#the idea is im turning it into a Discord RP cause I dont like doing stuff alone

[pillz-c0mics]

Its been 300 years. Has it not? Thought I was dead? Well I was, until a certain @tincanjones dug this still beating project from under my floorboards, and drew a couple o' lovely pieces of Malik!

[cowedeakamatsu]

Ahem Ahem. Welcome everyone to yet another cowede peptalk about themselves cos... lets face it i have an issue. (part 2)

so i should be happy right ? to restart with X. NOPE because here its actively them who say "no its not good i dont want to play that anymore because i dont feel like it" and so you must come out with a "new idea" that is checklisting aaaaaaaaaall their kinks. I try to push out a bit of what i liked i first to them, like the creative way of talking, the lewd overexagerated dirt talk. the teasing at least a bit since i know they can do it. But nope, nope nope nope. i get a bit of that, but must play characters that instant get corrupted and either harem or "1 girl then a bunch" and guess what EACH TIME they get bored about it 3 actions in, dont respond for weeks (and guilt trip me if i try to make them respond) and then they dont feel like it anymore because they have dimentia. but they KEEP pushing to get a rp. oh but cowede! you silly you, just do what you do best! flirt talk passively, send them lewd pics and ai works of your making, and just have a friendly conversation with them and try to be nice! NOPE (getting used to it?) because if I do that ? they complain that we dont rp and that they want to fuck characters. So since youre cowede, horny lil cowede, youre like "yeah you know what fuck yeah" because if you dont youre just not fun and not nice. and it starts over and over again. they passively manipulate you which you clearly see. but you dont care because you want to be the nice person and not hurt a person who has a mental illiness. a bit of a cut, but those close to me on the cowede side of my life know i havent.. have a good 2 last months. nothing horrible happened, outside of some health (chill, its not too problematic, just a skin disease crisis that got very annoying for a while and did left some marks but they are pretty discrete and its not really a issue anymore) and weird overwork periods. but basically ? ive just felt down for a long time. technically last year was the same, but here it felt even worse. I would get emotional over nothing, couldnt muster the strength to live up from bed sometime. and of course it showed on the cowede side too. I dont want to be a gloom person, especially on the cowede side, i want to be this cheerfull cheeky, kinda insane but overall good little presence that make other people happy, because i have a need for validation thats not met irl due to how much i dont really deliver to expectations, so i tried to mask it but did a very bad job (and i knew it, it was clearly a cry for help. I even did something like... a week or 2 ago had a bit of a breakdown upon waking up one day, i saw the great @carnyreborn was back and that my good friend "stupid name on discord" made them a funny ask joke, and wanted to do the same because at some point in the past i did talk quite a bit with carny, not really much after that cos their end their a busy popular person on the lewd side, and seem to manage correctly (congrats goat and if not, dont worry youll get them!) on the life side and on my end, well aside from ai lewds i dont have much to give so we kinda both stoped talking to each other. But anway theyre someone i respect tons, and whos probably the main reason while im here cos they inspired me. but my "aha funny ask" turned into a mental breakdown halfway through and i said... very worrying things about me cause I desesperately needed someone to acknowledge how i felt, but i worried them and i felt super bad for it.) but a bit after this moment I had a sort of... revival ? loosing my account surpringly help too and this week i finally felt some good ol actual real cowede libido and cheeky spirit back. and dare i say ? i'm happy ? i still have issues to settle here and there. but at least on the cowede side im doing fine and thats great. (part 3 comming)

[true-to-the-rp]

RP Request (Open)

(Update: 2024)

Hi, Im Satan, Im 24 years old. Im looking for an RP partner for Discord (but can be convinced to RP on Tumblr never done it before). This is also my side blog for RP search, and probably looks terrible dont mind it. I dont have a computer to fix it.

I have fandom RP Ideas right now, and only do Canon x Cannon. I like Original stuff, and have a few original ideas but I have been craving some Cannon/Cannon action. There are some AU ideas for some, and Headcannons for the characrers Im playing. I'm open to work on a different plot or ideas that you have in mind, Nothing I writen for the character section is Set and Stone! Dm me - lord_satan_ on discord or on tumblr messanger

If there is another pairing you wanna do instead of the ones listed just ask! Even if there from a different fandom! I might be willing to rp them.

Information

Im 25

He/Her/Them

EST Time Zone.

I like making playlists for the rp, sending art of the pairings (not my own, I only draw clothing) and when Im really in the mood yammer about stuff.

I have moments where I go silent, sorry about that. I sometimes just not in the mood to chat.

I have Autism, and sometimes suck at spelling.

I RP mainly on Discord but I can be convinced to RP on Tumblr if you are comfortable with it.

I write in 3rd person

Canon/Canon Pairing Only (M/M)

Semi lit to Lit, depending on the partner.

Rules

Be patient, I sometimes forget or get busy with life. If its been more then 24 hours please ping me again.

Be honest, if you arent enjoying the rp, or getting tired tell me.

No 1st person

No one liner, Im looking for Semi Lit.

No Minors, 18 plus Partner (I want 21+, but Im not gonna be picky). If You lied to me about your age, and I find out. Ill ban you.

Limits

Nothing with Eyes, Im down to clown withgore (cause I have two killers in this list)

Dont jump to sex please. I want build up.

No R*pe in the rp, the person can be sexually herrassed and it can be a thing that happened to the character in the past. But no R*pe in the rp.

Fandoms, Bold and coloured are character I can play!

Persona

Akechi Goro × Kurusu Akira

Akechi and Akira are from the same school/collage, and both are rivals. Enemies to friends to Lovers.

CoD | Call of Duty

Horangi x Kongi

Horangi has been a big fan of a ex porn star, unknown to him that star works right next to him and Kongi is clueless that he is big fan of Horangi music when he was an idol. (Based of a Fanfic I read)

Price x Graves

Graves didnt want to betray the group but he had to, for his young daughter. Group unaware of this, even Price someone he was having a romantic relationship with. (Am Open to other stuff turn to page Soup x Ghost (x roach?) for AU ideas if you don't wanna do this plot)

Soap x Ghost (x Roach?)

Monster AU, Camboy Au, Streamer AU, Flower shop/Tattoo Shop Au, Mermaid Au, or anything

South Park

Butters x Kenny

Theres a rumor that Choas has crated a formula that could give people superpowers. Making heads turn. Enemy to lovers.

Tweek x Craig

Collage AU. I dint have a detail plot idea, but open to discuss stuff for these two!

Evil Within

Sebastian x Ruben "Ruvik"

AU: Ruvik is a doctor at a hospital, he cares for his younger brother. Sebastian as a daughter who lways in and out of hospitals cause of her health. (AUs and Other stuff Welcomed if plot doesnt interest you)

Outlast

Eddie Gluskin x Waylon Park

I dont really have a plot idea for this one, open to suggestion and AUs!

You made it to the end, perfect. Hit me up with headcannons for the character you wanna play, Im so down to discuss Plot and Themes, also send ne your Triggers and No Nos.

[taxi-boi]

So i want to make a dream-smp-like roleplay server. And ive joined a few but theyve all had inactivity problems of some sort so im gonna talk about howthis is gonna work and be different than the ones that dont work.

1. Mostly Improv. Atleast to start out.

2. No ones the "villain" in any traditional sense

These two were the main reasons one of the servers fell apart. In dsmp everyone is morally grayy yayyyyyyy.

3. The server itself needs be on, or be able to be turned on, at any time. Whenever anyone wants to play.

I only know how to use aternos for server hosting and i know theres a way to do that. But it would require everyone to have an aternos acount and it also means anyone can change setting, up to completely reseting the worl which is prolly not good. So i may need help with an alternative.

4.more episodic then long steams are? Cause those are hard for viewing and most of our understanding of dream smp is from 'twitter, or tumblr, or whatever site, osmosis'

Making it episodic means viewers can, well view. Cause we aint getting no large fan base any time soon.

And even having a small fanbase will keep us motivated to continue rp

By episodic i mean just. You post edited videos on your youtube or whatever alternative site chanel.

Im not fully opposed to streams though. Just.. Yknow?

5. No mega farms or massive grinding.

The reason i said this is because on another server i got full diamond in 2 hours and full netherite in a few days (with only a little help) i felt too op. And it didnt feel very fun...

The nethers gonna be banned for the first couple days.

Same with the end but unlike dsmp im prolly gonna unban it..

(I dont think i can physically do anything to stop you guys from doing that kinda stuff but code of honor yknow?)

6. Everyone should have a vauge semblance of a character concept? We can work together to ecpand. Wemight also have a vauge story idea to start?

And 6.5. I dont want this to be fully off brand dsmp.. I dont want "d'womanborg vs greatest smp ever in the world but then boom boom boom" I just want to rp and hopefully not die alot cause im bad at pvp.

If anyones interested just ask i guess?

Add more suggestions maybe too.

Im gonna make a discord for this probably

Also note that i have every right to kick you out or not let you join.

As long as your not homophobic or a p*dophile or something along those lines you should be fine tho

Uh. Ok. Have a good day idk why u read this but okee

[ghostliied]

Alright, if you haven’t noticed

An update I guess. 

Also just a bit of venting to get stuff out. I honestly don’t care if you read all of it or what have you, but long story short....

I am putting Kimiko on selective hiatus until further notice. The details under the read more along with the rant if you wanna know. The important stuff is bolded and italicised 

Though tbh I’m surprised I’m still getting followers here whatever.

I’ve been trying really really hard not to bring her to this -- to abandon her and never come back. 

There are several muses that I’ve done that to. Just abandoned them. Hugh, Yuya... But all of which have been in the pokemon fandom. There is a reason for it I suppose. And it’s my personal opinion it has nothing to do with the fandom being quiet and dying/having low activity or whatever..

(honestly if you told me it was, I would politely ask you to stop talking because you really have no idea what it mean to have low activity on a ‘dying fandom.’ believe me I know what it is and the pokemon fandom is not that.)

So instead of just flat out leaving her, I’m just turning off dash notifs. I would never leave her entirely. I don’t think my RP partners deserve that. I have developed really intense and complex relationships with others. 

I will reply to threads. 

Current ones, new ones, what have you. I don’t really care. I will leave my im’s open. I still want to develop her but I may just become super private about it. if anything I will still notify those who I genuinely dont know how to continue the thread. but unless I have told you otherwise, if we have a thread and I owe a reply to you, know that I will be doing it. Dont know when, dont care if its old, I will. Just forgive me if it takes a while because motivation to even write her is very low.

Honestly if you guys want to talk about plotting or anything. You can send a message to me. Chances of my seeing an ask/im on here right away may be low though. You can send asks to @kuromakii (its a side blog and I will be able to see them but idk why IMs are closed here but it will be your best bet though to get a quick response) or if you dont like sending asks, you can send IMs to @pudoguli (my personal blog.)

I have asks here for mimi too. and people sometimes send asks from time to time (but not really tbh)

I will still answer all asks.

Now my reasons for doing this? well. I still hold my opinion that every fandom treats female muses like shit though. No I’m not doing this for others. I write for myself. But I still hold my opinion that I came to tumblr to interact with others. not to be ganging on doors and walls. Granted, have I made some pretty great friends here? yea. And that’s why I’m not 100% leaving. But at this point I am no longer wanting to approach people about the matter anymore. Whether it may be tumblr deleting my asks, or other just kind of dont want to interact/not in the mood/have their hands tied or whatever. I dont really care. I’m not here to force anybody into doing any interaction. But for somebody who has tried really really hard to be nice, send asks, make starters or whatever and then flat out unfollowed/blocked/etc for whatever is not only sad but it’s hurtful. Specially since all I do is put my heart out for others. 

No I’m not forcing anything on anybody. This isn’t about follower count or whatever. I am genuinely talking about me trying to talk to people and putting myself out there and genuinely getting nothing back and for whatever reason, I don’t really care or whatever, it’s fine. Again I’m not forcing anybody to do anything. I am very aware of mental health or whatever.

And I know, people have said that I come off as strong, or intimidating or whatever. and you know what. That hurts, but its whatever.

Its more than that though. I just don’t feel like I belong here. and really why would I want to put myself through more misery with that. I have my friends. I message them and whatnot. I don’t need anybody’s pity or support. 

People can just carry on with their lives. and that’s fine. really it is. I hold no hatred or spite. really. I promise I dont. Granted are there people that I have blacklisted? yes, but honestly at this point I can tell you that there are only 2 people that I avoid here. and I’m telling you all this cause of the dozens of people I have met and spoken with and of the hundreds or urls I have seen, only two are blacklisted and ONLY one has been blocked. 

But I would never ever reveal the names because it is not in my nature to name drop and send hate to them. It is only for my comfort. 

but I digress. Again, I’m just writing all of this to get it out of my system or whatever. I really wouldn’t want to make anybody feel bad for me or whatever. but yea.

I’m probably gonna leave out of most of the discord groups I’m in. I’ll keep mine up and open. my discord, however, IS NOT open to people. Unless I find that I want to share with you because you want to plot then sure but otherwise, I’m not sharing it. again you can send messages to the personal blogs if you want.

You can maybe find me @rexsilentium or @lunalxa if you want to try to interact with canon characters. but activities on them are also just as low as here. 

I’m sorry for those who actually do care about me. I promise I’m still here. just... not dashwatching. Again I’ll be responding to threads or whatever. PMs are open if you want. but otherwise. I’m probably not gonna be super helpful. 

And please, for those who do know me. I’m letting you all know. If you are struggling or something and need some help of cheering up, please do message me so I can try to help you.

Also another thing. I got a new job. not that anybody would care or anything but. it’s 4, 10 hour shifts. And its at night. meaning that I will most likely be sleeping when you peeps are on OR starting my shift. idk its whatever again but just another reason to just not be here.

Anyway. 

peace.

[cake-of-awesome]

kinda came to an obvious revelation yesterday?

yesterday i was at the department i work part time at, one of my coworkers had just gotten some photos back from a photoshoot they had last week and they were compiling them into a 3d program for their new VR project they were working on

throughout the process various other members on the team were hovering over the persons desk, talking about what was going on, and how things were turning out and just being genuinely excited for this development

one guy was literally like, “this is what i went to school for! i mean its totally different cause at school everyone’s students and trying to figure it out- but this! this is the real deal! this is the real professional stuff i wanted to see back then!”

and it made me realize this is how theyre able to put in 12 hours even when it sucks. these people like what they do. sure they might not like the entire process of having to remake their work 6 times a day or having to go to meetings with people who have no idea what they want but theres a genuine enjoyment in the process of creating.

and i myself have no idea if i do or not.

im still having trouble enjoying things. im getting better at identifying things i dont like i think. but its still hard to motivate myself to sit down and do the things i remember liking.

im trying to be active in roleplays but im at the point now where i have to force myself to reply which sucks cause i have so little time to do that.i guess i should just drop them but part of my clings to the hope ill fine enjoyment once things pick up. most of my rps are in discord now and theyre all so slow compared to live rps from chatroom days.

same goes for drawing. most days i just force myself to work on my comics, if im lucky. yesterday i got depressed cause i drew so little compared to past years, which is dumb since ive drawn less because i work fulltime and now im a mentor for highschools students so OF COURSE id have less time to produce finished stuff but still...

i do enjoy hanging out with the circle of friends i’ve made. though half the time all we do is drink and complain about work. and game, i guess thats a positive. its a lot easier to play games when you have others to play with ive noticed. im not sure if thats the secret ingredient to everything else i used to enjoy but it might be a secret to something.

some rps arent as fun since it isnt live, theres not that OOC talk to laugh at the bullshit in same time

i dont draw anything other than my comics because i havent had that loop of feedback like when i was in art school or in past rp groups, i probably would have given up on this webcomic long ago if it wasnt for the fact i was in an oct and theres so many wonderfully talented individuals to keep my motivated to continue it

and maybe part of the reason im iffy about my enjoyment of work is because im still pretty frigid with the team after that whole logo episode. (which turns out they werent laughing at me but the person i was working under)

the people there are nice, so i guess i should relax and try to warm up to them more? or wait? i dont know. i just know im tired.