#the internet makes me lose my fucking braincells sometimes good god.

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People learn to respect valid ships for fucking once challenge go.

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george ☕️ bc we (i) need some positivity!!! (genuinely starting to lose braincells)

I can't really write character study-like opinions about drivers like some of the people here can, so this will just be my feelings about Georgie.

Probably too fangirly but to be honest right now I don't give a fuck. Sorry if it's not positive enough, I've seen too many shit today for it not to affect me more than I want it to.

Sometimes I see people saying that George is so weird they want to study him under a microscope. I know that they say it in a positive way but for some reason reading post/reblogs with this line gives me bad feelings. I know this is stupid but yeah I wanted to write this down because I haven't told it to anyone yet. I feel like some people only see George as the weird, really british, posh-but-not-actually-posh guy who doesn't have a personality. They see him as someone who can't drive, someone who can't be a team player, someone who's selfish and someone who always cries on the radio etc.

I don't know why but for some reason the drivers who become my faves are usually the ones others love to hate. So my fandom presence is a bit painful most of the times because it's difficult to find posts that are positive about my faves. Especially when they achieve a better result than their teammate. But I don't want to talk about this because this post is not about fandom toxicity.

If I think about when was the time I've started to like George or what is my first memory of him, the one that comes to my mind is when Daniel and him arrived together in the paddock last year. I don't know which race it was but it meant a lot to me to see that Daniel has the support he needs. I didn't expect them to be as good of friends as they are. And when George wore Daniel's merch for the first time... Oh, God. That was such an important moment for me. And that wasn't the last time when we saw him wearing Daniel merch, which is still insane for me. 😃

I think I've mentioned at least once that George is one of my top3 fave drivers and to be honest he's kind of a comfort person to me (as all of my faves). I really like looking at photos of him, thinking about which one to draw once I have time, watching videos of him, listening to him speaking (I really like his accent, it's so special to me – kind of a quilty pleasure). (Sometimes I feel strange because I see a lot of posts about people not liking British accents and British English. I can't really speak or write it I think, because on the internet I mostly see and learn American English but I still really like the British one too). — Also, this is the reason why I'm scared of writing stories about George. I have some plot ideas but I'm 100% sure I couldn't get his personality and accent right. So yeah, it's a bit painful for me but I try to watch a lot of videos and learn.

And now the post gets a bit personal, so if you don't want to read it, feel free to stop.

I'm not into men so I don't fantasize about dating any of the drivers but if I were into men, George would be the one I'd want to be with. He's not too introverted, not too extroverted, he seems to be a good boyfriend to Carmen. He's a nice guy.

And what I think about a lot when I'm feeling down is that he's the one is really want to hug. I don't want to meet with the drivers (yeah I'm not a real fan...) but still. There are some others I'd want to hug but George is the one I think about the most. He's huge compared to me, so it wouldn't be the most comfortable for him but yeah. (I think I'm about the height of Carmen. 😃)

Other people spend their free time fantasizing about dating the drivers and then here I am, doing the same but with hugging. Yeah, kinda strange, I know. Welcome here. 😃

I don't really know what else to say. I just really like George. I don't see him as a bad person. (I don't see any of the drivers as a bad person.) I want him to be happy, healthy and successful. I want to see him smile because he makes me happy with it. ❤

And I hope that he doesn't see all the online hate because he doesn't deserve it. People don't have to agree with everything he does but there are better ways to express opinions than to throw hate comments at the drivers, calling them shit, whishing their death and other disgusting things. No driver deserves these toxic comments, no matter where they're on the standings.

Also, I'm so proud of him for his result today. I know his finishing position is worse than his starting one but think he did a great job, considering what happened and how hard of a race it was physically. ❤

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under the cut bc it's long, all from @pink-chevalier

“Went from DSL to 5G internet (which me being in the sticks, being surrounded by 3 towers = all the speed).” Dude, I didn’t know you had internet like that! I gotta connect the damn internet cable whatever that bitch is called just to play siege. (Give me a second I’m copying and pasting my notes)

yuppp. It's the main reason why there's a bunch of gifs now. would NOT have been able to do anything with the internet i used to have. I'm still running speed tests just to see the meter be on the right side, lol

I've been on the struggle bus for SO long 😭😭😭

“Hey. Charles? He may be unhinged. Just a little bit.” Only a tiny bit? Him and Daniel remind me of the scientists that tend to go too far or lose whatever was left of their morality to play God. It’s crazy how easy they can develop some sort of God complex when dealing with things they don’t understand or believe that whatever they are experimenting on is not the same as them. Sometimes I think those kinds of scientists are one step away from diving into the pool of of becoming serial killers.

it makes you wonder and maybe this raises a huge question for all of them -- just how the fuck did they get here in the first place? And you figure, they're getting away with a lot of shit because they're in such a trusted position in trying to help John. (and I truly say in the loosest sense possible.) When -- definitely not a matter of if -- it goes down, their excuse can be like "oh, unfortunately circumstances blah blah blah" when it was really "whoops we tortured him a bit too much our bad.

Charles definitely has a God complex and... well. I shan't say. Daniel is more relunctant but he still does it anyway. Dunno if that's a sunk cost fallacy with him or if he's just spineless.

“That said… you think The Werewolf might be holding back on that? Do you think it’s actually messier than that?” Something tells me that it has to be a lot messier. Because even though it is a lot of blood and yeah it looks like shit hit the fan, you can’t tell me that it was so neat. Even real life murders can become ten times more messier with blood in the ceiling. (Really reminding me of Patrick Bateman from American psycho when he got his raincoat on)

it does look way too clean 🤔but part of that is not me having enough blood splatter CC at the time. There's a little more (and also I may just do some editing). I know it's niche but anyone who does horror cc in any way, please make some more blood related things please and thank.

But I have good authority that The Werewolf's holding back.

I don’t know I feel like there was more but the werewolf is trying not to traumatize John or the audience which I can respect.

I like to think that The Werewolf said that basing off of the knife memory and John's reaction to it -- which was very understandable as it was very explicit (the other half of it that wasn't shown to us/the audience). Even then, he still gives plenty of chances for John (and to some extension us/the audience) to bail out. He's mindful, I'll give him that.

The file name I gave John during the conversation was "go king, give us nothing.blend”. Not us having the same damn braincell.

I try to name my files something silly every once in a while :)

It’s good to see that the werewolf was able to make a door in the first place! It shows a lot of how far he’s come and that he can do that at least. The handle can come much later when he’s ready to open it or close it since he should be taking baby steps. There is no need to rush all of this and the werewolf should focus on what it means to him making that handle happen. Like is he ready to open it to relive what happen, to truly expose himself or does he want to leave it close and ignore that part of himself. Both of them are okay to do because as humans we need time to open or close a door, no matter how fast we want to do that there’s no point in stumbling out or in something.

Yes! He's able to make doors but his main issue is keeping it there or if it is there, the knob's not working. That door in the memory was summoned out of survival and he thought of the most simplest type (which means that he's seen it at least once. 🤔). The knob was more or less that John still had overall control of it which is why he opened it.

There's a few more things that are door-involved though... but you're right. There's a reason why you can open/close them. 👀

(oh shit, I just thought of something that happens in a previous story omggg)

“First the hospital bed surrounded by flowers, and now the exam table (?)… what’s with that?” Simpler times? A way to make the whole thing look rather peaceful then the living hell the werewolf and John went through. It could mean a lot of things from daydreaming of being in a better place with his lover, and having his hair played with by said lover. There is a lot of meaning behind the flowers and the exam table. Exam table could mean a lot of things such as…. self-criticism, a need for healing, feeling so exposed but against your will.

🤔...

And what’s up with John…? Does he remember more than he lets on? Or is he hiding under the guise of medicinal amnesia? It’s like he could be in denial or something. I feel like John remembers bits and pieces. The reason why I believe this is because some people that tend to go through intense trauma will forget some things or believe other things happen, which isn’t a bad thing it’s your brains way of trying to protect you from what happened…..

Oh, don't I know the feeling on that part... (🙃) And of course the parts he does remember, John probably downplayed it. It wasn't that bad; I survived years of this shit, I'm fine!"

(Narrator: "It's much worse than he thought.")

There may be another angle to this that I'm not quite ready to drop yet but I guess I can wonder out loud -- what if The Werewolf was protecting John this whole time and he's starting to crack because of it? Why now? Much to think about.

This might be random or sort of funny, but when the Silent Hill PT demo came out a long time ago, I watched it and I talked about it with my friend but I completely forgot about the talking fetus baby in it. My brain completely blocked that part out for no reason at all, I guess I was scare and didn’t know at the time. But it can happen to John, I think he wants and is trying to remember, but his head is blocking him out to protect him from what happened.

man... PT would've been the scariest game of all time, hands down. I'm a huge weenie when it comes to horror games in general... the fact that bitch was behind you THE WHOLE TIME? I think the fuck not. but NOOOOO, Konami did the fumble of the fucking millenium.

Anyway... there is another element of John's memory lapse that obviously involves The Werewolf and perhaps, it's Vin's way of confronting John's part in all of this too. But that's not for a minute.

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deleted the last reblog bc it.....why are people like this. If putting the names of ur fave into To kill a Mockingbird makes it easier to engage in? like wtf there is literally nothing wrong with that.

And people who insist that fandom is dumber and stupider than it was "when they were younger" and how nobody engages in analysis and critical thinking anymore sound like older folks who just haven't kept up with the times for one, and also well YEAH FUCKING DUH. We in general are being bombarded with so much more bullshit than when I was a teen, and while that's partly due to the internet making this info readily available, it still means that kids in their teens and twenties are quickly (or already have) become anxiety and guilt-ridden to hell. They NEED a way to turn off their brains here and there and make the world feel a little easier to handle, a little less bad.

Apparently I need a cut bc this became long and rambly.

My ONLY beef with fandom and people in general has always been the proclivity for people and groups to be jerks for no reason at all. This is fiction we're talking about. Not history. You are being a snob over things that don't exist, congratulations you're completely irrelevant. With the exceptions of bigotry, racism and the other Big Obvious (for most) Societal No's, there is literally no reason to get your panties in a bunch over someone not sharing the same headcanons you do. FUCK I can think of at least four moots who have headcanons for Lasky that I dislike INTENSELY, but you know fucking what? I simply do not engage with that facet of their content if it bothers me badly enough. The most you will ever hear me say about like...someone saying Lasky drinks whiskey is 'Eh, I personally can't get behind that idea, but you can go ham with it.'

Aside from that like. Do what you fucking want. Write the raunchiest kinkiest fanfic you can. Turn Of Mice And Men into a goddamn She-Ra fanfic if it makes it easier for you to read. Changing the names of the characters doesn't change the actual narrative.

The whole chrome 'plug your faves names into someone else's fic' add on could be an issue for some fanfic authors, but I doubt it would be a unanimously disliked thing and it certainly doesn't indicate any moral failing or intellectual deficit of anyone who uses it...this falls in my 'check with the fanfic author as a courtesy first and respect their wishes' category. fyi if you do/want to use that for my fic? Go for it.

People need a fucking break from the trash fire that is reality. What the fuck don't some people get about this. Your entire waking existence doesn't have to revolve around critical thinking or constant improvement or analyzing every stupid little thing about something.

Now is critical thinking something people should try to cultivate? yes. It's a very good skill that can save you a lot of time and energy, and I highly recommend that everyone develop critical thinking skills. But I also think people should cultivate patience, understanding, empathy and the ability to pick their battles. I also think that people deserve spaces where they can turn all that off and go no thoughts head empty while they read some bullshit fic and try to forget that the world is quite literally burning down around them for a few hours. It isnt always solely a matter of knowing HOW to think critically, but also knowing WHEN its needed and when to just let your brain be lazy. If you focus on critical thinking and analyzing media and games n shit it can become a problem in its own right. People will start reading the stupidest shit into the most mundane of things and lose the ability to actually disengage their damn braincells and just enjoy shit.

God I could rant for ten more years about this...

tl;dr constantly analyzing all media you consume can in fact be a bad thing and everyone deserves to turn off their brain sometimes as long as they aren't actively causing harm to a person or group or perpetuating harmful ideas.