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bilaudad · 9 months ago

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idk if this is weird or if it will resonate with anyone else, but sometimes I feel kinda robbed having been raised protestant. like if I was going to have all this residual guilt and shame and end up atheist anyway could I at least have had beauty. stained glass or old-ass choral music or just anything at all to give a sense of majesty about Creation

#we were presbyterian #and an especially chilly and anemic version of presbyterianism at that #the church i grew up in specifically split from the national Presbyterian church #when the latter started officially allowing same sex marriage and ‘my’ church didn’t like that decision 🙃#we remained seated when we sang our ‘contemporary’ (read: produced in the 80s) worship music #loveless lifeless place on the whole #also the lack of saints and deemphasis of angels and the workings of heaven and the fantastical in general in protestantism like-#pretending at the sensibility and rationality of secularism doesn’t improve religion #it just kind of bleeds it of color or anything to sink one’s teeth into emotionally or imaginatively #I was such an emotional kid I wonder what my spiritual experience would have been #if there had been anything at all there for me to grab onto #random #text post #personal

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