#the longings of a mother: maleficent wishlist

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@beastingtm​  said :   Birthday HC time bc I adore you and your bloggie! How open is Mal about sharing her birthday with others? How many people know? What would her perfect birthday look like? A big party, or just chilling with her closest friends? Does she have a birthday present wishlist? What's her favourite thing about birthdays? And what about her least favourite thing?

first   of   all   !!!   i   adore   you   and   your   blogs   too ,   xo.   thank   you   so   much   for   sending   these   :((((   and   second ,   lemme   just   apologize   now   for   how   much   i   am   going   to   ramble   my   way   through   this.   i   have   A   Lot   of   feelings   when   it   comes   to   mal   and   her   birthday.   laughs.   this   got   longer   than   i   expected   so   i’m   going   to   just...   pop   it   under   a   cut.

how   open   is   mal   about   sharing   her   birthday   with   others?   the   short   answer:   not   at   all.   the   long   answer   is...   mal   grew   up   in   a   household   where   parties,   pretty   much   of   any   kind,   were   frowned   upon.   big   time.   on   top   of   that,   maleficent   didn’t   even   tell   her   daughter   when   her   birthday   was.   when   she   was   like   four   or   so,   she   tried   to   just   declare   a   day   for   her   birthday.   stole   herself   a   cupcake   from   the   slop   shop.   and   sang   herself   a   little   happy   birthday.   then   right   before   she   blew   out   the   candle...   her   mother   burst   in   her   room.   and   shut   the   entire   thing   down.   that’s   it.   it   was   over.   from   then   she   just   kind   of   brushed   birthdays   aside.   eh,   if   she   got   older..   no   need   to   document   it.   so   even   now   Knowing   when   that   special   day   is   for   her,   she   doesn’t   make   a   big   deal   out   of   it.   people   she   gets   close   to   will   learn.   either   by   asking   or   by   being   in   a   circle   of   people   who   do   already   know   and   it   coming   out   when   the   day   approaches.   but   it’s   on   a   very...   if   you   know,   you   know   basis.   

how   many   people   know?   it’s   a   Very   very   small   circle.   it   started   with   her   just   telling   evie.   (she   wanted   to   run   to   jay   the   minute   she   learned   but..   she   knew   there   was   no   way   he   was   keeping   a   secret.)   and   when   she   felt   comfortable,   she   eventually   opened   up   to   jay   and   carlos.   and   i   think   for   a   while   she   was   very   set   on   it   being   only   the   four   of   them   that   knew.   it’s   expanded   since   then   but   it’s   still..   small.

what   would   her   perfect   birthday   look   like?   a   big   party,   or   just   chilling   with   her   closest   friends?   i   don’t   think   either.....   mal   has   two   specific   and   very   different   visions   of   a   perfect   birthday.   the   first   one   is   the   big,   classic   celebration   with   her   mom   standing   by   her   side,   all   smiles   and   laughs.   you   know.   that   like   picture   perfect   moment   that   everyone   reads   about   in   storybooks.   and   she   kind   of   knows   that   will   never   happen.   her   second   ‘perfect’   birthday   is   just..   a   day   where   she   can   relax.   and   by   relaxing,   more   specifically,   where   she   can   take   a   day   off   from   this   image   she   tries   so   hard   to   protect   in   everyone’s   head.   i   think   for   most   of   the   day   she’d   want   to   be   alone..   in   somewhere   like   the   hideout   where   she   can   spray   paint   walls.   or   draw   in   her   sketchbook.   

does   she   have   a   birthday   present   wishlist?   never.   presents   are...   a   Weird   thing   to   her.   i   think   she   would   love   giving   them.   despite   brushing   it   off   with   a   ‘shut   up,   it’s   no   big   deal’   or   ‘okay,   don’t   make   it   weird’.   but   receiving   them   she   just   kind   of...   what?   why?   no,   take   it   back.   i   don’t   want   it.   ew.   it’s   ugly.   (until   you   actually   try   to   take   it   away   from   her   and   she   just   aggressively   keeps   it.)

what's   her   favourite   thing   about   birthdays?   and   what   about   her   least   favourite   thing?   oooh.   hm.   i   think   for   other   people’s   birthdays,   she   really   likes   the   gift   giving.   even   though   she’s   lowkey   about   it,   she   puts   so   much   thought   and   effort   into   a   person’s   birthday   present.   and   she   loves   seeing   that   expression   on   their   face.   and   her   least   favorite,   i   think   is   (for   her)   how   lonely   it   can   feel.   even   on   the   birthdays   where   she   happens   to   be   with   friends.   she’s   Vividly   aware   that   her   own   mother   never   wanted   to   celebrate   the   day   of   her   birthday.   and   that   kind   of   hangs   over   her,   almost   all   the   time.