#the kids have been in plenty of inappropriate/violent/sexual situations in the actual show!! | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

toolshedstool · 2 months ago

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getting into a new fandom is waaayyy scarier than it used to be tbh. in my most recent fandom before sp (which im still mostly in, my hyper fixations have just shifted around) i made a lot of dark content, and got messages accusing me of crimes and trying to guess what type of abuse i'd been through over it. can't remember if i personally got suicide bait and/or threats to my well-being, but i saw mutuals get them and that sort of stuff genuinely scares me. i also just have anxiety in general so that doesn't help lol. idk, shit feels so hostile, especially if you aren't interested in keeping up with whatever rules that cyberbully circles make up.

#new kid noises #sorry ive just been in a weird mood tonight #i used to be rlly into sp back in highschool but felt bad about getting involved in fandom bc it was for adults #but now i feel bad about getting involved in sp fandom as an adult bc it feels like theres so many kids?#and i dont understand trying to censor myself in the show all about gross shit #cartman has a sex scene w his cupidsona in txc but god forbid you make something inappropriate in fan content??#the kids have been in plenty of inappropriate/violent/sexual situations in the actual show!!#why am i supposed to feel guilty for imagining bad things happening to them? they aren't real in the first place...#sorry for being all serious #kinda just wanted to get it out of my system #in my other fandom ive managed to build up a niche that i know wont harass me so it's a bit scary starting from scratch #i wanna make friends but past experiences make me too afraid to let my guard down for even a moment #i also just dont know what the current sp fandom is like that well #most sp blogs i follow are from way back when i was first into sp as a teenager #...so most are abandoned #im rambling. lol.

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