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vulpinesaint · 2 years ago

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STOP cause who was gonna tell me that i was genuinely actually not well my whole teenage years. how did i end up consistently hanging out with the most mentally ill people on planet earth so that i thought i was normal in comparison. "idk i just feel like being hit by a car would fix me. not to die or anything just to feel the impact and get like a physical reset :)" BRACKEN YOU WERE NOT NORMAL

#constantly deluding myself going 'oh it wasn't that bad' forgetting that suicidal ideation is a thing that is actually not good #walking to school thinking 'well i'm not gonna kill myself but everything would be so easy if i was dead. like if i just didn't exist' BABE #<— said smth along those lines to my little sibling once thinking it was totally normal and they looked Horrified. had to play it off sjkgh #the car thing was a repeated theme all through junior year though 😭#tf when you feel so disjointed and detached from your body and your mind feels so fucked that you fantasize about being hit by a car #bc it feels like it would fix you. hello #anyway. those chemicals were definitely unbalanced sdkfghsd #hm. have never mentallyill-posted before because i did not think i was mentally ill. how do i tag properly #</3 #suicide tw #suicide cw #yeah??? idk. sorry anyone who sees this and did not want to #valentine notes

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