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[jossambird]

hello queen! genuine question with no shade at all: why did it take 5 months for you to finish the rooted chapter? was it because you lost interest or

Hello Anon! Its no worry at all, thats an amazing question!

Id love to simply say it was because life had me busy and such but that would be a lie. It was a mix of life/stress and Imposter Syndrome caused by hate anons I received.

As much as Id like to say that the Ghost community is full of love and acceptance, there are also people like these that reach out to me:

(Names of the Ghost writers this anon wrote are blacked out for their privacy because they dont deserve to have their names be used to hurt me)

Why? No goddamn clue. I generally keep to myself and my mutuals, as Im shy. I suspect its because of a post a made a week or so ago after a dear friend of mine deleted her tumblr due to Imposter Syndrome, OR because of my Hanahaki Ghost fic, Rooted in your love.

Why it took 5+ months? Because of that type of anon. Imposter Syndrome really got me by the throat when I received that and I genuinely felt like my writing was garbage, and I still do, but that anon has been blocked.

I am still very much into the Papas, and I am still very much into Ghost. I just felt like I didnt have anything to offer anymore.

But please dont worry! Im working on feeling better and on kicking Imposter Syndrome to the curb like that cheating husband you no longer want! 😌

[watch-me-try-to-write]

Writing Masterpost

Hi! Welcome to my writing dedicated side blog. My main is @made-with-magic and that's definitely where I talk and rb stuff the most but I wanted to make something dedicated specifically to just my writing, which is mostly fan fiction posted on ao3. Right now I write for the Valorant, Spider-Man, and CODMW fandoms, but I will most certainly be branching out to other fandoms at some point bc I'm a multi-fandom mess.

Anyway here's all my work so far:

Valorant

Floating - Short angst one-shot, Established Cypher/Sova/Omen

Summary: Water was the vast ocean, an unknown. The ocean had always made Sova uncomfortable, not quite scared per se, but just left him with a sense of unease. To not know what was under the dark depths, no real way of fighting it if it decided to take you. He had known people who had died from walking on the wrong part of ice, just because the water underneath their feet decided to end them.

Published: 2022-07-11 Words: 2101 Chapters: 1/1

Its the Holiday Season (and everything that comes with it) - established Cypher/Sova/Omen fluff chapter, Cypher/Omen focused first kiss.

Summary: Apparently, the ‘no fraternization’ rule that most people usually softly ignored was even more disregarded during the holidays. Omen could see the couples forming across the room, caught up in the buzzing energy.

Even Brimstone, who was supposed to be the one enforcing the 'no fraternization' rule, was standing on Kay/o's bent arms like a ladder to hang mistletoe in one area of the room's ceiling. A mistletoe. They were a secret government shadow organization and there was a mistletoe in their common room. - - - AKA. my friend suggested i write "soft cyphmen (or cysomen) where omens never celebrated christmas before cause he had no one to celebrate it with but now he does and cypher goes all out to make it extra special for omen djfhjfjfhdjfhfjr

Published: 2022-08-24 Words: 5045 Chapters: 1/1

Policy 9.13: No Fratenization - Established Chamber/Breach, angst with an open/unfinished ending, written for a friend

Summary: Every agent in the Valorant protocol got hurt. It was part of the job. A bullet wound, a broken ankle from jumping off of something they shouldn't have, hell, even death wasn't that uncommon for the agents. They all had experienced many wounds and the pain that came with it, until Skye’s warm herbal-smelling patch-ups or the cool feeling of Sage’s healing or resurrection got rid of it, and they were good to go back into the field. Good to go back to risking their lives for the Protocol, good to go back to fighting gods.

Breach had been in his fair share of fights, seen his fair share of blood and injured teammates. He always got over it. They all had chosen this line of work, and knew what could happen at any moment in it.

So why did seeing Chamber covered in more blood than he had ever seen scare him so much?

Published: 2022-10-28 Words: 10162 Chapters: 1/?

Golden Eyed - short oneshot with romantic tension between Chamber/Breach, written for ChambreachWeek2022

Summary: Maybe the reason he hadn't noticed was because it was very subtle, at first glance or with the normal lighting Chamber's eyes just looked like they were a simple brown color. But up close, with the right shine, there was a gold hue. It fit the Frenchman's theme and personality perfectly; the man's eyes were a piercing and beautiful golden.

They stuck in Breach’s mind like someone had personally painted them in his head.

Published: 2022-12-10 Words: 1856 Chapters: 1/1

Call of Duty: Modern Warfare

I used to. - short angst with ghost and his family, based off a tiktok, kind of established Soap/Ghost but not really?

Summary: "Wow. Wasn't expecting you to be good with kids Ghost,” he said back, smiling at the man's awkwardness. He could be the best sniper in the world, but he was still just a human.

Ghost shrugged. “Yeah. Used to watch my little brother all the time and would watch my Nephew every time I went on leave,” he said a little offhandedly.

“You have a brother? And a nephew?” Soap asked, surprised over the fact Ghost had shared the fact evident in his tone.

“Yeah, I used to.” ------- aka short drabble inspired by a tiktok in which soap is surprised ghost is good with kid

Published: 2022-11-26 Words: 1480 Chapters: 1/1

MCU

'hey are u like, ok?' - ongoing multi-chapter Peter Parker angst fic, slow burn and I do mean slow, updates Mondays

Summary: His neck hairs stood on end as he quietly walked away, praying that his footsteps were not loud enough to be heard. It was raining even heavier now, but it didn't mask the prickling feeling of wrongness that overtook him. He wanted– no, needed to find Ben and May.

He suddenly felt very small. No longer the brave kid that had offered to go on his own, but a small, scared child wanting his parents.

As he continued walking slowly away, he caught sight of whom the mugging victim was, at the same time they– both of the victims– spoke. His heart plummeted to his stomach, seemingly taking all his blood with it as he suddenly became lightheaded, Peter thought he might pass out. --------- When on one summer day a random mugger killed both Uncle Ben and Aunt May, Peter is left to the will of the world. This story follows his struggles through the foster care system, getting superpowers, and his maybe eventual romance with the person he last expected.

(stats are at time of making this list, assume it has been updated since) Published: 2022-11-22 Updated: 2022-12-13 Words: 15951 Chapters: 4/?

[teashadephoenix]

11 Questions

I got tagged by @pomegranate-belle <3 I'm sorry this took for fucking ever?!!??

I’ll tag @lioness--hart @fox-in-the-library and @whitegodiva if you guys want to do it? And anybody else, obvi <3

1. How long have you been writing?

Actually sitting down to type stories out? Eight years old. I've been making shit up since I could talk. I have it on good authority I am entertaining to listen to.

2. What are the major themes of your current wip(s)? LONG ANSWER

omg I really dont know. I spent several hours over several days banging on this question in my head both in front of the computer and away from it only to come to the horrified realisation that I Don't Know. *gay panic*

I know the things I like to write about. I like to write about free exchange of culture, of mutual respect and fraternity with your fellow humans (which leads to themes of unity, unconditional love not only of people but of the world, and the gray area of what it means to protect those things without giving in to hate, indifference and intolerance. THE GRAY AREA IS WHERE I THRIVE.)

I like to write about intergenerational relationships (which leads to themes of obsolescence, changing of the guard, and how people, in general, not individuals, never really change. Like, there's For a Good Time graffiti on the walls at Pompeii. That is HILARIOUS.)

I write a lot about family, both born and found. (Everybody has a place and everybody is loved.) I write about mental illness and being queer (which all by itself leads to themes of not knowing your place in the world even if you have one. Frequently comes up against the previously mentioned theme)

So yeah. I don't know. My big WIP, the Aalee Rise series, is about a young woman on the cusp of adulthood going out into the world for the first time. It's her idealism vs reality. The other main characters in that cast are all foils re: various facets of societal structure and ideologies. One challenges her idea of government, another her idea of religion. She falls in love, her loyalties to her brother and parents are tested, she makes mistakes, she fights monsters and saves the world. A lot.

tldr; It's my sandbox and I just wanted to build castles in it. I don't really know if the castles will mean anything when I'm done. I hope they do.

3. What do you want people to take away from your story once they’ve read it?

My greatest ambition is that I could ever write a hero as beloved as the heroes I read about growing up, figures that reminds not to give up hope, to get back up when we're down, that the dark times ahead of us will come to pass.

At best, if I've done that, I'll be ecstatic and satisfied.

At worst, as long as you had a good time, if you didn't throw the book across the room in disgust, I'll take it.

4. Would you be excited if people write fanfiction about your wip(s)?

YAAAAS. I would literally never read it because Im terrified of accidentally absorbing someone's ideas and making them my own bc Christ alive that's a legal nightmare, but yes that would make my life.

And you can have my firstborn if you send me fanart.

5. What’s your go-to writing beverage?

Tea. Really strong and sweet. I make a fresh quart each morning and usually go through it by the end of day.

6. Who is your favorite oc? Tell me about them!

OMG ALL OF MY CHILDREN ARE PRECIOUS. (it's Aalee.)

Aalee Dering is the eighteen-year-old protagonist of my Aalee Rise series.  When we meet her in volume one (Worldwalk) she and her twin brother are setting off on their coming-of-age journey around the country. Her people, the Noruahai, have defended humanity for generations from unearthly creatures called asmic, and if she wants to become a licensed Marshal like her famous mother (and wow, she really, really does) she'll have to prove herself on her Worldwalk.

Aalee thinks with her heart first and always. She loves beautiful things, and all things are beautiful to her. She's quick to cry and struggles with anger, as well as distraction; she has trouble keeping focus. Good for getting into trouble. Not so good when it comes to being a responsible adult.

It would probably be easier if she wasn't of two minds on every single decision she has to make. She empathises with everyone, which can be paralysing-- how can she fight someone whose point of view she gets?

7. Do you feel that mistakes are important learning tools in the writing journey?

Mistakes are learning tools of life, darling. In writing they generally aren't the types that will destroy friendships, health, financial status, etc, which means they're generally easier to bounce back from. Unless you commit career suicide in some way...

8. Rank your ocs by their capability in a footchase (either running after or from smth, your choice)

1. Fall from the Aalee Rise series. He's a complicated human. Without getting into the context of the world he's from, he's hard to explain; but the short version is he's half-ghost so he can basically turn himself into the wind.

2. Rosie Frey from Color of the Stars but only when she's a lion. In her human form she's pretty normal.

3. Lynn Blythe (or any of the other vampires) from Echoes of Eden, because they're cheating cheaterfaces who use mystical vampy powers to be stronger and faster than humans

4. Sendmarshal Henley from the Aalee Rise series. Probably the fastest regular human. Imagine the most beautiful, tall, leggy black woman you can, all lean muscle and elegant grace, and now imagine her scooping you up and zipping out of danger with an easy smile on her face... *fans self* I stan.

5. When running headlong into danger to save someone? Aalee Dering. When running away? Frustratingly, satirically slow. She's one of those idiot heroes who stops to make sure everyone got away okay so Fall's always running back to grab her ("MOVE, IDIOT" "But that little old lady--" "FIRE-BREATHING MONSTERS. MOVE.")

9. Does your wip have romance? tell me about it!! if not tell me about a friendship/important relationship in your wip!! MORE LENGTHY BLAH

Relationships are the driving force of my writing. How one loves or is loved by other people, how they relate and engage with others, is how one grows, in real life and in fiction. There are a number of relationships in all my series that I'm fond of for various reasons. (For instance, even though she cannot STAND him, I'm eager af to write Eden and Lynn's relationship in Echoes of Eden because of how complicated it is.)

And as a rule all of my characters are queer or questioning unless otherwise stated, and I ship everybody with basically everybody else, and almost everybody has a love story in their history. (at least, their parents certainly do because I am a gross vile romantic and these fuckers came from somewhere.)

That having been said, for the sake of brevity I'll stick with Aalee Rise and limit myself to the Big Three: Aalee and her brother Elles, Aalee and her best friend Norah, and Aalee and Fall.

FAMILY: Aalee and Elles are twins. Born together and never separated, which stands out in a world where families are broken up by chaotic circumstances and random death on a regular basis. Aalee is easily distracted and has difficulty communicating her thoughts, so she tends to act on impulse; Elles is forever the cool head and the hand grabbing her by the back of the shirt to stop her from walking into danger. And after eighteen years of this... he's tired of it. He loves his sister, but he longs to see the world on his own terms, walk his own path. And Aalee doesn't share that sentiment. Not only doesn't share it, but is blown away when it comes into play. Her partner in crime wants to break away, and she does not take it very well. The first volume (Worldwalk) explores how their relationship suffers, grows, and changes due to this break.

FRIEND: Aalee's best friend of ten years is Norah. They met as little girls in a monster-ravaged town; Norah was entertaining the youngest orphans with a story and Aalee joined in. The pair of them spent a long night keeping civilians from panicking while Marshals battled asmic beyond the walls of the bunker. They exchanged addresses and became penpals over the next few years, since both of their parents travelled and they were rarely in the same place at the same time. That changed suddenly when Norah lost her father. Since then, Norah's family and Aalee's have lived in the same town. Norah is her warm hand in the dark, her shoulder to cry on, the first person she tells any good news. for Norah, Aalee is the only person (at the beginning of the story, anyway) with whom she can be her real whole self. They love each other no matter what.

ROMANCE: And then there's Fall. Aalee meets Fall when she rescues him from being murdered in a back alley-- except, oops, turns out it was a sting operation to catch the killer because he's not actually the helpless filthy vagabond she assumed he was; he's actually a powerful Marshal who was on assignment. Stuck together for various reasons, he becomes a mentor to her on her worldwalk, while she blatantly digs into the mystery of who he is, which turns out to complicate their lives, the lives of their friends and families, randos they happens across, their enemies, and also God's. To say they fall in love with each other is an understatement of cosmic proportions. They choose each other.

10. Do you believe in the advice kill your darlings?

Yeah but I take the advice as intended; which is not, as most assume, kill your fave characters, but to get rid of that which does not work, even if you love it. That pearlescent line of dialogue, or that golden bit of allegory? Doesn't matter how much you love it and how proud of it you are, if it does. not. work. it HAS. TO. GO. (save it in a new file to reread when you feel down and scrap that shit from the main file.)

that said re: killing characters, in my youth I was very much of the George RedRum Martin camp of "KILL THEM ALL" but as Ive gotten older my main focal point has been "What purpose does their death serve?" Death is not the only sacrifice worth writing. So while I am not afraid to kill my characters, I do take the nature of their deaths in the writing very seriously. There has to be a point.

11. Do you prefer plotting or worldbuilding? Why?

WORLDBUILDING MANYEXCLAMATIONPOINTSGOHERE! Plotting is like the maths of writing. It's measurement, it's brickwork, it's demolition when the wall you put up last week is three feet too long and now you have to scrap it and start over. Vital. But not my favorite part.

Worldbuilding is the art. It's the music your OCs hum and the stories that they treasure and the faith that holds them up when the crap you throw at them might tear them down. It's the story behind the jacket they wear and it's the reason they nod to the altar when they enter a place of worship and it's the meaning of their names. It's the magic. How the world works, the little details that make it real to the reader because it's real for your characters, is my favorite part of writing.