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lesbianherald · 9 hours ago

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Congrats on having the most Kudosed JayVik fanfic on AO3 as of this writing.

you can't be serious oh my god

...i saw this in my inbox last night and promptly stared blankly at the wall for a good five minutes lmaoo.

so fucking floored/honored/touched etc. etc. i really really cannot emphasize how unfathomable that is to me.

of course, there are so many other fics that deserve that spot and it feels almost weird holding it considering what's out there. coming home has the advantage of being very long and being released at the exact right time with many chapters. not dismissing myself again don't yell at me. just saying there's a lot that comes into play, you know? 😭

i dont know i dont know. i'm feeling a lot of good things but I'm bad at being online and talking about this stuff !! I DONT KNOW!! just thank you thank you thank you <3

wild times. whatthe fuck?

here are some images.

#ask bee #i struggle with toying a fine line between this being very exciting and also floundering under any sort of attention #and also feeling like if i post about it its very idk. look at me look at me! in a way that i hate #but if i dont post about it im kind of an asshole too #the hating attention theing doesn't take away from the gratitude portion of it #thats my fault not yours SDFLKJDh #anyways #the fuck #i just hope people dont idk #think i see myself as inherently better because i got some numbers online you know #im floored flattered etc #but writing fic is supposed to be a commuinty circle you know #sometimes i fear this kind of stuff puts a strain on things #ok im going to stop talking now #thank god tumblr found this out first hopefully twitter never notices so i dont have to navigate those waters #dont tell them guys

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