#the hydrangeas tho were a gift from my mom

[guinevereslancelot]

sitting in a blooming garden would fix me

[deli-counter]

Do the evens or the odds or bof.......

im doin the odds papa!!!  thankie!!! (you know the word bof gets me)Is a kiss considered cheating?

Is a kiss considered cheating? Yeah girl If you could have one superpower, what would it be? shapeshifting Tell us some funny drunk story. Never been drunk baby!! One time I got floaty because I drank like three gulps of a mike’s hard lemonade by accident and I immediately started looking up spring onion salad dressing recipes If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? poison that acts instantly or dying in my sleep Do you like someone? no sadly not anymore :/Do you like your body? not really…I like parts of it If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say? pay 4 my tuition and let me transfer anywhere I want If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, what would it be? sandwiches Something you don’t mind spending all your money on? I freak out pending money on anything so idk When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful? genuinely dunno? maybe like a friend did a few weeks ago?Do you keep a journal? yeah but I need to write a lot more often Is farting in front of people irrelevant? what the fuck Are grades in school important? yeah until college then it’s like…just power thru I’m a theatre major. But I’ve always cared a lot about grades What was the last book/movie that really impressed you? dunkirk was p goodDumbest lie you ever told? my dad is alec baldwin and the dude believed it Something you did and you are proud of? playing wendla in spring awakening for a lot of reasons Something you are good at? cooking How are you feeling right now? blah What do you need to be happy? who fucking knows ! !What was the last gift you received? my mom got me some sweet lil soaps when she went on a girls’ trip to the beach!! What was the last concert you went to? I’ve only ever been to one concert and it was the american idol concert the season Carrie Underwood won. I didn’t even want to go Who inspires you? My sister How old were you when you first got high? never been high When was your first kiss? I was a sophomore, 16 years old, on Valentine’s day lol I had my first date ever then Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done? got involved with anyone I have been involved with romantically Who are you most comfortable around? my immediate family What kind of books do you read? anything? a lot of creative nonfiction or fiction or fantasy or murdery stuff but probably mostly classic literature What is your favourite flower? belladonnas, japanese cherry blossoms, lilacs, or hydrangeas. OOOH AND CREPE MYRTLE!!!!What kind of people are you attracted to? tall professors, asian fathers, designers with turtle shell glasses, any of these kind of types Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgusts you? Cottage cheese, tinned tuna, olives, and hard boiled eggs. Something you find romantic? Gentlemanly gestures that are probably old fashioned but have gone out of style and should just be common knowledge? Like flowers or something small, when men ASK to kiss you, dressing up when seeing each other, i like that thoughtful shit!!What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex? not doing this baby I’m not gonna overgeneralize What are you saving money for? my student loans and Europe Are you actually a good person? Why? I think so but I’ve done shitty stuff and I have flaws but over all I think I’m a good person (cue Heathers opening monologue)Have you ever done anything illegal? nope not that I know of Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally? yeah sadly Have you ever cheated on someone? no what the fuck !! I’ve been cheated on thoIs there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it! @rossgellerfanclub @circa-1987 @kayleefabulousFavourite TV series? 30 Rock always but I am SO into iZombie rn What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why? honestly dunno, I mostly read script now How long have you been on Tumblr? maybe 6 years? ew McDonalds or Subway? McDonalds, Subway is pure garbaggio! I have 100 reason why and am very passionate about this Alcohol or drugs? Neither tbh Meaning behind your blog name? I do theatre and I’m pretentious Last time you were insulted? Yesterday lol Perfect date idea? fun restaurant! museum! dessert! What colour are the walls in your room? the pantone shade of green that is color of the year. I called this shit 8 years ago Share your favourite quote. “in that ignorance I had knitted a new sweater, and she was something spectacular.” or “from my rotting body, flowers shall grow and I am in them and that is eternity.” Do you like horror movies? Yes and no, I’m picky and  ridden with fear and anxiety but I’m fascinated with horror culture and usually do like to be scared 

Do you feel lucky or special in a way? idk, not lucky 

[caffeinelemur]

Do all the flowery questions~ :D

u bish jk i love u

DAISY: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

still havent

CARNATION: If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

Evanescence or Taylor Swift

JASMINE: What color looks best on you?

Purple, green, and blue

FOXGLOVE: Name three facts about your family?

very smart, very weird, very close

ALLIUM: What’s the best thing you can cook?

muffins!

ORANGE BLOSSOM: If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?

i dont want kids

CALLA LILY: If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?

i want a wake where everyone is drunk and happy and Caramelldansen is playing in the background

POINSETTIA: Favorite holiday dish?

cherry winks!

OXLIP: Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?

im in a lot of ld friendships and i have almost sold myself on the streets for money to travel so its something I’d do willingly for love but is best if we’re together

PRIMROSE: Favorite kind of soup?

i dont like soup

DAFFODIL: What’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever received?

im happy just to get gifts tbqh im glad someone cared enough to do anything for me thats thoughtful enough

ROSE: Are you currently in love with someone?

@crazycookiemaniac, @baratiepromise, @thisfairytalegonebad, @pingo1387, and u @orangelies, in particular~

AMSONIA: Would you ever become a vegan?

i eat too little as it is, i cant limit myself any more i’d die, but if i could find an easier way to gain weight and still not eat animals i would

PEONY: What’s your favorite hot beverage?

chai tea latte or spiced apple cider

TULIP: For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?

strawberries and poundcake

MYRTLE: Do you like going on airplanes?

never been on one

HIBISCUS: Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?

I love music so i have played many instruments, i own an acoustic guitar, a keyboard, a xylophone, a recorder, an electronic drum set, a pan pipe, a Cherokee-made wooden flute, a Cherokee-made drum, an English pendant ocarina, claves, a triangle, a small lap harp, a pellet drum, a tambourine, zills (finger cymbals), a Chinese woodblock, a rainstick, and a wooden agogo.

ZINNIA: Who was your best friend when you were six years old?

my mom

POPPY: What color was your childhood home?

…brick?? so..red i guess??

HYDRANGEA: Starbucks order?

Cold: Strawberries and Cream Frappuchino (no whip) or Iced Chai Tea Latte; Hot: Chai Tea Latte

VIOLET: Do you like where you’re from?

NO

LOCUST: What was your favorite book as a child?

Winnie the Pooh by A.A. Milne or The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe by C.S. Lewis

RHODODENDRON: What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?

when i was living in the apartment there was a lot of crime nearby and i had two separate nightmares where someone broke into my apartment, killed Boob (my puppy/child), and either killed or raped me. I’m glad I moved.

QUEEN ANNE’S LACE: Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?

wrapping presents is fun for me bc i go crazy artistic but everyone hates my wrapping bc i overdo the tape

MAGNOLIA: Favorite kind of candy?

Reeses Cups, Twizzlers, Mr. Goodbar, Strawberry Pocky, those little hard strawberry candies

ASTER: Would you rather be cold or hot?

im usually hot tbqh so im used to that. i absolutely HATE being cold tho

MARIGOLD: Do you listen to what’s on the radio?

depends on the station. Usually i do tho, i love music

HELICONIA: Do you like when it rains?

light rain: sure, read a book, its relaxing; thunderstorm: Hell No

AZALEA: What’s a movie you cried while watching?

Most of them. But the one I Love, REWATCH, and still cry at is Moulin Rouge

DANDELION: Do you think you’re important?

not even remotely, i never leave my house and contribute nothing 

[rokurookajima]

i’m gonna do an olivia and answer all these questions just because

DAISY:  How old were you when you had your first kiss?

depends which one you wanna count as first. first technically, i was 15 but it was an accident. first intentional but not really desired i was 16. first good kiss was when i was 19

CARNATION:  If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

uh i really don’t ever go to concerts bc im pretty unexciting, but i’ll basic and say honestly lana del rey JASMINE:  What color looks best on you?

black, gray, and army green look good on everybody am i right FOXGLOVE:  Name three facts about your family? uhhh my dad was a theater major in college (this is a very weird and unexpected fact if u know my dad lmao), my mom wanted to be a cop in high school (this is also a very weird and unexpected fact if u know my mom), we’ve always been closer to family friends than my parents actual extended families so i have cool godparents instead of a cool aunt and uncle and god siblings instead of cousins  ALLIUM:  What’s the best thing you can cook?

i can definitely make eggs in various fashions  ORANGE BLOSSOM:  If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?

i don’t think so, but i also don’t rlly want children so i guess its not something that matters to me theoretically?? CALLA LILY:  If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?

annabeth will sing in the arms of the angels  POINSETTIA:  Favorite holiday dish?

dude all of it!!! i love thanksgiving food so much, all of it piled on one plate and u just bash on it all together it’s glorious   OXLIP:  Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?

i guess technically both of my relationships were long distance in some ways?? my first bf was a completely online relationship, and my recent ex boyfriend lived an hour away from me (which i didn’t rlly consider long distance bc i drive a lot anyway) but then lived in chicago the last couple months of our relationship for an internship. honestly i wouldn’t do another completely online relationship probably ever, and i wouldn’t want to have another person i date move out of state. but it was rlly no problem when he lived an hour away from me, like it was a little inconvenient but not bad, so i’d be ok with getting into another relationship like that PRIMROSE:  Favorite kind of soup?

i’m rlly not a big fan of soup??? but i like a good tomato bisque sometimes, like the really creamy kind DAFFODIL:  What’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever received?

hm im not rlly sure...i feel like i’ve received a lot of thoughtful presents, esp from friends. bc like my parents usually get me useful things or things i told them i wanted when they asked?? but friend gifts are usually a lot more personal? which is very cool. so wow this is a copout answer but i feel like all the gifts i’ve gotten from friends are the most thoughtful!! ROSE:  Are you currently in love with someone?

ha wow i wish being in love was the best feeling in the world. but no. and it’ll probably be a while before i am again AMSONIA:  Would you ever become a vegan?

i once had a dream where i told someone that i wanted to be a vegan just because i really love labels, and honestly that said so much about my personality  PEONY:  What’s your favorite hot beverage?

coffee is my blood. i also like hot chai lattes sometimes!

TULIP:  For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?

at my office, they get a dessert for everybody’s birthdays, and i usually ask for pumpkin pie, which is not cake but similar  MYRTLE:  Do you like going on airplanes?

yeah its pretty cool, i like going to airports more than i like going on planes tho i think. i always find those kind of transient places rlly cool, like airports, big highway gas stations, train platforms/subway stations HIBISCUS:  Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?

yeh i took guitar lessons for a rlly long time back in the day, and still play sometimes  ZINNIA:  Who was your best friend when you were six years old?

gabrielle!! and she hasn’t been able to get rid of me yet POPPY:  What color was your childhood home?

like the outside? idk about the apartment we lived in when i was first born, but the first place i remember was a blue townhouse we lived in for a year or two when i was like 3?? HYDRANGEA:  Starbucks order?

depends on the day bc unfortunately i get starbucks way too often bc there’s one in the library at school and thats what i live off of. most of the time i get iced coffee w soy milk. but man i get peppermint mochas whenever they’re offered bc wow those are so good the best seasonal drink VIOLET:  Do you like where you’re from?

yeah i really do. i like ohio a lot as a state, theres a lot of cool cities. the actual city i lived most of my life is a pretty shitty place and i’d never want to be stuck there for the rest of my life. but it wasn’t the worst place to grow up, it had some stuff in it, and its rlly convenient to get to a lot of bigger better cities in a reasonable drive. and theres some small charming things about that city, like the old money houses and places that i like out of nostalgia LOCUST:  What was your favorite book as a child?

i was one of those weird kids who was really obsessed with the warriors series....i loved those dang cats so dang much RHODODENDRON:  What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?

i’m not rlly sure..usually when i have scary dreams, they just have a really scary feeling, but not a distinguishable scary reason or plot i guess? like the most terrified i’ve ever felt in a dream was literally like a five second flash of a man standing in front of a fire, licking blood off of his hands, and laughing maniacally?? like i couldn’t tell you why that was so terrifying or what it meant but it was the most fear i’ve ever felt in a dream. i think i was 12??  QUEEN ANNE’S LACE:  Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?

wow i haven’t carved a pumpkin in so long, so i think that!! MAGNOLIA:  Favorite kind of candy?

i don’t rlly like candy all that much, im much more of a salty person than sweet. but i guess i prefer sour candy to anything else  ASTER:  Would you rather be cold or hot?

cold, cold is always better than being miserably hot wowie MARIGOLD:  Do you listen to what’s on the radio?

nah i plug my phone into an aux chord and listen to my own music library  HELICONIA:  Do you like when it rains?

i love it!!! rainy weather is my favorite. esp like...rainy days in between when its actually raining? like its rlly wet and gray, but the rains taking a break so you can actually go outside. i love that shit  AZALEA:  What’s a movie you cried while watching?

um wow i’ve definitely cried watching a lot of movies but i think the last time a movie like rlly fucked me up and made me cry way too much was inside out.....and tbh idk if i’ll ever watch that movie again its too real DANDELION:  Do you think you’re important?

thats......such a question. like i know its a bad answer but not really. i know i should, but i don’t see a reason to so :/

[tempestuous-cosplay]

Flower Asks

Alisons: Sexuality?

Demi-romantic poly-pansexual.

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

They Them non-binary 

Amaryllis: Birthday?

July 20!!!!! Gunna be 25

Anemone: Favorite flower?

Can’t choose. But its something blue, purple, or red. I really like Hydrangeas and Narcissus flowers.  

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

Brooklyn 99, Avatar the Last Airbender, MeatEater

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

Depends on whats needed. 

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

ah, man, i don’t fuckin know. Probably the line “Change IS nature, dad, the part we can influence. And it all starts when we decide.” from ratatouille 

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

Water, milk, then sprite. Unless we talkin booze, tequilla.

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ABSOLUTELY 

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

Yup. Would love to have that again one day, but not now. 

Baneberries: Favorite song?

Under My Skin by Jukebox the Ghost at the moment, but consistantly its Pierre by Rynn Weaver. 

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

Better than some but has its issues. 

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

I have 5 closest friends whom i LOVE and talk to with any regularity. 

Begonia: Favorite color?

PURPLE

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

DRAGON

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

I like being awake in the morning bc then it feels like i have so much time to do stuff, but my sleep schedule always shifts to being a night owl.

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

a Kite or a hawk for all that fancy flying.

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

A veterinarian, a puppeteer, or the next david attenborough. 

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

I eventually want ONE, just one, of my own when I’m living with a community who will help me raise them. But really, i think too many people are having children who just should not be parents. 

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

Being in love again bc the last times its happened I got traumatized.

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

I always used to say i would never get tattoos and now i have one and plans for more. Ain’t gunna stop till im covered.

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  

I would travel up to my friend @b-oredzoi and spent the day with her. She ain’t got a choice. 

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

Single but with some FWB situations goin on.

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

anywhere outside continental US. Im not picky. Top choices Kyoto Japan, the french countryside, p much anywhere in africa.

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

when im tripping on acid or when my friends are hugging me real tight. 

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?  

YEAH, got one on my thigh. 

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  

YUP, lobes and one cartilage 

California Poppy: Height?  

5′4 and hating every second of it. Wish i was taller. 

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

100%

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  

skill boxers stolen from an ex-friend and a shirt that im not 100% sure is mine??? but I’ve had it for a year and wear it all the time soooooooooooo. Mine now

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

I used to sleep with the closet light on until i was, like..... 14? 15?

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  

myyyyy mom prolly.

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

my pal Eli

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

something swoopy and pretty. Or the one thats just emojis. 

Columbine: Are you tired?

always

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

getting top surgery and corona being over. 

Coneflower: Dream job?

philanthropist actor/ director. 

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

ambivert. 

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

We did this with balsom fir. anyway, yes i have been!!

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

depending on who they are, as far as they needed me to. I don’t THINK i would kill anyone, but there are a few people i would willingly die for. 

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

A green and purple dragon named Puff, who i still have. He’s always either in my bed or on a shelf in my room. 

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Cancer

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

Didn’t die. Helped stop my grans house from burning down. 

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

so far its getting my associates degree. Either that or dragging myself out of a horrible depressive, self destructive spiral in 2018-2019, getting the help i needed, and doing better for myself and those around me.

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?  

figure out why and wither resolve it or dump the partner.

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

my dad prolly. 

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

Crafty stuff. and animal trivia. 

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

organizing anything, remembering dates, statistics. 

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

Got okayed for top surgery

got surprise money!

Got a sentimental piece of art from my grandparents (at long last.)

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

p solid. Helped my dad with some yard stuff, made a yummy dinner, saw most of the supplies i need for a new project shipped. 

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

mmmmmmm not really, but im getting there.

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

Graduate, move out, get a good, fulfilling job. Travel some more. 

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

The friends who stuck around

my plushie collection

my tarot collection

my print collections from cons

finally having a queen sized bed

books

my pets (wow, almost forgot about them)

my fursuit making skills

my hair

my gently rising self esteem 

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?  

petting soft things, reading, watching Ghibli movies. 

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

all them love languages bro. Every single one. I tailor my affection to the individual and what love language they receive most.   Mostly, I cook for people.

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

We’ve done this one too!

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

Its a nice balmy 72 degrees with a nice breeze. The sun is shinning with some clouds here and there. I go to the zoo with some friends/ a friend and we just share random facts about our favorite animals. we get some cute plushies at the gift shop and then go to a wonderful meal, either greek or korean bbq or Pho and we go back to someones house to watch movies and vibe, sleepy, warm, and content. 

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?

read, craft, organize my room, draw, garden, swim.  

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

I dont have a singular “Best friend”. I do have my Inner circle tho!

Laura- we met my freshman year of collage, first day and we click INSTANTLY. She’s my soulmate and I would go to hell and back for her (RIP to Orphius, but im different)

Bly- we met, like, back in 2014/2015 at house parties but didn’t really start getting SUPER close like we are now until, like, 2017/18/19 ish. Really the only person I actively talk to every single day, my mood twin. We share a braincell. 

Syd- we met at, like, Momocon 2014? 2015?? something like that???? bc we roomed together. We started getting close in 2016 by bonding over fursuit stuff. My go to roadtrip partner. I kinda owe my current joy for life to her bc she helped me through my hell time in 2018 but kicking my ass and teaching me how to make fursuits. 

Eli- we met at Dragon-Con through a mutual friend in 2014, but didn’t really get close until may of 2019. Now we’re p much partners in everything but title bc we just don’t have romantic feelings for eachother. We share a therapist and hang out at least 3 times a month.

Shane: We’ve been friends since, like, 2010 but started getting close in 2017 when they helped me get a job. Then we just,,, stuck around. They kick my ass to get out of the house and do stuff, or did before corona 

Sammi : Friends since 2010 when we were in highschool together. Our friendship was super rocky until we were in different schools and smoothed out as we aged and matured. They are the reason i got into conventions  and cosplay as a whole, so they have only themselves to blame for how I am now. 

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

Eli and laura. 

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

my inner circle is, like, 6 people, but friends as a whole like.... idk.... 20?

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

“Your gender vibe, is, like, primordial. Its a perfect blend of masculine, feminin and things that are just indescribable.”

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

I hate myself, to be perfectly honest. But Im trying my best to be a good person and a good friend, so I don’t have to like me, as long as the people who matter do. 

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

I love my hair. Also how much better at communication i’ve gotten. 

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? 

my adhd and the social symptoms of that.  

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

i liked swinging and listening to the sounds of shoes on carpet. Good stim time.

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

I never really had a best friend for more than 2 years. They would always move away, So i don’t really have a solid “best friend as a kid.” Why yes, I do have abandonment issues. 

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

How my last relationship ended. I pulled some STUUUUUUUPID shit and never got to own up to it or hold the other person accountable for the harm they did to me. It was just overall horrible and never got any type of closure. Likely never will. But it be that way sometimes. 

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?  

My grandfather died last week and i feel........ almost nothing bc I honestly really did not like the man. He was horrible to me growing up and horrible to my mother while my grandmother was sick and dying. But he did a number of good things too. But I feel guilty for not mourning him more. 

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

I chose Sawyer bc when I was younger, I was very good at wriggling my way out of work and my mom and aunts would call me “Tom Sawyer”. I also just like Mark Twain and the name Sawyer in general. Feels good

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

In the suberbs of atlanta in a nice house on the Chattahoochee river. I’m actually still living there while I finish school. 

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

Rosey wall paper and gross maroon carpet until 7th grade, when we painted it all blue and put in blue carpet. It was, and is, very VERY blue. Im gunna be painting 2 walls different colors soon.

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  

Miserable, tbh. A lot of shit happened when i was 16 that left me with a lot of trauma and issues that I didn’t really have the maturity or energy to deal with while in highschool on top of being queer and dealing with that. So it was a lot of fighting with parents, self loathing, and struggling in school. It had its beautiful wonderful moments that I love with all my heart, but for the most part it was just kinda rough. 

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

Georgia born and raised. She tries her best and is a wonderful mother, but we clashed a lot growing up bc she’s fairly neurotic and likes everything to be precise and orderly and perfect and im... ADHD so sometimes close enough is all you’re going to get. Growing up, i couldn’t communicate what was going on with me or happening in my head very well at all, and it caused a lot of tension. 

Onions: Tell about your dad.  

Hes from Bogota colombia and im almost a carbon copy of him. That means our issues with ADHD have a happen of blowing up at eachother. He’s horrible and constructive communication, but overall is sweet and funny and very very clever. My relationships with both of them are p okay nowadays with a few spats here and there that I will deal with when I don’t live with them anymore. 

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

I never met my paternal grandparents. My maternal grandfather died when I was 6 and i hardly remember him.

My maternal step grandfather was.... not a good man but he was interesting and incredibly smart and fairly liberal. So there was that at least. But, to be honest, I hated the guy.

My maternal grandmother was one of my favorite humans in the world. She spent her whole life a highschool science teacher. She was funny, witty, elegant, a fairly talented cook who always encouraged me in everything I tried. Im still dealing with some emotional stuff regarding her passing, but Im just always so glad i got to spend as much time with her as I did. 

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

haha shit. Maybe my 21? A bunch of friends and i went and hung out at a park then got hammered at my house after. 

Peony: What was your first job?

Working at the summer camp i went to as a kid. Debating going back if I ever can. 

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

I want my future partner to be a friend where things just, grew and blossomed. 

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

Emotional? I try to be constructive and communicative about who or what caused it and doing something productive to help deal with it.

Physical, i just ignore it until it goes away. 

Pink: Where is home?

Wherever Im going to sleep that night. 

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?

When my ex broke up with me, I would have cut all ties all together instead of try the whole “we can stay friends” bullshit. I would have just “I don’t hate you, but If we aren’t going to be together, I can’t be friends with you until I’ve had some time to heal.”

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

nope

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

I’ve made my fortune and when I say things people listen, but I can also run away to my beautiful little homestead with my queer friends and wife and all our animals and children living together in a wonder queer commune. I get to travel twice a year and i never have to worry about money. 

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

hmmmm. No idea.

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

can’t pick one person.

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

wind chimes probably.

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

oh man, too many to choose. I’ve lived a wonderful life so far. 

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

Too many to choose. THe night I got dumped, my grandmothers funeral, my friends funeral, some others that I don’t wanna talk about due to triggers. bleah

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  

I want..... soup dumplings. 

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

Depends. really intense or personal feelings involving my depression or emotions is almost impossible to talk about. But my feeligns about films and stuff i have 0 issues talking about. 

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

Laura

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

idk, like 7 hours?

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

School

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

im.... technically self employed/ unemployed. I want a job tho. 

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

My killstar hoodie. 

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  

Disaster gay.

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

A tarot deck

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

Corona virus. and money. 

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

The entire Heros Of Olymus series The lightning thief and Sea of monsters The trials of Apollo The last unicorn.

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

ideally living with friends and one year away from graduation.

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

*sweats* yea

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

im a witch

[dazzling-ji]

flower~ asks

DAISY: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

honestly, i don’t really remember. wat a way to start a ask session lol

CARNATION: If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

i mean...i really wanted to go see gallant play live, but then... honestly, maybe kehlani just to get the live experience of her newest album.

JASMINE: What color looks best on you?

black lol. i look good in other colors i guess, i just always feel the most confident in black. all white is bomb, but folks, a girl is much too messy to be wearing white.

FOXGLOVE: Name three facts about your family?

complicated? funny. nigerian.

ALLIUM: What’s the best thing you can cook?

it’s between my egg bagel sandwich and my chicken + potatoes dinner. granted, i haven’t experimented much since i still grocery shop on my college budget, but best believe i love those dishes.

ORANGE BLOSSOM: If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?

i wouldn’t 1. because i don’t want kids (lol) and 2. refer to #1. theoretically though, i don’t really mind what gender kids are, since i mean it doesn’t really matter? what matters is allowing someone to be authentically themselves. one gender isn’t inherently better than the others, we just socialize the genders differently.

CALLA LILY: If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?

i’m gonna pretend you asked me what song i’m currently listened to, because i’m much more comfortable answering that: “blessed” - daniel caesar

POINSETTIA: Favorite holiday dish?

pepper soup. if it’s not spicy, you didn’t make it right.

OXLIP: Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?

i would. as long as the person actually makes time to communicate with me. distance isn’t a problem as long as you’re not distant.

PRIMROSE: Favorite kind of soup?

lol can i say pepper soup again? i’m really not a fan of western soups.

DAFFODIL: What’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever received?

i honestly really love the picture the tiny handed one drew for me a few years back. but i also really love the heated blanket shay gave me. thoughtful gifts to me are when someone shows they were really listening to me discuss my concerns. (that being said, friendos who know me irl, i want music instruments winkwink nudge nudge)

ROSE: Are you currently in love with someone?

i’m not. but i am grieving a past love, i guess... was that too much to say?

AMSONIA: Would you ever become a vegan?

no i love meat way too much tbh. sorry not sorry.

PEONY: What’s your favorite hot beverage?

hot chocolate, preferably from dunkin donuts.

TULIP: For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?

maybe marble?

MYRTLE: Do you like going on airplanes?

sorta? it has the insinuation i have enough money to afford a flight. but i do not like dealing with ears popping.

HIBISCUS: Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?

i quit flute after like 3 months back in elementary school. but i’m trying to learn the piano and guitar rn. 

ZINNIA: Who was your best friend when you were six years old?

when i was six? maybe star? (not her real name)

POPPY: What color was your childhood home?

don’t remember. i barely remember the house tbh.

HYDRANGEA: Starbucks order?

chocolate croissant (warmed) and a strawberry referesher (small)

VIOLET: Do you like where you’re from?

lol no. because it’s boring. but it’s always nice to come home and not be on edge all the time.

LOCUST: What was your favorite book as a child?

anything from the sisters grimm series.

RHODODENDRON: What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?

maybe the one where my mom got mad at my for going to the downstairs bathroom?

QUEEN ANNE’S LACE: Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?

i’ve never carved pumpkins before, but i’ll go for wrap presents.

MAGNOLIA: Favorite kind of candy?

butterscotch is my favorite candy. but i also really like sour skittles.

ASTER: Would you rather be cold or hot?

i’d rather be chillin on the beach lol. idk man, i hate both. i hate sweating and i hate freezing. i wanna be somewhere where the sun is pouring out the window and there’s a nice breeze coming from outside.

MARIGOLD: Do you listen to what’s on the radio?

no because i don’t drive. and even when i do, i’m listening to a podcast or some music on youtube.

HELICONIA: Do you like when it rains?

i do when i’m inside and don’t have to go outside lol.

AZALEA: What’s a movie you cried while watching?

don’t think i’ve ever cried while watching a movie.... i promise you ‘sad’ films aren’t sad. tho, when peter parker/tom holland was all “i don’t feel so good”, just know your girl was yellin in that theater. what i didn’t need was him adlibbing that well.

DANDELION: Do you think you’re important?

i like dandelions. they’re very aesthetic.