#the biggest catalyst for this is the idea that you have to have sex regularly in a relationship to make it work properly

[lizclipse]

i’ve been fairly confident that my gender is ‘woman’ for a while now, but my sexuality?? like i have leanings in vibes and basically no genital pref (tongue in or around idc) but like. how do i describe this. most people seem to have a character or bunch of characters that they are attracted to. i… really haven’t. like i’ve had ones where i’ve said are attractive because it’s kinda expected that you have a few but honestly? i’ve don’t really see a character and have that feeling of “oh god they’re hot!!” it’s always just a more plain “huh they do be attractive shaped”. sometimes more but quite rarely?

it’s sort of becoming more and more present to me since getting back on tumblr and seeing so many people gush about what they find hot or rp-ing or being generally sexual. the idea of being sexually charged with someone else is like. weird to me. like saying a bunch of sexy things and getting all hot and bothered is something that just doesn’t click in my brain, and is actually quite alien, especially if i’m not quite familiar with that person

idk where i’ve been going with this. i guess it’s just a vague hand waving that idk what the fuck to classify myself as anymore. i’m definitely not just straight/gay, bi/pan feel too strong, asexual feels not strong enough. i’m kinda at a point of just giving up

my sexuality is just ‘eh’ at the moment. and i think i’m fine with that