#the last one my bff prompted based on a bad ending to a fic. lol

[princema-k]

expression prompts i did today :)

[sunfloweradore]

i’m leaving this blog

hi! this post is a bit long but at the end you’ll find prompts and requests that you are free to use if you’re a writing blog :).

hi there!! if you’re reading this, i hope you’re doing well and staying safe. i just wanted to say that i’m leaving this blog and i’m not sure if i’ll ever come back. the years i’ve spent being a harrie have been great and it’s been a crazy amount of time! pretty much since the x factor! however, for a long time it’s also felt like i’ve been forcing myself to be a fan of harry’s. i’ve put so much energy into being a fan of his that it hasn’t been fun for me in a while and neither has writing fanfiction, which is what this blog is mainly for. it’s felt very difficult to sit down and write a fantasy about somebody who i might not even like anymore and in hindsight it seems a little dumb, but i did stress over writing all the time. this isn’t really about anybody i’ve interacted with on tumblr because you’re all lovely but sometimes it feels as though harries don’t treat him like he’s a human being and instead like he’s a god. me, included. even though i know we joke about harry being the only man we’d let degrade us or destroy our lives or whatever, he is still a person at the end of the day! it took me a very long time to realize that and thinking of him as otherworldly or completely perfect was my way of thinking for a while and i think it was pretty damaging. the fact that so many people would literally die for him is sad because unfortunately, none of us are going to be on his “level”, so to speak. we don’t know him personally and chances are we aren’t ever going to. ahhhh please don’t be mad at me for saying this, it’s just something i’ve realized i need to change about myself and i think it’s something we should all consider about everyone we are fans of. 

anyway, the time and energy i’ve spent on something so ridiculous is exponential and i really feel like it’s time to put it in the past. i’m dedicating this year to self-growth and part of that is learning how to be my own person. feeling like i have to be interested in something or someone in order to be normal has been a common theme in my life and harry has been that someone for as long as i can remember. this isn’t his fault of course but i’m getting older and i don’t want to think of this time in my life as the era that i was obsessed with harry styles. instead, i want to form memories and real life experiences instead of using fanfiction as a way to cope with all of the things that i can’t handle in my life. it worked for a while but at this point i’ve been reading it and writing it for so long that it feels like i’m living inside my head, like i’ve become dependent on it (obviously this is very bad lolol). so, long story short, i will be leaving this blog because it just isn’t good for me anymore. thank you to everyone who has requested things for me to write and anyone who has interacted with my writing. sorry i couldn’t get through them :(. i’d also like to thank everyone i met through this blog because you’re all such amazing people and you deserve the world. i will leave my writing up but the sentiment still applies- i’ve worked very hard on everything i’ve written so please don’t repost any of it without crediting me, thank you.

below are requests i couldn’t get to and prompts(?)/works that i never got to finish. feel free to use them if you want and tag me in them bc i’d love to see how you write them :)

1. paperboy harry!

i think the direction i wanted this to go in was kind of like a 40′s au? or just a long long time ago. not sure why i had this started seeing as i already have harry as a paperboy in a story of mine but go off ig

2. vampire harry!

i had a specific plot i wanted where harry was in a car wreck because of a vampire who ended up biting him in like an alleyway. reader saves him and is a vampire herself! she nurses him back to health n teaches him how to be a vamp with various shenanigans along the way

3. hospital au?

this one i’m not too sure about but if you’ve seen the red band society you’d sort of know the direction i was going with this. there’s kind of an in-between for people in the hospital who are fighting death or going into surgery and in that in-between is a boy who has been in a coma for a long time. i pictured this as being angsty and for harry to be the boy who guides people in certain directions but he ends up falling for the reader while she’s there

4. ghost au!

self explanatory but i pictured harry as the ghost who kind of just wants a friend lol

5. tea au?

this would probably be pretty short, i just thought it was cute! reader has different kinds of tea all the time and it’s a surprise each time he kisses her 

6. strawberry farm au?

reader has a strawberry farm LMAO maybe harry buys them from her or it’s another vampire au, who knows!

7. threesome

most likely has been done b4 but a threesome w 2 guys and the reader where the guy is inside harry while he is inside the reader

8. chocolate by the 1975

a fic based on that song! it would probably be from harry’s pov 

9. space au?

hmm i think i probably saw something that inspired this but all it says is “harry sends letters to space” so i’m assuming it’s an au where he just decided to send letters to space out of boredom or something and mayhaps alien reader finds one?

10. assassin au!

harry is an assassin and in my draft it’s super vague? and almost seems like he’s stalking the reader? it could go in any direction really but i’m assuming the reader is dating him and doesn’t know he’s an assassin

11. chapstick

very similar to the tea one! just w the reader wearing diff chapsticks all the time

12. shower

this is inspired by something i read on wattpad a long time ago and i’ve tried finding it but i think it might’ve been deleted. the reader flicks da bean all the time in the shower and is really loud about it, harry is distracted and confronts her

13. dang ANOTHER threesome

but this time harry is on a date with a girl and they’re at a bar- the girl is looking around, sees the reader and thinks she’s gorg and they end up having a threesome

14. photography au!

harry is a photographer who somehow ends up taking pictures of the reader. in my draft the reader asks him to delete the ones that are ugly but he keeps them all hehe

15. scrapbook au

similar to the last one, harry takes pictures of the reader a lot but it’s not bc he’s a photographer, he just thinks she’s pretty n wants to scrapbook. twist is that he has TWO scrapbooks- one of innocent pics and one that’s lustier (consensual ofc)

16. habits of my heart by jaymes young

self explanatory, angsty

17. roommate au?

this is for some reason also an assassin au? but they’re roommates and reader doesn’t know what he does. they’re bffs, mutual pining

18. don’t forget about me by clove

wow another song fic, big surprise

19. puppyy

harry gets a puppy who hates him :( but the puppy loves the reader!

20. mall au

lol this one is kind of dumb idk why i thought of it but harry is one of those kiosk people at the mall who sells perfume! dunno!

21. condoms

reader works at gas station, harry buys huge condoms

22. poetry

either person reads erotic poetry while touching the other

23. magic au

one of them makes a love potion, kind of dark? like making the other fall in love with them idk it could be an accident though

24. private chef

the reader is a private chef! that’s all i’ve got!

25. message board

this is inspired by..... the sims lmaooo you can pin messages to the message board in your apartment building and i thought it’d be cute if the reader and harry lived in the same building and he leaves notes on the board and she doesn’t know they’re for her! she always thinks they’re cute though

26. raisin theory

inspired by new girl! specifically a comment i saw in like a compilation? video of new girl on yt

i thought it’d be cute for harry to be that person

[kinetic-elaboration]

March 4: Possible Writing Projects

It’s so cold today. I went out adventuring but I probably would have been better off curling up in bed literally all day and just being warm.

I tried to write up some potential writing projects but it was mostly just a depressing exercise because most of these aren’t really viable, at least at the moment. I just really need some new projects, especially The 100 projects, because the only stuff I’m working on are my BFF fills (at this point, even for me, Slowest Writer of the Year, not at all urgent) and my Dollhouse AU (a curse upon me). So I wrote up this list but, I don’t know, it doesn’t feel very helpful.

Gina Story: a recurring ghost; I tried to write this last spring and it didn’t work out; every now and then I bring it up to myself but nothing happens. It’s inspired by The Juniper Tree and I want it to have that floaty, unreal, dreamlike quality to it. Recently I’ve been thinking I should go all out for the surreal aspects. May or may not want to go back to my law school notes for an ‘outline’ of sorts.

Bellarke + hands: found in my drafts folder; I think this was supposed to be a flash fic fill but it didn’t work out. Still, I like what I have. I think I might want to rework it into a ficlet. There’s no plot but that’s okay. It would be nice if it didn’t go to waste. Or I could find a plot for it but that seems like a lot of work.

Bellarke Beat AU: I started writing this for AU Week in the summer then stopped abruptly (like mid-sentence) and haven’t picked it up since because I’m too afraid I won’t be able to find the style again. ut I really like the first bits I wrote and I do intend to pick it up again. Eventually.

Bellamy/Jasper Coffee Shop AU: like twenty bad ideas rolled ito one lol. The biggest is that it would be mutli-chap and I think based on my problems with the Dollhouse AU that I should avoid those. Especially for rare pairs. especially especially for guilty pleasure rare pairs.

Expansion of Clarke/Maya ‘swamp:’ Ditto.

Monty + Bryan at the Dropship: This would be an offshoot of the Press Play verse, which is a place I’m not sure I could find again. I mainly mention it because of a couple of extant rejected paras from that fic, which I thought would work well in this fic, if I were to actually write it. I also have this weird obsession with Monty + Bryan interaction, I think because of the Farm Station thing.

Ark AU: It would be so fun! But actually it wouldn’t because if the Dollhouse AU brought down a curse, this one would bring down like 10 curses.

HS GSA AU: When I was lying awake last Sunday trying to sleep, I wrote this whole story in my head in which Clarke started a GSA at her school after tentative-lesbian Raven was denied the ability to go to homecoming with a girl, and Miller and his snarky lab partner Murphy end up going and Miller is super awkward and anyway the whole thing was REALLY weird and should proably never be committed to paper but I wanted to record it anyway just in case.

Also...I have two whole story ideas tags AND a whole inspiration blog, and I thought maybe I’d just pick the most immediately inspiring picture or (more probably) word prompt and just go.

I don’t know--I just really want to write something short and fast and easy without angsting about it. I’d say ‘is that too much to ask?’ but I think we know it definitely is.