#the misunderstanding-of-dean-by-everyone-including-himself-and-the-supernatural of it all

[purgaytorysupremacy]

friend who is watching Supernatural because I won't shut up about it: I dunno, the episode "It's a Terrible Life" feels kind of empty and doesn't really make a lot of sense. Like, the message is just "ghost hunting is mad fun, bro"

me, buzzing with murder board energy: no, no, but you see... *writes hundreds of words about how this is one of THEE Dean Studies episodes, especially when paired with the season two djinn episode and endverse, and builds important parts of the angel's lore and plans, and is a meta example of the show's creators misunderstanding their own characters and stories*

[waywardnerd67]

Roleplaying

Title: Roleplaying Summary: (Y/N) askes Jensen to try something new during hiatus. Paring: Jensen x Reader Word Count: 1036 Rating: E - Everyone Warnings: Fluff Square Filled: Trying Something New Bingo Card: @spndeanbingo​ A/N: None

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A content sigh escaped Jensen’s lips as he stretched his body out over his bed. He had arrived home late last night officially on hiatus for the summer. He had a few interviews to do this morning, but after that the day was his to do as he pleased. Pushing himself up and swinging his legs over the side of the bed, he looked down at his phone seeing a text waiting for him.

Good morning handsome! Enjoy your first day of hiatus and I will see you later this afternoon. Don’t forget about our plans for the night. Love you!

He had almost forgotten about having plans for the night as the  memory of his wife, (Y/N) asking him about trying something new with her popped into his mind.

Three Weeks Earlier

His weekends home were never long enough, but the light at the end of the tunnel of another Supernatural season was in sight. He watched as (Y/N) was reaching new characters for her latest book while chatting with a friend of theirs. Ending her call and closing her laptop, she snuggled into his side.

“I want to run something by you, but I’m a little nervous too.”

He looked down at her fidgeting with the hem of his shirt, “I’m super curious, please go on.”

“The weekend you come home for hiatus, I was wondering if maybe you would be willing to try…” she bit her lip averting her eyes from his.

He lifted her chin bringing her beautiful eyes back to his, “Try what?”

Taking a deep breath, “Try some roleplaying with me?”

“Roleplaying?” She confirmed that he had heard her right as his mind immediately imagined several different scenarios to act out with her, “Absolutely, if you want to then yes, of course.”

(Y/N)’s smile was radiating, “Really? I thought maybe you wouldn’t be into this type of thing, but this is great. Thank you!” She learned to kiss him before snuggling back into his side.

***

Since that night, Jensen had been dreaming and fantasizing about what kind of sexy roleplaying they would try. Some of his favorites were strangers meeting at a bar or pizza man delivering to a lonely girl. Even now, as he sat on a conference call with Jared and a reporter from Chicago he could not keep the images from flashing before his eyes. The more he thought about it, the longer the day seemed to drag on. Trying to distract himself, he decided to work on some projects around their house. He had just finished mowing the grass when (Y/N) called.

“Hey honey, on your way home?”

There was a long sigh, “Not yet. Hey could you do me a favor? Grab a change of clothes for me along with my bookbag from my office and meet me at Jared’s.”

“We’re going over to Jared’s tonight? I thought we were going to try out the whole roleplaying thing?” Jensen walked into the house heading towards their room.

“We are over at Jared’s. Hey I have to get back to this meeting. I will see you there. Love you.” She ended the call as he stared down at his phone for a moment before sending a text to Jared.

Hey buddy, are you alright with this whole plan for tonight?

There was an immediate response confusing him even more.

Absolutely! (Y/N) told me all about it. Should be a fun time tonight. See ya in about an hour.

Running his hand over his hair, before it dawned on Jensen what she had planned. A wide smile spread across his face, excitement buzzing throughout his body. After taking a shower, he grabbed some clothes for (Y/N) and her bag which was surprisingly heavy making his way to his car.

Arriving at Jared’s he was surprised to see quite a few cars in the driveway including (Y/N)’s. Walking inside was like walking in on a Supernatural wrap party. Felicia Day, DJ Qualls, Jared and (Y/N) were all standing around the dining room table.

“Jensen, finally I can change out of this stupid dress.” (Y/N) rushed over to him grabbing her bags.

That is when everything became clear to what they were doing at Jared’s. His cheeks burned while his stomach dropped seeing the table set up with a map, dice and several books he recognized from her bookshelf. He followed her upstairs to the guest room shutting the door behind him.

“Handsome, why did you bring me a dress and fishnet stockings to wear?” She held up the clothes he had picked out for her role.

He looked down at his feet, the weight of his misunderstanding sitting heavily on his shoulders, “When you said roleplaying you meant the game you play with Jared once a month.”

She nodded then her eyes went from the clothes to his burning face laughter erupting from her, “Oh my god, you thought I meant… oh Jensen… I-I’m so sorry…”

“I should’ve known. I’ll go back home and get you different clothes.” He turned towards the door just as her arms wrapped around his waist.

“No, don’t leave. I’m really sorry. I could have been more clear about what I was asking. Are you still willing to play Dungeons and Dragons with us? You’re not the only new player tonight. Jared convinced Zac Levi to come and play too.”

His eyes snapped up to hers narrowing in on them, “Well I think I have to stay and play so you don’t run off with you nerd crush.”

She stepped away from him pulling the simple green dress over her head and slipped on the crimson one shoulder dress on, “If I was going to run away with anyone other than you it would be Felicia, my nerd queen.” She walked out of the room chuckling leaving him stunned in the room alone.

That night he learned two things. One, (Y/N) was an amazing storyteller and brought to life a whole world for them that made him beam with pride. Two, he actually enjoyed hanging out and being nerdy with everyone but he would never let any of them know it.

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C’s (1/?) Destiel Rec List:

That gets less and less coherent as it goes.

So here is a rec list by order in which I read them and not by preference. They’re like, All Destiel, because that’s how Post-November C rolls:

First on the list is The Courtship of Combat by bendingsignpost 18k

I KNOW it’s not Thee fic by bendingsignpost that everyone is talking about. I know. BUT, I dearly enjoyed it. It’s the first in a series and it’s A/B/O. (I know. I know. Don’t @ me. Or do.) It’s pre-relationship and the characters are definitely themed toward early-Destiel if you catch my drift. Omega!Dean’s hand is being fought over. This wouldn’t matter to Castiel except he totally told Michael that the reason he wouldn’t marry anyone is because he’s head over heels for the Winchester Omega that he doesn’t even have a real recollection of ever meeting. It’s like the perfect balance of a meet-cute and meet-ugly. I just LOVE bendingsignpost’s Castiel voice. It’s such a great characterization.

I’M GONNA SCREAM THE SECOND ON THE LIST IS ANOTHER A/B/O?!? I swear I don’t read that much A/B/O, but this is another exception because it’s Biological Imperatives (Or Not) by tiamatv  29k

Tiamatv is one of my favorite writers. If you’re unfamiliar with their work, I’m gonna rec more of it to you. No worries. THIS lovely piece of work is a Beta/Beta narrative that focuses on how hilarious A/B/O tropes are from an outsider perspective, but doesn’t do it in a way that feels insulting to the classical tropes. It’s just people living their lives where these situations happen not often but enough that they know how to deal with it. Dean and Cas have several first dates trying to figure out what’s happening between the two of them. Castiel is thee love of my life in this piece. And Dean’s headspace makes for a witty narrative.

If you know me at all, you know this next one HAD to be a regency and it’s Of Lords and Letters by MalMuses 14k

Dean is the master of the Winchester estate after his father passes. Unfortunately for the estate (but much to Dean’s pleasure), he can’t run it personally because he’s at war. Not that he likes war all that much, but it’s what he knows. War he knows. Sam is a conniving but well-meaning little brother and puts him in contact with Mister Castiel Shurley. (I KNOW. I KNOW. I allow Castiel Shurley in recent fics only if Chuck is cast as an asshole, and he is :)) But seriously, it’s SO Regency. There’s letters, pining, propriety, and men in period suits. What more could you ask for?

Y’all probably gonna immediately peg who I am as a person when I say Always Together, Eternally Apart by EmiliaOagi 27k is probably one of my top ten Destiel fics.

Here’s the thing—Ladyhawke is probably my second favorite movie in the entire world beat only by The Princess Bride. (Seriously, if y’all wanna bribe me with anything, it will always be that.) NOT ONLY does EmiliaOagi beautifully incorporate the source material, but once more Dean Winchester is SO Dean Winchester it hurts. This piece is from Sam’s perspective, and his running inner monologue is both insightful and entertaining. If you’re unfamiliar with the plot of Ladyhawke, I refuse to spoil it for you. Some things must be experienced, and this is one of them. Either by reading this lovely work or by viewing the original film, you’ll understand the legend that so captivates me.

OH ANOTHER DELICIOUS ONE and it’s like in that vein of Retired Hunters But Not Yet Together Destiel is Welcome to Pine Shores! by andimeantittosting (Saylee) 20k

It’s always fun reading Dean character studies, and this is definitely one of them. So the long and short of it is PINING FOR DAYS (this was written for Pinefest) and Dean trying to set up Cas with other people because he thinks Cas might want more. Oh, and did I mention they’ve been running this motel for like thirteen years? And they share a bed? *Tropes Intensify*

There is also Dean Winchester and the Patron Saint of Blind Dates by goldenraeofsun 18k which I think some of y’all are familiar with.

Sort of what it says on the tin, to be honest, folks. Dean’s friends set him up with some blind dates and the bartender—Castiel—grips his Purple Nurple tight and raises him from perdition. (And no, it’s not a euphemism.) The dates are sort of outrageously in character and interestingly enough this is a Sam/Ruby fic too! I sort of liked how it played out in this piece. If you’re worried about the Sam/Ruby dynamic, fear not! They were both former addicts and have since been clean for (a year or two? I don’t recall the time frame.) Dean has a love/hate sort of relationship with an emphasis on hate with Ruby since she’s the one who got Sam into drugs (allegory for the demon blood) but she’s also the one to try to go clean first. I just thought that was an interesting take, and one I would’ve linked to have seen the show pursue to be honest, but Supernatural has to keep the hot ladies dead or villains or both haha ;)) I digress. It’s a smaller read but the subject matter is pretty heavy. From former religious cults to the former addicts, please keep in mind if mentions of these things make you uncomfortable. It’s definitely the one whose subject matter stuck out the most to me. So apologize if I’ve missed mentioning anything specific for y’all in the previous recs or this one.

WAIT THIS NAME LOOKS FAMILIAR!??! IT’S andimeantittosting (Saylee) BACK AT IT AGAIN BUT THIS TIME WITH The Winchester Affair 34k !!

SAYLEE YOU HAD TO MAKE IT ONTO THIS LIST TWICE. Another Regency, except this time Castiel is long time friends (with benefits *eyebrow wiggles*) with Dean. He’s in love with him, obviously, so this means that an asshole named Zachariah that we all know and loathe comes around planning to frame his poor sister (Hael) with stealing Mary Winchester’s brooch if Castiel doesn’t find some damning evidence on the Winchesters for him. DRAMA AHOY!!! This is a very harlequin/regency novel. It’s actually based off of a novel called Ware the Marquess as is the wont of the Destiel Harlequin Challenge. Very good challenge to check out; very excellent fic to read. And the author so nice we listed them twice. ;) SIDE NOTE: This is totally one of those Regency ones where It Simply Isn’t Done, if you know what I mean. Like, no one is outright slurring or something that I can recall (and it isn’t tagged so I doubt there is), but it Isn’t Done, But They Love Each Other Very Much.

So you guys know Scoobynatural is my comfort episode, right? Well, one of my favorite things that I’ve delightfully discovered is the trope of building off of Cas’ one-liner about being effin’ married, so have The Nikkah by Maxine (WinchesterPooja) 28k!

Reads like a Case-fic as there’s an entire sub-plot happening with Sam. So this story happens well within the canon despite being canon-divergent. This one does end happy!! There’s a view episode like fics I might rec that end in canon-fashion with Dean repression and I love the pining and all but sometimes I need sweet fandom closure. Long and short of it: Djinn culture? Djinn queen? Fake-relationships? Sam dealing with nightmares? This baby can fit SO MUCH ACTION into a fic.

Okay, so you know the fic with the Bee Movie allegory? (It’ll come up on this reclist.) This has the same vibe, except for the relationship is out of order and Dean is Diagnosed with If I Do It This Way It’s Okay. Yeah, it’s Command Me to Be Well by prosopopeya 28k

Human Cas, back from the dead, post-finale, and Dean is trying to figure out how to get his happy ending. I’ve seen this one make the rounds on fic rec’ing so I think it’s a bit familiar, but I enjoyed it. Even though—as my bookmark says—I usually don’t go in for hurt/comforts with heavy on the hurt because my poor heart can’t take it. This is one of my few exceptions. This one has a healthy dose of Castiel standing up for himself with the bittersweet tang of him literally willing to do so much for Dean. But it’s a Dean perspective, so it really deals with a lot of his inner thoughts.

This one is,,,, in a similar vein as Command Me to Be Well. I guess I was in a mood. Baby, Come On Home by woodenducks 9k.

IT’S SEASON NINE WITH A SIDE OF PINE. What more could you ask for angst? Human Cas in Rexford trying to make a life for himself when all he wants is to go home. But he’s also trying to figure out what home even is for him. There’s a lot of drama between Dean and Cas, because of course Dean wants him there. But blah blah angels and blah blah whatever excuse the writers wanted so we couldn’t have human Cas and Dean in the bunker. We KNOW obviously the only thing keeping canon Dean from snapping was the fact that Cas was not human around him. *heavy eyeroll*. Anyways, this is a heartbreaking read from Castiel’s perspective.

One of my favorite Rescue Cas from the Empty fics is (they'll never break) the shape we take by auroralynches (teresavampa) 9k.

There’s this super cool concept of how Castiel experiences his regrets within the Empty and how Dean navigates through them to get to Castiel. I really enjoyed it, and of course the greatest love story ever told has got to have SOME theatrics and sentiments that are definitely reflected in this fic. My point is, I really love when Empty Rescue fics include analyzing Castiel’s regrets, and this one does so but from Dean’s perspective. As in Dean is viewing Castiel’s memories and trying to perceive his regrets.

Sooooo Epistolary by tiamatv 9k eh?

I love love LOVEEEEEE epistolary fics. I love them. I’ll always read them. And I totally told you I loved tiamatv. This is probably another one for the top ten fics just because it plays into my things. Love letters, music, and misunderstandings, oh my!!

HERE’S A VERY SEXY TERRIBLE LIFE ----> Ties that Bind Us by TheTwistedWillow 13k

Okay, so BASICALLY what if It’s A Terrible Life happened in like, circa-season 13 and Castiel was thrown in with Dean Smith and Sam Wesson. Literally all that I wanted in this fic. I do mean it’s sexy, by the way. I can’t even begin to explain this fic beyond it’s Castiel’s perspective, and he has some awareness that something is off. And being inside Castiel’s head when he’s not Castiel gets me every time.

OKAY I KNOW THIS IS THE THIRD A/B/O FIC ON THIS LIST I KNOW I KNOW The Mills School for Distinguished Girls by SillyBlue 13k IS WORTH IT THOUGH?!?!

Alpha Dean Winchester is going off to war. In the meantime, his family still doesn’t know about his marriage to Omega Castiel (in fact, they still think Castiel is a Beta.) Male Omegas are very rare in this universe, and it is addressed along with the fact that just because Castiel might look different on the outside doesn’t make him any different than the girls. Which I thought was a thought-provoking interpretation. There’s prejudices here—a lot of them against women and omegas—and a temporary character death which actually moved me to tears. I bookmarked this saying bring the tissues; bring the tissues.

THE BEE MOVIE FIC THE BEE MOVIE FIC THE BEE MOVI— according to all known laws of life by sobsicles 29k sobsicles I owe you a great slice of pie.

Sobsicles, my beloved, my bestie <3 (am I allowed to say that? I mean it affectionately. Well and truly.) You REALLY got in my head with this one. This is literally such an insane read that I read it twice in a row. Yeah, whoops. Cas is back from the empty and Dean is an asshole about it because feelings are hard. Here is what I bookmarked this fic with: “Dean Winchester has issues. He gets through them. Like a Bull in a China Shop, but he gets through them. The metaphor works.” And that is EXACTLY what happens. Dean is such an asshole and I LOVE IT. 14yr me would cry at the concept of reading this but 14yr me is a tasteless bitch. This is where it’s at. Dean has so much he’s mentally working through and Cas won’t take no shit and Sam is tired. It’s great. I love it. I know we rec sobsicles left and right over here (and I know there’s a new one I haven’t read yet) but this one is really my favorite. And I know some people feel uncertain when fics/authors get popular in a fandom, so if this isn’t for you that’s okay!! But well and truly this is just one of those in the top ten Destiel fics of my heart.

Baby Jack during the Widower Arc truther here like Trial and Tribulations of Raising a Nephilim by Sickandtiredofyou 14k

I’ve seen this one rec’d before but not enough. Like this one SHOULD be talked about. Because I am a Baby Jack Truther, and putting a baby in the widower arc is my literal weakness. Dean goes crib shopping. He paints the nursery. He does that season 2&3 thing he does where he wrecks something so that he has to rebuild it. He’s mourning. He’s crying. Sam is afraid to hold a baby. There’s a lot of emotions and they’re raw. Promise there’s a happy ending, but be ready to cry first.

Another sam pov because i love my little brother Letters to Nowhere by Goodluckdetective (scorpiontales) 28k

AWWW YES. So this is another Empty Rescue fic. This one plays up the Orpheus and Eurydice lore, but in a surprising twist this is Sam’s POV!! Sam doesn’t know the full story, and we as the audience aren’t granted omnipresence for this fic either. It’s just point blank is his emotions. Him worrying for Dean, missing Cas, and wanting a happy ending for all of them. It’s sort of epistolary with how Sam is texting Castiel’s phone, but in general it is Sam Winchester wanting to save both of his brothers. So despite it being Destiel, the Destiel is almost the background ship since this story is Sam’s story and how Sam witnesses their story. It’s pretty meta in that sense, in that he’s aware there’s this grand story going on and we as an audience know there’s this grand love story happening, but we’re reading Sam’s story.

One of those i mentioned where its like an episode and they just end with tension between them >:((( but SO enjoyable and very much like an actual MotW Soul Searching by Lottiethroughthelookingglass 13k

It is in a screenplay format, but I didn’t mind that. It’s definitely a fun read! I thought the characterizations were pretty grand all-in-all. No get together though in this one if you’re looking for Destiel. Sorry. But it does make its way on to the list because we deserved a body swap episode and never got it.

This is like the third fic by tia and im not sorry and it’s Filoplume by tiamatv 8k !!!!

Its SOULMATES BAYBEEEE!!! But it’s not destined Soulmates. It’s like… soul compatibility, but only AFTER you’ve forged the bond. Self-Made Soulmates as it were. Very achingly and lovingly sentimental. Like, I think I’ve read this one four times in one week? It’s the shortest rec on this list (and while I definitely have shorter works bookmarked, I wanted this rec list to be longer ones for some reason I guess) but it feels longer. Maybe because every paragraph is like a gut punch. egGH. It’s another Empty Rescue by-the-by and Dean’s soulmark (given to him by Cas after Castiel’s Despair Confession) helps get him into the Empty.

OHOHOH LEVERAGE AU!!?! The Jericho Job by giantteenwolforgy 20k

The first in a series and I am SO EXCITED FOR MORE. I absolutely adore Leverage, so seeing this was like clearing my skin with care products I’ve never used. The characterizations are amazingly well done and vivid. They feel so unbelievably real and it makes me an eager beaver to get to the meat of them connecting as a team and family, but the slow burn is well worth it.

Yes, yes, Dean needs him, and need = love for Dean’s vocab but what does dEAN WANT and what does want mean to Dean? Find out in if you try sometimes, well you just might find by JenTheSweetie 9k

I’ve always been a huge fan of metas that dissect Dean’s differeniation of need vs want, and this whole work was like one of those metas. It’s a Cas POV of him trying to figure out how to read this man that he knows so well. It pulls out the angst and it makes me ache, but promises there IS a happy ending and Dean WANTS it.

Shush you know you want Goodbye Stranger meets Detroit: Become Human you knOW YOU WANT IT Digital Heartbeat by Chancy_Lurking 14k

MHM IT’S SO GOOD. Talk about good characterization. This work is almost a time piece? There’s a few skips in the timeline but you get the good parts and what’s needed for a full narrative. Castiel is an android sent by Cyberlife to the Men of Letters for aiding in hunting. He’s—of course—assigned to the brothers Winchester.

Shush delicious content right here mwah Heartstring Promenade by SaltyWords (agent4hire22) 17k

Another Empty Rescue?!? Yeah, yeah it is. Dean is sort of reckless. And by that, I mean a lot. But it’s fine. All happy endings, and smutty endings too. ;))

This is one of two 36-questions inspired fics I’ve got bookmarked, but the sex in this one hits my preferences too perfectly so it gets the spot and this list is getting too long to include all of my bookmarks to include both of them anyways but Seek to Know You Better by ahurston 32k mhmmmmmm

This fic is very personal to me. I couldn’t explain even if you asked me to. It might be the Florida Citrus Tree expressionism in Cas’ thoughts, but idk it's such a mystery (the way you know me) by fleeceframe 20k has got it on the list.

Cas loses his memories for a short period of time. Dean and Sam introduce Castiel to Cas, and Dean and Cas have a heart to heart. <3

A vERY interesting premise in a fool's kind of careless by Paclipas 9k

Dean is SUPER off his game when he can’t tell the difference between Cas and Not-Cas over the summer. Canon-fic.

A FIC FROM 2018?!?! WITH TIME TRAVEL??!? Ye ye it is Crazy Diamonds by pantheon_of_discord 24k

Dean of 2018, married to Castiel, swaps places with his newly dragged from Hell 2008 self. Time shenanigans and Bobby Frickin’ Singer ensue.

This one is ONE I AM OBSESSED WITH ACTUALLY And Neither Do You by callsigntango 45k like if it's not the one everyone starts talking about :((( is SO GROSS how callsigntango describes the empty and i lOOOVEEEE ITTTTT. Also plays into a Florida myth I totally forgot about so high-key freaked me out. Hahah.

[avauntus]

2020 favs: (short) fic recs

I am stealing this idea from @macgyver-sheriff, who has no clue who I am, but whose post I saw go across my dash. Thank you! 👋

Would you like some recs for the holiday season? - I too would like to share love for my favorite things I read that were written this year! <3

I’m going to do this in two parts - the short fics (10k or less, generally one-shot), and another post for the long or series fics I loved this year (it’s 2020, I figure we can use too much of a good thing?)

( @staidwaters - I’m ‘disqualifying’ your works because I’m biased, sorry! Look away! Unless you want recs!) 

"Congratulations, Get Rich" (9,238 words) by Attila (The Untamed - modern AU)

Tomorrow is Chinese New Year, which means Wei Wuxian has to get all of his bad decisions out of the way tonight.

Lan Wangji, Lan Xichen, Jiang Cheng, Mianmian are all so screamingly perfect as modern versions of themselves in this, and it is KNOCK DOWN HILLARIOUS. Wei Wuxian is just a screaming queer disaster (affectionate) - as he should be.

Excerpt:

After a long beat, Lan Xichen sinks gracelessly into the chair Lan Wangji had been sitting in earlier. “I just want to be absolutely clear,” he says delicately, “that you are currently under the impression that my brother has no romantic feelings for you. That is what you’re saying to me right now, yes?”

“Yes?” Wei Wuxian says, feeling desperately confused. “Obviously? Why?”

“Because at least one of you is very stupid, and I’m trying to figure out who,” Lan Xichen tells him, sounding distracted. It’s the rudest thing Wei Wuxian has ever heard him say, and his mouth drops open slightly.

“caved to the careless” (6,708 words) by ilgaksu (The Untamed/MDZS - Song Lan/Xiao Xingchen)

Love is a choice you make - like this, and this, and this.

Have you ever read a writer whose work is so distinctly itself that you can feel yourself slipping in time even as you keep going? That’s not very articulate, but it’s the best way I can describe everything of ilgaksu’s I’ve read. Their fics are the same emotional register as having the breath knocked out of you after a fall. This was the first one I read, and I think it ends well-- with what Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen find along the path-- but it’s still heavy. Discussions of canon-compliant character death and grief/mourning here.

Excerpt:

He pauses. Until this very moment, he was unsure who to ask for. He has heard the rumours of the Yiling Patriarch’s ongoing residence here, about Zewu-jun’s seclusion: he’s dead, but even the dead are not free from gossip. But he remembers a courtyard, nearly two decades ago, and the weight of eyes some might have called angry in their intensity. He remembers those same eyes, and how for the wear of the intervening years, they had kept the same essence: longing, yearning, a kind of small unspoken grief.

Song Lan had a dream once. A dream of a sect, bound not by blood, but by a shared belief in the right path. So many things are only an inheritance: shame is one of them.  

Love is a choice. Love is a choice, and you choose until you can’t.

“I am here,” he decides, carving the words into the dirt, every stroke of every character resolute, “To meet with Hanguang-jun. Please show this one the way to go.”  

“Green River Running” (8,169 words) by @rain-hat (Love in the Moonlight - post-canon AU)

5+1: Kim Byeong-yeon returns to the land of the living.

I skimmed through Love in the Moonlight during my quarantine summer (distinguishable from my “quarantine spring” or “quarantine fall” only by fireworks), and immediately upon finishing, thought: “Psht, they killed off their best character.” And then, something happened that never happens -- I went on ao3 and found the exact thing I was looking for, written far  better than I could have imagined. Kim Byeong-yeon is such a quiet yet powerfully subversive presence and the progression here is so masterfully done. This is true of all of rainhat’s work’s I’ve read, but this is a fine example-- I really treasure the warm humanism of them.

Excerpt:

People needed helping hands even more than they needed sympathetic ears, though. Over the last year, Hong Gyeong-rae and Byeong-yeon had built houses and planted crops side by side; negotiating with moneylenders here, helping small-folk secure their stores against bandits there. There was nothing courtly about Byeong-yeon’s capacity for labour, or his expectation of reward. Wherever he went, he worked from dawn to dusk, ate the food he was given, and slept under a roof if he was offered one.

It suited him, Hong Gyeong-rae thought, even though there was something outlandish about his gentle speech and palace manners in the midst of it all. But to behave in any other way would be untrue to his upbringing; nor was he the sort of man to whom it would occur to try. And after all, most people liked to be treated with courtesy; it did not come across as mockery from this solemn, severely dressed young man, who seemed to find no task too big or too small. Hong Gyeong-rae had seen him argue tax law with local councillors and stand up to highwaymen armed with nothing but a knife and staff. But he watched cooking pots for women who had to run to the fields to tide over the day’s labour, too; he wrote letters for them, and tolerated their fractious children and spoon-fed their bedridden elders, if that was what was called for.

“The Veritable Records of King Taejo: Year 2, Entry 208“ (9,857 words) by @sadviper (My Country: the New Age - Nam Seon-ho & Hwang Sung-rok slice-of-life)

Hwang Sung-rok eats his way to the bottom of a real estate scam, and Seon-ho and Yeon help (a little).

No one is out here doing it like SadViper. This is technically part of a series, but they can all be read separately. I did not realize I needed to see more of Nam Seon-ho in all his “type-A government official glory” until Viper started sketching him out for us, and as a bonus, we get to see Yeon, and Sung-rok as the world’s surliest caretaker (but don’t call him that). I have an authorial fallacy where I always think stories have to have some grand “plot” -- a “Maltese Falcon” to pull the reader along-- the genius of Viper’s work is she shows us exactly how interesting and important the day-by-day tiny choices and connections we make are, with an impeccable background of historical research to ground you in the setting.

Excerpt:

Nam Seon-ho was his master now. He was a strange one. He was a traitor, for helping the escaped Liaodong soldiers, but not, because he managed to wiggle his way back into Yi Seong-gye’s favor and was now a sixth-ranked inspector with the privilege of having personal audiences with the King. He was temperamental and belligerent from being the son of a slave mother and a lifetime subject of Lord Nam’s fantastic parenting philosophy. He was afflicted with perpetual guilt. And he was also one of the hardest working and most desperate people Sung-rok had ever known.

It was a terrible combination. He was not merely a disaster waiting to happen, but a disaster perambulating on two legs at the edge of a chasm. If Sung-rok intended to stay in service for long, he needed to find a way to cool down some of Seon-ho’s intensity, even though admittedly, it was what drew him to Seon-ho in the first place.

Thoughts like these plagued Sung-rok for a while. It was one thing to know a person; it was quite another thing to try to change them.

“Orison” (4,975 words) by @gravelghosts​ (aeli_kindara) (Supernatural 15x18 coda)

Cas says, I love you.

So! This rips my heart out, every time. All the times Dean imagines himself together with Cas...and then he imagines himself, if not happy, then thriving.

Jack: “What is the point...if everyone I care about is going to leave?”

Castiel: “The point is that they were here at all and you got to know them, you... When they're gone, it will hurt, but that hurt will remind you of how much you loved them.”

Excerpt:

The thing Dean tries to do is: listen.

Happiness isn’t in the having. It’s in just — being. It’s in just saying it, Cas tells him, and Dean’s whole heart is screaming, No, but he shuts his mouth. He listens. He listens like his life fucking depends on it, which it does, in more ways than one.

“Sky Full of Song” (6,632 words) by @drivingsideways (Supernatural, finale 15x20 fix-it, Dean/Cas)

Or: The One in which Cas ghosted Dean.

Look. Look. If Cas(tiel) can yank Dean Winchester out of Hell, celestial-scream at him not once but twice, burn out a woman’s eyes like an utter clown before thinking “Huh, an Earthly vessel, guess that’s not just bullshit, then,” and when they finally work it out, Dean greets them with a knife to the chest and THEN they’ll spend twelve years misunderstanding each other and bickering, you had better believe these two are going to be disasters even in Heaven. Drivingsideways gives us all of that dynamic, with the found family of Jack and Mary as facilitators, and the happy resolution, which of course includes a true form “roughly the size of your Chrysler Building.” <3

Excerpt:

The thing is, Castiel doesn’t want Dean to feel obligated.

Dean has a streak of self-sacrifice that's as wide as the Caspian Sea, and Castiel doesn't want to be any more of a chore or obligation than they have been to Dean for all the long years of their—brotherhood.

Castiel had shocked Dean, to the core of him, with their confession, and Castiel had seen the swirling confusion, the fear, the panic, the shit what do I say, what do I do—how do I stop him—

So, no, Castiel would not be paying a visit anytime soon.

Of course, if Dean evinced an interest in meeting them, then Castiel would not stay away.

Castiel isn't that cruel.

(They have, on occasion, been exactly that cruel, but they are trying to outgrow it.)

Dean is still their friend.

Dean knows how to reach them, if he wants to.

(see? disasters. haha)

“The Rough” (3,267 words) by anactoria (Supernatural, finale -15x20- ‘fix-it’)

 Heaven can absolutely fucking wait.

Rec’ed for the concept more than the style (this is dialogue-heavy, as a lot of 15x20 fix-its tend towards), but I *love* this course-correction: After kicking around Heaven, Dean and Cas return to Earth to take their place as urban legends among the hunter community. Just for a while.

Excerpt:

But it isn’t life. That’s the thing. It’s awesome, but it isn’t life; life’s a hard, painful, infuriating mess, and Dean only got halfway through his own, and he feels cheated. For all he held it together for Sammy at the end, for all he tried to take Cas’s big moment-of-happiness speech on board, he feels cheated.

There’s supposed to be peace at the end. When you’re done.

Dean wasn’t done.

[buckleysjareau]

Hi it’s me the supernatural anon from a while ago and I’ve been actually working on a 911/supernatural fic because I got bored but that’s beyond the point I was wondering how you think each of the characters would react to finding out the supernaturals real? Like assuming Maddie hide it from Buck I feel like he would recognize Sam and Dean from some articles he read in the dead of night because of insomnia and start freaking out because there are serial killers at the station

ummmm, hello anon i would just like to start out by stating that this ask has made me laugh a lot after a shitty 48 hours lmao so thank you! i totally agree about buck, like i see it so clearly okay oh my God. Like can you imagine buck is just cleaning the rescue, talking to Eddie about the shit he read last night because he couldn’t sleep and then suddenly Sam and Dean walk in okay and buck just shuts up in the middle of his sentence... so Eddie’s callin from under the truck “......buck????” and Sam all tall and mysterious “serial killer” is like “so YOURE buck” like theyre best bros. and buck just squeaks out “...eddie!!!” so ofc eddies like why the fuck the secret loml scared right? so he’s squaring them up like “how can we HELP you” trying hard not glare. 

SOOOOOOOOOO sam and dean basically ignore eddie because they’re shocked to see little evan buckley standing taller than dean and buffer than sam. like holy shit man this is Todd buckleys son... maddie buckleys little brother who was seven the last time they saw him. but of course eddies not having that because buck looks like hes about to piss himself or throw up or faint so he asks buck why hes freakin and he just says “ITS THEM!!! ITS THE GUYS FROM THE ARTICLE I SPIRALED ON LAST NIGHT!!! the SERIAL KILLERS!!!”

so naturally eddie is like,,,, oh shit and sam and dean are like WAIT WAIT WAIT WERE NOT SERIAL KILLERS!!! and bring up they’re looking for maddie and bc buck shouted ab serial killers being in the station, half the station comes down including chim hen and bobby. and at the exact same time chim and buck are like “what the fuck do you want with MADDIE!!!” getting all protective and shit. and stupid protective in love eddie is still squaring up. and theyre really trying to explain themselves the best they could because its at this point they realize, unlike their dad had done with bringing them both into monster hunting, todd and madeline never let him in on it like maddie had said one day. dean keeps talking himself into a hole because like i said dudes are just shocked how grown evan buckley got and how much he grew to look like his father... soooooo dean fuckin says that and buck grabs dean by the collar and is like “HOW TF U KNOW MY FATHER” and maddie is walking into the station at this point and breaks it up before she even sees its sam and dean. then when she realizes they have this reunion and shit,,,,, and buck is still like he was in oceans 911 where hes like “im so confused can we go back” and says like “maddie why are you hugging these guys!! theyre known serial killers!!! we should be calling athena!!!!!” and bobbys like “already called” 

and maddie who knows the life of THE FAMILY BUSINESS SAVING PEOPLE HUNTING THINGS and remembers everything ab the way the survived by doing this with the LIESSSSSS shes like “no no no this is a huge misunderstanding lets all sit down and talk yeah?” bc she genuinely cares ab the winchesters and is very curious to know why theyre here before they get arrrested for being “serial killers” . so chimney naturally agrees with maddie and they all end up in the loft prayin they dont get a call. 

aaaaaand maddie starts explaining everything and fuckin eddie and FUCKING BOBBY are the ones to actually believe it and bucks just like... a fish out of water?? is the best way i can describe his shock (im sorry thats sad byt jfsdjfsdl) and hes like “so when you and dad went away on your stupid hunting trips-” (dean cuts him off like hey!!!!) “your STUPID hunting trips you were KILLING DEMONS?????  whaaaatattttt????? this is why you guys always fuckin left me with MOM???” and hes just spazzing pretty mych. and while eddie is being like a comforting presnese eddie is like, secretly so stoked because growing up he SUPER believed in the supernatural like kind of obsessed so hes like bombarding the three of them with questions like “so fuckin djinns and vampires and SHAPESHIFTERS ARW REAL????” and bucks and chim are looking “r u serious” but sam and dean are super amused and hes like “little buckley grew up with good taste” and everyone but buck and eddie snicker. 

chim really wants to believe it because,,, its coming from his girlfriends mouth u know?? but he doesnt know these men and like.... demons ?????? so chimneys just slowly trying to process the information while sam and dean r grillling maddie buckleys new cool boyfriend... they rly didnt like doug so theyre ecstatic shes dating a good man. 

hen just finds this thing entirely amusing that the monster hunting is really not the thing thats on the fore front of her mind... like the fact that buck almost got old family friends arrested because of his internet research??? and eddies automatic stance to fight when dean definitely “accidentally” flirted with buck and all of the yelling like its all nuts to her so shes just sitting back laughing to herself. 

last but most definitely not LEAST athena starts reading them the miranda right s the second she lays eyes on them and funny enough eddie is the one to jump to their defense saying buck was doing internet research and mistook them for others. and athena was like “tf bobby u coulda told me . “ and hes like “i had to listen to the story” and eddie just jumps in and explains everything which buck even after all of this also finds that hlarious. and athena deadass mutters “oh god theyve been drugged again” 

this was so LONG LMAOOOOOO sleep deprivation man. i got too hype ab this. u asked for their reactions not a whole ass scene but it just happened lmao. hope you liked it supernatural anon!!! also u should send me ur crossover fic id love to read it !!!! 

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A Woman of Letters (Getting a Feel for Sam Winchester) - Chapter 16

Summary:  You’ve just opened an occult bookstore in Lebanon, Kansas, when you fall for a tall, handsome customer…literally. You soon find out that there’s more to the world than you ever suspected, including you. Discovering your heritage puts you directly in a witch’s crosshairs, though, so the Winchesters offer to take you in and teach you how to protect yourself. As you discover your own family history with the supernatural and your own hidden talents, you can’t help but wish a certain brother was as excited about your interest as you are.

Total length: 43 chapters, 70,247 words - Read on AO3 - Series masterlist

Chapter word count: 2335 words

Pairing: Sam x Reader

Warnings: Canon-level angst and violence

Sam

Spending the day translating Lloyd’s journal seemed far more interesting, if more productive, than trying to find a way to take out Rowena. At least, that’s what Sam convinced himself. He could translate the journals quickly, getting them off his mental to-do list, and then work on the slow and frustrating task of finding a way to kill the woman Y/N called The Queen Mum of Hell. He cracked a smile at the thought. Not only was she pretty, but she was funny, and caring, too. Sam closed his eyes for a moment and heard her laughter from the night before when Cas was doing his experiment. God, it was beautiful. He had held onto her hand, and never wanted to let it go as he had watched the different emotions pass through her. Sam shook his head to clear it. Back to translating. Get the journals done. Y/N will like being able to read these. Sam imagined her smile when he handed her the finished product. Stop it. You’re just getting the easiest job off of your to-do list. Her smile has nothing to do with it.

Sam went back to translating. He was almost at the end of the first journal. Lloyd had found a psychic who had helped him get started on learning how to protect his family from the supernatural. Sam kept working, until he got to the end of the journal, then re-read the last few lines. Sam paused, shook his head, and then read them again. Sam gave Cas a quick call and verified his translations were true, and then headed to the workout room to find Y/N.

Sam wondered how far Y/N had gotten in her training today. Getting her trained up and able to defend herself was extremely important so she could go back to living a normal life. As he got close to the workout room, he heard Dean telling a story about Crowley, and then laughter. As much as he loved the sound of both of them laughing, there hadn’t been any laughter in the bunker in far too long, he wondered why they weren’t training. Wasn’t getting her ready most important?

He entered the room and the laughter died away. Y/N turned toward him with a smile that simultaneously made him warm and broke his heart.

“Hey, Sam.” Sam finally managed a weak smile.

“Hey, guys, I thought you were training?” Sam looked at Dean pointedly, and Dean shrugged.

“She knows how to throw a punch without breaking her hand, and she hit the targets more often than not with the smaller guns downstairs. I figure it’s a good first day, so we’re taking a break. I was just telling her about that time Crowley was trying to steal candy from the vending machine and I yelled at him.” Dean smirked and stifled a chuckle, but all Sam could muster was a huff.

“Well, I got to the end of the first journal, and I found something interesting that I thought Y/N should know.” Sam sighed and sat down next to Y/N and faced her. “Apparently, Lloyd suspected your grandmother was a witch. Now, I checked with Cas on the translation, just to make sure I didn’t get my negatives doubled or something, but it looks like if she was a witch, she wasn’t practicing. He suspected her of ‘pushing’ people with her mind, sometimes, though. He said she’s very good at reading people, and she’s the most persuasive person he’s ever known, to the point that it’s unnatural. I haven’t gotten past this, but it sounds to me like you got your gift from your grandmother, and there might be more that you can do that you don’t know about, yet.” Sam stopped talking when he realized Y/N was giggling.

“I’m so sorry, Sam, but that is the funniest thing I’ve ever heard!” Y/N was openly laughing, now. Sam felt his stomach sink as he watched her laughing at him. When she finally controlled herself, she put a hand on Sam’s arm and smiled at him. “I’m not laughing at you, or your translation, so please, stop whatever it is that’s causing that sour feeling you’re sending to me.” Sam sat upright and tried to contain his feelings. “I’m laughing because my uncle was a paranoid dingbat sometimes. I mean, now that I know that supernatural stuff is out there, maybe he wasn’t so much of a dingbat, but he had his moments. He always thought the electric company was somehow cheating him, and he questioned the bank about every interest payment. Even if it wasn’t about money, if he somehow didn’t get his way, I’d have to listen to a tirade about how everyone somehow cheated the system except for him. The neighbors had prettier yards because they slipped a little something extra to the gardener, or the mechanic always took a day longer to fix his car than he did to fix anyone else’s. I don’t know what made him that way, but he turned away a lot of women who had eyes for him because of it.” Dean was grinning at Y/N while he watched her giggle, and Sam tried not to think about the soft look on Dean’s face.

“Your uncle sounds like a real joy to live with, Y/N.” Dean chuckled as he smiled at her. “That doesn’t necessarily mean he was wrong about your grandmother, though. Sam’s only at the end of the first journal. Who knows what proof your uncle may have found later on?” Y/N smiled at Dean while Sam did his level best to contain his feelings about it.

“I remember my grandmother, even though she died when I was still little, and I just don’t see it. She was the kindest woman I ever knew. She never lost her temper. She was persuasive, yes. She’d put her hand on your arm or something, look you in the eye, and gently tell you all the reasons she was right. She did it to me a couple of times, but you still can’t convince me she was a witch.” Y/N smiled and turned to Sam, making him concentrate extra hard to contain his feelings. “But, I’ll wait until you finish your translating before I make a final judgement on my uncle’s fear.” Sam tried to muster a smile.

“You know, hunters have used psychics for all kinds of things, and I bet the Men of Letters did, too. It wouldn’t surprise me if your grandparents met that way, but it was a big family secret, just like everything else.” Dean raised his eyebrows when he made the suggestion and Sam watched Y/N consider Dean’s words.

“Well, in that case, maybe you’re right. Either way, I’d rather wait and see if Uncle Lloyd wrote any more about it.” Y/N paused, thinking. “If she did, wouldn’t there be a record of it somewhere here in the bunker? I mean, if she worked with them and with hunters, she’d be mentioned somewhere here, right?” Sam nodded, and Y/N rested a hand on his arm. “Then, how about after I get cleaned up, you show me where I can start looking through records and that will be my project when I’m not training with Dean?” With Y/N’s eyes on him, Sam got strangely flustered, so just nodded.

“Y-Yeah.” Sam cleared his throat. “That sounds good.” Sam got up and started to head towards the door. “Well, I’m going to get back to it. One down and four to go.” Sam headed back to the library and flopped into a chair. He sighed, and then put his head down in his arms. Controlling whatever feelings he was putting out was difficult. And Y/N had called it sour. He was going to have to learn how to box up his emotions when he was around her. Sam’s thoughts were interrupted when he heard one of the chairs next to him slide across the floor. He looked up to see Cas taking a seat.

“Hey, Cas. I didn’t hear you come in.”

“Hello, Sam. Sorry if I startled you. You looked like you were resting. Want me to work on the journals for a while so you can take a break?” Sam inched the journal in his hands closer to himself. For reasons he wouldn’t admit to even himself, he wanted to be the one to do the translating. Considering Y/N’s reaction to his translations so far, maybe he should have Cas check his work when he’s done, though.

“No, that’s okay. But thanks for offering. Maybe you can help me with something else, though?”

Cas tilted his head to the side a little and said, “How can I be of assistance?”

“Y/N and I were just talking, and she had to ask me to control whatever it was I was feeling because it felt sour to her. We had a misunderstanding, and I guess my frustration or whatever seeped out and she caught it.” Sam glanced down at his hands for a moment, then looked back up at Cas. “I mean, if she’s affected by everything that everyone else feels, that’s got to be exhausting for her. Is there any way to control what comes out of me so she can’t feel every little thing?” Cas nodded.

“I can try to teach you to put up a wall, of sorts, if you’d like.”

“That’d be great, Cas.”

“Okay, then. Close your eyes and imagine a place where you are happy and safe. If you were Dean, I’d suggest the Impala. For me, it’s a garden. It’s better if it’s a real place, just for the ease of imagining it. Do you have a place in mind?”

Sam nodded. When he was at Stanford, there was a room in the library where he loved to go and study. It was filled with books, of course, but it was quiet, and away from everything else. Oddly enough, it was the mythology section, which didn’t get a lot of use, so it was rare to find other people there. Sam pictured the room as he remembered it and smiled.

“Can you describe it to me?”

“It’s a room that was in the library at Stanford. So, bookcases, books, and a table to sit at.” Sam tried to picture little details of the room like the painting on the wall and the feel of the table underneath his fingertips. Cas interrupted his thought.

“Good. I can work with that. Now picture that each book is a feeling of yours. I want you to put each book away on the shelves, and then leave the room, shutting the door behind you.” Sam pictured a book with “JOY” written on the cover, and put it on the shelf. He did the same with “GRIEF,” “DUTY,” “FEAR,” and “ANGER,” though those books were larger. He turned around in his little room and was surprised to find a book titled “JESS” lying on the table. Jess wasn’t a feeling. Jess was…Jess. Sam sighed. He carefully shelved the book between “JOY” and “GRIEF.” He turned around, and found a thick tome that looked like a world atlas on steroids sitting on the table. “GUILT.” Yeah, that figures. It took him two tries, but he was finally able to pick up the book, and he found a shelf built exactly for it in a corner shelf underneath where the globe sat. He checked the table one last time, and saw the last book, “LOVE.” Part of him wanted to flip through that one, but now wasn’t the time. He shelved the book on the innermost part of the shelf, next to “JOY.” If anyone were to run into this room and grab the first books they could reach, “LOVE” would still be safely hidden away for a long time. Sam looked over the room again, and then walked out, shutting the door behind him. For safe measure, he turned around and faced the door, turning a key in the lock and putting it in his pocket. As his mind’s eye walked away from the door, Sam opened his eyes and looked at Cas.

“Did I do it right?” Cas peered at him, and his mind’s eye saw the door to his room rattle. The lock held, though, and Sam smiled. Cas nodded, but didn’t smile.

“Yes, Sam. I think you did. I’m not getting anything off of you right now. I believe that will hold up against Y/N’s gift, as long as she doesn’t invasively try to sense anything. I wouldn’t suggest keeping the room locked when you’re alone, though. Let the room air out, as it were, whenever you can, or it will become less effective. Just use it when you need to.” Sam nodded at Cas.

“Thanks, man. Hopefully that will keep me from bothering her again.” Sam pushed the first journal over to Cas, along with his translations, and started discussing some of the trickier phrases with the angel. A few minutes later, Y/N came in and sat down across the table from them. Sam checked his mental library room, found a stray book titled “FRUSTRATION” sitting on a shelf outside the door, chucked the book inside the room, and slammed the door shut. With everything locked away, he smiled easily at Y/N.

“Hey, guys. Sam, if you’ve got a minute to show me where the files are, I can get started on them.” Y/N smiled at Sam, and Sam noted with relief the lack of response his body gave. No heartbeats skipped; no flushing in his face. This little exercise might help more than just Y/N. Sam got up and led Y/N into one of the records rooms. He pointed out boxes and file cabinets, and told her if she needed any help moving anything, to come and get him. As he walked back to the library, Sam congratulated himself on finally being able to interact with Y/N without having a million feelings trip him up.

[weekendwritingmarathon]

This weekly roundup includes fics written (at least in part) during the 1k1h sprints and/or the Weekend Writing Marathon events.

Fics are ordered first by fandom, then by word count from smallest to largest.

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The Impossibilities of Magic by @ialwayscomewhenyoucall

Doctor Who || Ten x Rose || General || No major warnings apply || 112 words || Complete

Summary: Rose teases the Doctor, telling him he must be a wizard. After all, what is a sonic screwdriver if not a magic wand?

Other tags: angst, memories, post-doomsday, poetry

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Shadows Flickering, My Heart’s Jittering by @ialwayscomewhenyoucall

Good Omens || Crowley/Aziraphale || Teen & up || No major warnings apply || 912 words || Complete

Summary: Settled into country life in South Downs, Crowley wakes early one morning to find their bed missing one angel. Too cold to sleep alone, he drags himself out of bed to see what Aziraphale is up to at such an hour. In other words: Fluff in the kitchen.

Other tags: domestic fluff, south downs cottage

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 A World So Newly Born by @ialwayscomewhenyoucall

Good Omens || Crowley/Aziraphale || Teen & up || No major warnings apply || 1,396 words || Complete

Summary: Aziraphale opens his eyes in an unfamiliar room. Grey walls, not much light… Right. He stayed at Crowley’s flat last night. The world didn’t end, but the bookshop… In the dim light he sees red hair--familiar red hair--just a few centimeters away. And feels a cool body pressed against his chest. Oh.

Other tags: fluff, the morning after the world didn't end, alternating POVs

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Rituals For the End of Days by @ialwayscomewhenyoucall

Supernatural || Dean/Cas || Teen & up || No major warnings apply || 62 words || Complete

Summary: With heaven and earth in turmoil Cas turns to the only one he has left. He would have turned there anyway. **an endverse!destiel poem**

Other tags: endverse, angst, pining, poetry

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Harmony General Hospital by Treefrogie84

Supernatural || gen || General || No major warnings apply || 1,067 words || Complete

Summary: Caroline is still getting settled into the rotation schedule at her new job when the angels fall.

Other tags: canon compliant, angel fall

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Every Monster That Sleeps Inside You (chapter 3) by Treefrogie84

Supernatural || destiel, drowley, dean x cas x crowley || Mature || Graphic Descriptions of Violence || 4,698 words || WIP

Summary: Attempting the trials to close Hell lets loose something far worse than the occasional crossroads demon or Dean’s second favorite drinking buddy. Heaven wants all the tablets they can get their hands on, Abaddon wants to destroy everything in favor of utter chaos in Hell as well as on Earth, and somehow, Sam and Dean have to stop all of it. Except stopping Abaddon might take more from Dean than he can afford to give. A Mark of Cain fix-it starting at 8.12 As Time Goes By.

Other tags: canon-typical violence, canon divergent, mark of cain, demon!Dean, season 9 fix-it, season 10 fix-it, Carver era rewrite

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Ugly Duckling by @pherryt

Supernatural || pre-destiel || General || No major warnings apply || 10,068 words || Complete

Summary: In Rowena's Garden there lives a clan of fairies - which is amazing because everyone thought they'd died out in a series of natural disasters a century before. They don't seem keen on making themselves known, so she turns the garden into a sanctuary for the fairies and keeps their secret.

Other tags: Fantasy, Whimsical, Fairies, everyone's a fairy, Cat, Magic, slight angst, brief danger, Hurt!Sam,  garden, fairy clans, Wing Grooming

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sometimes it all works out and you get everything you ever wanted by Tryslora

Teen Wolf || Stiles/Derek || Teen & up || No major warnings apply || 12,104 words || Complete

Summary: ...and there’s Stiles, with twins calling him Daddy, and calling Lydia Mommy, and it’s so obvious that everything worked out Just Like He Wanted… right up until the moment that Derek realizes that every assumption he ever made was wrong.

Other tags: Mates, Magical Stiles, Everybody Lives, AU, Misunderstandings, Angst with a Happy Ending

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[diminuel]

Reading List: April

I missed archiving fics I read in March, but I’m back for April. Some of the fics I might have read in March. I’m still not very good at keeping track of what I read when! But the important part is that you get some fics to read! ;D

I’ve added the archive warnings in the brackets in case there were any, but didn’t include the tags. So make sure to read them.

Enjoy! ♥

bring it on home by xylodemon (2.4k)

"She ─" Sam grimaces again. "She likes tea, right?"

Dean hesitates. He pictures their old kitchen in Lawrence ─ the floral wallpaper, the walnut cabinets, the pots and pans hanging on hooks. Sheer, white curtains had hung in the windows, and Mary had left them open because she'd liked plenty of sunlight. It had smelled like coffee in the mornings. Dean had always lined his army men up on the table before eating his Cheerios.

"I don't know," he admits. "She ─ maybe."

Soft and gentle, but also slightly melancholy coda fic for 12x02

The One: Supernatural Edition by motorbike_on_the_avenue (73k)

The One is America's #1 dating show!

Twenty contestants will spend six weeks competing in tasks, to show the American public they should be picked to marry the suitor. Over the six weeks, they'll be voted down till just The One remains...

Dean Winchester is this year's suitor. A 34 year old firefighter from Kansas he isn't entirely sure why he applied to a dating show where he has to get married at the end.

Especially since he'll never have met (or seen) anything about his future lawfully wedded whatever.

But just who will be voted The One?

This is such an enjoyable fic! Dean and Cas don’t even meet each other until the very end, but the premise is so captivating and I constantly was nervous and rooting for my faves *lol*

Kitchen Overhaul by Powerfulweak (Explicit, 20k)

For Dean Winchester, his family’s bakery is his life, even if business is tanking. When his brother volunteers them for the reality show “Kitchen Overhaul”, Dean is less than enthusiastic with changing anything about his beloved bakery. He is even less enthusiastic to deal with the infamously icy host, Chef Castiel Novak.

Just like the previous fic on the list, this fic also has a TV show format as the premise of its story, but it’s more in the background. I loved this a lot! I got frustrated because of Dean, then because of Cas, but it’s all very rewarding!

Peak Homosexual by K_K_TiBal (3.7k)

You know that thing that happens where you hear something really homophobic in public so you gay it up as much as you can? This is that story.

Cute, pretend relationship fic! ♥

Neighborly Behavior by Annie D (scaramouche) (1.8k)

Cas and Dean at a neighborhood potluck, in an AU where they're both kinda assholes.

It’s hilarious and always good for a re-read!

Dean's Table by through_shadows_falling (4.9k)

On Castiel’s first day waiting tables at the Roadhouse Diner, his co-worker tells him to save a spot for Dean, a young veteran with a cane who sits in the same corner booth every day. Dean doesn’t talk, but Castiel’s charm soon works its magic until Dean reveals that he’s there to reconnect with his brother after a painful falling out. Castiel hopes Dean will succeed, even as Castiel's roommate, Sam, visits the diner one morning.

Lovely story about Cas easing Dean out of his lonely shell. And it also includes a happy reunion.

The Glen by Annie D (scaramouche) (3.2k, Explicit)

Dean's run out of excuses to not claim Cas, so he finally does. Better late than never, right?

This is actually set after a previous story, which focuses on Sam and Kevin. It might be slightly confusing without the previous part but I think still an interesting read, especially with the following part!

The Shop on the Corner by CasCase (18.6k, Mature)

Two years ago Castiel left behind his job and his past to fulfill his dream of opening a neighborhood bookshop. Now, his shop is popular and he’s finding himself fitting in with his new community. He’s perfectly happy with his quiet life among the books.

Perhaps the only thing that could make it absolutely perfect would be the attentions of Dean-the-Delivery-Guy. But, of course that means Castiel will have to work beyond his own insecurities to find a way to see the gorgeous man more than once a week.

Maybe he should stick to the books after all.

This was fun and lovely and even though there’s a bit of angst and pining involved, Dean’s gentle patience were lovely!

In Someone Else's Life by blue_morning (4.5k)

Cas never believed in love at first sight, but when he accidentally crashes a wedding trying to keep his brother out of trouble, it happens to him. Happy ending, right? Yeah, except that the man he falls for just happens to be the groom.

Light-hearted misunderstandings (mostly Gabriel’s fault) and an absolutely hilarious ending!

The Return Policy by aileenrose (12.9k, Explicit)

"Most of his visitors are academics. They come from universities all over the nation, sometimes beyond. Others write books. The man in the Reading Room today is neither. He’s a tall, irritated man with a federal badge."

The federal agent's partner is usually the one who does the research. And even though Cas doesn't think this man is a real federal agent, he's happy to help where he can.

A great read, close to canon, with lovely atmosphere!

Do You Need a Stepdad? by supernatural9917 (1.8k)

When Claire Novak tweets a picture of her dad cooking, she didn't expect to go viral, or for everyone to be quite so hot for her dad.

Based on a photo prompt: Teenager Claire posts a snarky tweet about her single dad Cas, and gets this response. She says ‘LOL no he’s gay’ so Dean tweets to ask if she needs a stepdad!

It might be short but it’s incredibly delightful! 

How to Keep Time by aileenrose (6.6k, Mature)

Dean's just beginning to learn that some times are more precious than others.

Very touching fic, featuring homeless Cas making beautiful things and Dean having to (re) learn what’s truly valuable.

The Neighboring Perspective by aileenrose (12.7k, Mature)

Dean's newly single, in a new house, and a brand-new father to boot.

Dean's also got this weird thing where some stranger is leaving baby clothes on his porch at night.

A very lovely fic with Cas breaking my heart with his softness and his sadness...! ;w;

Best You Ever Ate by darkforetold (1.7k, Explicit)

Cas sucks—under a table at Ma's Diner.

A PWP! :D

For Science by shiphitsthefan (6.1k, Explicit)

“Think of it like an experiment," says Dean. "You’re testing a hypothesis as to whether or not a desirable response can be achieved through the stimulation of the anus via the application of a willing volunteer’s muscular hydrostat.”

Cas raises an eyebrow. “Are you actually trying to use the scientific method to talk me into letting you lick my asshole?”

It might sound like a cracky PWP, but it’s not! It features ace!Cas and Dean figuring out their sexual relationship. It’s sweet and funny~

Remarkable by shiphitsthefan (3.7k)

It’s only Castiel’s first day as a teacher at All City Elementary in Sioux Falls, and he’s already been warned by four teachers, the guidance counselor, the principal, and the librarian to watch out for Ben Braeden’s father. Unluckily for Castiel, Dean turns out to be just as “helpful” as everyone’s said, bringing in stacks of literature and just as many ideas for how Mr. Milton can encourage his students to be more socially conscious. Castiel dismisses him every time with hardly a second thought.

When Ben brings in his Patriot Day essay assignment, Mr. Milton can't help but change his mind.

I love how passionate and insistent Dean is about social issues. And the way the other teachers speak about Dean makes me sad, but at least Cas makes an effort and the whole fic is very sweet and uplifting!

Made Manifest by schmerzerling

Wherein Castiel defied God for Dean before Dean even knew his name.

I was craving trans!Dean fic and this was recommended to me. It’s really good, focusing on Dean up until Cas pulls him out of hell and recongizes Dean for who he is. Dean, not Deanna.

Low Battery Blues by destielonfire (4k)

Wherein a dead phone battery ruins an otherwise perfectly good and well-intended joke and causes Cas to think Dean broke up with him.

Misunderstanding with a happy ending!

Parent's Weekend by Piper_Halliwell1979 (1.7k)

Claire needs a "dad" to come meet one of her professors during Parent's Weekend at college. She can't get hold of Cas so Dean steps up to help her out. Turns out Claire wouldn't mind if she had two dads.

Dean and Cas both pretend to be Claire’s dads!

This Is Gonna Have Consequences, Kid by omgbubblesomg (Explicit, 3.6k)

Modern AU. Dean is looking for someone to spend the night and Cas is working the streets

PWP with sex worker Cas, featuring younger!Cas and older!Dean.

The Ritual by HazelDomain (Explicit, 9.6k // non-con cw)

The Winchesters were used to being outnumbered. They weren’t too worried about taking on humans, numerous though they may be. It was the ritual’s mystery guest that concerned them. 

Their intel wasn’t good. They knew the cultists needed the participation of some incredibly powerful being in order to complete the summoning. “Powerful” and “being” were both very loosely translated, as was “participation.”

I was on a hurt!Cas kick and this story has plenty of it. Cas was abducted by a cult and then found by the Winchesters once it’s been mostly completed. See the archive warnings (graphic violence and rape) and further tags!

Finding Courage by DarkHeartInTheSky (26.3k)

By allowing Lucifer to use him as a vessel, Castiel helped eliminate the Darkness and saved the World. But it may have been at the cost of Sam and Dean's friendship. Deciding he has nothing to live for without that, Castiel plans to end his life on his terms and be at peace---if only a certain ghost of an archangel would leave him alone. Meanwhile, Dean needs to learn to use his words.

A Supernatural "It"s A Wonderful Life" AU

More hurt Cas. Dean reacts very negatively once Cas is free of his possession, sending him away. As a consequence Cas tries to commit suicide and is given the chance to either die or return to life once more. It takes a while to convince him that he hasn’t lost everything. It’s sad but it has a good ending.

Specimen Two Eighty Five by HazelDomain (Explicit, 8k // non-con cw)

Prompt: Cas gets taken prisoner by the MOL or some other people. They lump angels in with all the other supernatural creatures, and believe they’re little better than animals. They keep Cas restrained and burn or tattoo warding on him. They talk about him like he can’t understand them. They strip him, examine him, make him manifest his wings. He can’t escape, and every day brings new mistreatment and misery.

Hurt!Cas and tortured Cas seems to be the theme of my reading at the end of April. What I particularly like about this is the non-linear narration!

Womb Kindred by Annie D (scaramouche) (Explicit, 33k)

It was probably too much to hope for that Castiel's once-betrothed, Dean of Winchester, never found out that they had a child together.

I adore this fic and the last chapter was recently posted. So it’s on my to re-read list! It’s got a very interesting setting and there’s constant tension between all the characters. Cas has been hurt in the past and while he is fierce in guarding Claire, there’s a sad resignation about him. And about Dean as well. They’re pretty much walking on eggshells around each other all the time and then they get flung into troubles which readjusts their relationship. While it has a good ending, it’s clear that it’s not a perfect happy ever after. 

Pining Sickness; Or, Murder With One Stone by athaclena, iraeim (Explicit, 57.8k)

New York, 1895. The rigid customs of the old century are beginning to fall away, allowing access to the professions for more people than just Omega men and Alpha women. Dean Winchester, the city’s first Alpha male Detective, uncovers evidence that a mysterious new illness killing mated couples might have its origins is the criminal rather than the medical.

Castiel Novak is a respectable Omega doctor who has started to see patients dying cruelly of something he cannot cure or even effectively treat. Approached by the Detective to once again give his medical expertise, he is eager to work towards finding a cause and, he hopes, a cure for the unfortunate sufferers. But both men harbour a secret attraction towards the other, and the quest for the truth will stretch their relationship beyond its limits.

A historical murder mystery set against a backdrop of a non-traditional Omegaverse.

I absolutely adored this fic! It’s got a historical setting and a very interesting world building which, as the summary advertises, features a non-traditional distribution of roles, with omega men at the top of society. The case itself is interesting and you just get a massive dose of pining between Dean and Cas, but it’s a quiet, resigned kind of pining, that really pulls at your heart.

Take On Me by Powerfulweak (Explicit, 46.4k)

Alpha Dean Winchester figured the closest he’d get to the apple pie life and fatherhood was a one-shot, “wham-bam-thank-you-mam” trip to a sperm bank. That is, until he comes face-to-face with the omega carrying his pup on a fateful trip to the grocery store. When the the omega runs off without a word, though, Dean learns the situation is far more complicated than he expected. Can an anonymous sperm donation and the favor of a lifetime help two complete strangers find everything their life was missing?

A fic with an unusual premise that just promises a “it’s complicated” kind of situation! There’s plenty of very intriguing angst, but there is a fluffy happy ending!

Marry Him by ProLazy (2.9k)

Jimmy is sick and asks Castiel to do him a favour. This results in Dean mistaking Cas for Jimmy and explaining that he wants to marry Cas.

A cute sort of mistaken identity fic!

Left Behind by Aini_NuFire (6.6k)

Sam and Dean saved Lucifer from Amara. They just assumed that meant they’d saved Cas too…

(Author needs to vent some angst, but there’s still a happy ending)

That last part of the summary pretty much describes this fic. It’s a gen fic, addressing the fact that Cas often gets forgotten or left behind, especially in this whole Lucifer and Chuck fiasco. ;w;

Captured by bobertsmallismydad (6.2k)

On a day when he is taking a break from Heaven Castiel is captured by the order of the Royal Court aka King "Dickbag" John Winchester. He is forced into servitude as a . . . nanny?

This has a very interesting premise! An enslaved angel having to work as a nanny? Great! Castiel is captured by king John (a douchebag) and tasked to watch over Dean, which he does, over the years. Until Dean himself becomes king.

Choice and Precious Vessels by justabrain (11.2k)

In a world where angels wear collars to suppress their powers and are subservient to humans, a young Castiel finds himself serving a family with two young boys, Sam and Dean. He soon befriends the older of the two, yet all good things must come to an end.

Another gen, Cas whump one. It’s a sad story in which angels are slaves and even though Castiel’s situation improved when he is being bought by the Winchester family, Cas still isn’t treated with dignity. And while the story promises a happy ending and it does have a happy ending, my soul wasn’t quite soothed. ;w; All the damage had been done and nobody makes reparations for it. But despite the sadness I do think it’s a great read!

the worst week of dean's life by jhoom (1.7k)

Dean’s son is driving him crazy.

Super cute, poor Dean is so frustrated because he can’t get his son to call him dada.

Moonlit Sky by hollyblue2 (1.1k)

They'd been busy on their actual anniversary, so Dean decides to make it up to Castiel.

A soft and fluffy story, good for the heart!

Dean's Carol by BurningTea (17.9k)

Dean has learned that a hunter can't have close friends or loved ones, not without being ready to lose them, so he decides it's safer for Cas not to be around.

Can the traditional visits from three ghosts change his mind?

Dean has to learn an important lesson! I love how it takes the story of the christmas carol and putting it into a canon compliant universe, where Dean is aware of what’s happening because he knows the story.

[destieltropecollection]

Destiel Trope Collection 2018 Day 22 | Mythical Creature AU

Sometimes I Feel Like a Monster |  @firefly124 Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 11,274 Main Tags/Warnings: AU Summary: Dean’s doing pretty well, he thinks. His diner is doing well enough to support him with money left over to send Sammy at college. He may not get the best sleep at night, but he’s used to it. He’s used to ignoring the memories that haunt him and the parts of himself he doesn’t like. What he’s not used to is dealing with the hot new owner of the business that just moved in at the other end of the building, and somehow the guy manages to shake things up without half trying.

Genie in a Bottle | @thursdays-fallen-angel Rating: Explicit Word Count: 29,454 Main Tags/Warnings: Genie Cas, Historian Dean, Pining Summary: When Dean finds (okay, steals) a bottle containing a strange, glowing blue substance, he does so thinking it’s a cool novelty, at best. It didn’t exactly cross his mind that the substance might be a living being, let alone a grumpy, sarcastic, perpetually-underdressed genie waiting for a new master. But now that he has a bona fide genie at his disposal, well-what better chance will he have to help things along with Lisa? Except, things don’t always go as expected, relationships are complicated, magic is never the solution, and sometimes the person you want isn’t the person you need.

Little Blue Dragon | @saltnhalo Rating: Explicit Word Count: 23,820 Main Tags/Warnings: Historical AU, Fantasy, Magic, Blacksmith Dean, Mage Sam, Creature Castiel, Dragon Castiel, Pining, Soulmates, Minor Violence, Frottage Summary: Dean Winchester may have a reputation for being a skilled craftsman and blacksmith, but his life is just like anyone else’s. He’s over-worked and under-slept, and it’s all because of the niggling feeling in the back of his mind that tells him he’s… forgetting something. Still, he can’t let his weird dreams or errant thoughts get in the way of his work and his love for his craft. The strange feeling goes ignored. That is, until he meets a man with jewel-blue eyes and an aura of intrigue. Castiel slots into his life in a way that Dean had never thought possible, and Dean grows accustomed to the mysterious man’s visits and brilliant smiles and tales of far-away places. He’d never known he was missing a piece of himself until he met Castiel, and he thinks that Cas might feel the same way. Until Castiel disappears from Dean’s life completely.

skin deep aquarium | @reallyelegantsharkfish Rating: Explicit Word Count: 3,804 Main Tags/Warnings: Tentacles, Consentacles, Alpha Castiel, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Love Confessions, Octopus Castiel, Non-Traditional A/B/O Dynamics Summary: Cas moves closer, the end of a tentacle wrapping around Dean’s ankle as his hands tilt Dean’s chin up. “There are things I’m not supposed to tell you.” “I know,” Dean says. “The biology of our genders is different, as is our social behavior surrounding it.” “I know, Cas.” Cas tugs at Dean’s ankle and kisses him like it was hurting him not to. “I’m an alpha,” Cas says.

Oracle | @captainbunnicula​ Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 30,193 Main Tags/Warnings: Canon-Typical Violence, Oracle!Dean, Warrior!Cas, Fantasy, Slow build Summary: It was customary for a prophet to be present at the birth of a child. Prophecies, like the people they belonged to, often shared similar qualities but were unique in some way or another. Of course, not everyone was meant to slay dragons and rescue princesses. The majority of prophecies depicted an average life with an average amount of joy and hardship. Rarely did a find themselves at a loss for how to tell a mother that her child would suffer. “My sincerest apologies, Naomi. I regret to announce that Castiel will suffer great hardships in the later part of his life. Beyond that, I do not know what will become of him.” ——- When the Oracle Dean goes missing, Castiel is chosen to bring him back. But embarking on such a quest almost certainly means death, especially with his prophecy clouded by a menacing darkness. Besides, what role could Castiel, a mere warrior, play in the life of a powerful Oracle such as Dean?

Like Lightning Under Your Skin | @alxdiamond​ Rating: Explicit Word Count: 24,614 Main Tags/Warnings: Urban Fantasy, Creature Cas, Winged Cas, Major Injury, Accidental Soul Bond, Enemies to Lovers, Telepathic Sex Summary: Desperate for a way to save his brother from a demon’s clutches, hunter Dean does the unthinkable and seeks out a supernatural creature for help: a powerful lightning elemental, the kind he and his family should be killing. When his attempt to bind the elemental goes awry, he finds himself psychically connected to it instead. The creature’s emotions bleed into his; its pain echoes into him. Rather than finding the solution to saving Sam, Dean’s given himself a new and even more time-sensitive problem. He has to find a way to master the bond before the rest of the hunters decide he’s too far gone and put him down. The trouble is that the more time he spends connected to the elemental’s thoughts, the more he starts to wonder if they don’t have it all wrong. Maybe the creature, which calls itself Castiel, doesn’t deserve to be slaughtered; maybe the rest of its kind hadn’t deserved that, either. Or maybe that’s just Castiel’s voice in his head.

Love me to Death | @lunastories Rating: Mature Word Count: 9,219 Main Tags/Warnings: Death!Dean, major character death, brothers grimm au, angst, self harm, suicide, fairytale style Summary: There once was a man who feared Death. He feared him so much, he tried to seek immortality but his efforts were in vain. Eventually, he learned to love Death and everything he represented. This is the story of a mortal and a god and their love for each other.

All That Glitters | @blueascend Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1,808 Main Tags/Warnings: Fantasy AU, Dragon Castiel, Virgin Sacrifice Summary: In which Dean is a Virgin Sacrifice (yeah, right) and Cas a fire-breathing dragon who only longs for a companion.

Ensnared | @saltnhalo Rating: Mature Word Count: 8,816 Main Tags/Warnings: Shipwrecked, Creature Castiel, Sailor Dean, Siren Cas, Fluff, Angst, Masturbation, Desert Island Summary: As the current pulls him a little closer to the island, the singing grows stronger. It’s deep and lyrical and the most beautiful thing he’s ever heard and he’s suddenly overcome by the desperate, searing need to be closer, to hear it in all its intended glory. And as he passes a single spur of rock that juts out a little further into the ocean than the others, Dean sees him.

Love Screws Me Up (Series) | @profound-boning Rating: Mature Word Count: 8,217 Main Tags/Warnings: A/B/O, Everybody's an Angel, misunderstandings, kidnapping, pregnant Dean Summary: -Despite his devotion to their Father, Castiel knows that his heart has belonged solely to Dean for millennia. And he feels sadder by the day to know that such a love will never be reciprocated. -For many angels, it is not necessary to wait to consummate their bond until the night of their mating. For some, the process of courtship and betrothal constitutes physical expressions of love and desire such as sexual acts up to and including the alpha angel knotting the omega angel.But for Castiel, this was simply never an option. -Castiel knows that something has gone terribly, horribly wrong the moment that Michael claims victory on behalf of Heaven.

Caught In The Net | @envydean Rating: General Audiences Word Count: 2,120 Main Tags/Warnings: merman!cas, Fisherman!Dean, Soulmates, Mentions of Blood, Fluff, red handprint, Hurt/Comfort Summary: He should have been more vigilant that day. His blue-silver tail fin snagged in something and Castiel drew his blade to fight off whatever had grabbed hold of him. He was expecting a human or one of the Dark Tails to have come up behind him, but it was a net. Spinning around only served to get him more tangled and he tried to cut it away and free himself, panic sweeping through him. Castiel gets caught up in Dean's fishing net as he patrols the boundaries of the Silver Tail's Kingdom.

[justanearth-boundmisfit]

Rules: Always post the rules, answer the questions given to you, then write 10 questions of your own, and tag 10 other people.

Note: posting this again because the first time I did it wrong. Lmao! Sorry. Hope this time it’s ok.

Tagged by @flyingcatstiel - thank you darling!

1. How many languages do you speak? List them, even if still learning or already forgetting. 

I speak 4 languages, spanish, english, french and portuguese. Spanish and english I think I know them well especially the first one I hope!  Although I’m always learning more english every time I can because I tend to type whatever comes to my mind really fast and I’m full of typos (sorry). I’m still learning Portuguese, and I’m starting to forget French sadly, I can read it and listen to it and understand a little but speaking it is becoming hard.

2. Favorite Dean/Cas moment on the show?

This is very very hard, I used to love them so much on the show! And now I found them so ... nothing..... so depressing. But well to answer the question I guess I like all the little moments from season 4 and five. Like them sitting on that park, having Cas confessing that he has doubts, the phone conversation on My Bloody Valentine when Cas appears at the morgue, Cas letting Dean know that an archangel is protecting Chuck, almost all the moments from “Free to be you and me”, the “Cas, personal space” moment, the fbi badge incident (the first time, the second was just lame writing to make Cas appear dumb). There are a lot! But from those two seasons mainly, I have a few faves from season 8 (the hug in purgatory of course), but it’s all tainted by how Dean treated the whole crazy!Cas debacle. Let’s say that after season 6 I became the bitter Cas fan that I am today. 

3. Favorite fanfic tropes in destiel fics?

Ohhh, I love rom coms! I only read aus so the rom com trope is on my top five. I love misunderstandings like in Peanut Butter-Pumpkin Wedding Cake by  Sparseparsley. I love Au!angel Cas, gedry on LJ has a lot of them, they are old, buy sooo good, it’s a shame we don’t have more from her. And above all I love bamf!Cas give me give me give me! Example: The Team by palominopup.

4. Fruit or vegetable you don’t like (mango is not an acceptable answer, pick another one)

Mmm I don’t know. Maybe avocado? Don’t kill me! But I tried it so many times, and was like meh! Mango, I love though.

5. Tell me about a destiel fic you’ve read recently and really enjoyed. [please include title, author and link]

I’m re reading old ones lately because I couldn’t find anything new to really enjoy. BUT, you rec Angel Cookies by noxsoulmate and it was such an amazing surprise! Everyone go read it, it was great! 

6. Which one of your own (recent) fan works (fic, art, gif set, vid, side blog, etc) you are proud of? If you don’t have any, give a shout out to a (recent) fan work that you really loved. [any fandom, please include title, creator and link] 

I love 99% of the fics by palominopup, she is amazing, I’m waiting for her to finish her last one to read something new, because I don’t read wips. 

In art I fell in love with Cas with Brilcrist work, sadly she deleted a lot of her spn stuff, but what you can find is amazing. But she is my favourite spn artist, although it’s not recent. 

7. Recommend me a new TV show to take my mind of SPN. Tell me why it will help. 

I will always recommend Brooklyn 99, it’s not new, and it’s a comedy, but it’s amazing imho. Out of the really new tv shows, not much to recommend, I watched a lot of pilots and it was all meh. I watch two realities that I always come back to, because it takes my mind out of things, Face Off, about fx and make up artists, zero drama and only work. And Project Runway, that yes, it has some drama, but I love Tim Gunn and the new season is amazing.

8. Are you going to watch season 13 of Supernatural? If not, when did you stop watching the show? (I’d love to know why but you don’t have to justify your decision)

Idk, and if I do watch it would only be the episodes when Cas is in, so I guess not a lot to watch there. I only watched spn for Cas tbh, I stopped watching mid season 6 when it all became too painful, after that I stopped watching for a few months again and then returned but only for the Cas’ eps. I hate the show. I hate what they did to Cas, what they did to deancas, and I hate how out of touch with reality the writers are. They are writing a two mains show, when 99% of the shows now on tv are ensemble casts. Above all things I hate the homophobic, misogynist, racist that is Robert Singer, and how his views translate into the show. Spn had the opportunity to be epic, now is just some show everyone complains about.

9. Cats or dogs?

I like both, but I’m a cat person forever and ever.

10. What is your happy ending for Cas on the show?

Cas in a motorcycle, being human or not, happy with who he is and putting himself first, riding into the sunset :D. But seriously though, Idk, the show surely destroyed Cas, I don’t know if there can be a happy ending for him at this point, sadly. But if something that I’m sure I want for Cas is to be at peace with his decisions and to find a place to love, and people to love him back. 

My questions, mmm let’s see...

1.What other shows you watch?

2.What is the most amazing place you’ve been to? It doesn’t have to be somewhere exotic, but a place you felt happy to be at.

3.Do you think deancas still have a chance to be together? Or the ship is already dead, killed by the writers and producers (and you know the actor that says it doesn’t exist? (skip this one if you don’t care one way or another)

4.Please recommend me some books? Fanfiction has taking my life, I need to read other stuff too.

5.Pet peeves?

6.What movie can you watch over and over without ever getting tired of?

7.If you could have a soundtrack for your life, what songs would be on it?

8.Where do you think spn stands now? Is still a good show? It entertains you? Or gets you more mad than happy?

9.If you can have a superhero power what would you choose? Why?

10.What movie/tv show did you think was going to be amazing but turned out to be horrible?

Tagging a few people, @zeeimpalaangel @lldyj @bitemyholyass @haven3333 and Idk if you guys want to answer anything about spn but I’m tagging you because curious! if you do @goldmetalvictor and @deathtwonormalcy

[little-crazy-misha-minion]

 I feel like I might regret this later but this is too much.

You know what?

No.

You are acting like a madman.

No one, and I mean no one in the post that was screencapped, said the phrase “Cas is nothing but a tool to make sure Dean turns gay” you made that up. You interpreted that. YOU.

Heck, the screencap literally states that Cas has his own storyline in which Dean serves as a narrative tool as well. But sure, let’s drape ourselves in the mantle of justice and ignore that.

What the op of the screencap meant by “happy endgame” is not even what you think. They were referring to Dean having faith and believing in himself. But you, I repeat you, read it as “Dean’s endgame is to come out as gay and have hot steamy gay sex” You gave it that meaning, you put those words in the writer’s mouth for your own convenience and even after people outright tell you that that’s not what the post was about you keep parroting the same unfounded arguments and trying to twist a truth that basically anyone who read the post the screencap was taken from knows.

You are the one saying that. It’s you. You are the one who just said “Castiel is a narrative tool to get Dean to his “endgame” of being a beautiful butterfly or whatever.” When in reality Dean’s endgame in that post is having faith in himself. Now if you see that as him accepting that he is gay, again that is something you said, not the writer of the post. So yeah, I am pretty sure you are misunderstanding it. Or worse, you are twisting it to suit your agenda.

'Cause I think you can keep lying to yourself all you want, but you are not defending Castiel. You are hating on people who ship Destiel.

If you love Cas so much why don’t you complain about the people who insistently say that Castiel is nothing but a tool to Dean and Sam? Yeah, a tool, the same exact word you are so outraged about here, except we never said that! It was the anti-destiel people and some wincest shippers who insist that Dean and Sam don’t care about Cas. Why don’t you complain about all the people who went just today to Supernatural’s official twitter account to complain about the fact that Misha/Cas was included in the Siblings Day Post as a “Honorary Winchester”? Not only to complain but insult and harass the people who made the post, because they just hate Cas that much. I guess that kind of harassment is not as important since it’s anti-destiel anyways.

If you LOVE Castiel soooo much why don’t you complain about the people who say “The show is only about Sam and Dean” like parrots and don’t want to see Castiel on the show. The so-called “Silent Majority” who literally campaigned to try to remove him from the show?

But no, instead you complain about us, the destiel shippers. And you base that complaint on a post that you misunderstood, apparently on purpose. You don’t get to decide what the writer of that post meant because you don’t read minds and are not omniscient. You don’t get to twist it to suit your agenda.

You are a fraud.

This entire post? This is just lip service, it’s just an excuse. Because if you really cared @notrachelminer , if you really cared about Cas, you would fight the people who vocally and filled with hate exclaim that Cas means nothing to Dean OR Sam, he is not their “family”, people who wish that Misha would be taken out of the show and/or even go as far as denying that he is a lead in the show. If you love him so much then you should defend him against the people who actually hate him instead of twisting a well-meaning analysis so that you can hate on us. Us, the people who usually are the ones who go out of our way to defend him.

Us, the ones who keep vocally telling everyone that we love Cas and Misha and to please not listen to the people who literally wanna kick him out of the show.

You sit on your high horse like you are on some kind of higher moral ground, when in reality you are only using your supposed love of Castiel as an excuse to twist our feelings about the character because you hate our ship. And to that I say: 

No. You have no right.

Step away kids because I’m about to lay down one huge “I told you so”.  

(Full disclosure, I am a Megstiel fan.  I love these two.  I also multi ship a mess of other ships in this series of all sizes, shapes and colors. YSINMSATOK, Ship on!)

I am being nice just this once, and I’m NOT going to put the name of the person who posted this.  If you wanna call your self out, that on you.

To the Destiellers out there who are wondering why so many of the others in the fandom dislike you, take a good look up at the above post and read it.  Let me explain why this utterly pisses us off. 

The basis for this post is stating that “the whole point of Castiel as a narrative tool for Dean”  supposedly so the boy can discover his as previously unknown sexuality and begin the process of becoming the happy gay he is.  

That’s is,  That’s the only reason Castiel is in this show, to be the guiding light that least Dean Winchester into the happy multicolored world of gay sex.

Never mind that this is a FREAKING ANGEL OF THE LORD WHO KILLED ARCHANGELS AND BECAME GOD.  An angel who has multiple times fought against even Heaven and his own siblings to do what God wanted him to do.

No, apparently the only reason he is here is so he can address this supposed “big story line and happy endgame”

Anyone who is not “a true fan” as some would like to say, have put up with hearing buzz words such as “representation”  and “hertornormativity” and “queer baiting”  

Look, I get the idea of loving a ship or characters.  Of connecting with them so much that the act of reading/ writing fic or discussing meta with like minded individuals is a reprieve for real life and sometimes a saving grace.  I get it. So do so many other people who ship for the same reason..

But getting called out as “homophobic” for even mentioning that “that ship” isn’t our OTP.  Not being “true fans” because apparently we haven’t seen the secret episodes that spell out in black and white no holds barred, that this is absolute end game no questions asked. There are many LGBTQ+ people that don’t ship this ship and insulting them because of it or taking away their identity is rude, obnoxious and honestly a bit sexist. 

Got back up and read this post (posted by an actual Destieller), really read it.  And then read it again. Because what this person is saying is what we’ve been saying all along.  There is a group out there that could give two shits less about representation.  They only want to see two hot guys bang. And they’re willing to  insult and harass the actors, their spouses, TPTB.  They’re willing to climb over anyone and everyone including the people in their own ship in order to get what they want.  Everyone is expendable if it means they get their fetish.

So the next you get shut down at a con because you want to ask a Dean Cas question, the next time you get an eyeroll or a polite smile and a dismissal after you mention your ship and you’re wondering why, look up.  Remember this  post and the words written by someone in your camp and ask, is this who you really want representing your part of the fandom?  Are these the people you want gatekeeping your ship? Because one day, this subgroup is going to break your dreams and your headcanon because they pushed it too long and too far and someone decided to make an example.  This is who you want as the face of your ship.  Because right now they are.  

Do better.