#the incest tw is debatable depending on how you interpret the book ig

[humanoidtyphoons]

“you don’t like it bc you just don’t understand it!”

mm, got told this today bc i said i didn’t like kafka on the shore and… yk what? maybe! maybe so! i don’t think i understood the book, but i also just… didn’t like the content?? the graphic description of killing a cat, the possible incestuousness of the main character sleeping with his mom and sister… he’s not certain he’s related to them, but maybe he is? i think the atmosphere and the writing style was alright, but… i didn’t really… get hooked? it’s been years since i read it tho.

like last time, he said this in response to me saying that i disliked ff12, and… no, i think i have a pretty good grasp on ff12, i just think it was told in a really uninteresting way, plus i need to connect to the characters in final fantasy games and ff12 misses the mark so badly, for me. i think there’s plenty of stuff to talk about ff12, the experimental changes, it’s themes, etc.

idk, to me, understanding something doesn’t mean liking/disliking something. i enjoy the process of dissecting and overthinking, weighing opinions and theories, even dismantling the process of positive/negative emotions when i don’t know the full story and figure it out afterwards.

like i’m bad with words and articulation!! i think i say an overall feeling of what i mean, some rough outline, but the precision and conciseness is something i’m awfully not good at!

like i always want to like something! i can usually say there’s something positive about it (that isn’t “it ended”) even if i’m more negative about it in a dramatic fashion bc how else do i discard my thoughts. but sometimes things just… don’t work for me, whether it’s jumping the gun, or just, internally i would have done it differently, or maybe i do appreciate it once i figure out where it’s supposed to go, and tunnel vision blinded me in the thick of it. second times around can be so enlightening and rewarding once the shape is known, and you can notice things that you weren’t looking out for the first time.

idk. i’m not especially smart, i’m not sure i do understand the things i like/dislike, not completely, anyway. but i like asking myself why? i like pointing things out that make me happy or frustrated me. tho i wouldn’t really call it analysis or eloquent. but the experience, the discussion/reflection, that’s always interesting. to hash it out in discussions, and still not agree with the other person. not particularly good at the response in discussions, tho i mull for ages, sometimes.

idk, i got annoyed being told this. maybe, angry, tbh. i find it a pretentious response in all honesty. maybe that’s how he thinks, tho. to like is to understand a thing, to dislike is to not understand it.

i don’t think that’s how i enjoy things at all tho. just as pointing out the flaws/things i disliked/didn’t work for me doesn’t mean i hated the thing overall (e.g. saying 9 positive things but 1 negative thing). i just… idk.

liking something is… intrigue, or instinctive, or the experience. like the desire to understand it, that i can probably agree with! but to actually understand it? in whatever way that means (to you? to the author’s intent?). idk???