#the abusive idiot and i might have spent christmas 2012 together??

[freebooter4ever]

Alone♾️🎻😔

lol i think this is supposed to be insulting me??? but thats a really cute way to write 4ever, and you probably didnt know this but i consider the infinity symbol to be lucky. im not as insane about it as sid but my birth year is 88 and my favorite book deals with a multiverse shaped like an infinity loop, and its a visual concept that ive been obsessed with drawing since i first read the book in middle school. i have an entire blog about it that i no longer update anymore @ayewardsbound. there is something comforting to me about imagining a world where different choices can spin off entire separate universes - and that certain magical beings can easily traverse between them.

this is absolutely my first time living alone - usually i have bunches of housemates so being alone for one or two days was never such a big deal. but yes i have spent christmas eve/day alone from 2011 on (except for grandpa's last christmas in 2017). i have never made much money - i have always flown back to see my grandparents twice a year every year during cheaper months. and i found out the friday i drove out of ohio a few weeks ago that my dad stopped considering me part of his family sometime in 2010. so yeah, im alone! but i still love christmas ^_^ as crazy as it makes me feel