#the only other hyperfixation i can think of thats had a grasp on me like this is vocaloid bc vocaloid related content is SO vast and covers

[ratsonas]

i love when i get into media thats perfect for me to hyperfixate on like. the homestar runner toons themselves are really fucking funny but theres also soooo much content outside of the website that i get to deep dive into. like even just the wiki itself has as much unique content as the website. or like. ive started listening to the music that strong sad likes. AUGH i love when a hyperfixation takes over my life like this

[eunoiastarz]

more adhd balthazar propaganda requested by my beloved @sunriseat9am <3

adhd symptoms I noticed throughout his scenes:

rejection sensitive dysphoria:

I’m going to use 6x21 as my crutch for this because look at him

also in 6x03 when cas chooses the winchesters over him

hyper sensitivity:

almost every scene we’re faced with balthazars walls of an ‘I don’t care’ attitude which I think is just masking for his hyper sensitivity. I mean the 6x21 forest scene says it all, for a minute or two he stops masking and elevates his voice while using rapid hand gestures to vent his frustrations. I can also use 6x03 again as an example with how he begins pacing during the rougher parts of the conversation in order to hide his face from cas. and again, the way he blankly stands there while cas raises his voice, his own tone getting much softer.

mood swings:

balthazar to change frequently through emotions. he goes quickly from anger in the 6x03 holy fire scene to being utterly defeated within a few words. the 6x21 forest scene where he goes from frustrated to calm in a matter of seconds, and the 6x21 confrontation scene with sam and dean he goes from annoyed to panicked before composing his false attitude enough to fly off. just watch and you’ll see how he never keeps a consistent emotion during scene.

hyper activity/ excessive activity/ fidgeting:

balthazar is never not moving and when he isn’t it’s only ever for a few seconds. we also know he goes out to parties a lot and constantly surrounds himself with any chaotic activity he can find. this isn’t even mentioning the 6x15 scene where he’s talking to himself while rushing around bobby’s house, completely ignoring anyone else.

irritability/ low frustration tolerance:

truly this could just be because he finds sam and dean extensively annoying as he should, but I’m clocking him. he just hates them so much without a concrete reason. he doesn’t hate cas for trapping him in holy fire, but then again sam and dean have ruined a lot for him.

impulsivity/ lack of self restraint:

he doesn’t example many impulsive decisions, the only instance I can find is him impulse to save cas in 6x03 despite what it will cost him, but I think he’s impulsive in the way he speaks. he says a lot of out of pocket things depending on how who he’s talking to is making him feeling in the moment. adding on ‘honey’ after challenging raphael just because he knows cas will save him and telling dean he considered ‘ripping out his sticky bits’ just because they were annoying him was out of impulsive in my opinion.

dismissive behaviors:

watching through his scenes I noticed how dismissive he is of his own feelings and situations he doesn’t want to be happening. he fidgets more in these scenes and puts up and entirely different personality while either laughing it off or trying to change the topic. when he starts getting dismissive it’s also when his mood does a whole 180 within seconds. the entirety of his opening 6x03 scene is what I’m using as proof.

always relating things back to his interests:

I think his interest in movies is pretty obvious (titanic, the godfather, etc) so when he explained the current situation to sam and dean in 6x15 by using the movie the godfather, unsinking the titanic after watching the movie was his plan he was finding ways to relate through what he knew.

poor planning:

to me balthazar never really fully thought through everything he did, kind of like I said early he acts on impulse at times; in 6x03 when he damaged raphaels vessel to save cas, betraying cas and working with the winchesters, telling sam to kill bobby. when castiel even comments that he came back in 6x03 looking for an explanation of why, balthazar gives some off handed comment on the spot of how he’ll have more time to flee. I don’t think he ever saw through to what would happen as a result of these things all he thought in the moment was what he really cared about.

stimming:

stimming isn’t something he does much in canon, but I’m counting the times when he gets frustrated and starts pacing/ talking with his hands as him stimming.

persistent repetition of words or actions:

once again this isn’t something he does much but I noticed how he always holds his glasses the same exact way and drinks them whenever gauging what exactly he wants to say next. he also repeats words directly or summarizing things over and over to get his point across.

Now for the fun hc stuff!!:

(some or these are repeated from my hcs post and some are from my girlfriend who has never watched the show at all but is the resident adhd haver of our household so <3)

when he was younger sitting around in intelligence was very boring so he learned how to do tricks with his blade. it became a way of stimming to him so he could focus on whatever he was being taught. no one in intelligence appreciated it though. cas actually gets his spinny blade thing from him.

his character description in script says that he’s slightly manic (an attractive charmer who appears slightly manic on the surface but carries a great sadness) so I think that when he finally left heaven it was on impulse during a manic episode. he knew he had to leave, but I don’t think without that adrenaline he could ever bring himself to leave his garrison.

most definitely canon and confirmed that he has sensory issues and the reason he wears a v-neck all the time is because if he wears a collar any higher he feels like he’s being chocked.

old love songs are always playing throughout his house because it’s subconsciously helps him focus and he finds the quiet off putting.

his jacket? There is the part of the end of the sleeve thats really smooth because of how often he rubs it when he is panicked or just unsure of himself (a personal favorite from gf <3)

whenever him and cas are talking he’ll stim by messing with the belt of his trenchcoat.

whenever he can’t remember something he looks around the room and snaps his fingers while mumbling under his breath trying to figure out what he’s supposed to remember.

flashback to my post that said quote “adhd balthazar propaganda flappy hands” because so true past me

he wears a lot of jewlery so I like to think he stim with it <3 he messes up and fixes his watch over and over again. during long conversations he’s tugging his rings on and off to make sure he focuses on what’s being said.

going back to the sensory issues he can pet a cat normally but never backwards because he hates how it feels yes I’m right.

he sways all he time without noticing, especially when sitting. he sits cross legged only. (this one from my gf <3)

he’s overexcitable!! he’s loud and has no volume control!!! he just wants to have fun with things!!

he hyperfixated in cas for a bit and would tell him everything. (from my gf and no I don’t know how he never watched the show yet was on the nose with this one. they’re just a genius i guess)

I’ve noted before that I think he only likes wine so I think he stims sometimes by twirling his wine glass.

his first ever hyperfixation was frogs <3

he’s bored very easily with people and places hence why he flys all over the world.

he repeats his own stories a lot with the same amount of excitement which always bothered other angels outside of his garrison. it’s one of the reasons he learned to mask better.

despite being perfectly fine in loud crowded areas he gets easily overstimulated in high stress (mental) situations.

he hyperfixated on movies after being exposed to them on earth. it’s how he learned about modern human culture and finds it the easiest way to relate/ communicate with them.

he’s the most sociable out of the garrison but somehow had the least friends.

he doesn’t understand other people’s emotions at all. he can’t tell how people feel about him in anyway. sam and dean hate him but they still call him for help. he thinks he’s cas’ best friend but cas has never chose him once. he tries to act like it doesn’t bother him and pretends to be self centered to avoid having to ask the question. anna used to be the one to help him with things like this since she always had a good grasp on communication, but obviously she isn’t around anymore.

he’s a perfectionist, to him all things are about presentation. I’m using his introduction and the raphael confrontation scene as my proof.

balthazars always either humming or singing under his breath which everyone but his garrison finds annoying. they used to, but they’ve just become well adapted to his quirks.

he’s repressed his personality a lot. being loud and excitable in heaven was highly frowned upon, so in order to survive he tries to mask as much as possible

[mehmehfwog]

long ass rant time.

(Not my show, not my characters, not my choices. This is not me bashing the show. Just trying to put out my thoughts on the series and understanding to a certain degree on why Korra gets so much hate. I don’t blame the characters. I question the creators)

Ten year old me is jumping for joy that the avatar fandom has risen from the ashes and has become so mainstream and widespread. If you would have told me a year ago that the original show would have had such a big rebirth after so long I would not have believed it.

And after so long of not really wanting too watch Korra because teenage me never really wanted the Gaang to have their stories set in stone. I always wanted it to be left open to interpitation. Going into watching Korra I tried my best to pretend I never watched atla and attempted too not make comparisons.

I am now at the last season of it. And having really hard time watching it. The first two season made a pretty good story. That being said, I really am still having a hard time finding ANY characters likeable after binge watching. The humor falls flat when every characters humor is juts harsh sarcasm. Not one of the characters sacrafices anything to help Korra. They are not a team at all. Mako stays a police officer and will not stay loyal even to his family and friends. Bolin does not give a shit about his brother being inprisoned. Every time Korra,Asami, Bolin, and Mako interact they are fighting. They made Bolin so unsympathetic he really isn’t a comedic relief. I don’t understand the apeal of Mako when he has no loyalties. The whole back in fourth love triangle was so over done and over played they had to give him another episode to explain just to try to give him some fans. Meelo is very sexist annoying, and seems to be having no paranting. Varrick did not make sense. For Avatar be so heavy on families..... not one family has siblings that get along or feel any protection for one another.

The only characters I kind of liked were Jinora who seemed to have the power, spirituality, and common sense that a Avatar needs in my opinion. Kai who had an actual growth, personality, and gained honor in the few times he is shown. These two actually saved people more than anyone. Opal who I felt they could have had such had an amazing storyline and Bolin does not deserve. I wish Korra would have gotten closer too General Iroh. And the rest of the Beiphongs except Jr of course. I liked Tenzin but he sure did jack shit.

To top it not one of the characters has any honor. Even the families. It is such a hard thing to grasp when the Gaangs era was so heavy on loyalty, honor and found family.

Even in the fourth season I am having a hard time connecting with the new “team” avatar. They are all so self involved. And all of the villans could have been stopped with one episode if they would have been questioned on why they are so fucking shifty. All of the bad guys were stopped in Atla because they were immediatly called on their shit even when they were manipulators and felt like they were doing the right thing. (cough Jet cough). Why are all the characters so..... stupid?

The good guys never once win a fight. Even when there is around 50 airbenders, a pro earth benderand lava bender, a pro firebending police officer who can shoot lightning, a skilled nonbender and technician, a old skilled waterbending master(daughter of a bloodbending master healer),a master airbender( son of the avatar). Who couldnt defeat and stood aside as the airbending weeb who suddenly is the most powerful man alive because he could read and conveniently did not need any masters. I can go on for hours on depth on this.

I liked the development and the Avatar cycle starting anew. I liked the Spirit world being reconnected to the humans. (I realy did not like all the technology growth to be honest). If it was not immediatly brushed aside, with no issues coming from it as if the avatar has not been dealing with the humans and spirits fighting for 10,000 years but go off I guess.

I really think that the second season should have been the final season. Think of the possibilities if Korra could have had this epic build up like Aang did, traveling and learning with friends, too defeat this unbeatable force. If it took 4 books to a final battle for convergence. We get so much info about the Avatar and Raava in season 2. And then Korra fights the literal embodiment of darkness and evil. She should be so strong and be more in touch with Raava, the spirits, her powers than any other avatar after she reconnects with Raava. Every other villian pales in comparison. Then gets her ass kicked for 2 more seasons by some losers. A little anticlimactic on my side here.

If she really is a reincarnation of Wan then why is it so hard for her to see the good from the bad. Why is she set up to need so much help when she doesnt get it and doesnt learn from it. They really did make her weak and unlikeable. That goes for all the characters. You can’t change my mind on that.

All in all.... Shitty jokes, demands, bad desisions and sarcasm is not a personality. And thats all the personality a lot of these characters got.

I don’t want to go on hating and bashing this show I just want to forget it exsist. And I am not even at the end of it. I am really sad that the found family of the Gaang seemingly fell apart. Tearing apart the point of the ideals of Aang.

I wish they would animate comics and more of Aangs story because thats what people want. Not a live action movie that will pale in comparison to a book or cartoons. Look at Disney and how “amazing” their live actions have been. Actors, money, and new jokes wont make a Movie. A story will. Characters will. People will.

And that story has been told, not continued in the series. I really just wonder if Nickelodian didnt want to listen to them so they just put out shit.

( The whole Korra/Asami thing not even going into the TV series is another story)

Ok I can go on and on. I will finish hyperfixating for now.Tell me what you guys think.