#the internal conversation literally went I really don't feel like a girl but I'm deffo not a boy just neither? Is neither an option?

[petrichorpetals]

Something that'll forever be wild to me is that a lot of people are just now figuring out the kind of things I figured out very early on. I'm not trying to brag or anything, my autistic child brain just took in all the conservative media and just went yeah no that's BS sorry. It's still absolutely hilarious to me that in class we read Animal Farm, which is notoriously pro-capitalism and anti-communism and I genuinely came out if that just going well yeah communism has its problems, but it sounds way more appealing than capitalism, an easy way to fix this would be to have everything in control of the community instead of just one centralized group. I accidentally invented socialism without ever hearing the word before. My other fav is that we also read Ayn Rand's Anthem and literally my only take that I got from it was my agender ass going hey wait they is an option for pronouns? Ayn Rand is the reason I call myself we internally and it makes me happy to know she'd be PISSED. I became wildly left leaning due to my own thoughts on subjects, entirely unaffected by the conservative media shoved down my throat. Much to the perpetual anger of my dad who insisted that the school must be teaching me this "liberal bullshit" like nah I just wasn't racist and xenophobic because I realized that's bad on my own. Not to say I didn't stumble at points, I have a whole list of stuff that I did fully in ignorance I still feel bad for like saying the n word while reading like huckleberry finn when I genuinely had no idea what it meant and when I heard it was a "bad word" I just thought it was like fuck, a word that's not actually that bad.