never liked someone the way i like you. it’s so new to me, and-” he paused, taking a deep breath and sighing. “i don’t want to be like the rest.” 

“i really want things to go back to normal... it’s okay if you don’t want that anymore, i understand. i just... i thought i might at least apologize for messing up like that.”