#the autism is winning. the asthma is winning. the allergies are winning. the hypermobility is winning. apparently its not just funny that | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

shrimp1y · 2 years ago

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Every moment that ggf doesnt blow up is a blessing I think. Like I'm like damn I wish for some virality! And less than a second later im like no that would be a terrible idea. This might sound like that fox who want the grapes but bc its outta reach he says its green but do remember my accounts are very hackable and I gptta do smth about that before the internet gets its grippers on me

#my passwords are dumb #i still use my first ever email #and like. the more I think about it the less i care about popularity. im not even on socmed #the only reason why i want virality is bc i want money. i wanna be rich. i want to move out and spend money on so fucking much therapy #i like going to the dentist #ill get all my weird symptoms checked out at the doctors #i want money. i want money!!!!!! i wanna buy houses for my besties #got distracted. anyway it sounds great but virality doesnt always equal to money thats the problem hence im like. ehhh.. nah #like. ill be happy to be viral in 5 years when my shits more together but rn im a weak frail shrimp im like a small victorian boy #ive been eating orzo in veggie broth #the internet will instantly kill me #im still gonna get my symptoms checked out at the doctors mind you. i am rich co #my parents are. and theyre in their guilty 50s stage where they look at me sadly and say shit like 'i dont remember that' when i tell them #they neglected me #so ill still get to go to my doctors. its just a matter of gettin there. but i reaaaaaally hate going out #growing up is learnin tjat no money or fame can fix u #the autism is winning. the asthma is winning. the allergies are winning. the hypermobility is winning. apparently its not just funny that #i cant hold up frying pans and choppin stuff hurts my wrist. its a runnin joke that im super weak but now im like. is this normal #my feet hurt all the time. is that normal. i get a desperate need to lie down after i do anything. 'i love being horizontal'#thats my irl catchphrase. and like. my nose are always clogged. i only recently started visiting the dentist bc they booked me in for #regular visits after comin to them to look at my wisdom tooth. and they say they can tell im a mouthbreather from my teeth #and im like girl what. i didnt know theres consequences to breathing through my mouth. and ive been thinking about the fact that im #congested 95% of the time and im like. maybeeeeee... thats not normal....... its been liek this for most of my life jsyk. is that why my #ears pop and ring all the time. apparently sinus problems can lead to ear problems. like i can sorta tell bc my nose gets completely blocked #and i gotta 'stretch' my jaw to relief the pressure on my ears every once in a while. but i thought that was just normal #i joke that im allergic to joy bc my asthma flares up when i laugh. which is kinda funny #i kinda have warmed up to like. the idea. of me bein disabled. bc im autistic and im regressing as i relearn how to actually do stuff in #a sustainable way. but man. i didnt consider my many bodily failures to be a part of it. but like with becoming more intuned with my body #and my fatigue..... its like yeah. not being able to breath is kinda tiring. i dont sleep very well either. maybe thats why i sleep so much #this is also why i shouldnt ever be known i talk too much

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