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yo9urt · 4 days ago

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applied for a job a while ago and wrote in my spreadsheet "i am not fucking getting this job" not because of the qualifications but because my application was honestly just not that good. today the lady called me and scheduled an interview. Ok

#mine #i dont knowwwww though #urgh...#its in the city where i went to college so i know its a nice place thats familiar to me #but its also pretty hcol and the job itself is like...idk about the pay #the content of the job is good though like its basically exactly what ive been wanting to do #but then i keep coming back to my hysto...i really want that too #it sucks its like a rock and a hard place you know #i dont want to keep delaying this surgery i want my shit gone NOW #but at the same time i dont want to keep delaying my ~career~#and then i think well theres more jobs in the world...but then i think about how few ive applied to since graduating #and how long it might take me to find one after surgery #and if ill even want to or not cause this country is getting old #i want a job...but i also want my hysto...#i dont want to like get a job and then go do it and then be stuck for ages waiting for PTO and bennies to kick in and to find someone who #can take care of me when i can instead do it now like i already have a letter from my therapist and consultations upcoming #but also i need money and i dont wanna fuck up my early ~career~ days #I DONT KNOW #its a lot #i just wish id done the damn surgery sooner but i couldnt in 2023 cause i was working that summer #and this year i naively thought that i would be able to get a job relatively fast and just get hysto next year after working for a while #WHATEVERRRRRR #the interview isnt for another week and a half so ill talk to my therapist and see what she thinks #if i need to cancel the thing i can if not then i wont #ughhhh

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