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jessmalia · 3 months ago

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I'm super visual when reading books and usually see the whole thing playing like a movie in my head, and when I first read the PJO books I had a very clear mental picture of Percy, but this time around it's much more blurry... cause Percy's kind of just faded into me in my mind.

#i think it's crucial that i first read these books the summer before my first big school related break down #the age when my goodkid.mp3 syndrome really caught up with me #cause it was really the start of me figuring that part of myself out #and that journey didn't really come into a full picture until 3 years later when i got my autism and adhd diagnosis #and didn't really end until this year when i finally learned to stop feeling guilty over when my neurodivergentsies became hard for people #to deal with #and i started getting mad at people for having a problem with them instead of apologetic for inconveniencing them #like... i don't think 14 year old me saw herself as particularly similar to percy but there was clearly a subconscious recognition there #that made me love the books so much #leave it to me to turn everything into a narrative but it really feels meant to be that i returned to these books this year #it's making the whole thing come full circle #mal rereads pjo #pjo #percy jackson #personal

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