#the largest yapping session ive made so far

[poachersinyourhome]

amputechture is lowkey a terrifying album it makes me kind of uncomfortable (but just enough uncomfortableness to make it enjoyable) so now ill write what each song reminds me of and how they make me feel because i need to yap yap n yap on the intenet 🙈‼️ (this was a recommendation from my therapist to cope and understand how music makes me feel on a very deep level so we can understand why i love them sm and i guess it makes sense cuz i tend to connect feelings from music to inner experiences so i guess ill just share it here) also this shit is going to be *REAL LONG* i can sense it 💔

vicarious atonement:

the scariest song imo AFTER EL CIERVO VULNERADO. the beginning is pertect for setting up this tense and foggy ambience that follows through the whole album. i grew up with road trips at night to arrive to my hometown on all holidays and there were bits of them when it was very late and my dad turned off the music and my mother and siblings were asleep and everything felt horrible and this song feels just like that. late night road trips where its very foggy and cold and you dont know where you are and everyone inside the car is quiet and you are scared of crashing and every sound intensifies and you feel very uneasy and you try to not move at all and you keep looking out the window kind of hoping not to encounter any weird thing outside. idk if you feel the vibe guys but it sounds just like this

tetragrammaton:

well this one is going to be wild because heh. you know. how long this fucking song is ⁉️🙄 segment 1 and 8 (0:00 to 1:10 - 14:47 to 16:42) is horrifying to me because it sounds SO overwhelming. i feel like if these parts were to be a physical entity they would be a big Cthulhu-like creature that with just looking at it it would asphyxiate you because of how overwhelming the feeling of its mere existence is. idk. segment 2 (1:11 to 4:35) is not as scary as the 1st one. it feels just like the ocean in daytime where it all seems fine but you just KNOW something horrible could lurk out and eat you or pull you down to the sea. im extremely scared of the ocean BUT a while ago i went diving at veracruz which is gulf of mexico which is basically the atlantic ocean and i had to face my thalassophbia or wtv and i was holding a rope connected to the ship and saw the MASSIVE corals and shit underneath me and it all seemed fine but i was lwk having a panic attack bc even tho i knew everything was fine and the guys told us there were 100% zero sharks i just felt like something horrifying was about to happen and i was gonna die and shit. nothing happened at the end but i still feel panic to this day. segment 3 (4:36 to 5:50) sort of nothing LOLLL it just feels like indian elephants and one very very specific massive room at my primary school that had very yellowy lighting and a rug wall that was removable but outside of that, thats it. segment 4 (5:51 to 7:47) feels like my cousins house at night. his house is honestly quite traumatic to me not bc anything happened there but because of how it generally made me feel unsafe at all times. again, not because of a bad experience nor bc of my family, but entering it immediately made me feel sad and unsafe and sleeping in it was (and still is) very very scary. idk why tho LOL. segment 5 and 7 (7:48 to 11:02 - 14:13 to 14:46 ) feels like grabbing glitter as a kid and playing w it and throwing it everywhere and going alll crazey and doing slime and theowing it at my carpet and eatinf sugar sugar sugar 🤪 segment 6 ( 11:03 to 14:12) feels like when i traveled to my hometown to my grandparents house (late 2009-2010) they didnt have matresses for us so we had to sleep on the floor and my mom had an old tv and watched adultswim at night and i peeked through the blankets and saw weird shit and my mom got so so angry and screamed at me even when it was so late at night and i was so little and she knew i was scared to a cricri song about witches so she sang it to me and i cried so hard and she said that they will come to get me if i dont sleep so i tried to sleep and tried to hug her but she pushed me away. damn that was long.

vermicide:

beautiful and calming song. reminds me of my deceased great grandmothers house that i felt very safe in and also of going out with my grandpa to get some agua fresca de lima 😝 (i dont know how u gringos diferenciate between limones and limas so just switched tospanish LOL also who cares im 100000% sure no one is fucking reading all of this i could say the most cancel worthy thing and no one would know J@J#HK#) and a carnival that gets in front of my OTHER very much alive great grandmothers house that was very fun.

meccampturechture:

i ADORE this song its so fun and funky. it kind of feels like lava on its way down the popocatepetl having a fun time just going down and destroying allll puebla MUAJAJAJA 😈also feels like when i go to tuxpan veracruz w my family and we are having a great time in the wild and we spend literal days without taliing to anyone except for eachother 🤭 and walking on the streets and exporing. also idk if this might be bc of that verysame tuxpan thing but it also feels like little seahorses and shrimp swiming on the ocean kind of fast. scaping from some big fish. also the department store liverpool at the beach (? idk how that works but the image of a Liverpool store at a beach sounds just about right LOLZ)

asilos magdalena:

mjj this is a weird one because i cannot differenciate between what i feel from this song with the situations in my life where this song played. you see, my mom loves this song and she played it a whole lot when i was little and it feels incredibly nostalgic. everytime i listen to cedrics voice i kind of also listen to my mothers voice singing it while she is cleaning the house and im just looking out the window and feeling sad because of this song and also trying to figure out what the lyrics meant because avr 😭 que chucha significa "en mi vida el oscuro me mantiene cuando yo te vi en la lluvia me prometisteS ru sangre yo no me quedo" Y MAS AUN EL "estrella de la mañana samael te persigo a ti y si me quemo sin alas ademas me muero por ti" AVER FOKIN CEDRIC COMO QUE Y SI ME QUEMO SIN ALAS ADEMAS ME MUERO POR TI NO TIENE SENTIDO ESA ORGANIZACION DE PALABRAS NO TIENE SENTIDO CHIT POPO CAVA 😭😭😭 y eso era exactamente lo k yo pensaba cuando la cantaba mi mama y me molestaba un poco. tambien me recuerda a ESPEREN 😭 BYE ME PONIA A HABLAR ESPAÑOL DE LA NADA ASH PERDON it reminds me of when isaw it live 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 thatz it idk what happened to me sorey but i will not delete that and rewrite it bc im lazey AH FOKIN FLOJERA VERDAD BABOSA LLEVAS ESCRUBUENDO SIN PARARA COMO MEDIA HORA Y T DA FLOJERA TRADUCIR ESO VERDAD MALDITA ah ya perdon no se k me pasa lo bueno esq nadie va a leer esto xq nomanches si llevo un buen quepedo y eso q me falta mi bebe hermosa la ojos viscerales 😍😍↓

viscera eyes:

OWHHHH GAWDDDD i love all thissong and i think it doesnt rlly reminds me of anything deep other than school trips specially when i was in 8th grade and we went to chapultepec and i had such a great time but i think this song reminds me of that bc in 8th grade i loved this song a LOT 😍 also i remmeber om 9th grade i had started being friends w this cool ass girl and she liked cool music and i wanted to show her that i liked cool music too but i only listened to tmv (huh such a surprise) and she said hey lets share an earphone and she said put on a song of that band you like and i had to think FAST so i played viscera eyes and she didnt.. really like it bc she was punkgothicemometalhead 💔💔 she only said she liked the combined harmonizing guitars that change the rhythm at like 2/3 of the song but she probably just said that to add something to the song hehe

day of the baphomets:

RAGHRGHGRHR this is probably my fav song from this whole album i was intensly obsessed w it for a looong time (probably u could tell because of my username and name being lyrics from this song) and hoooly shit this song needs to be played at max volume every single time cuz every single detail from it is PERFECT 😍😍😍 absolute masterpiece ☺️ this song makes me want to float and fly veeery far away. i want to point out that i feel particularly close to this song because it feels just like when i was younger and i started having my serious micro/macropsia attacks and it all felt so odd and chaotic that i started to hyperventilate and scream my lungs out because of how terrified i was. i remmeber my parents talking in the dark hearing me scream at the white wall saying "damn she might as well have schizophrenia" and i felt very scared and i just saw all these yellow and red and orange dots flying everywhere in my sleep and teapots 🤪 this song feels exactly like that but instead of horror amusement 🙉 i feel like everything about it was cautiously made to imitate my brain during my attacks like if omar n ced were hidden inside my bran and connected it to a boombox or wtv and them published it 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

el ciervo vulnerado:

aver ciervito pos ke pedo q te paso aaahaha 😁 why is this song not in spanish tho i think it might have been better if it was entirely in spanish. it feels exactly like vicarious atonement but slightlyyyy a tiny little bit very very veeery much more terrifying because of the little sax and whispering. and that last part where it starts going backwards and ceds voice goes deep HELL NAWWW its so scary holey moley. but generally the same feeling 😭 just multiplied by 50

perdon chikos yo se que nadie va a leer esto pero me encanto urgar en mi mente para ver a que experiencias me recuerdan las canciones y xq me gustan tanto. kizas lo haga d nuevo con cassandra gemini (o frances the mute? pero siento k de ese no puedo decir tanto como con amputechture) o deloused. deloused yo creo q me hhce super nostalgica y ya pero nada peofumdo como este. O BUENO NOCTURNIQUET TMBN puede ser profundo xq las canciones en general son mas tristezonas y eso hace que conecte con mas oensamientos. no se. ya me voya dormir xq la neta llevo como 2 horas escribiendosin parar y ya tengo gran parte de ll mano derecha dormida. y ademas son ya las 12:45 de la mañana o noche ns pero es d noche LOL bye chicos los amo muak