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landscaping-your-mind · 1 year ago

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Also another thing that’s fucked up is that my parents told me to not be outwardly angry at school because then someone would call like the equivalent of CPS in Canada, genuinely don’t know what it’s called, and take me away. I being like. 12. thought “yeah no seems legit” or more accurately, “i don’t want to get taken away from my family.”

And then, and then, this other time, when my dad just fucking left, we were talked to by a person from I guess the Canadian equivalent of CPS and I, even though I knew it was wrong at that point, kept my mouth shut. My mom told us to keep our mouths shut. And my sister didn’t, she told them and they did nothing.

Thinking thoughts. Having feelings. Idk.

#landscaping your mind chapter one #like what the fuck.#what the actual fuck.#i should probably make a tag for this lol #the last post wasnt a vent. i shared an anecdote and connected it to a problem i see #this post is a vent. i’m saying ‘what the fuck’ over and over in my head #somehow it’s very hard to deal with trauma when you’re actively living it. who’d’ve thought #/s #i want to leaveee #and yeah it’s like ‘kris just tell a teacher they legally have to report it’ and?? i don’t have citizenship im a dependent and most likely #they’ll just talk to my parents and decide theyre fine. bc they’re nice a lot of the time #most likely my parents will get angry at me even more for reporting them #and hey! when i told the councillor that my mom hit me in 2021 she made the call to kids help and they said it wasnt big enough #this was… before they hit me more. this year. yippee /s #i just. im so hashtag jonathan sims coded. there’s a way out. there’s a way out but i don’t think i can take it.#there’s a way out but i’m afraid. there’s a way out but this is the only life i’ve ever known. they’re the only parents i’ve ever known.#i love them. i love my sisters. i just… i have to wait for a better out #hey! at least i have an end date for this!#18th birthday babyyyyy #(pls dont be concerned im fine)#vent #child abuse #tw child abuse #cw child abuse

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